02:41pm 14/02/2005
  i have the urge to update this for some reason...  
     
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07:59pm 11/05/2004
  Proceeded in Really pissing Pete off. Hmm.

Tummy hurts.. how i hate these fucking cramps. The headache is a bit better today. Wish someone would put me out of my misery... interpret that any way you want...

Yeah.. almost got killed by acar today. My own fault, i started daydreaming in the middle of a busy road. almost like my dream came true though lol.

Don't have much else to say. Psychology Teacher told me that shewould wrap her stick round my neck if i don't start revising lmao.

One last thing....



Tatsuya Fujiwara... He's soo fine *.* He plays Shuya in Battle Royale.. Yeah..very nice.. almost as nice as Gackt/Hyde IMO
 
     
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07:43pm 10/05/2004
  Well, i looked in a dream Encylcopaedia after college today, and it said that if you dreamof Death as a figure, with his Scythe, it means that you are coming towards the end of your physical Existence. No surprise there. Death in General means that a situation is coming to an end... Why did my dream have to be so specific -.-

Anyway,while i was there, i saw the most amazing spell book. i have to have it!! It has 5000 spells in it. I doubt there is any black magic in it though... I think i'm going to take up magicand stuff again. I miss it.

Oh yeah, while i remember, iaksed the book of answers if my friends hate me, and it told me "Figure out the obivous" LMAO. I already figured it...

Felt pretty suicidal earlier. Felt like going to the hospitaland asking them to commit me. Maybe not a good idea. Obviously i didn't do it. My mum would kill me. She always goes on about how suicide is evil and Selfish and stuff. But sometimes i just want to escape.

People piss me off... i mean.. wtf.. superficiality is a motherfucking bitch. What's the point. What's the damn point??!!

I'm in major fucking pain too. Had like bad pressure headache since Friday, and got real bad toothache.. and my mum said she'd pay for me to get it sorted, but i don't want her to. And i'mscared of needles!!! And i'll need an injection!!! and Bleah!!!

On the positive side of things, spoke to Josh and mike yesterday, and met Josh's friend Jenn. It was kewl. almost like old times ^^
 
     
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07:28pm 10/05/2004
  Kinda written weirdcos it's from when i described it to pete.

Well.. it's kinda blurry.. but it was real strange... like... Big brother (the programme, which i do not watch btw) but umm... Instead of being eliminated..the peoplewere killed.. but it was just weird.. cos.. it was in a big like building.. high rise.. and i went upstairs to the top with someone to find everyone else.. and they were outside.. on the roof they told us to stay away from the window.. but we didn't listen.. then some ghostly things pulled us through the window and we couldn't get back in again and we had to do things.. like dangerous stuff like.. one guy.. i can't remember.. but i just remember he ended up stapled to some white board thingie.. and he was just sitting there bleeding.. and someone told me to shout for help, so i did.. cos there were people like.. on another building and death.. literally Death as he's portrayed in things appeared... and he swung his scythe thingie down to kill me but it missed and i don't really remember much after that, just talking to Rachel, cos she was in it
 
     
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08:32pm 07/05/2004
  Hmm... What to say? Biology was crap this morning. Psychology was good, although i was half asleep through it and had a major headache.

Oh Ya! I have to drive to Hessle next Week.. that means the A63.. in rush hour... scary!!!
 
     
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08:30pm 05/05/2004
  My tutor pissed me off today. He told us we have to stay at college right till the end of june. fuck that. I'm leaving at the end of May, and only gonna go back for my exams. I've been surviving on the thought that college is over in 3 weeks. I can't cope with anymore!!

Well i met Pete after Biology. We got wet.. my hair got ruined.. oh well. Weird guy was at the bust stop again. Talking to us. Hehe, it was fun. He's so strange. He asked me where i was going and i told him i forgot and he knew! But that's cos i've told him before. But then, why did he ask? Oh Well.

Not done much since being home. Talked to my mum. went to the shop for food. Forgot to buy bread for my dinner which is why i went LOL.

Got a driving lesson tomorrow. Fun. I'm driving to Brough again apparently. That's better than doing manouvers though. And i don't have to go to college tomorrow cos my sociology tracher is away for the day! I'm gonnado the work at home instead. I spoke to him about it today, and he said it's ok.

I spoke to Laura earlier, and realised something. I miss her!! Bleah. Shewants me to go out tonight, but i can't cos i live so far away. She told me she lives in Leeds now o.o;;; Don't know where she'll be staying. I'm gonna try and speak to her more,cos she's kewl, and what's in the past is in the past.
 
     
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08:23pm 04/05/2004
 
music: this love - maroon 5
Wow. Psychology was good today. we were doing about adolescence, but we ended up talking about penis' and boobs hehe. It was fun. Can't believe i actually enjoyed a lesson. After only 3 hours sleep too... hmmm. Yeah last night was just awful, i couldn't sleep, cos i was too hot, and couldn't get comfortable, and when i did sleep, i kept waking up.

spoke to Matt for a little while last night, he told me to download Pearl jam - Black, which i did. It's kewl. I like it ^^

I was meant to be meeting Pete after Psychology, but he text me and said he couldn't make it for 12.15 cos of work.. which is kewl. I know his work is more important than me, and also, i'll still be hereafter his deadlines ^.^ I'd be speaking to him now, but he's away. Hmmm.

I'm too hot as usual. I should really open the door and go outside, but bleah... don't want the cats to get out. Not much news on the kitten front. Still waiting to hear from Sam.

I'm considering going to Leeds for just the Friday this year, with Rachel. Cos there are only about 5 bands the whole weekend i wanna see, but Greenday are headlinging Friday night and i really wanna see them. We'll see, cos it's £45 for a day ticket i think. So...

Oh ya! My dad's pissed cos i informed him today that he has to pay £1,150 towards my uni fees each year hahaha. Like that's alot on the amount he earns but oh well. He said i'd better get a job >.> Not like i aint looking o.o;;; does that make sense? Well even if i did get a job over summer, i wouldn't earn enough to pay that, after getting phone credit, clothes, CDs and anime! Bleah. He's gonna help me fill in the finance form when he's home tho. I'm bound to do it wrong.

I found out that to work in Japan.. well to teach english anyway with SES (a company) I'll need a degree so that i can get my work visa so that i can live and earn out there. so i have no choice but to pass my exams this year lol. I'm sure i will... Hmmm.
 
     
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07:47pm 03/05/2004
  Don't really have much to say...

I spoke to Matt last night, it was kewl. We talked about the old days. When we all used to hang out.. Me and josh and him and sarah and Brandon and Mark... Weird.. out of the old guys, i only speak to Matt and josh now. Well i hardly even speak to josh anymore... And i speak to mark rarely.

Wow i'm really hot. I feel like i'm gonna pass out or something. Bleah. I'm speaking to Pete now. He's depressed i think, cos of uni stuff. Wish there was something i could do...
 
     
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04:40pm 01/05/2004
  Hmm.. not really in the bestof moods. i'm feeling kinda depressed for some reason today. Well i know why, i just don't wanna talk about it o.o;;;

I emailed Josh last night. Didn't really know what to say. Hmm. I need to speak to Mike too. I haven't spoken to him in ages :( Hmm. But actually, i just spoke to Matt a few nights ago. The first time in about 10 months heh. He's still with Liz, which is kewl.

Today's been really boring. i've not exactly done much. I watched some TV this morning, then slept for a couple of hours, now i'm speaking to Pete. My head hurts. I'm stressed damnit. I need to relax!!! I need to write, but my mind is blank. I seem to not even be able to wrtie poetry anymore, and it used to come to me so easily! I'm pretty useless i guess... at everything. bleah.

On the plus side, my evil brother is away till monday, which at least lets me have some peace. I'm gonna do some revision this weekend. I have an exam in.... 24 days.. well 3 exams!!! And i really need to go over shakespeare, cos i've never done it before, but i bought a book that totally analyses much ado about nothing, so if i can learn that, i should be ok.

I'm tihnking about doing the TEFL course over the summer. That way i might not even go to Uni, i might just go straight to Japan in July or whenever. I don't see that happening though. Cos i want to go to uni. At least then i'd have something to fall back on. I shouldn't base my whole life around one dream, in case it goes wrong...
 
     
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08:13pm 30/04/2004
  God! I really couldn't be assed with college today. I got up about 6.55 which sucks cos i gottaleave at 7.15 hehe. Oh Well. And i was real tired and felt sick, so i decided to go for my morning lesson. Biology... Hmm... it wasn't too bad actually. I got all my work done, then wehad a debate about gay people cos alex and Mike are such homophobes. It was fun.

Well at lunch i decided i may as well stay for Psych, so me and Chloewent to the library over lunch. I looked at books about Japan. She did work hehe.

I picked up my finance form for uni too! Will fill it in later. But i need my dad's P60 thingy. Me and Chloe were about 15 mins late for Psych cos we had to wait ages for something. Jill didn't mind too much tho. Psych was fun, i exerted myself today and decided to answer Every question... right of course!! I made a few smart remarks aswell,which was kewl. Hehe. I make the lesson interesting on Friday afternoons!! After break we watched a Vid but before jill put it on i asked her if it was gonna be another boring one like before easter!!! hehehehe. She said she was gonna chuck it away and wouldn't make anyone else watch it. But today's was interesting, it was about this guy with tourettes syndrome, and it made me laugh.. me evil.. but it was just funny...

I went shopping with Chloe afterwards, cos i had some time to waste before my bus, and we saw a squashed pidgeon, and it was fresh. Bleah. Then i went to get my bus, and like the stationwas Hell, so my bus ended up leaving like 45 mins late... WTF I was real pissed off by the time i got home.

complained to my mum... again, then made my dinner. Now i'm talking to Pete ^.^
 
     
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08:39pm 29/04/2004
  bleah bleah bleahness!!

Today's been a pretty bad day since.. well since i couldn't get to sleep till after 1am. I kept waking up after that, and eventually got up at 7.30, as i had a driving lesson and needed to make myself look presentable and shtuffs.

Well after i was ready, i talked to my mum till 8.30, and then my instructor didn't turn up, and by 9, i was majorly pissed, so i tried calling him but i got the answerphone, and by half 9 i just gave up and flicked through the music channels with my mum.

I left for college at 10.30. It was thecute bus driver so i was happy o.o;;; Then yeah, i got to college about 12. Went to my class even though my lesson didn't start till 12.30. Christine was already there. Told me that Trevor.. the tutor wouldn't be there till 1.15 and we had to start the mock exam at 12.30. Well how crap. At 12.30ish i kinda started it but it was crap so i text Pete and told him that i was bored had to do a mock was tired etc, and he kinda saw it as me saying that i wouldn't meet him after college, and he sent me a real mean text message, which pissed me off even more. Bleah. So i text him back telling not to be mean to me atc and... yeah

So i skipped tutorial... oops. Went to the pub to see Sarah and dan and leila. And i text Pete so that qwe could meet. But after we did, i think i was kinda bitchy to him. Actually, i know i was. Why do i do it? Well cos i was in a bad mood i guess =P So yeah we were only together about 30 minscos i wanted to go home cos i was so tired. And we hugged goodbye. The bus ride home seemed to take forever. I ended up writing a passage that i might turn into a whole short story. We'll see.

Got home, bitched to my mum a bit, cos that's what i do hehe. Then we dled some songs on thecomp while she spoke to my dad. Now i'm talking to pete and shtuffs. Trying to decide whether or not to go to college tomorrow.
 
     
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07:12pm 28/04/2004
 
music: Maroon 5, this love
I skipped college today - biology. I really couldn't be bothered. We're only doing revision now anyway. I couldn't be assed wasting 2 hours on the bus for a two hour revision class that i could do at home. Except well, i didn't do it, cos i slept all afternoon hehe.

Well... After a series of text messages last night, i told Pete that i want us to be more than friends o.o;;; I know he's kinda confused cos i told him a few hours before on MSN that i was serious bout us being friends first. But.. it's complicated lol. Friends would be best.. but i wanna be more than that.. so why should i hold back, just cos i'm too scared to commit myself to anything? So yeah... It's official hehe. He's still gonna have to put up wiv my moodiness tho -.- Bleah

Driving lesson in the morning. I'm doing some more maneouvers. How boring. I wanna do some proper driving again *pouts* Then another sociology mock. How dull. And i have to have a personal tutorial. Crap. I hate them things. Usually i can sneak out of them...
Hmm... I'm kinda worried bout him.. hmmm *blinks*

LOL i've just been talking to my friend Ant. He's so funny!!!! He said his Grandma is a bitch, and when i asked him why, he said cos she's still breathing. Then he said he was gonna go poison her laxatives or something and went offline.

oops.. i just told pete that i wanna be more than friends cos i want sex... lol... I was kidding obviously.. Hmm.. Bleah..

So yeah, Life's going ok right now. My Brother is still a fucking idiot who should be dead. The younger two are ok really. The animals are all fine. i had a great cuddle with squall earlier. He sat on my lap for like an hour, which is so unusal for him, cos he isn't really a lap cat. I'm a little worried about him cos his lip looks sore on one side, and i pulled it down a little to have a look, and it kinda looks like he has an ulcer, so i'm gonna have to keep an eye on him, but he always has his fangs out, so it's prolly just where it's been pressing on his bottom lip.
 
     
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08:27pm 27/04/2004
  T E L L M E :

The color of most of the clothes you own: Black

The number of pillows you sleep with every night: two

What will you be doing in 1 hour: Shower

What room you are in at this very moment: Study/family room

What you were doing 12 am last night: Texting Pete

How old you will be in 10 years: 31... OMFG!!!!!!!

D E S C R I B E :

What your teeth look like: white, but the bottom ones are kinda crowded.

What you're wearing: Not alot as usual

What you think you'll be doing in 10 years: I'll be in Japan, teaching English, married, and have my two adopted japanese children

D E S C R I B E F O R M E Y O U R :

CD player: purple!! dunno what make

Wallet: purple, with flowers on it, full of cards, but no money

Alarm clock: My Nokia 7210 mua

Hair: Black, shiny (see pic in profile) Damn i sound like a porn ad!!

Toothbrush: Yellow and clear

Computer: Flat screen packard Bell

Bed: nice and comfy with white frame thingie!

Notebook: messy, scribbled in.

W H A T C O L O R I S / A R E :

Your nails: umm... nail colour?

Your eyes: Brown

D O Y O U :

Like riddles: sure

Like trampolines: hehe fun

Burn or tan: burn

Wear braces: nope

Check your mail regularly: yeah

F I R S T :

Real memory of something: Being attacked by a cat

Car: hopefulyl it will be a volkswagon beetle

Job: Catering assistant

Screen name: too many to name one

Piercing/Tattoo: Navel/no tattoos

Independent home: don't have one

Love: Josh

Enemy: My Brother

Big trip: Spain

Play/musical/performance: Nativity play when i was 5

L A S T :

Cigarette: umm... can't remember, last year sometime.

Good cry: Earlier... almost

Library book checked out: Sociology themes and perspectives, Haralambos

Movie seen: Peter Pan

Book read: Midnight Lair, Richard Laymon... Still reading it.

Time you were sick: physically sick was when my dad was home last, so January. Feeling ill, today.

Person you yelled at: Brother

Beverage drank: Water

Crush: Pete

TV show watched: The news

Shoes worn: My skechers!!!

CD played: Rasmus, Dead letters

Item bought: Phone credit

Annoyance: Brother

Disappointment: Umm..

Soda drank: 7 up

Thing written by hand: Notes today in Psych

Key used: umm

Word spoken: Kewlie

Ice cream eaten: Tropical

Time showered: Thid morning

Time amused: Earlier on wiv pete

Time wanting to die: about an hour ago

Time in love: Umm, last May/June when i was wiv Matt

Time hugged: Earlier, pete

Time scolded: i don't get scolded. i'm 21 for god sake

Time resentful: about... now heh

Chair sat in: this one

Time danced: earlier when i was listening to maroon 5

Poster looked at: Hyde

P I C K B E T W E E N :

Pen or pencil: Pen

Coke or Pepsi: neither, but if i had to, pepsi, but only pepsi max

Butter or cream cheese: butter

Leader or follower: leader

Hot or cold: cold

Summer or winter: winter

1 or 2: one

First or last: first

Top or bottom: top ^.~

R A N D O M N E S S :

Are you paranoid: yes
 
     
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07:46pm 27/04/2004
  Bleah. i feel like shit. Firstly cos i upset Pete, and made him mad? cos we met up after college, and i only had an hour, but he had work to do anyway. and everything was ok really to begin with. But then we were waiting at the bus stop and my bus came and i kinda got on it without saying goodbye or anything, which is really mean of me and i don't know why i did it, andwhen i turned to look for him, he'd like vanished o.o;;;

so umm, i'm speaking to him on msn, and i got in a real bad moodcos he was being cold wiv me and stuffs. But i think we've sorted it out a bit now. But i just can't be in a relationship right now -.- And i really like him.. but.. i don't know.. I can't explain it. I guess i just don't wanna be hurt?

Well.. I saw Dan earlier when i went to meet Pete, and he was like gonan go over and speak to pete, and i was like noooooooooo cos like.. dan tries it on withe every guy, and that woulda pissed me off.

I have this theory though, that Dan isn't actually gay 0.0 See.. hmm.. How to explain this. I think he says he's gay for the stus and shtuffs. and he reckons he's had sex with loads of guys. But there's no evidence of this, and he aint exactly a stud heh. And he said to Rachel the other day that he almost got off with Holly. and he's got off with girls before. Sure, he's kissed guys too but.. i dunno..

Biology tomorrow. i have homework, but i'll do it in the morning. Too tired this evening. My friends think i'm weird cos i sleep so much. But i get ill... I blame the depression haha

I think Josh hates me. Seriously. When he was on a few days ago, i said hi, and he didn't even speak to me.. then he was on again on monday morning, and didn't speak to meagain. I really worry about him, and it tears me up thinking that he hates me o.o;;;
 
     
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08:22pm 26/04/2004
 
Personality Disorder Test Results
Paranoid |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Schizoid |||||||||||||||| 66%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Antisocial |||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Borderline |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Narcissistic |||||||||||||||| 62%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Dependent |||||||||||||| 54%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||| 18%
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Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.


Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.



Dramatic Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, and Narcissistic



Individuals with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions, distorted self-perception, and/or behavioral impulsiveness.

Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.

Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.

Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.


Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-Compulsive



Individuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.

Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism

Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.
 
     
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08:12pm 26/04/2004
 
Advanced Big 45 Personality Test Results
Gregariousness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78%
Sociability |||||||||||| 34%
Assertiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Poise ||||||||||||||| 42%
Leadership ||||||||||||||||||||| 66%
Provocativeness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70%
Self-Disclosure |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Talkativeness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78%
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Warmth |||||||||||| 38%
Morality ||||||||||||||| 42%
Pleasantness ||||||||| 30%
Empathy |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Cooperation ||||||||| 26%
Sympathy ||||||||| 30%
Tenderness |||||||||||||||||| 54%
Nurturance |||||||||||| 38%
Friendliness |||||||||||| 39%
Conscientiousness |||||||||||| 34%
Efficiency |||||||||||| 38%
Dutifulness ||||||||||||||| 42%
Purposefulness ||||||||| 26%
Organization |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Cautiousness |||||| 18%
Rationality |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Perfectionism ||||||||| 30%
Orderliness ||||||||| 22%
Orderliness |||||||||||| 36%
Stability ||||||||| 22%
Happiness ||||||||| 30%
Calmness |||||||||||| 34%
Moderation |||||||||||| 34%
Toughness ||||||||| 22%
Impulse Control |||||| 18%
Imperturbability ||||||||| 30%
Cool-headedness |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Tranquility ||||||||| 26%
Emotional Stability ||||||||| 30%
Intellect |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78%
Ingenuity |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78%
Reflection |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74%
Competence |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74%
Quickness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74%
Introspection ||||||||||||||||||||| 70%
Creativity ||||||||||||||||||||| 70%
Imagination |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74%
Depth |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 75%
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07:02pm 26/04/2004
  The mock went ok i think. I'm skipping English tonight cos i hate it. It's boring. I got my exam timetable. Hmm.. 14 exams!! Bleah.

Psychology:

Fri. 18 June AM
Wed. 23 June PM

Sociology:

Fri. 18 June PM
Fri. 18 June PM
Wed. 30 June AM

Biology:

Tue. 25 May AM
Tue. 22 June AM
Tue. 22 June AM
Fri. 25 June PM

English:

Tue. 25 May PM
Tue. 25 May PM
Tue. 15 June AM
Tue. 22 June PM
Mon. 28 June AM

My God! Crazy shtuffs.
 
     
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05:44pm 25/04/2004
  I'm hyper!!  
     
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05:11pm 25/04/2004
  wow! Again i've been neglecting this poor old journal.. I miss it! I've just been reading through all my old posts. It kinda made me sad. Reading about when i used to be with matt and stuff. Iwonder if he still reads this journal? If you do Matt, email me, cos i miss ya!!

Well, i haven't really been up to much, just college. I don't have a job anymore cos the cafe closed.

I've met this guy called Pete, but we've decided to just be friends at the moment and see how things go. I can't really handle a relationship right now.
 
     
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05:37am 15/02/2004
  _______Your Life_______
[x] they call me: Hetha
[x] sex: Female
[x] my first breath of air: November 9th 1982, 9.10pm
[x] status: Single
[x] best friends: Josh, Mike, Sam, Lorraine

_______Rewind_______
[x] most memorable memory: right now, laserquest last thursday. I had so much fun
[x] worst?: let's not go there, but i have alot.
[x] first word uttered?: don't remember
[x] first best friend ever!?: A Guy called Ian hop, when i was five.

_______Love?_______
[x] love is: Death
[x] first love: Josh?
[x] love or lust?: Love with lust
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person at the same time: Yes
[x] when love hurts, you: Get suicidal
[x] true or false: all you need is love: False
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: yes
[x] are you in love right now?: no
[x] how many times have you been in love?: twice

_______Opposite Sex_______
[x] turn ons: Personality, Hair, butt, eyes
[x] do your parent's opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: not at all
[x] what kinda hair style?: Spikey, long, shaggy, jusy not shaved or short
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: Treat me right
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: Clubs/pubs bad choice...
[x] are you the type of person to HOLLER and ask for numbers?: no, but there was this one time i gave my number to a random japanese guy. He never text...

_______Picky Picky_______
[x] dog or cat: Cat
[x] short or long hair: long
[x] sunshine or rain: sun
[x] moon or sun: Moon
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 best friend
[x] summer or winter: Winter
[x] written letters or e-mails: e-mails, but i don't really mind
[x] play station or nintendo: playstation
[x] car or motorcycle: Car
[x] house party or club: House party
[x] sing or dance: sing

_______Lately_______
[x] how are you today? In pain
[x] what pants are you wearing right now? none
[x] what shirt are you wearing right now? none
[x] what does your hair look like at the moment? greasy
[x] what song are u listening to right now? none
[x] how is the weather right now? no idea, and i won't look outside cos it's dark.. and there could be anything out there
[x] last person you talked to on the phone? My Mum
[x] last dream you can remember? I don't want to say
[x] who are you talking to right now? mike
[x] what time is it? 5.48am

_______More About YOU!_______
[x] what are the last four digits of your phone number? Not saying
[x] if u were a crayon, what color would you be? purple
[x] have you ever almost died? Don't think so
[x] have u ever won any special award? umm.. i won the easter bonnet cometition ast school?
[x] what's the stupidest thing u have ever done? Got into a car with this old couple when i was 10, so me and my friends could get a lift to the beach... (and home)
[x] how many kids do you want to have?At least two
[x] son's name? Brennan Joshua
[x] daughter's name? I have three choices, Purity, Destiny, Serenity
[x] shampoo? I use a lush shampoo bar
[x] what are you most scared of? Spiders, Dwarves, Beards, Small spaces
[x] how many TV's do you have in your house? six
[x] do you have your own TV? of course
[x] have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone? not yet
[x] who do you dream about? lots of strange things
[x] who do you tell your dreams to? Josh, my journal, other friends
[x] is cheerleading a sport? i guess
[x] how many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Pop? WTF is a tootsie pop?

_______You And Love_______
[x] do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend? no
[x] where would you like to go on your honeymoon? Japan, unless i'm living there by then, then i don't mind
[x] what do you like most of the opposite sex? hair, personality
[x] do you find yourself attractive? bleah, where's the paper bag?
[x] do others find you attractive? no idea... probably not.. that's why all guys are bastards to me
 
     
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