Saturday, November 14th, 2009
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12:03 pm - Summary yet again
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Yesterday there was a couple of things. The first which was going on in my head after hearing some bad news from a friend in the US. I wondered about doing something for when my time comes, about making a will and what was to be done with... stuff. Throughout half the journel to the jobcentre that was on my mind, wondering, thinking about what goes to where and who. Depressing thoughts for the start of the day really.
The second was that the new router had FINALLY arrived from BT. Turns out to be a bit of pain in the rump seeing as how long it took to get things sorted with my laptop and even more so with me mother's computer. It does appear to be rather tempermental when first turned on and needs a bit of time to get going as before when finally after gaining access to it the service was SLOW to the point some sites were unaccessable! Discovered it didn't like being turned off even for a moment when I relocated the router this morning.
I find out that the router didn't like being turned off even for a moment as when I had a friend suddenly turn up on facebook chat about five minutes later it the network connection drops to limited ccap whence cutting me off. Great! Now when I finally got back on line not long after my friend had disappeared offline. Gussing they just didn't to say what they did and I was just around at the time.
Well got a week not really looking forward to... so... woo...
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Monday, November 9th, 2009
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1:23 pm - Morning Summary
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Got up sometime before 6am... again
Discovered I should have built the fire up before bed last night as it had gone out. Meaning cold house.
Breakfast made of four slices of toast
Half an hour plus later I have my half hour session on the excise bike playing on me psp to make the time pass quicker.
Bath time.
Got me bank statment in the mail and worked out all the upcoming out/in-goings... stupid over useage charge! If not for that and my need to cover it myself I would have actually had some gain!
Started a darks clothes wash.
Went to local shops for milk, also picking up a couple Whisper Golds and a local Free Press, eyed a digital photogaphy magazine but said to myself "NO!"
Yea for exciting mornings....
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Thursday, November 5th, 2009
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10:13 am - Ramblings of the Week
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As of late BT has not proven itself to be me mother's favourite company at the moment. First last week with the bill for the over usage of downloads on the internet, which was enough to push through us getting the unlimited pack, but it does not end there. So she continues on with BT and it appears that our downloads has actually been going down or something like as she presented me with some numbers she had gotten from BT that ran up to October. Now with the new broadband pack comes a new router and here is the problem. We were meant to get the new box within the past two days, and when me mother checked it was recorded that the order had been in the last two days. I wasn't too impressed either and now its due for last week. To put things mildy this is getting silly.
I don't know how but whenever I get talking to one particular mate of mine the subject of "Paradox" has become common since they are a fan of timetravel movies and seemly ripping certain films to shreads over the holes in plot and logic. Personally I distest the idea of paradoxes and will pretty much avoid using them in any of projects... -says that knowing full well that there is one to be included in me major writing project-.
As of last week I find myself a regular in a DeviantArt chatroom and while pretty much surrounded by those younger then me but frankly the closest I have to having a common ground crowd. I was never one for chat rooms only using one back in the days of the 56k modem when I was part of the Blue Dwarf play by email game. Now while not being the most talkive of the lot I do add my share, usually of insanity:D, and have helped one or two people with ideas and such as well as dicussing some ideas of me own. Nice to find somewhere you feel you can belong and have someone to talk to:)
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Monday, October 26th, 2009
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9:33 pm - Little of this little of that
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To begin with a thank you to Miss Next for the suggestion of insoles to aid with my little footware situation. Gave it a try and find that I have seemed to broken in me boots, other then still suffering the affects of having kicked the excise bike on Friday and was still feeling it Sunday, I find it just made them uncomfortable. But still thanking thee for the suggestion.
Last week me mother bought home from the Doncaster library the audio book verison of Wyrd Sister and we have been listening to them since Saturday. Maybe I have been spolit by having seen the animated take but the audio verison didn't feel quite right. Then there is only two people doing the reading, one Celina Imrie who's Nanny Ogg just seems too 'wopperly' and a guy that reads Death's lines that reminds me of Richard O Brian. Well so far we are about half way through.
Now I am having a bit of a disagreement about the recent changing of the clocks. Now as anyone who has read before I have problems sleeping and just can't escape waking at 6am each and every day. Now as of Sunday that now means its 5am I am waking. One day I will have to look up why we add or take away an hour but I am one of those who wonders just why do we bother?!
Well let cometh the week and see what sights it has.
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Saturday, October 10th, 2009
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12:56 pm - So then
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Yesterday down my neck of the woods it had fallen into typical Autumn weather continuing on from the evening before where it had become that a fire was needed as it was just getting too cold. Now today as I look out the window despite the large grey clouds the skies are a bright blue and feels warmed. Maybe its just because there has been a fire burning away for so long but still rather have the cold back.
Now Wednesday evening after having a chat over MSN with a friend I find myself descending into a bit of a depressive mood. Maybe it was something about the chat or maybe it was some other trigger but still this mood last Thursday and into Friday morning. I did get a break from this mood Thursday evening even my angel was the one to say hello and we actually talked for a bit.
At the beginning of this week I was nosing around the local shops magazine racks and pick up one on digital photography and how to manipulate your images with simple tutourals. So now with some new textures from the cover disk and watching one of the video tutourals I got playing around when me mate Daniel came around Wednesday. Now while we were talking I showed my angel the results of my playing around and I should have seen it coming where she requested I play around with some of her pictures heh. She did however ask me something that is leaving me with a headache as she wanted me to play around with her current facebook profile picture, remove the other person from the picture and then just to have some fun. Now I just wish she hadn't asked that as I have no idea really what to do.
( So now that I bored with you me ramblings I now share with a couple of my best results of my playing around this week. )
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Tuesday, October 6th, 2009
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5:09 pm - This makes no sense
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So it was Friday when I got the news that a new branch of Sainsbury's was opening up in Decemeber was actually starting the recruitment process which is all well and fine for me. Easy to reach location that I can walk to and for me, and anyone else really, that is just frankly spot on.
Now checking online I find a job advert that directs to the main Sainsbury's site but there is the problem. I go looking for the advert for this new branch and what is it I find? The closest result I can find is a road that has the same name in town! Come on Sainbury's you are actually advertising jobs at this place you can at least have your website containing the details about said jobs.
In other news the skies around my end of the woods do appear to be greyier and the temperature has been dropping. Oh hello Autumn how I missed thee.
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Wednesday, September 16th, 2009
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10:19 am - This very moment
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The skies clouded with grey clouds
A cold silence hangs in the air
Even the brightest areas have grown dull
It comes it comes
For rain is not far away
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Monday, September 14th, 2009
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8:51 pm - The postive/negivate ratio
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Seems as though doesn't like things going to weel for me. Friday getting into town I find a couple of items I have been wanting to get a hold of for a bit so I say sod it to trying to spend unless needed and bought the them. Now when me mother returned home she had brought with her the power unit for a retired machine. So technically looking at it that is three or four things going well depending on how you look at it, three for me since that power unit was still untested for my old machine.
Roll on Satuday when we were meant to hear from a plumper to come check out our shower which hasn't been working as it should for what feels like most of the year. Now it would be nice to have that thing working again as to have a bath it means having to light a fire the day before just so there is enough hot water. The joy of having a solid fuel heating system... Anyway there was no message from the plumper and I have no idea how that is going to work out since I am not handling it. One negivate for the day.
Now there is the matter of the power unit from the retired machine. Friday I opened up my old machine to check things out and it looked well enough. I daren't try anything just yet since I have never replaced a power unit before and had prefered to wait for a friend who had to come a visiting again. Saturday morning I thought I give it a try once again and went looking online for instructions on how to. It was then I discover that the power unit replacing the old one had to be of equal or greater output and this recover unit was neither. Hardly surprising considering it was from a mere office machine when my old one was orginally built as a multimedia machine.
So here we have three/two on the postive/negivate results. Well could always be worse and I had reason to smile on Sunday night when I got a quick email from Michelle with a general hello and catch up on how I was doing.
Well here's hoping things will have postive results in the future.
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Friday, September 11th, 2009
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8:58 pm - My first real photo entry
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So today I finally get back to Doncaster and this time I bought the camera along with me.
( Pics be here )
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Thursday, September 10th, 2009
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1:27 pm - Possible Developments
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Sometimes I think there are certain people you know which you should never mention certain things to as it would only make life more interesting. But sometimes it maybe worth bearing through it as then the thing you never thought may happen will..
It was a few years ago when first the idea of having a photoshoot with me friend Gemma as the subject was first brought up mainly as a means to actually catch up with one another again. The main problem with such a plan other then that Gemma happens to be a busy person, but then who is not these days?, is that I had no true idea of what I should be doing. I am sadly lacking in being able to plan projects that involve other people. However this project idea never actually died through there are times when I wished it had as there have to be easier ways of catching up with someone!!
So after mentioning about the idea to another friend on Tuesday I think it was, this being the same one who opened my eyes to how board a scale this project idea had, the pushing to arrange details started up again. Now having been visited by them today we discussed possible themes for the shoot and even got as far as a possible location that could be ideal since it shouldn't be too much trouble to reach... hopefully.
So the final question is will this actually get somewhere for once or is it just going to be another source that me friend is going to draw on to irrate me with? Well only time will tell for that.
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Wednesday, September 2nd, 2009
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10:34 am - The trouble with sleeping
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It was yesterday morning around 11am when I said to myself that I had enough and was going back to bed. I had been awake since 6am and due to my screwed up sleeping pattern I am usually feeling tired throughout the day. So about an hour or so after getting to sleep there comes a knocking at the door and turns out my mate had come round for a repeat visit seeing as he had been around the day before. I spent about the next hour feel cranky as I do having woken and in time explained that I had certain problems when sleeping.
Now the troubles that pester me are this. In the final years of my last dog, Sherman, he had taken to howling if left alone in the kitchen though the night. But there was no other choice for it seeing as we couldn't allow him to stay upstairs for certain reasons. This went on for a few months at least and even through the dog is now gone he has left a bit of a legacy with me and screwed up my sleeping pattern. No matter what time I go to bed I am up at 6am in the morning each and every day. On the rare chance I do get back to sleep if only for an hour but mostly I have given up and accepted the fact I was awake and might as well get up. Now I had problems with getting to sleep before so this only makes things all the worse.
Now having explained this to me friend he suggested I should see a doctor about this. Personally I don't see how this would help to fix my broken sleeping pattern and most of the time I stubbonly refuse to treat most problems with drugs. Still it is a really big pain to facing early mornings when I don't have to when I am far from being a morning person.
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Tuesday, September 1st, 2009
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9:31 am - Morning...
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New month same old things. Woke up too early for my tastes again and I have no idea what I have to do to break this broken sleeping pattern of mine and restore the previous where I could sleep to seven in the morning at least!! Come eight o clock and once more I am reminding me mother about the time leaving me to wonder yet again just how often she arrives late to work.
Plans for the month. Deliver me sister's birthday present, start up my volunteering again and as ever continue on in what so far has been a utterly fruitless search for employment.
You try being a not a morning person and having to face early mornings...
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Friday, August 28th, 2009
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10:51 am - Slipping Time and Words
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Now as I sit before this laptop I see outside dull grey skies and the windows streeked with rain. If the pattern for the past few days continues then its going to get warm within a few hours and then get cold and possibly wet in the evening. Now this sort of weather is telling me that Autumn is coming and all I can think of is "Thank you!" as being more adopted cold sort of person the Summer has been uncomfortable so far. As for the coming of Autumn I wonder where has August gone? It just seems like just a few days ago it began. The year has been draining away like water down the plughole.
Now onto the "Slipping Words" section of the title in the past few weeks I have begun a rather troublesome addation to my major writing project. Now this is troublesome for a couple of reasons which can be summed up with writing what you know. First problem, I am writing from a female point of view. When it comes to my literial creations I tend to do very few male leads. Second problem, the main bit of this short story is of love and romance, both of which I know pretty much nothing about. Now aside from my usually writing problems of grammar and sentance stucture for what I have done so far is just too summerised and blunt. So yesterday I finally got around to telling the friend who this character is based on I could with their help and dug out me book Solutions for Writers for advice on how best to handle these more intamate scenes then I am accustomed to writing.
Well that is all for now folks.
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Friday, August 21st, 2009
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11:23 am - Trying to find that silver lining
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To get over the fact that I have been failing myself for the past month or so by not getting into Doncaster at all I do believe I have something postive going on.
I have managed to find a entry level clerical job located at Doncaster on Thorne Road and I do believe I have something in my favour this time. In the job description it notes that the candiidate for the position has to carry out an Apprenticeship to gain an NVQ Level 2 in Business Administration. Now this is an quailitcation I already have.
So fingers crossed for that.
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Friday, August 14th, 2009
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4:16 pm - Drat
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It is said that patience is a viture but that is one I happen to be lacking as all too often I have arrived too early for appointments or to college and kept myself waiting for longer then I was happy with.
Now combion that with Main's changing its timetables so that buses were only running every half hour instead of the usually twenty minutes and here I have a bit a of problem. Wednesday I had intended to go into town but first I was being lazy and was fighting the urges not to bother when me friend came around. I had intended to correct that and get into town today. Well I was standing at the bus stop for over half an hour with sight or sound of any buses leaving me wondering was it today that there was the bus driver strike going on. Even if the buses were only half an hour there should have been one coming or going. So getting impatienant and gave it till the end of the hour giving it ten minutes over to which the timetable said one be arriving, and after that still nothing. So had enough and started back down the street back home what do I see but a bus that had come into the village. Could have waited for that one to complete it route and return but was already at the stage where I was no longer willing to wait for that.
Yeah I know I am letting myself down...
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Thursday, August 13th, 2009
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11:54 am - Update Time
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Small things make me happier (I don't do happy). Two such things are discovering that somehow I have left my fingernails alone for long enough that they have grown to something of a decent lenth, I am bad for biting my nails! The second is actually have my angel basicly saying hello to me today rather then the other way around.
Now unfortantely I have been having a better time then some I know. Yesterday I had been intending to head out into Doncaster but in the morning couldn't be bothered and when I had decided to actually head out my friend arrived on my doorstep. They had sent a text message at 9.20am but the message finally arrived at 12.37pm. Well I not one to tell people to go away, polite or otherwise, plus I felt he needed someone to rant to considering how much his step-father was frustrating him. So the plan changed to heading out to town on Friday instead I will get into town sometime this week yet!!
I have been somewhat productive with my writing this week working on my main writing project where before I could only work on me minor. Aside from one major scene from the main storyline I started work on a event from the main character's past. Problem is its not too comfortable a subject being dealt with and I am feeling I need a female point of view.
Now ( can someone explain )
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Tuesday, August 11th, 2009
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12:53 pm - Its a crazy crazy world
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I present to you another example of how insane this world is
Skimpy Speedos ban at Alton Towers
So let me get this straight, Alton Towers in a bid to preserve the dignity of their guests is banning skimpy male swimwear. Now to approach this from a direction of logic (even if its my own twisted sense of it) if these males weren't feeling dignified they wouldn't be going around in this sort of swimwear would they? Secondly has anyone actually complained about this, much like with ever measure to protect others I believe that pretty much no one to barely any are actually offended. Its all just a knee-jerk reaction. Now at the end of that article about Alton Towers looking into offering complimentary male waxing?! If anyone dare suggest that to me I be offended and be telling them in probably not a too polite manner of what I thought of their offer.
Now if this is the case with males does this mean they are also enforcing this upon their female visitors as well. Will their female clients be banned from wearing bikinis or at lesst the bottons as they aren't particularly modest are they?
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Wednesday, August 5th, 2009
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11:05 am - Rumblings of the night
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Someone remind me when Autumn is meant to start as it feels like the transion between Summer and Autumn is already underway. The skies are grey and it has been raining more often but last night it warm which unfortantly was made all the worse as I had made sure the fire I had lit wouldn't go out. The annoyances of a fuel passed central heating system when you are after some hot water. Now it had been a bad idea to keep that fire lit as the boiler began to rumble and for I have been told there is no safety release on it and so having seen that particular Mythbusters I know full well what would happen if not tended to. So last night I was woken around midnight because of that and it was just too warm to try to get back to sleep.
I have been putting finger to key and working on me writing even if just a bit working out some scenes that are rattling my head. One of these scenes I had tried to write before but didn't get any results I wanted to keep but this time turned out to be a keeper.
Well enough of me for now.
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Tuesday, July 28th, 2009
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11:31 am - My vampire rant
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The latest Livejournal writer's block item is "From Dr. Polidori's Lord Ruthven to Stephenie Meyer's Edward Cullen, the annals of vampire lore are filled with attractive, charming bloodsuckers. Which one would you most want to be bitten by?"
Now I have a MAJOR problem with the concent of vampires possibly being attractive, charming and all that nonsensical tripe. Plus as well being a muchly overused horror concept with werewolves coming in second.
A vampire in real life such as leeches and ticks are parasites pure and simple taking what they need to survive. Now take the fictional vampire who are usually sired by being drained blood and for one reason or another they return return from death neither dead or alive. I wouldn't call a vampire immortal because they can still die.
So here are my major problems, one here you have a corpse that should be dead but isn't, still walking, talking and preying upon the living to continue their own existance. Now consider humananity's general fear of death how would that be appealing at all?! Now onto my second gripe again relating to death. Let's excuse anything relating to brain damage but move onto the mental state of the vampire. They have been robbed by of their life and of their death for a perverse existance. Surely that must be enough to shatter all but the strongest of minds, and even then that's debatable, and what would you have left? What I believe such a creature to be would be some varying degree of insane driven on mostly by their survive instinct you certainly wouldn't want to be anywhere near when they are needing to feed.
Well rant over
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Monday, July 27th, 2009
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10:09 am - ... and in local news
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There has been two confirmed cased of swine flu at a local school and after Thursday I wonder how many parents have been getting overly worried.
Well not concerned myself for by the news reports I have yet to see a related death that hasn't had some other underlining cause. Still hoping for the best and that my area doesn't add to the reported numbers of fatal victims.
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Friday, July 24th, 2009
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7:41 am - Ups and downs
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It has taken me an addiational three more months then I orginally wanted but I finally got there. For now I am typing up the first entry to be written on a laptop that I can call my own. Not too thrilled about having to half the contents of my bank account to do it but frankly in these times after checking how much I had in, incoming and outgoing I just figured now was as good as time as any.
Now before getting my new machine I was down at the new grounds of the office where I volunteer sending over three hours sweeping up the floor of what was once a mechcanics' workshop. The grounds next door to the office are due to knock down in some scheme to make Doncaster better looking or something but for the time and effort that went into making that place usable I certainly be disgusted by that choice. So the office got some new grounds, much larger and in need of a lot of work but also located a fair distance away. Best choice I think not. Though one thing when I went down I went straight to the office since I was told nothing about where they be working that day, clearly not having checked the messages, so wasn't too happy about that as it be nice to know where you can expect to be working on the day.
That is all for now
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Sunday, July 19th, 2009
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7:47 am - Yeah...
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I see that Livejournal's latest Writer's Block is "Which modern invention do you think the world would be better off without?" and looking through the results for that I am just left wondering.
The thing that just me wondering the most is when someone is commenting about MSN and/or some other instant messenger saying they make people lazy where they stay home rather then see the person face to face. I am sorry but I have to disagree with this utterly and certainly not the first thing to come along to bring up this belief. One of the first things to bring up this calim that I ever heard of was phone texting. But in the end these things don't make people lazy who prefer to sit behind the computer or tap away on the phone keypad they are merely presenting an option. It is down to the person who uses it. I am not one of them who will just do that beacuse its easier I rather meet the person face to face but the instant messengers are used bceause of time limits or that the person I am talking to just lives so far away eg, Denmark, Swedan, Holland, etc, etc. People can be so narrowed minded at times its never the invention itself but the person behind it using or misusing it.
So if there was something I say the world be better without it would be humanity's lazyness and the efforts it puts into making life easier and hense lazier.
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Friday, July 17th, 2009
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8:18 am - Quickie
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When life proves me wrong it really does seem to go out of it way to do so as it is raining quiet heavily by the sounds of it. I suspect by the time it stops it won't be before I have to go out and walk two miles over to the next village. Well fun as always.
I wonder if its going to rain today at Skegness. The office where I volunteer has a trip taking some of the charges down there and were bugging me to tag along. I have never been one for the beach and they down at the office aren't ones to take no for an answser. Gets very annoying when you have repeated no for the fifth time. I be the stubbon one who will merely dig in my heels harder the more I am pushed.
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Wednesday, July 15th, 2009
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1:56 pm - Clicky click click
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A while ago I tried to arrange to have a photoshoot with a friend as the model primary for the chance to catch up with one another and secondly can be sum up for so many things and that is "why not?!" Well nothing much (are you really surprised about that??) came from that bar if you want something done its better that someone else arranges it. Plus made the mistake of bringing up the subject with a mate and thusly with his interest in photography I discover just how much goes into it.
Now yet again my interest in trying my hand at photography has peeked from having checked out someone's gallery on DeviantArt. But no I don't want to try the simple things first and instead of trying objects or some landmark, althrough passing a certain location back from the jobcentre there has been one that has me tempted to snap a few pictures, I wish to try a person. I would have a willing victi... volunteer but this is the person from before and so far anything tried to be arranged with them has been for nothing. Would love to have a chance to do a photo session with my angel but seriously doubt I will even get to meet her and she hates to model.
But would it be really wise to do so if I can, already my drawing and photomanlipuations suffer for lack of drive and direction, and my writing only comes in drips and draps. I feel I have stretched myself too far with way too little drive and focus for a mere single creative media.
Ah well, something may yet come from this.
Oh addational. A friend of mine MSN has been hijacked and turned into a SPAM bot. Having not touched the enclosed link I think I was spared any infections or such like though something odd was going on with hotmail where it was treating the process of signing in if I already had entered a password. I think I am safe enough having ran the anti-virus and installed and ran MSN Virus Cleaner both of which found nothing. However if anyone does get some SPAM from me let me know.
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Tuesday, July 14th, 2009
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11:14 am - Dwelling again
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