Sooooo Tired   
07:13pm 08/12/2003
 
mood: tired
music: ICP- "Dead Body Man"
Damn aight ya'll whut up? Yea i'm fuckin tired as fuck cuz i didnt get to fuckin sleep at all last night, or at all today...

Ok well yesterday my dad's girlfriend Vickie came n picked me n Jessika up n took us to their new apartment, n then took us shopping so i could get some pants for work. Dude she is soooo fuckin cool.. she bought me 2 packs of smokes! Fuck Yea!!! I think i might wanna move out there wit her n my dad cuz i think i am too much trouble for all of my family here n no one will buy me smokes here n let me do whutever tha fuck i want like Vickie does. Vickie even said she wants me to move n wit her.. so yea i dunno whuts gonna happen wit that cuz me n my dad dont always get along.

Then last night i went to To0f's at like 1:30 a.m. n stayed there until 5:00 a.m. It was cool as fuck tho cuz it was only me, To0f, Matt, n Kyle n we smoked a fuckin fat ass sour apple blunt. Damn that shit was fuckin killer. Yea then we all chilled listenin to Tech n9ne, bein high as fuck. Well eventually Matt n Kyle left me n To0f alone n they passed tha fuck out. So yea me n To0f were alone for a while n so we umm yea...
Then i had to fuckin come home n get ready for school which fuckin sucked major ballz cuz i was so tired, still high as fuck, n didnt feel like goin to school. I only went cuz To0f said he would go too.. but he fuckin didnt! (ERRRR!)

Then today after school i had to fuckin go to my new job n fill out all these papers n shit. It sucked cuz on the way home me n Trish started fightin n she was pissin me tha fuck off. She always trys to start shit wit me n i fuckin hate it.. everyone fuckin always trys to start shit wit me dammit! DIE ALL U STUPID BITCHES!!!!!!

Well yea anyways on to my important shit... To0f is movin this fuckin weekend!!!! :'(
I dont want my sexy ninja to move! I fuckin love him more than fuckin anything n this world, n i would do anything for him. Damn this is gonna totally fuckin suck... i hope we survive through it. I mean i already fuckin think i MIGHT be pregnant n shit.. he says no way but i dunno. Its so fucked up right now...

So yea thas whuts been goin on, probally very boring to whoever reads this... if anyone does at all.

MMFCL,

-To0Fz NeDeN-		  
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I got a J-O-B!   
07:41pm 06/12/2003
 
mood: bored
music: Blaze ya dead homie- "Nastey"
whut up ya'll? Aight well alots been happenin...

Tuesday night i went to Toof's at like 2:00 a.m. n didn't get home till like 4:30, then i hadta get up at 6:00 a.m. n go to school.

Then i was sick on Thrusday so i jus slept all day.

Then last night me n LiL-Douche chilled at her house n got so fuckin drunk n high. Then we went over to Toof's at like 2:00 a.m. n didn't get home until 6:30 a.m. cuz we smoked like 3 blunts n a few joints which was fuckin cool cuz i was already drunk as fuck n higher than hell when they picked us up.

Then today i woke up at like 1:30 p.m. n i had to hurry up n get ready cuz i had a job interview but guess whut... I GOT THA JOB! :0 <-(Thas my shocked face lol.) I start on Monday. Yay.. free food n i get money!

Then tonight i was supose to go over to Sarah's dad's wit her but Toof called n said we are all gonna chill again tonight so i guess i'm goin over there instead.

Yep well thas whuts been up. Not very exciting i know. Oh well tho, i'll update again whenever i think about it.

MMFCL,

-To0Fz NeDeN-		  
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Last Night   
03:02pm 30/11/2003
 
mood: loved
music: Tech n9ne- "Now It's On"
whut up ya'll? Sorry i keep not updating.. but for once in my life i'm always busy.

Well last night was fuckin cool..

I had to go shoppin at like 11:30 p.m but it was all good cuz all me n Casey did was walk around n eat. Then when i got home at like 1:30 a.m. Toof, Matt, B, n Kyle all came n picked me up n we all went to Toof's house. LOL we had to break into his house cuz he locked himself out. Then we all jus sat around watchin cartoons n talkin. Then at like 4 somethin we all went to the store to get some smokes n poweraide. Then we got back to Toof's n had to look for Matt's new CKY dvd that he jus bought. Well after about 20 mins. of lookin we jus finally gave up. Then i came home at like 5:30 a.m. All in all my night was pretty well spent, jus cuz i got to hang out wit my sexy ninja Toof tho.

I love Toof so fuckin much.. i mean i'm sure i love him now. I've never ever fuckin felt like this. He says he feels the same way, well actually he was the 1st one to say it all. God i dont think i've ever been this happy. Now its jus gonna suck if he has to fuckin move.

Well thas all for now so i'll try n update again.

MMFCL,

-To0Fz NeDeN-		  
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Thanksgiving   
11:52pm 27/11/2003
 
mood: full
music: To0f- "What If"
hey ya'll havent wrote n forever but yea been mass busy again...

Havent really been up to much.. To0f has been commin over alot n yea i love him so fuckin much already, which is kinda scary cuz he might have to move back to Norwood in January. I dont wanna lose him, i dunno whut i'mma do. I hope his mom can find some where close for them to live.

Yesterday on tha bus i almost got into a fight wit Brandon B. cuz he was dissin fuckin juggalo's, so i fuckin had Casey's lighter n my hand as a fist pack n i got up to hit him, then Joy started bitchin at me. Then last night was full of all sorts of drama. I was over at Colin's hangin out wit Casey n Michael M. for a few hours, then LiL-Douche, Justin, n Brian all came. Then me n Casey took some shots of tequilla n smoked n shit. Then Colin n Tressa left n Casey n LiL-Douche got into a fight so me n LiL-Douche walked down to David's n guess who was there.. Brandon. But Brandon wouldnt fight me tho.. but he was still tryin to act all hard cuz some guy was wit him. But yea then David came back up to Colin's wit us n we were all jus chillin.. n me n David had a lil freestyle battle lol. I sucked but oh well.

Then today was Thanksgiving so we all went over to Karla's n ate there. Me n Taylor had a eating contest haha i ate sooo fuckin much! Then Heather F. came home wit me for a few hours n we hung out n shit.


Yea well thas it. I dunno when i'll update again so yea.


**MMFCL!!!!!**		  
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:)   
08:56pm 19/11/2003
 
mood: indescribable
music: Zug Izland- "Always"
whut up ya'll.. i know i havent updated but yea i've been mass busy yaknow?

Well me n Toof are goin out :) hehe he's so fuckin sexy n cool as fuck. Damn i haven't EVER felt like tha way he makes me feel. Alotta people been pissed off about us tho.. Sarah was but she cool wit it now (or so she says shes cool wit it, i think she still kinda pissed), n yea jus been alotta drama goin on. Fuck everyone tho, its no ones god damn buisness! WE FUCKIN LIKE EACHOTHER AIGHT BITCHES? GET THA FUCK OVER IT ALREADY!

But yea i'm doin pretty good.. xcept that every once n a while i'll get depressed cuz i'm all scared of gettin hurt n shit like i always do, but Toof swears he wont hurt me n i think i believe him..

Oh yea, i made a new s/n for AIM n its.... toofz neden


**MMFCL!!!**


N heres my song to my sexy ninja-

= Zug Izland- "Always" =

My wish is, i hope to do for u
All that u've done b/c all that u do
it's like magic, ur amazing me
a diamond for free ur as real as can be
n to keep u, give up everything i own
The mic n my life just dont leave me alone
Ur my partner, i want u to see
no matter how bad things in life can be
u've always got me
uve always got me

Now u trust me
I carry this so tight
I'll be there for u
if ur wrong or ur right
doesn't matter, just reach out to me
I will never question any opportunity
to show u and prove to u i care
Always u share and u've always been there
ur my best friend, its easy to see
No matter how bad things n life can be
u've always got me		  
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fuck becky   
08:46pm 16/11/2003
 
mood: pissed off
music: Dark Lotus- "I Wanna Die"
FRIENDS DONT FUCKIN LAST FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck u Kristina B. ur jus a stuck up lil bitch who is so totally self-centered n fuckin too stuck up ur ugly boyfriend's ass to fuckin see the truth about people. Ok so u can go ahead n think whut u want about me... keep thinkin i'mma 'druggie that does nothin but feel sorry for myself' I DONT EVEN FUCKIN CARE! FUCK U!!! U LIL CHODE!!!!!!!

**MMFCL to tha family cuz wit out ya'll i'd already be dead!!!!!!**		  
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Keep it n tha family!   
11:54am 16/11/2003
 
mood: excited
music: Twiztid- "2nd Hand Smoke"
Aight, i know i havnt wrote n forever but i've been mass busy. Well tha guy i like broke up wit his girlfriend for me... yea i know i should be happy but she's my fuckin best friend! Well actually i'm still happy. Me n him have been talkin on tha phone n hangin out pretty much every day since. So yea thas whut i been up to.

Friday night at like 1:30 Toof n Matt came n picked me up n we smoked out which was fuckin cool *happy face*. (heh for all those who know more shit than others; u know why it was cool n u also know who tha guy i'm about ta hook up wit :)

We went to tha Flea Market yesterday n i got 10' guages, n also got 2 new belly rings.. a pink 1 that says 'White Trash' n another one that is BATMAN! :)

Then last night all i did was talk on tha phone wit my man, n go outside n smoke a few bowls all by my lonesome self. Then i came inside n watched 'The Anna Nichole Smith Show' cuz she is fuckin awsome!

Yep well thas it.. i'll update again whenever i have more shit ta say cuz i dunno whut i'm doin today.


**MMFCL!!!**		  
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This Is Me.. CONFUSED!!   
04:43pm 12/11/2003
 
mood: stressed
music: Blaze ya dead homie- "Juggalo Anthem"
Aighty well alot of shit has been happenin..

I like someone n they like me but yea. Yaknow?

Toof came over yesterday n we smoked n OMFG.. i got up to look at somethin n he was chillin on tha ground.. n I FUCKIN FELL ON HIM!!!!!! HAHAHAHA!!!! Damn thas a fuckin 1st for me! I've never jus blacked out n shit like that before. Fucked up shit. Sarah thinks me n Toof have been 'foolin around' cuz we've been hangin out alot. ITS NOT TRUE THO!

K well thas it ya'll so i'll update whenever.


**MMFCL!!**		  
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Soooooooo high!!!!!!!   
06:26pm 10/11/2003
 
mood: high
music: Twiztid- "Bagz"
cuz i'm sooooooooooooooooo HIGH!!!!!!!!! :)

Well hello there sirz! Whutem up home dawgz mutha fucka n fuckettez!

I jus got home.. me, Toofy, n John jus got done smokin behind a church. Thas alwayz fun. Oh man, i really need a boyfriend for timez like this lol...

Not shit really happened n school today. Scud was bein a lil queer bitch like alwayz, n people on my bus we're bein lil punk ass bitches. Same as usual really.

Thas all for now so check back tomorrow or sumthin n i'll prolly update!


**MMFCL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!**		  
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"The Leaders of The Underground Scene"   
06:35pm 09/11/2003
 
mood: hungry
music: ICP n Twiztid- "Old School Pervert"
We the Leaders Of The Underground Scene
Juggalo's not givin a fuck about the T.V. or mainstream
And punk mutha fucka's always wanna disrespect
Fuckin hate on us and they treat us like we rejects
But we commin wit a flash of light and reign of fire
To bring down their whole mutha fuckin empire
We Juggalo family and we unite as one
u can't stop us and u can't jus up n us join son
So now u marked as a hater u gonna get clowned
When the L-O-T-U-S roll up in ur town!
Juggalo's We Are The Leaders
Everybody else are some fuckin dick eaters!


**MMFCL ninja's n ninjette's!!!!!**		  
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Last night..   
03:38pm 08/11/2003
 
mood: lazy
music: Kottonmouth Kings- "Suburban Life"
Last night was fuckin awsome. We went to tha football game, n as soon as i got there i started hangin out wit Samantha n Stacey n we walked up to McDonalds to get some food. Then Jamie, Casey, Ben n all their friends came in.. then we walked down to Flicks n waited for Ben n his friend to go buy us all some cigs. while we stood there n talked to Casey n all his friends. Then when they came back we got our cigs. n since we didnt feel like walkin back we rode n the back of their truck back to the game. Then i found my lil lette friend Sarah. So i jus started hangin out wit Sarah, Sara, n Jess the rest of the time at the game.

Then after the game we went to McDonalds again n while me, Sarah, n Casey were sittin there about to leave guess who fuckin came n.. the stupid slut bitch Kelly! Her, her lil ugly ass dyke friend, her mom, n her lil sis all started fuckin waving at us so we waved back to be smart asses. Then as we were walkin outta the door her ugly ass friend said "and u think we're posers?" I was like "yea i think ur posers." I fuckin swear.. if my grandpa wasnt wit me.. I would have beat her n her ugly ass friend's asses down right n fuckin McDonalds. It pissed us off so bad that they smarted off to us. Monday she best believe i'mma bitch her ass out. Well anyways that was the only bad part of the night...

Then when we got to my house we talked to Toofy on tha net n we waited for everyone to go to sleep n we snuck out at like 12:00 a.m. n Toofy n his fuckin hot juggalo friend Matt came n picked us up. Then we went to Toof's house n chilled there for a while. Then we went to Kroger's to get some cigs. for me n his mom. Then we went back to Toof's for a few mins. n then they took us back to my house. By the time we got back to my house it was already 2:30 a.m.

Then when me n Sarah got home we fuckin locked ourselves outta my room so we had to go back outside n i lifted Sarah up to my window n she unlocked the door. Then we played wit the Ouija Board for a while n talked. Then we smoked a few bowls a peice outta my window lol. Then we watched 'The Purple Show' n fell asleep at around 4:30 a.m.

And this morning my sis fuckin woke us up at like 12:30 n we look outside n some hot kid n his dad are out there cuttin down a tree n my front yard. I'mma go try n mack on him lol. Sarah jus left a few mins. ago cuz she has to work tonight.

K well thas it so i'll write again whenever something interesting happens.

**MMFCL!!**		  
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Sexy blurty..   
06:00pm 06/11/2003
 
mood: lonely
music: ICP- "Lets Go All The Way"
Wow i fixed my blurty all fuckin cool n shit.. ya'll know ur jealous! ADMIT IT ERIC.. UR JEALOUS! lol..

Well not much happened today. Went to school, played volleyball n gym, came home, buzzed Casey's hair BALD for him (he's fuckin stupid cuz it was already buzzed!), then i came back here n have been bored.

Damn, tomorrow is already Friday! Sarah is supose to come over but i havnt talked to her since i've been home from school, so i dont know if she has to work tomorrow or not. Hopefully she can come over cuz if not then it's gonna be really fuckin boring all weekend!

Man, i need a fuckin boyfriend! I'm lonely :(

K well thas about it, it's short i know.. oh well tho, it's not like anyone reads it or anything.


**MMFCL!!!!**		  
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Last few days..   
04:55pm 05/11/2003
 
mood: bitchy
music: Dark Lotus- "Gimme Dat Blood"
Ok well i'm feelin a lil bit better i guess, which is good cuz i fuckin hate bein sick! Since i havnt wrote n here n a while, here's whuts been happenin these last few days...

Monday night i called LiL-Douche (aka Christina) n told her to come n smoke out wit me, since Sarah wasnt allowd commin back over, n i wanted to smoke the rest of my shit. So thats whut we did all night.. smoke, eat, n watch "The Purple Show". Thats always fun.

Then Tuesday morning Sarah called me at like 9:30 n said that she read on the internet somewhere that "Hells Pit" came out that day, November 4th, so her n her mom came n picked me up n we went to the mall, her house, the library, n some lil ice cream shop. It was pretty fun but also fuckin sucked cuz the c.d didnt even come out! I kinda knew it probally wouldnt but i was still somewhut dissapointed.

Then today jus plain out fuckin sucked.. i felt like shit all fuckin day, n i basically treated everyone else like shit as well. Ecspecally Scudder.. i was a total fuckin bitch to him for no reason.

Now i'm sittin here deciding on wheather or not i'mma do my homework, even tho i never do, i have alot tonight n i'm already probally failing all of my classes n i dont wanna fail again this year cuz that would suck fuckin big fat black cock... ewww!

Ok well i'll i'm outta shit to say for once, so i'll update again whenever...


**MMFCL ninja's!!!**		  
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Sick..   
11:55am 02/11/2003
 
mood: sick
music: Anybody Killa w/ Blaze- "Foo Dang"
Oh fuck.. i feel like total shit today. I went to bed coughing, sneezing, n feelin like shit.. n when i woke up guess how i felt? The exact fuckin same way. Damn medicine wont even fuckin help me either. I AM NOT GOIN TO THE DOCTOR'S THO! They'll ask me why i was coughin up blood n they'll give me a drug test or sumthin.. soooo I'M NOT GONNA GO! I'll die before i ever go!

Ok well anyways, i guess imma go smoke, n then go back to bed n stay there all day..

**MMFCL!!**		  
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Halloween night..   
09:17pm 01/11/2003
 
mood: sick
music: ICP- "Fat Sweaty Betty"
Oh wow.. Last night (Halloween) was fuckin awsome! Sarah came over n after school we painted up our faces n fixed up our hair all fuckin cool, then we went to Wendys n while we were standin n line some lil kids dressed up as cowboys came n looked at us n started cryin.. HAHA it was fuckin hilarious! Then after Wendys we went to the movies n bought our tickets for 'Scary Movie 3', n after we bought our tickets we walked down to Krogers n bought some FAYGO cuz we still had like an hour before tha movie started. Then we stayed outside n smoked, while people staired at us. Then we went back to the movies n watched the movie. The movie was pretty fuckin funny! Then after the movies we went to some lil wedding reception for some people i dont even know, n some preppy ass cheerleader came up to me n Sarah n was like "OMG I LOVE ICP, THEIR LIKE UMM SO COOL, HEHE!" We were seriously about to fuckin punch that bitch, she was so fuckin stupid. Well we didnt stay at the reception long, which was good cuz it sucked. So at like 10:00 p.m we came back to my house n waited for everyone to go to bed, then i called up my homie n ordered some weed. Then we had to sneak out to go get it. It was worth is tho.. we got a quarter bag n smoked half of it last night. We were so fuckin stoned. We came back n the house cuz we were so paranoid outside after we were done smokin, so then we went n the family room thing n sat there on the couch for like 10 mins. stairing at eachother lol. Then we went into the kitchen n got a whole bunch of fuckin food n some FAYGO, then went to my room n played wit the Quija board n ate while watchin 'The Purple Show'. Then we started to watch 'The Rocky Horror Picture Show' n eventually turned it off to do the Dark Lotus saeaunce thing or whutever so we had to turn off all the lights n lay on the bed n the dark stairing at the mirror for about 45 mins. to see if it worked... well it didnt work cuz we ended up fallin asleep after about 10 mins, but it was like uhh 4:00 or suttin. So then this mornin when we woke up we went to our new lil "smoke out club house" that we found n we smoked again. Well when we got back to my house we were so blazed again so we jus sat n the family room on the couch for a lil while like we always do when were stoned. Then we ordered pizza n cheese breadsticks.. we ate all that shit n like not even 5 mins. We were so fuckin hungry. Then we went n smoked again n Jessie came wit us n took 1 hit.. but then we had to stop cuz Pap came home. Then we all went to the mall n i got a new ICP shirt n its fuckin awsome! Me n Sarah also got pins that say "JUGGALO". Then as we were commin outta Hot Topic we saw Scudder n his lil friends, n Scud didnt even fuckin talk to us but oh well. Elise was there n she didnt even fuckin come up to me at all, i woulda went up to her but Pap was walkin around there n i didnt wanna get arrested or n trouble for startin shit. So we jus went n the food court n ate chinese food. Then Sarah had to leave cuz her dad came n got her :(

Well anyways thas how i spent my Halloween.. it was fuckin fun as hell xcept for that i was loosing my voice n shit cuz i think i'm gettin a cold or sumthin. Well i'll update whenever i have time n somethin ta say.

**MMFCL ninja's!!**		  
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Happy Devil's Night!!   
10:26pm 30/10/2003
 
mood: excited
music: Twiztid- "Green Pumpkins"
Whoop whoop! It's Devil's Night which means tomorrow is fuckin HALLOWICKED!!!! Hell fuckin yea! Sarah is commin over after school n we gonna paint up our faces, then walk up to Toof's for a lil bit, then go to the movies, then come back ta my house n smoke out n the graveyard! Its gonna be fuckin awsome!

But as for now imma go watch the Halloween marathon n take a shower n shit so i'll leave ya wit this special holiday song..

= Twiztid- "Green Pumpkins" =

(Monoxide)
I'm a strange kind of pumpkin that never goes away
And I survive of the hatred and inside I'm all grey
What's that shit you say?
My thick ass roots extracted from your poisonous fruits
Stronger than a whole house built of Bamboo Shoots and hard work
And it don't stop until you dead in the dirt
The truth hurts
It's Halloween, time for the dead ghosts to roam
So lock your door, make sure you're not alone

(Madrox)
My pumpkin's rotten
Have I forgotten?
That nothing lasts forever
Got it, damn I forgot it, why won't this come together
Hiding behind the moon
Like the bats and the freaks at night
The green is starting to bloom
Ok to the drawer for the butcher knife

(Chorus)
Everything is changing to colors of green
Pumpkins rotting away, like hopes and dreams
But we seem to hold it together, and keep it alive
For mostasteless Juggalos with Freekshow eyes
Now in the Mirror-Mirror visions become a little clearer
It's a decomposed vision of terror, starring back at you
What you gonna do when you truly see
That the Green Book is him, and me, and my family

(Monoxide)
Disregard me as a stitch in your time
And now it's come to bring the hatred to the
Front of your lawn and drop the bomb
The Green Pumpkinz symboled as something truly that's coming
Hear it bumping people should really just get to running
It's the boogieman and I'm banging at your door
With an axe and a chain-saw, and enough balls to aim ya'll
My cigarettes will burn a hole in your chest, you hot boxing with a monster
You're a zombie at last
I'm under beds making some noises, grabbing some legs
Swear to God, I never touch them, I just scare them to death
I'm never right I must of had some shitty karma as a kid
Although my music's made of poison but somehow I seem to live
Turn your porch light on and pray for sunlight
Keep your back door locked, and keep all of your children out of sight
I'm translucent, walking through walls, halls, and doors
Very magical, I'ma turn five kids to four

(Chorus)
Everything is changing to colors of green
Pumpkins rotting away, like hopes and dreams
But we seem to hold it together, and keep it alive
For mostasteless Juggalos with Freekshow eyes
Now in the Mirror-Mirror visions become a little clearer
It's a decomposed vision of terror, starring back at you
What you gonna do when you truly see
That the Green Book is him, and me, and my family

(Madrox)
Enter into the mind of a serial killa
Never step or hide inside cocoons of a caterpilla
The mutation has begun, and involved green slime
And blood stains redecorate the wall
Took the protocol and bust it down to lime dust
And sprinkled it amongst the ones that's down with us
And I trust that everyone will understand
When they hear the Green Book, and witness how it began
In the days when hunger was the wickedest of ways
And the magic was felt every time the CD plays, remember that?
Now that's an un-subliminal fact, embedded on my family axe and Lotus tat's
You can quote that - in the mist of the spit
Monoxide and Madrox all up in this son of a bitch
For Halloween, underground and unseen
From Green Pumpkinz to Green Books and everything between

(Chorus)
Everything is changing to colors of green
Pumpkins rotting away, like hopes and dreams
But we seem to hold it together, and keep it alive
For mostasteless Juggalos with Freekshow eyes
Now in the Mirror-Mirror visions become a little clearer
It's a decomposed vision of terror, starring back at you
What you gonna do when you truly see
That the Green Book is him, and me, and my family


**MMFCL!!**		  
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Man..   
09:19pm 29/10/2003
 
mood: aggravated
music: ICP- "Boogie Woogie Wu"
Wow what a fuckin dramatic day...
Ok 1st i found out that me n Scudder was goin out, then we ended up breakin up when we werent even goin out a whole day yet, then i get off the phone wit Sarah n fuckin Jessika is cryin cuz some shit wit Scud, Eric, n Thomas all fighting. So of course i try to play all lil miss nice "fix it" n me n Eric made a chat n invited everyone in to work it out. Dont think it worked tho. If ya'll want my opinion on it here it is: 'Kelly is nothin but a stupid bitch who tries to be a player n cause drama between everyone over every lil fuckin thing.. i mean fuckin Scudder prolly didnt even say whut their sayin he did, n she all goes n crys about it to Thomas after he told her, and i think Thomas only told her that shit cuz he wants down her pants. So yes basically its all Thomas' n Kelly's fault.. n Eric dont even waste ur time tryin to help Kelly.. she jus wants people to fuckin feel sorry for her!' Yes, wow for once i'm actually on Scudder's side. Suprise Suprise.

Ok well anyways other than that shit.. today was pretty fuckin cool. Me n Sarah didnt have gym today cuz of sophmore testing so we got to go spend 1st period wit Toofie n the Chorus room watchin 'Pearl Harbor'. We were sittin there crackin up the whole time any ways. And yea we finally found out that Sarah is commin over on Friday n we gonna paint up n smoke out all night. Fuckin yea!

K well Jessie is all depressed still n wants on, so i guess i'mma go smoke n shit.. i'll update whenever.

**MMFCL!!**		  
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And i jus been smokin n smokin   
07:08pm 28/10/2003
 
mood: high
music: Bone Thugz N Harmony- "Weed Song"
Heres a song that'll explain everything...

= Bone Thugz N Harmony- "Weed Song" =

Take me
Higher, higher, baby
Can u feel it?
Do u feel tha same weed high that I feel?
Cuz I'm so high (reefer makez u feel that way)
And I feeling so right
Roll, letz smoke, I got to get high
I been high since tha last song
And i jus been smokin n smokin
Smoke another blunt, roll anotha up
u know that weed can really ease ur mind
Every time I smoke good reefer that indo high makez me fly
If everyboby smoked a blunt, relieve tha mind,
tha world could be a better place
If everybody took a break n we all jus got wasted
Toked out, smoked out
choked out, pull another O
Letz get P-O-D-ded (P-O-D-ded, P-O-D-ded)
Tha weed can't get no better
(no better baby!)

:-)

**MMFCL HOMIEZ!!!**		  
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Lil Wyte- "Oxy Contin"   
08:50pm 27/10/2003
 
mood: high
music: Lil Wyte- "Oxy Contin"
[Lil Wyte]
Go on and slip me two Xanax Bars, I'm ready to get fool
5th to Crown to wash it down, I'm downtown snapping rolls
Ain't no shame up in my game - in fact I'm mentally deranged
Oxycontin in my system - man I'm feeling kinda strange
Watch me choke about this dope - Blueberry from Texas
She wanna git up in rotation that's too bad cause I'm stressing
Bout now its 1:30 am, 11 Percocets just entered me
15 minutes from this second - I'll be crawling on my knees
Laughing at the crowd of all the clowns that be surrounding me
Take another Lortab to call me down and let me see
Body be relaxed - muscles be loose, and you have stopped the pain
No more bitching bout your day and work and driving in the rain
Put up wit' the fussing and discussion - I plant in your brain
Hypnotize ya minds, like all the rest but I come through the veins
Take a chill pill to slow me down and git back in this game
Gatta be up on ya P's and Q's to even feel it mane

[Hook 2x - Lil Wyte]
Oxycontin - Xanax Bars - Percocet and Lortab
Valiums - Morphine - patches - Exctacy - and it's all up for grab
Whatcha want - whatcha need - hit me up I got you mane
Whatcha want - whatcha need - hit me up I got you mane

[Lord Infamous]
Scarecrow, scarecrow whats that yo popping?
A powerful pill they call Oxycontin
But it's so tiny, that it catch you dragging
Haven't you heard big things come in small packages
I prefer the orange's with the black O-C
Take to where you can - I move about you see
Some people mellow down in a needle and shoot em up
Buy I pop em with Seroquel like glue, I am stuck

[Crunchy Blac]
See I'mma pill popper - so I'mma keep poppin em
Gimme 20 Xanax and I'mma start droppin em
They ain't no stoppin em - when they in my system
Man I really miss em - can you help me get em?
I heard you have Clidina, on that fucking pill shed
Gimme some fuckn Ec' - gimme some Percocets
I need me some four bar, so I can break down
Cause a nigga like me finna take it to funky town

[Hook 2x - Lil' Wyte]
Oxycontin - Xanax Bars - Percocet and Lortab
Valiums - Morphine - patches - Ecstacy - and it's all up for grab
Whatcha want - whatcha need - hit me up I got you mane
Whatcha want - whatcha need - hit me up I got you mane


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10:36pm 26/10/2003
 
mood: depressed
music: Twiztid- "I Fall Apart"
In many ways, my happiness from earlier somehow was killed. God why are night-times so hard for me? Well after talkin to Scudder i suddenly realized that friends don't last forever, all they do is stab u in tha back. I'm so lonely.. suicide seems really nice right about now. I have nothing to live for; everyone obviously hates me, n i'm nothing more than a bitchy ass control freek. I cant keep letting my emotions bottle up inside of me, if i'm not careful then i'll eventually end up exploding again. I need the comfort of someone who i can love, n they'll love me back as well. Neil is moving to Ohio, Scudder is a totally asshole, n well yea.. here i am all alone. I hate it when i like people, it always ends up as somewhat of a dissapointment. Oh well, fuck people.

Anyways sorry guys, no one likes to hear me bitching so i guess i'm off to smoke a cancer stick to try to somewhut ease my depression, but i'll leave u wit some of my fav. lyrics..

= Twiztid- "I Fall Apart" =

I swallow razor bladez and spit up blood
Cut out my heart and gave it to my love
I hung myself with an extension cord
And dangled high above the Quija board
I heard the wind through the treez and it made me scream
I'm wonderin if itz real life or just another dream
I need something...someone
To help me with my brain because itz falling apart
I fall apart

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