| Draining Away |
[22 Apr 2006|08:24am] |
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U2 - Sometimes you cant make it on your own |
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I'm on tenterhooks everyday, figuring this and that. Don't know why it's starting to get very emotionally challenging. So tired to make choices and believe in smth that I really can't fathom.
I wanna pull away yet still get sucked into it somehow. I wanna get away.
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| Harsh days |
[07 Apr 2006|05:09am] |
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TOW the nanny |
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While making my way there today, I told myself not to expect the best out of it. Moments after I stepped into the lift, I had jitters and my confidence level hit rock bottom.
I waited for four other girls to finish even though I was the third to arrive. Told myself it's gonna be fine, stay calm and don't fumble.
Although they were really nice, I gripped my fingers under the table so tight trying very hard not to mess up. They seemed to love me and suddenly she told me she had to be straightfoward about a particular flaw. I accepted it with grace but inside me it kinda crumbled. The shortcoming I had for almost all my life, people laughed at it, gave funny looks at it. I smiled and pulled through the conversation.
I told myself not to shed a tear. Upset, punctured, yes. Just only for today.
Not pinning too much hope, but still..
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| Cheers to the 3rd! |
[31 Mar 2006|05:51am] |
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Dean Martin - Two Sleepy People |
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Two Sleepy People
Here we are, out of cigarettes
Holding hands and yawning
See how late it gets
Two sleepy people by dawn's early light
Too much in love to say goodnight
Here we are, in the cozy chair
Pickin' on a wishbone, from the frigidaire
Two sleepy people with nothing to say
But too much in love to break away
Do you remember
The nights we used to linger in the hall
Your father didn't like me at all
Do you remember the reason
Why we married in the fall
To rent this little nest, get a bit of rest
Who will .......
Here we are just about the same
Foggy little fella, drowsy little dame
Two sleepy people by dawn's early light
And so much in love, so much in love
Too much in love to say, too much to say, to say
It's wonderful to have you in my life..
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