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[10 Dec 2003|08:04pm] |
its my last post. im tired of making posts. i know i know, i havent in a while but my computer is so slow and until i can get it fixed im stuck.
i do love you all
im me sometime. aim- unbroken0942
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[08 Nov 2003|05:53pm] |
oh, just if you read my post about halloween and my cousin....my cousin had surgery today to stop any blood clots if there are any, from going to his heart.
♥
>mylove
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[08 Nov 2003|05:49pm] |
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i bought a dickies jacket today.
♥
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[11 Oct 2003|10:50am] |
how do i make things bold, italic and so on?
does anyone do icons? i want a dashboard icon but i dont know how to make them.
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[10 Oct 2003|09:53pm] |
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ok. so tonight my parents decided hey, todd and katie arent here so why dont we go out to dinner. i said whatever, changed and we left. we had to stop by the high school to drop so bake stuff off for the bake sale tomarrow and we left. my mom told me im negetive and critical about everything. i desagree. yes, i have an opinion, but its not always negetive. everyone has their faults, i just seem to always see them. my mom said that she wants me to put a quarter in a jar everytime i say something negetive, yeah right.
i bit my nails so short, they are hurting my hands. they are tingly.
i have a math project to do. a bio test to study for and the rest of a work thing from geography for homework. i dont want to do it. ugh.
lately ive been really intense with my music in school. i really want to make chior. if only i had good enough talent. if only.
goodnight
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[03 Oct 2003|10:44pm] |
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i just bought the eve 6, dashboard confessional, and the finch cds. yay.
# 2 on the eve 6 cd is ORGASMIC
im so happy.....
i love nick
hes a babe.
+monday+
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| heres to the nights we felt alive |
[02 Oct 2003|09:24pm] |
when i did sightreading with the 2 other people in chorus (in front of 78 people) i wouldnt have been louder if they wouldnt have been singing so low.....
wow. i have nothing to say.
i love you
+monday+
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[29 Sep 2003|10:41pm] |
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im so angry
i've become numb.
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| *what*a*night* |
[28 Sep 2003|12:29pm] |
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last night was homecoming.
i did not go.
katie went
she left with 2 girls
she come home with like 8 girls and a guy
he guy left at 1
7 of the girls stayed the night
i wanted to die
ugh.
loud music.
girls screaming
what idiots.
anyways.
less than 24 hours before school. im not ready. i dont want to go. please dont make me
im so tired. i went to bed at like 2 last night which isnt that late but i woke up at 1030 which is pretty early for me considering i didnt go to church.
lately all ive been doing is crying. no reason. just to get away from everything.
its freezing in my house. i think im going to go back to bed.
hopefully i post again soon
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[26 Sep 2003|11:27pm] |
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my tears are the only friends i have left
i wish i was going to the tbs concert tomarrow.....i hate being under 16, no license, no friends...wow.
goodnight starlight
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| "no need to worry---dannys here." |
[26 Sep 2003|04:01pm] |
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just when i seem to be getting the littlest bit of faith back everything turns to shit.
my mom went to the doctors yesterday an stuff happened but anyways....
tomarrows homecoming. tonight is the game. rachels in the band, she'll be marching in it.
cassie and karen are in chior they'll be singing. they are the reason i dont want to go, other than the fact that i'll be by myself cause the only person i know or talk to is in the marching band.
Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
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[24 Sep 2003|09:37pm] |
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at 430 i fell asleep on the couch. around 630 my mom woke me up saying someone was here to see me. my initial reacton was it was a little kid in the neighborhood. i walked over the the door and rachel was there. we did our greetings. (just a little backround on her:shes 16,just got her license,is christian, and she hasnt washed her hair since january.) Anyways. She asked if i wanted to go to youth group tonight. i told her no. she asked why. i said i havent been there in a while and i dont want to go back. she asked why. i told her no one understood me there.
i ended up going.
it was ok. i saw a couple kids from school. none of which i talked to but just seeing them there was cool. the boy katie likes was there. i saw brendan. The boy whom i havent seen since 6th grade cause he failed.
Then the jealousy kicked in. rachel was talking to other people. making plans. with people in college. i know. im stupid for feeling like this. i mean, she did pick me up, obvously she was curious where ive been but still. am i wrong for feeling like this? its like we get to the church and she wont talk to me. she hangs out with the college kids. oh well. i'll get over it. i always do. i heart rachel.
i miss rachel B (from school, not church). shes like the coolest person ever.
im tired. i think i may go to bed.
katie want to wear my scarf to school tomarrow. nu uh. (she wanted to play jumprope with it earlier) ugh.
im tired. goodnight.
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[24 Sep 2003|04:56pm] |
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wow. today was alright. got up. went to school. came home. did some stuff around here. an here i am. i wish my life was more amusing. its just.....dull. im not ging to youth group again. i havent been to the church in two weeks. geeze.
i havent washed my hair in 2 days. i have it pulled up bu it helps none. oh well.
today was decades day at school. i didnt dress up but katie did.
i want to go to the dashboard concert. ugh. maybe todd will take me.
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[23 Sep 2003|04:28pm] |
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i went to the dentist to get my cavity filled. my mouth is still numb.
im going shopping for shoes. oh yay....yes kelly, you did heard a sarcastic tone in my voice
til next time
+monday+
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[21 Sep 2003|01:35pm] |
ok.kellys house was a time to remember. but i dont want to talk about it. not now anyways. anyways. i got home today an my mom was like, katie wanted to go back to kellys. i was like i thought she went to jackies. nope, she didnt. my mom said no. katie wanted to go back over kellys but we thought she went to jackies so we didnt pick her up after the movies. ugh. i hate feeling guilty when i didnt do anything wrong.
im pissed. my brother is going to the thursday/thrice on october 19th. ugh.
nothing eles to say....
maybe i'll write my conclusion on my paper for english. maybe not. oh well
til next time
+monday+
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[20 Sep 2003|11:16pm] |
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Hey y'all... I just think you need to know that I am a sexy saucepot, with lots and lots of style... But what makes me really scrummy (yummy scrummy) is a super smashing smile. If you met me you'd never want to leave, thats why I keep myself locked in the basement, so the whole world doesn't fall in love with me, I do it for the good of humanity. And it also keeps my sanity. My name is Megan and I'm super great, I'm looking for a real good mate. C'mon guys give me a call, I'll rock your world from here to the mars, from the moon and to the stars. Peace out yo.
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[20 Sep 2003|05:50pm] |
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i am not a sarcastic person. well maybe sometimes. but i wouldnt take my life on me being it all the time. im at the lovely Kelly B's house. theres people here. um, me, todd, kelly, erin, shannon katie, kelly, kelly b and heather....i miss nick....hes so sexy
we're going to the movies. how incredibly sexy. we'll it would be if nick was here ;-)
<3
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[20 Sep 2003|12:24am] |
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no one ever seems to leave me messages. maybe im not interesting. or maybe theres nothing to comment on. sorry my life is boring as hell. its not may fault im a social disaster.
its so cold.....brrrr
i miss nick
+monday+
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[19 Sep 2003|08:07pm] |
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today at after lunch i was going to my class and i saw lauren. it wouldnt bother me but i miss her. we were so close an she threw it away cause i wasn't popular. maybe shes right. we're 2 different people but i could always be myself around her.
i miss nick. im still in shock hes going out with angie. it sucks. i love him so much. hes such an awesome friend. i guess we weren't as close as i thought we were. like 3 weeks before homecoming he told me he never liked me as a girlfriend, yet hes asked me several times to go out with him. figure that one out....
i'll never get a boyfriend. ive already told my mom im not getting married. if i want kids i'll go to a bank or something.
my aim is being a loser. how gay.
i wish things would get better. not just with boys but with my family. and my social status. hah. thats a joke.
im listening to city high. its so depressing.
on my hands, my knuskles and the skin before my nails are dark. its sick. i scrub my hands when i shower and i tried to bleach them but they wont go back to natural color. i dont know why. maybe its cause i have them near my face all the time but i never have my knuckles in my mouth. lol anyone know how to get it to go away? leave a post....
i bought the lovely Miss.Kelly B's birthday gift today. im going shopping for the rest of it tomarrow. im a huge procrastinator....yes. i know i probably spelled that wrong but i cant be perfect.
i layed down for 45 min. im stil tired but im not gonna lay back down. my hair is a wreck. i should brush it but its beautiful.
i should shower.....maybe tonight....
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