So i just "googled" myself, well actually "ask.com'ed" myself... but anyway i found this account, which i had more than forgotten about... how disgustingly emo i was only three short years ago. Well 15 year old allie... i promise that life gets better... and stop freaking out about everything... and why didn't you get fucked up at the forensics tourny you stupid bitch. that was one entertaing discovery.

Date:	2003-11-18 20:02
Subject:	More ranting and self-loathing
Security:	Public
Mood:	gloomy
Music:	Pixies-Gigantic

Maybe it's just me. I don't know, but I tell everyone that their opinions don't mean anything to me. But in all actuality it means everything to me. I care so much. I hate it when people don't like me, I hate it when people make me look/feel dumb. I hate feeling insignificant. and i also think that when i think this and when i spent alot of waking hours trying to fix myself i make this feeling of insignificance alot worse. I also have came to the conclusion that i feel bad about myself, but also that i'm supposed to. I mean, truly there is one person in this world that actually cares about me. Yeah i know my parents do, and possibly some.... SOME of my friends. but really I am the only one that cares fully about me.... but thats only because i am completely self involved. God i am in a terrible mood. If anyone... anyone looks at this comment... or something. I dont care who you are i just want to know if anyone looks at this. heh.. i am one sad, sad human being....

Date:	2003-11-18 19:59
Subject:	Looking in the mirror
Security:	Public
Mood:	indescribable
Music:	Modest Mouse-I came as a rat

You know. I had a situation today that challenged me as a person. And i think i lost. maybe not in the verbal fighing way, but it really made me look at myself as a person. I didn't like it. I didn't like me.....

Date:	2003-11-09 12:02
Subject:	3rd place
Security:	Public
Mood:	accomplished
Music:	Face to face- bill of goods

Yeah, I just got back last night from a forensics tournament. We did suprisingly well, (we being myself and my duo partner matilda). The rest of the duos were amazing, I had thought at best we would have gotten a 5th place. We got third.... cool trophy too. Yeah so we left on friday and had a 5 some hour car ride. Not cool. I was in the car with Nick, Ankush, Andrew, Matilda, Merideth, Hops' mom, and myself. Needless to say i heard alot about how nick isn't supposed to be out of the State bc he has a felony charge, about their partying and other random annoying things like that. The other car had Hops, hops' dad, Justin, and sacks. They had 3 f-ing computers and were watching dvd's as i was getting feet shoved in my face. But thankfully on the last leg of the trip hops invited me into there car. When we got there Andrew was all over matilda. who has a boyfriend. and she wasn't complaining. I really get jealous of her. She can get any guy she wants. but meh, So yeah then we went exploring, then out to dinner. Everyone else went to a thai restaurant, it looked kind of scavy to me so matilda andrew ankush and myself went to taco hell. We went back to the hotel and nick and ankush found a hotel party. they drank it up. I hope those fuckers get caught. Well the cool people that don't dig the whole getting fucked up at a forensics tourny watched tv talked and actually had fun. hah. Woke up earlier than we had too. I had 3 hours of sleep. I really shouldnt do that when i am going to compete the next day. But we got there competed. Did pretty good. hung out with matilda and justin most of the day. Slept, played friend fuck fall most of the way home, matilda slept over. Then she left. that about sums up my trip. God.. i'm boring

Date:	2003-11-09 11:50
Subject:	Teenage angst is fun
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed
Music:	Radiohead- Creep

I hate myself

Date:	2003-11-06 17:39
Subject:	First entry ever
Security:	Public
Mood:	contemplative
Music:	U2-I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking for

You know. I have started countless amounts of these. Each time, I write one or two entrys then i just give up..... Sad really.

I guess it's about time to introduce myself. I'm Allie... I'm 15. I like to think I'm deep and have opinions and thoughts worthy of expressing but, I'm probably wrong.


1. What is your full name?: Alicia Marie Morris
2. What are your nicknames? allie?
3. Sex? Female
4. Where do you live? I'm a michigander
5. When is your birthday? January 14
6. Where were you born? Kalamazoo.

*Favorites*

9. Music? Old school punk.. not sucky rock
10. Artist? The weakerthans
11. Actress? Renee Zelwegger?
12. Actor? Johnny Depp (O god.. orgasm)
13. Food? Vegetarian prolly
14. Candy? I'm a fan of the swedish fish
15. Movie? Princess bride.

*Love Life*

17. Do you like anyone? Sure do.
18. If so who? In the small chance some one i know will see this. I'm not telling
20. How important are looks to you on a scale of 1-10? 7
21. How important is personality on a scale of 1-10? 435
22. Have you ever french kissed? Nah
23. How many people have you kissed? A few

*Have You Ever..*

24. Drank? Possibly
25. Smoked? Alas, yes. But i quit and am ashamed
26. Streaked? There was that one time.. in tijuana
27. Gone skinny dipping? *good times good times*
28. Had sex? I still posess my V-Card
29. Done something against the law? Chaaaa
30. Stole? Nah.
31. Hit a car and drove off? I lack a car. and licence
32. Been in love? I don't even know what it is.

*Would You Ever*

33. Bungee jump? nooooo
34. Make the first move? Not if i dont have too.
35. Sky dive? Not a chance.. Ever
36. Get a tattoo? Yes.. yes i would
37. Get a piercing besides your ears?Yea...
38. Shave your head? Only for a good cause
39. Date someone 10 years older? Johnny Depp..
40. Eat something while it was still alive? with the whole vegetarian aspect of my life.... no

*Which Friend is...*

41. The funniest? I dont now...
42. The most honest? Allie
43. The sweetest? Candace
44. The cutest? Meeee (hahahahahahhaa cough hahahaha)
45. The one you can trust the most? Candace
46. The one you see the least? Jessicer
47. The one you see the most? Candace
48. The smartest? I really dont know
49. The one thats known you the longest? Jessicer. prolly
50. The craziest? Sadly myslef
51. The loudest? Once again.. moi
52. The quietest? Mel.
53. The Most Kind...? Candace (she wins)

*Do You Believe In..*

54. God? no
55. Angels? nah
56. Heaven? i dont think so
57. Ghosts? Yeah
58. Psychics? depends on who's doing the..... psycing
59. Aliens? A course
60. Reincarnation? YEah
61. Horoscopes? I wish

*Which Is Worse*

62. Throwing up on your date, or your date throwing up on you? Throwing up on ur date
63. Eating a bunch of live spiders, or a bunch of live spiders eating you...? The latter.
64. Running into a pole while walking over to the person you have a
crush on, or having the person you have a crush on walk into a pole while you're walking with them? Them running into a pole... God i love when people get hurt

*One Or The Other*

65. TV or radio? Radio, TV
66. Phone or computer? Computer
67. Hairbrush or toothbrush? Toothbrush
68. One pillow or two? Three
69. Friends or a boyfriend/girlfriend? Friends definetly
70. Good looking or nice? can i have looking nice?

*Future*

71. Do you want to get married? Eventually
72. Are you planning on going to college? Yes
73. What do you want to be? Writer.... Reporter.
74. Do you want kids? I dont know about that one
75. If so how many? i donno 3
76. What names do you like for girls? I dunno
77. What names do you like for boys? Malachy, Liam
78. Where do you want to live? Ireland... seattle
79. Where do you want to get married? Here
80. Where would you want your honeymoon? Space



Yeah. So there's me.