Blurty for {{ IELLE }}. View: User Info. View: Friends. View: Calendar. View: Memories. You're looking at the latest 11 entries.

Monday, July 28th, 2003

Subject: Awake at the unholy hour of five am. Time: 5:11 am. Mood: awake. Music: the cars on the highway outside.

Classes were canceled for both DLSU and CSB today due to the coup thing yesterday... and well, even if they finally surrendered, the chances of LaSalle taking back the declaration is evidently not gonna happen. And so, here I am, awake because yaya Yvonne, meaning well since I've been like a log with regards to my alarm clock - woke me up with a warm glass of chocolate milk. *smiles* I'm not sour, at least I get to blog and bug the people online for a momentary stint. Athens - thanks for the congratulations!^^ And though I have yet to reach the level of "cool" that my teammates have, I'm saying thanks anyway. >.< Girl, I was in there for barely five minutes of play! But the whole episode of playing them was incredible. Honestly, wish you'd been there to watch. Am trying to bug Flip to doin' something about his blog so that you guys could read it from the spectator p.o.v. and not just mine. Ube! Now that is cool!^^ Pre, hopefully you get it - but knowing you, kaya yan! [improper trans: you can do it!] Hope we can meet up soon though... but if not, there's always sem-break. *grins* )O( Still no word from the higher authorities regarding the schedule for RinX - though I've got this Saturday's sched typed up into the July issue of SLAPSHOT. *sighs* I need those documents. Gyeh. The life of an editor - moreso frustrating since all you really have to do once you get that last tidbit of information is print and have the whole thing photocopied albeit a hundred times over and distribute by Wednesday. Gyah. If I got the information I could actually have it finished today and distributed tomorrow. Blah. )O( Talked with S'lette yesterday - yet another person without internet and lacking in the blog-update department. *hugs S'lette* She didn't place at the UNARMED fashion show (she was contestant #4 in the design department), but at least she was there, right? *hugs S'lette again* ->It's okay ma chérie... we'll fingure out another way to get the money you need for HK. And we'll make sure we both do our best so that we'll be teammates, right? Hayaan mo yang lecheng Peirce na yan. ^^ So far, that's all I have to say for now... oh, and I'm starting to edit my sidebar now - take care peeps! I'm gone. ___________________________________________ Mela-dear... I'm in a bind as of the moment considering that I don't know specific codes in Blurty and that I want to fix the way my blurty looks - I've got the pictures... I've got the idea, help please?^^ *wubz!* NO CLASSES!^^ tee-hee...

Comments: Read 3 or Add Your Own.

Subject: Lyrics that just pop out at you. Time: 2:18 am. Mood: mellow. Music: Forever For You ~ this is playing in my head.

I hate senti-trips. I hate dreaming of things I shouldn't dream of. I hate being stuck in another one of my insomnia trips and not being able to think coherently because most of me was spent fixing something for tomorrow... er... today actually. Mental note for the week: I did this because it WILL be worth it. So someone do me a favor and give me a hug. I need roughly eight a day to survive and so far my Mom's the only one who gives me these prescribed hugs. One a piece. Gyah. Not to be ungrateful... she's been terrific since we... stopped getting on each other's nerves. I guess I'm just edgy. I guess I'm just... semi-pissed at the world. Again. What the hell else is new, eh? - So sue me, everything hurts, and there's a big hole in the center of my chest the size of a fuxing meteor. Blah. On with the latest lyrics. . . . Forever For You Barry/Taylor/Torch/Oates Does anyone know what love can cost It'll take you so high then leave you lost Is it a mystery That runs too deep For such a simple heart Can anyone stop the hands of time And put back the loving in your eyes Though it's his name I hear when you are sleeping I'll pretend it's mine When they ask me how long I'm gonna love you If the road to my heart will always stay true I'll say forever I'll say Forever For You When they ask will I stand right there beside you And they don't see you and me the way that I do I'll say forever I'll say Forever For You A rose is a rose by any name But a thorn will still cut you just the same I'm losing your love I know So sad the feeling I can tell somebody's stealing Stealing away your heart - Repeat chorus- I don't know if I should tell you How you live in my heart There's no room for another If you leave me now My heart would not recover . . . This one I heard in the car at roughly 5 pm when Mom, my Tita Winnie and I decided to pick up the reprints from Konica near BK. I'd just finished relaying to Harle the dream I had last night. Girl, I still think I've lost it. Half - Life Duncan Sheik I'm awake in the afternoon I fell asleep in the living room And it's one of those moments When everything is so clear Before the truth goes back into hiding I want to decide 'cause it's worth deciding To work on finding something more than this fear It takes so much out of me to pretend Tell me now, tell me how to make amends Maybe, I need to see the daylight To leave behind this half-life Don't you see I'm breaking down Lately, something here don't feel right This is just a half-life Is there really no escape? No escape from time Of any kind I keep trying to understand This thing and that thing, my fellow man I guess I'll let you know When I figure it out But I don't mind a few mysteries They can stay that way it's fine by me And you are another mystery i am missing It takes so much out of me to pretend Maybe, I need to see the daylight To leave behind this half-life Don't you see I'm breaking down Lately, something here don't feel right This is just a half-life Is there really no escape? No escape from time Of any kind Come on lets fall in love Come on lets fall in love Come on lets fall in love Again 'Cause lately something here don't feel right This is just a half-life, Without you I am breaking down Wake me, let me see the daylight Save me from this half-life Let's you and I escape Escape from time Come on lets fall in love Come on lets fall in love Come on lets fall in love Again . . . Funny how this song kinda echoes the dream. I will not - rather, I refuse to go into detail because some things are best kept for my sanity to remain intact. I will tell my girls though come Wednesday... Makes me wonder if I'll survive enough to reach Wednesday... Goddamn melodrama - I know. I'm having one of my infamous fits and it's 2 in the bloody morning. Sue me. Goddess. I try. Heaven knows I do. Heaven knows I've been taping and re-taping and re-taping yet again until all I have left of the scotch tape is the round thingy in the middle... Heaven knows that all I want is to wake up once - Dammit! ONCE! without having to worry about the dreams that come to haunt me every so often. Can't it be over? Like the others before? Can't it just be done and over with? Obviously, the Higher Powers prefer me learning each and every day how to live the way I do. I mean, hey - not that I blame them. I've learned a helluva lot these past few months. And I continue to enjoy the learning. But I wish my mind and heart and soul could have a little break sometime soon. It's straining on me. The dreams. The images. And he says I can just change them all by thinking happier thoughts. I could. I want to. But right now, it doesn't seem to be an available option. I'm a symbolic dreamer for cryin' out loud! But what?! are they trying to tell me??? . . . Just dropped by his blog - interesting things. Nothing much really... it was just great to read something that was a lot more cheerier. Dropped by her and I can't wait to hug her this coming Wednesday. I missed her a lot. And I plan to wangle stuff out of her considering that she owes me kwento. *pauses and breathes* I envy Kai in that aspect. She got to go away to do some soul-searching without having to worry about the people around her. She can actually enjoy alone time. Which is something that I guess I have to start learning. I can't help it... I miss my kids - Nen. Hope. Eden. Alessa. - Recieving an SMS from Marty (who I have yet to make a blog for) was relieving this afternoon. Made me think of other things for a change. Man I really need to get a grip. And I need to sleep. So I'll wrap up cleaning up my e-mail and get my sorry little tush to bed.

Comments: Add Your Own.

Subject: updates... finally Time: 11:13 am. Mood: contemplative. Music: "Forgive Me" ~ Evanescence.

Yes, Mela, I am still alive. I miss you too.^^ Nakakatamad dito kasi halos walang nag-co-comment sa blurty ko. I've been more frequent in updates over at my blog and will continue to be that way since I'm used to being there... I will find a suitable use for this thing in the coming months.^^ Anyway, here's what's been up in my life... as of late. . . . Rain. It's raining outside and I find myself sitting here again, early as it is to type away as usual. Sunshine's beside me - this pretty big, orange-and-yellow stuffed dog that I bought roughly a week ago? Or something like that when me and my family watched X2. The air's cooler - thank the Goddess, since I don't think I'd appreciate blistering heat right now. My muscles hurt, more since I did a full workout yesterday - something that I'm trying to make a habit of since I really wanna get in shape for not just hockey, but for a number of other reasons. I mean I don't get any other exercise other than my T/TH hockey sessions which have now gone from two hours to three - 3-6 in the afternoon. and I definitely miss dancing, but have no time to get back into it. Besides, I wanna look presentable before I get my ass over there.^^ Did a couple of things from the moment I logged onto the net. **please hover on the names. Did a couple of emails. Due ones particularly - for DE and Athens. Told them about the news I plan to tell my--Kai, Mai, Harle, Isis--girls this coming Wednesday when Flip and I meet up with them. Also in on the fun will be my darling Ube, Charliedoggie and hopefully, Kuya will, as he says - do a sneaky sneak out of the office. I highly doubt that he'll show though... since it's a given fact that he loves his work. Wants to work more. And is your basic workaholic. ^-^~ <-note to the public... this is supposed to be an ermine. I'm being my regular hyper self today... despite the aches and pains that plague me. That's what I get for being out of shape. At least the toning factor is getting somewhere.^^ Anyway... aside from that, I've been browsing through my Aunt's VT page and am finally getting the hang of how it's supposed to go. Pardon the poor kid. I felt a little lost since the things I'm used to are Livejournals, Blurtys and this one. My favorite one. ;p . . . I'm still hung up on Crazy/Beautiful, and am getting even more hung-up on pictures. Went through lots of stuff when I was ransacking my shelf for pictures to put in my journal-cum-scrapbook. Haven't started on it... YET. Yet being the operative word. I will though... today, hopefully, considering that it's likely to be a slow one with everyone just widing down. Flip especially, since he'll be coming home from LSGH. What else to write...? Well, I'm excited for Wednesday. Lots of fun happen on Wednesdays. It's basically the group tradition. Hopefully in the incoming schoolyear it'll TRY to manage to stay the same. I know Harle and I will still have our Wednesdays - U-break is a constant thing here. Anybody notice that the links are particularly plentiful this entry around? I guess I just need to feel connected. Something's... off. I guess... I can't put my finger on it, but it's there. Not bad. Not good. Just there. Half creeps me out. It's always this way this time of year. Oh shit. I just remembered why. Last year, Mother's Day, Franco texted me saying (I think it went like this): hapi mother's day 2 ur m0m nd lola The magic(no k) of text, eh? . . . Isis has gotten into the habit of songwriting. No music yet - but then I've always offered to be the tune-finder. Her lyrics are wonderful, but that shouldn't surprise me since writing was and still is one of the main things that bring her and me closer. I love having a sister. Even if I constantly am praning on several levels that I hurt/disappoint her. Evidently, she doesn't think so, considering that I recalled what she said the night of my debut. I know you don't hear this a lot from me: but I am proud of you sis. And I love you. Gah! Getting considerably weepy again. Blame it on the rain. The sky cries for me more often these days, and from what I've gotten on the last few posts - crying isn't a bad thing. I am female. I am allowed. To hell with the bloody sods who think otherwise, right? Anyway, she's been writing lyrics and I can't help but want to learn guitar for the heck of writing the music down - and fast. Can't though, considering as I am not allowed to learn guitar. Dang. I remember that Mr. Villapando - the only music teacher that I got the pleasure of having as a teacher for two memorable years of my life in High School. He wasn't there for my senior year though - with due reasons, but I'm glad that he did attend the graduation proper - or so my batchmates tell me. I even ran into him one time on one of his visits to school that timed to my own dalaw and told him when he asked that I didn't place in my last year's Grad Song Contest. He said that it didn't matter. He told me he actually got news from his graduate (my batch) students that it was good. Heheheh... to think, he'd always supported my music. He even made a face saying that I shouldn't have stressed on Metropop too much back then. He'd listened to the news that I sent in and didn't make it, and told me that it didn't really matter. Iba yung tipo ng nandoon. That's as close as I can get to what he said before. And since we're on the topic of St. Scho... I've been taking a stroll down memory lane as of late and have realized that no matter the hell I went through back then - I'd do it all the same way if I could. Maybe that's what Mr. Baula meant when we discussed the other form of past/present/future being done all at the same time. You won't change anything - because you accept that changing things would make things... wrong. Somehow. I know I wouldn't have thought that way years ago - but things... events/people/lives get a little more in the objective/subjective perspective when you grow a little older. Maybe it's the fact that 18's like a new start that makes me think this way. The Higher Powers forbid that I go on an early mid-life crisis when I hit my late twenties. I remember a conversation Faye and I had at House Blend during the last stretch of the school year. She'd just graduated then and was supposed to be at Grad Practice. Point is, she was sick (read: sniffles) and didn't want to contaminate the entire graduating batch. We got to talking at how our lives in high school semi-sucked - more for me than for her (she was my batch's Big Sister batch, btw) since she'd watched me grow through the infinite number of rotten stages. A bitch for a supposed "best friend", a barkada that left me behind (three of which continue to be close friends of mine/barkada today), a class that turned against me. All in all - she'd seen me... "grow" (no, not in height. I'm still the same 4 10 and 3/4 inches as I was in freshman year...) into the person I am now. A person she gladly calls 'my kid' and would fight tooth and nail for considering that she just wants me happy. Is it any wonder that she coined the term: male bimbo. For those who know who this is - don't say anything nalang.^^ Funny how she wanted to play a part at least in the planning of my debut since she wasn't sure if she could attend. My Of Roses and Rain cd will ALWAYS be precious in that aspect. She burned both copies and wished me a happy birthday. Love you Da. ^^ Sana maging masaya ka na din. Anyway... we talked about how Kulasas (term used for Scholasticans. And when I say Scholasticans, I mean those who are TRUE BLUE-bloods. There are few and far between in the College Department - no offense meant to those who are, you might be one of them - who understand what it means to be from SSC) return to St. Scho, even if, at the point they were in it, it was your basic Hell 101. She mentioned something to me... something a friend/batchmate of hers said at one of their get-togethers: May dream ako. Na sana, kapag nagkita ang mga Kulasa, irregardless of whether magkakilala man o hindi, magka-batch man o hindi, hindi lang 'hi/hello'. Kundi hug at usapang kapatid. Kick me, but it sounds like something someone would say. Rather - it's something of a tradition in his school. His batch. We were more of the same worlds than we both realized. Maybe a little off-tangent at times, but there was something that made us the same. The same thing that makes me mesh well with the personalities of everyone who walks into my life. . . . I know that to some who'll read this blog - they'll actually tell me to quit talking about my ex since he's past and should leave the past in the past. That it's done and over with... and I should just stop. That's also something that he'd be likely to say... since he said that before as well. Harle, you've more than once impled that... and, as much as I appreciate the sunshine... I also need my rain. I'm water, remember, and no matter what he's done, he's a huge part of who I am. He walked away with a huge chunk, but I've found the fill to put in that empty bite off my shoulder. It's all of you. And I'm not saying that you were all panakip-butas. No, it's like a puzzle, mon chère amis. If the piece don't fit, it don't belong in the set.^^ The piece he took away kinda belonged. But you guys fit the picture better. I love ALL of you. So, here I am, talking away, making mention of a person who I didn't want to talk about in the past eight (yes, it is FINALLY eight, NOT seven!) months and it's... easier. Considering that I can now enjoy (him) without any illusions. I think my favorite beauty Mia Devlin mentioned that in Face the Fire... yes Mama's hung up on that book yet again - and is presently cooking breakfast and my stomach's grumbling for fuel. Not just yet though... I have a few more lines to write. Because I have promised my sisters - and everyone else who matters, that I will tell them (Let's go all Ally McBeal now...^^) the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth so help me Goddess (and all other heavenly beings), I'm stating here and now that I want to allow one of my good friends in the block - KittyKim - my fellow Stitch-lover (boyfriend niya at honey ko) - to have access to this thing. She's a net lover and I trust her to keep this to herself. And besides... I miss having her meddle in my life. I'd allow Crissy access too... but right now, I still have a few kinks to work out before I do something as life-altering as that. . . . Final Stretch. I finally finished the long standing Romance. That's big news as it is. Still have no candidate for my duet partner (Josh Groban anyone? Seriously, I hear his voice on that track.^^) but I'm not rushing. In something as important as my music - you can't rush it. I'm working on a new one though... I'm thinking of doing the first piano-cum-guitar track for NHB and I want the theme to go something like this: "We're all just living in this world / Just trying to get by / You're not alone / You don't suffer alone / We're all just working our way / Through the muck and candy that's life / Know that / Remember that / No one's an island" - possible lyrics for No One's An Island; No Holds Barred I want my music to say something this time around. I want what Harle describes in Windy Day to be real. "For every aspect of life, for every facet of love...she was able to make a song for each of them." - Charlotte Legan; Chapter 1; Windy Day by Lady Harle

Comments: Read 2 or Add Your Own.

Subject: Blogger is down... Again. Time: 9:23 pm. Mood: blah. Music: Theme for "Chip and Dale: Rescue Rangers".

meefmeef. it's enough to drive a girl insane. i can't edit my template, i can't publish a word... and so i'm here - xp back by popular demand? heheheh... i WISH. anyway... don't feel like saying much now... so i'll save it for tomorrow. *sighs*

Comments: Read 2 or Add Your Own.

Subject: updates, updates, updates... Time: 9:57 am. Mood: annoyed. Music: "Don't Let's Start" (revival) - Common Rotation.

haven't been here in awhile and i think it's time i came back. hehehehe... no one's commenting on my blurty... :( well, i guess that's mostly due to the fact that i rarely come here (though i visti my LJ frequently and no one comments either), and likely to be because people visit my bloggie more. i need a new template. i've been going insane over that in the little time that i don't have things to do. mrf. speaking of things that are due i have to figure out how the heck to bring out pictures of me and my brother in a 'prayer' session. i swear, imbento talaga yang RELS teacher ko. how can you 'force' a prayer session and ask your students to submit it? -.- it's enough to drive me mad. gr. anyway, that's it for now.

Comments: Read 6 or Add Your Own.

Subject: i am becoming a mini-lyrics dot com. Time: 10:25 am. Mood: awake. Music: "Indie Rockin'" - Common Rotation.

just plain going insane over several songs simply because i find them particularly cute. Why Don't You and I Santana feat. Chad Kroeger Since the moment I spotted you Like walking round with little wings on my shoes My stomach's filled with butterflies Ooh and it's alright Bouncing around from cloud to cloud Got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down If I said I didn't like it then you'd know I'd lied ooooh And everytime I try to talk to you I get tounge tied turns out Everything I say to you Comes out wrong and never comes out right So I'm singing Why Don't You and I get together We'll take on the world and be together forever Heads we will, Tails we'll try again And I'm singing Why Don't You and I get together And fly to the moon and straight on to Heaven 'Cause without you they're never gonna let me in When's this fever gonna break I think I've handled more than any man can take I'm like a love sick puppy chasing you around Oooh and i'ts alright Bouncing around from cloud to cloud I got the feeling like I'm never gonna down And if I said I didn't like it then you'd know I'd lied Oooh And everytime I'd try to talk to you I'd get tounge tied turns out Everything I say to you comes out wrong and never comes out right So I'm singing Why Don't you and I get together Let's take on the world and be together forever Heads we will and Tails we'll try again So I'm singing Why Don't You and I get together We'll fly to the moon and straight on to Heaven 'Cause without you they're never gonna let me in Slowly I begin to realise that this is never gonna end And the moment you walk by it's like oh here we go again oh So I'm singing Why Don't you and I get together We'll take on the world and be together forever Heads we will and tails we'll try again And I'm singing Why Don't You and I get together And fly to the moon and straight on to Heaven 'Cause without you they're never gonna let me in (repeat to fade) ... have had a couple of new... events in my life, as of late. met up with my babies last... wednesday at mcdo. i never thought i'd see the day when the sound of people talking at the same time would actually grate on my ears and mind. just proves to show what computer projects and sleeping at 2.30 then waking up at 4.30 can do to a person. thank the goddess that THAT's over for now. the onyl things i have to go insane over is the Bibliarasal (prayer session) my RELSONE teacher is 'forcing' on me and my blockmates to do, and me trying to figure out how to make a reaction to one more japanese movie (c/o the filmfest that happened a few weeks back) when i only watched two. read: i need three to add 5% to my grade. why? - because, as fun as my INTROSO class is, let's face it - sir baula has this thing about really pushing the limits. i have resolved, at least, that it is better for me to go essay-type rather than go on the objective. *winces and babies her left hand* my poor, poor writing hand. no tests so far though, save for the take-home one he's handing us today. next. i am quoting this from my bloggie: ... On tattoos and white shirts... It is Friday and I am at the computer lab on the third floor. It is Friday and I went through another session with RELS and FILIPI wherein first, we discussed the fact that we have to do a Bibliarasal at home, complete with pictures and secodly, because I have to format several things on my computer tonight. Read: the translated version (Tagalog) of Chicken Soup for the Teenaged Soul II. Talk about wow. Gah! I just wish summer would roll by and take me away. At least then the only headache I will have to deal with is a. my gown - which, I haven't seen since that fitting a month ago, b. the guestlist - which, though finally finished has to be typed. And c. my make-up and every other frou-frou that comes along. And... heh. I'd problemize over adding to AB - which is stuck where it is because though I have so many new scenes in mind I cannot seem to find enough time to update it. Yes, I know I blog - but writing the scenes for my darling blog-series is a different matter altogether. I want it to be well-thought, not rushed. It means too much to me to take for granted in that way. Now. About tattoos. Don't worry people - please, I did not get an actual tattoo, though I have spend on a henna tattoo of the Goddess' symbol (the triplicate moon) which is now currently sitting/riding on my left hip. About roughly a year ago I had a tattoo in the same area, only this time it was a dolphin riding on the waves with the letters 'xliv' printed below it. The reason for those letters I might explain some other time. All I'll say is that they mean something to because thanks to a wonderful boy who I have not heard from in a year. Wherever you are, Sean, hello, hi, I wish you'd e-mail me. Anyway - why the Goddess symbol? Well... let's just say that I want to... get in touch with her? - No, that's not the word... but anyway - another reason is because I couldn't find a decent fairy to place on my left shoulderblade. For the MD (Mighty Ducks - animated) fans reading this, you'll know that my character there - Nyre Leviste has one on her let shoulderblade. Heheheh... talk about bringing what is written to real life. ;p . . . On white shirts. For teh first time since I bought this knitted thing *gestures to the white, short-sleeved turtleneck* I am finally wearing it. Heheheh... Flip, pumapayat na ako (ed~ trans: I am finally getting slimmer), which is why I am going to grovel at your feet tonight and beg you to be my spotter for the next two weeks that training stops and the constant fear of me blimping up before the debut begins anew. Gr. The life I have to lead due to slow metabolism. ;p Heheheh... I dunno why I even wrote that *points up to the first title*. But I guess it feels... great, today to have a lot of things out and hopefully resolved. Maia - I love you so much, ma ch鋨e, thank you again for being honest. *huggles* I wanna see you na!!! Gah! And then there's the fact that I blog-hopped a little while ago and found this here: Well...let me get one thing straight...eden, i never used you as my crutch...never. I wouldn't even dream of it. Is that what you really thought it was? The thing is, i just want to be open to you...I didn't want to hide any secrets from you. The only time that I asked for your help was with a certain something...I just wanted us to be like sisters...but it doesn't necessarily mean that I use you as a crutch. I tried my best. God knows I did. As much as possible, I didn't ask help from you...I just told you my problems, because I don't want to keep any secrets from you. Because I want you to feel that you are a part of my family. Hope...Ate Maia...thank you for your shoutouts. They cheered me up.^_^ And nesan, thanks again. When you and big bro talked to me, I realized I was being too greedy. I wanted to get along with everybody...even if that meant I have to degrade myself in order for them to like me...I did it. I was an idiot.This past 3 years, I realized I lost myself completely. I let the waves wash me away. The Alessa that Eden meant wasn't like this. The Alessa that Eden met,was strong. I finally knew what it meant, and I realized I was strong, only a long time ago... So eden, I accept your proposal of being friends again. Yet I promise you, once I find the real me, the me that you knew and loved, the me, 3 years ago, I assure you, I will be once again the best friend that you can proud of. Count on it ^_^ Nesan...Eden...I love you guys.^_^ arigato... This is my last sorry. I'm sorry if I ever hurt you,Eden. I'm sorry nesan, if I ever disappointed you. The both of you totally rock. I mean it.(",) Now...for the people who are sick and tired of reading this blog due to its constant whining, and especially for the people who antagonized me this past three years...to my loved ones, Eden and Melina...the curtain rises here...watch me bloom... *sniffles and searches for a tissue* Not meaning to be melodramatic or anything but I really am proud (to the point of joyful tears) that I manged to get through to you, Lessa. *huggles* I am v. proud of how you handled this - and very relieved that...well. You get the point. ;p Let's just say that your neesan has this thing about when people stop texting her. Heheheh... crisis finished, I hope that it's okay with all parties concerned (read: all of my babies) that I slump you in the same table at my debut. Table preparations and bloody placecards kill a person's brain. Geez. The things I have to go through to hype up the... most important(?) birthday in my life. Yuck. That was soooooooooooo cheesy. Heheheh...;p . . . Hah. See what I mean? My darling imouto is improving *huggles Lessa again* and has shown... exemplary *blinks ~ is that the right term?* - erg... commendable... gah. Nevermind. I don't make sense anymore. I need more sleep. Gr. NEEEEEEEEEEEEXT!!! Hah. Well there's Maia's honesty, Alessa's new achievement, the fact that three out of six of the Wednesday Gang (Isis, Harle, Me... though Mac showed up later on) met up with Hope, Nenloth (tell you mom I said hello!!!), my highschool kada - Ice and Meloi, and... methinks I'll be adopting someone new...but for the moment - I don't think I can yet. ;p *huggles Marty* Marty, get a bloggie! Then I'll be able to bother you 24/7! Heheheh... Ich. Sorry if I was so out of it last Wed. That's what you call information overload - DLSU style. Hm...what else... Ich. I'll just blog a new entry when I make further sense. I...have to do something... don't ask *sweatdrops and skitters out of the comp lab for a minute* ... Talk about a LOT of things happening. Ich. Me and my life. Makes me smile though, to see that things are better than how I thought they were. I mean, heck, I have wonderful, adorable, loving friends, fun in life, i have a sport that i love playing, a great brother (who, unfortunately refuses to update his blog), i am turnig 18 in less than a month and... well... let's just say that excluding my present predicament in school - everything's fine and dandy. heheheh... Hm... I joined a fanlisting for this new indie (that... did not sound right somehow) band that's taken my attention by storm. why? i fell inlove with the lyrics. hehehe... and to think, i only got to know them because i watched buffy, saw warren (read: robot-making-guy-with-geeky-voice) and thought he looked like CP. enough about CP. we're talking about adam. he's... unique. pretty much, and i like Common Rotation (that's the band) more because i love their music rather than my ever-recent crush on the guy. well... you know me. i'm this way or that... and everything else in between. anyway, i'm practically drowning myself in the cd mom burned for me - *gasps* yes! my mom's stoooooooooofid Mac of a computer actually burns cds! thank GOD for that. ;p eheheheh... marf. what else? ...heh. pretty much nothing... though i will hop over to isis' blurty to take a look-sie at what's up with my sister. and before i forget: new email!!! -->venus_on_a_moodswing@yahoo.com. blame flip, my darling younger-older-taller-baby-brother *huggles* for the wonderful name! anyone wanna make me avatars? i found the piccies athena... but i haven't uploaded them yet. me want stitch and... lesse...adam avatars. heheheh... a nice ave of dawn would do as well. athens - kick DE in the butt. he'd better update some more. i changed the bloody layout for his bloggie already. ~Mel out.

Comments: Add Your Own.

Subject: after the longest time... Time: 10:11 am. Mood: aggravated. Music: 'The Remedy' ~ Jason Mazz(?).

i am now updating this thing as it is due. ich. on hte friends list, i am happy to state that darling isis has decided to join in. ich. i am currently trying to update AB, especially since so many people have been clamoring for more. dagnabit! hold your horses guys! i only have two hands and few ideas to plug into the thing. gah. yes. i am stuck again. slumped in a rut that i can't seem to get past. xp there. mini-rant for now... *back to updates* *coughcough* one last thing though? can anyone make me an avatar? haldir? cp? wildwing? stitch? gah ~ you choose, i'll put it up. muah! ciao mi bellas!

Comments: Read 1 or Add Your Own.

Subject: I swear, if I start blubbering I will go ahead and kick myself Time: 8:04 pm. Mood: happy. Music: "If You're Not the One" - Daniel Benningfield.

I got a letter from Athens today... and in all honesty, it makes up for all the misery that I thought I'd likely face on the morrow. Ma chere... you have no idea how much your letter means to me. And the fact that well... I don't know if I'm speaking too soon, but I'm proud of how you're handling this... and how much you've (for lack of better term) 'turned' to add a little optimism in your life. Cher, there is so much that I'd like to say, so much that I understand will be left unsaid, but I always pray that you will remember that I am here for you -- not to 'put up' with you, chere... but to be as good a friend as I can be. You've done so much for me in the past that I just think it's time I be there for you. *shakes head* It's no miracle, cher, that I'm hanging around for you -- it's what is carefully termed as friendship... one that I let loose of for far too long because of unresolved issues. *laughs* I guess that conversation on msn did more than just dig up the old graves... I needed to vent mon ami... it's been stuck inside for too long that I didn't know what the f~~~ to do with it. But that's over now and that part of me is finally at peace. I wish you the best in everything to do. -- Remember, just holler and call, if you wish. I will excuse myself from the classroom and talk to you if that's what you need. And *psh* I detest you thinking that you're: 'Fucked up as it is anyway.' Doll, we're only 'fucked up' if we think we are. Besides, some ingrate of a moron used that term to describe a particular relationship and since then I've tried avoiding that particular phrase. -- But hey, whatever rings your bell, mi bella. BELLA -- something of a term akin to beautiful. Yes! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! In your darkness you are, in your light, you are. For we are all beautiful according to how those who love us see us. Fia-petít and I see you that way... we both hope that is enough for you.

Comments: Read 2 or Add Your Own.

Subject: In the lab... Time: 9:08 am. Mood: awake. Music: "Bring Me To Life" (yet again) - Evanescence.

and as Maia would say: GaH! just came from FILIPI2...had my midterm today and my writing hand still pretty much hurts from the whole essay part *grumbles about the A-E topics she had to discuss in full* *groans* I hardly think describing the whole process of writing a resume is fun. gr... anyway...so far everything's been good. *sighs* just a little worried over athens since she texted (yes, ALL the way from Aussie again) to rant about the fact that her darling little angel, fia cried just recently. *glares in the direction of the person who made fia-chere cry* 'Thens. i offered to skin him for you, but *sighs* you said not to, so i won't. i don't see the point of not coming to help fia though...but i guess you're right when you say that the little chit needs to learn how to straighten her own spine before the rest of us can step in. *frowns* i hate not stepping in tho...but hey--that's me.

Comments: Add Your Own.

Subject: this is completely insane... Time: 9:49 am. Mood: amused. Music: "i'll be okay" - My Bestfriend's Wedding.

yes. *pfs* i have completely lost all real sense of reason. and it's all because of you. *smirks* yes... so i went ahead and got one.Ü heheh...what a better way to keep in touch with you and you... most especially since we rarely see each other. (not you how! i get to see you every tues/thurs...heheh...) wai! *makes a grab for stich* mel! gimme avatar for this one!Ü i am trying DESPERATELY to keep the haldir avartar on my LJ where it is. *sweatdrops* mrf...i'm actually thinking of hunting down this...piccie. *pauses* waitasec... *goes off to look for her nyre pixie*

Comments: Read 2 or Add Your Own.

Blurty for {{ IELLE }}. View: User Info. View: Friends. View: Calendar. View: Memories. You're looking at the latest 11 entries.