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Hello peoples, Blake and I broke up =\ well i guess it was for the best but i'm still upset here's the convo:
............ TeenageZOMBIE121: can i tell you sumthing.. xMRsUpErFuCx: yeah TeenageZOMBIE121: i have been hearing from people [no names] that you think i ahve been ignoring you...like when i go places, well thats not true.. i have been thinking about you alot lately, and im soo confused, and scared xMRsUpErFuCx: really? TeenageZOMBIE121: yeah xMRsUpErFuCx: why are u confused and scared baby TeenageZOMBIE121: i dont kno why, i just like am not ready for this whole "love" thing, like i really like you blake, and i wanna see where this relation ship goes, but im just not ready to fall in love, and i dont want to hurt you and i dont kno wut to do xMRsUpErFuCx: o TeenageZOMBIE121: yeah...:-( xMRsUpErFuCx: well i guess we both think differently on that matter TeenageZOMBIE121: well i want to kno wut you think.. im sorry i just had to tell you, i dont want to hide anything from you xMRsUpErFuCx: i respect u for that TeenageZOMBIE121: yeah xMRsUpErFuCx: i dunno iam just looking for something serious I guess but i understand why ur not i mean ur younger then iam and i understand xMRsUpErFuCx: i just really want suttin serious with someone TeenageZOMBIE121: i kno, i am young and i just want to see where my life can take me... i dont want to break up r anything, i care to much, im just not ready to fall in love yett TeenageZOMBIE121: :'( im sorry xMRsUpErFuCx: well i dont know what 2 say TeenageZOMBIE121: niether do i xMRsUpErFuCx: I dont wana be the one 2 be with u and end up falling in love with u one day and have 2 know that u dont want that feelings TeenageZOMBIE121: yeah... TeenageZOMBIE121: but you do relieze i care about you alot right, i mean im just scared, i have never had a boyfriend like you..your great and im scared becuz its just a new feeling for me TeenageZOMBIE121: :'( xMRsUpErFuCx: i like u alot deeana you know that and so does everyone else and i wish i could take love out of the picture but I cant and I know later on not now or anything but one day when were still 2gether love is gonna find me again and its gonna be for u xMRsUpErFuCx: and it scares me 2 know u dont wana fall in love with me TeenageZOMBIE121: its not that i dont wanna fall in love with you, its i dont wanna fall in lvoe with anyone right now xMRsUpErFuCx: well how do u stop that from happening? TeenageZOMBIE121: i dont kno xMRsUpErFuCx: I dont wana give u feelings that u dont wana have TeenageZOMBIE121: i kno.. im sorry xMRsUpErFuCx: well what do u think we should do? do u think we should stay 2gether? or be apart? TeenageZOMBIE121: i want to stay together, i dont want to break up... xMRsUpErFuCx: deeana u say u dont wana fall in love but how can u say that> xMRsUpErFuCx: no1 sayes one day i dont wana fall in love and then have it never happen its just not possiable TeenageZOMBIE121: i dont kno blake, im soo confused.. you see i care about you alot, you make me happy.. i just feel im too young for the love part.. xMRsUpErFuCx: and iam not iam only 18 deeana iam still young love is hard for me also but i take my chances with u cause i dont think u would ever backstab me TeenageZOMBIE121: and i wont back stab you.. im just so lost, i think you deserve sum1 better than me, your soo great and you deserve sumthing great xMRsUpErFuCx: I have someone great........but it just hurts cause I know love is out of the picture and thats what I need TeenageZOMBIE121: yeah TeenageZOMBIE121: im so sorry, i just had to tell you xMRsUpErFuCx: ive never been happy when i was younger i always hated myself and it hurt me inside and it changed who iam when i got older and love is what makes me alive it makes me feel good about myself and maybe iam not such a fuck up xMRsUpErFuCx: it takes away all the pain I feel inside TeenageZOMBIE121: you are not a fuck up, at all.. TeenageZOMBIE121: and i want you to stay happy and i dont want you to think i ahve false feelings for you, becuz i have feelings for you, just not love ones xMRsUpErFuCx: i wana fall in love with u deeana but I dont wana now if u dont want love TeenageZOMBIE121: geez, im sorry i todl you all this...i dont want to hurt you blake, thats the last thing i would do... xMRsUpErFuCx: i know but i'd rather know now xMRsUpErFuCx: but I just dont know what 2 do now TeenageZOMBIE121: same here, i have no clue xMRsUpErFuCx: i wana stay with u but i know my feelings for u will get stronger and stronger and i dont want u feeling bad cause ur not ready for love TeenageZOMBIE121: yeah xMRsUpErFuCx: so what do u think? do u think we should end it here? or what? iam so confused TeenageZOMBIE121: i am confused too xMRsUpErFuCx: you know i like u sooooo much but i cant be with someone iam scared 2 fall in love with cause we wount be able 2 share that love TeenageZOMBIE121: yeah xMRsUpErFuCx: so maybe we should just stop here then TeenageZOMBIE121: blake, i want you to be happy, and i want you to find your love, i dont want to base or relationship on false feelings.. xMRsUpErFuCx: i know xMRsUpErFuCx: so i guess this is it TeenageZOMBIE121: i dont kno TeenageZOMBIE121: if that is wut you want, i just wanted to talk to you about it xMRsUpErFuCx: its not what I want but i think its whats best TeenageZOMBIE121: yeah xMRsUpErFuCx: iam sorry TeenageZOMBIE121: im soo sorry blake :-( xMRsUpErFuCx: its not ur fault i respect u so much for talking 2 me about this b4 it was 2 late TeenageZOMBIE121: yeah, i dont want to hurt you xMRsUpErFuCx: your always gonna be apart of me deeana TeenageZOMBIE121: and please dont hate me for this.. :-(.. i still want to have a friendship with you xMRsUpErFuCx: i can never hate u TeenageZOMBIE121: ok good, becuz i could never hate you too xMRsUpErFuCx: thank you TeenageZOMBIE121: no problem TeenageZOMBIE121: can we still be friends? xMRsUpErFuCx: yes xMRsUpErFuCx: of course TeenageZOMBIE121: ok good
well there it is all of u should understand wat happened. wel gtg now Ally's over byebye
\/\/\/\/ Deeana /\/\/\/\
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