Blake and I broke up =\ well i guess it was for the best but i'm still upset here's the convo:
TeenageZOMBIE121: can i tell you sumthing..
TeenageZOMBIE121: i have been hearing from people [no names] that you think i ahve been ignoring you...like when i go places, well thats not true.. i have been thinking about you alot lately, and im soo confused, and scared
xMRsUpErFuCx: why are u confused and scared baby
TeenageZOMBIE121: i dont kno why, i just like am not ready for this whole "love" thing, like i really like you blake, and i wanna see where this relation ship goes, but im just not ready to fall in love, and i dont want to hurt you and i dont kno wut to do
xMRsUpErFuCx: well i guess we both think differently on that matter
TeenageZOMBIE121: well i want to kno wut you think.. im sorry i just had to tell you, i dont want to hide anything from you
xMRsUpErFuCx: i respect u for that
xMRsUpErFuCx: i dunno iam just looking for something serious I guess but i understand why ur not i mean ur younger then iam and i understand
xMRsUpErFuCx: i just really want suttin serious with someone
TeenageZOMBIE121: i kno, i am young and i just want to see where my life can take me... i dont want to break up r anything, i care to much, im just not ready to fall in love yett
TeenageZOMBIE121: :'( im sorry
xMRsUpErFuCx: well i dont know what 2 say
TeenageZOMBIE121: niether do i
xMRsUpErFuCx: I dont wana be the one 2 be with u and end up falling in love with u one day and have 2 know that u dont want that feelings
TeenageZOMBIE121: but you do relieze i care about you alot right, i mean im just scared, i have never had a boyfriend like you..your great and im scared becuz its just a new feeling for me
xMRsUpErFuCx: i like u alot deeana you know that and so does everyone else and i wish i could take love out of the picture but I cant and I know later on not now or anything but one day when were still 2gether love is gonna find me again and its gonna be for u
xMRsUpErFuCx: and it scares me 2 know u dont wana fall in love with me
TeenageZOMBIE121: its not that i dont wanna fall in love with you, its i dont wanna fall in lvoe with anyone right now
xMRsUpErFuCx: well how do u stop that from happening?
TeenageZOMBIE121: i dont kno
xMRsUpErFuCx: I dont wana give u feelings that u dont wana have
TeenageZOMBIE121: i kno.. im sorry
xMRsUpErFuCx: well what do u think we should do? do u think we should stay 2gether? or be apart?
TeenageZOMBIE121: i want to stay together, i dont want to break up...
xMRsUpErFuCx: deeana u say u dont wana fall in love but how can u say that>
xMRsUpErFuCx: no1 sayes one day i dont wana fall in love and then have it never happen its just not possiable
TeenageZOMBIE121: i dont kno blake, im soo confused.. you see i care about you alot, you make me happy.. i just feel im too young for the love part..
xMRsUpErFuCx: and iam not iam only 18 deeana iam still young love is hard for me also but i take my chances with u cause i dont think u would ever backstab me
TeenageZOMBIE121: and i wont back stab you.. im just so lost, i think you deserve sum1 better than me, your soo great and you deserve sumthing great
xMRsUpErFuCx: I have someone great........but it just hurts cause I know love is out of the picture and thats what I need
TeenageZOMBIE121: im so sorry, i just had to tell you
xMRsUpErFuCx: ive never been happy when i was younger i always hated myself and it hurt me inside and it changed who iam when i got older and love is what makes me alive it makes me feel good about myself and maybe iam not such a fuck up
xMRsUpErFuCx: it takes away all the pain I feel inside
TeenageZOMBIE121: you are not a fuck up, at all..
TeenageZOMBIE121: and i want you to stay happy and i dont want you to think i ahve false feelings for you, becuz i have feelings for you, just not love ones
xMRsUpErFuCx: i wana fall in love with u deeana but I dont wana now if u dont want love
TeenageZOMBIE121: geez, im sorry i todl you all this...i dont want to hurt you blake, thats the last thing i would do...
xMRsUpErFuCx: i know but i'd rather know now
xMRsUpErFuCx: but I just dont know what 2 do now
TeenageZOMBIE121: same here, i have no clue
xMRsUpErFuCx: i wana stay with u but i know my feelings for u will get stronger and stronger and i dont want u feeling bad cause ur not ready for love
xMRsUpErFuCx: so what do u think? do u think we should end it here? or what? iam so confused
TeenageZOMBIE121: i am confused too
xMRsUpErFuCx: you know i like u sooooo much but i cant be with someone iam scared 2 fall in love with cause we wount be able 2 share that love
xMRsUpErFuCx: so maybe we should just stop here then
TeenageZOMBIE121: blake, i want you to be happy, and i want you to find your love, i dont want to base or relationship on false feelings..
xMRsUpErFuCx: i know
xMRsUpErFuCx: so i guess this is it
TeenageZOMBIE121: i dont kno
TeenageZOMBIE121: if that is wut you want, i just wanted to talk to you about it
xMRsUpErFuCx: its not what I want but i think its whats best
xMRsUpErFuCx: iam sorry
TeenageZOMBIE121: im soo sorry blake :-(
xMRsUpErFuCx: its not ur fault i respect u so much for talking 2 me about this b4 it was 2 late
TeenageZOMBIE121: yeah, i dont want to hurt you
xMRsUpErFuCx: your always gonna be apart of me deeana
TeenageZOMBIE121: and please dont hate me for this.. :-(.. i still want to have a friendship with you
xMRsUpErFuCx: i can never hate u
TeenageZOMBIE121: ok good, becuz i could never hate you too
xMRsUpErFuCx: thank you
TeenageZOMBIE121: no problem
TeenageZOMBIE121: can we still be friends?
xMRsUpErFuCx: of course
TeenageZOMBIE121: ok good
well there it is all of u should understand wat happened. wel gtg now Ally's over byebye