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[13 Feb 2003|02:07pm] |
Where have all the Danny's gone? idono I can only speak for this Dan and I've been here just not HERE.
So much has happened since the wedding, Trevor is still as amazing as he was before I said I do and even more so now. His sweet gestures of wanting to carry all of our burdens for the 2 of us so that I won't have to bare it at all makes me love him even more. BURDENS you say? No in all honesty and I'm thankful for this Trevor and I have managed to stay below that burden line.. close enough to be touched but just far enough away not to feel the effects of it. I can truly say that I am amazed by something new that I find out about him everyday. He's so complex and there are so many angles to him I'm just glad I get to be the one to find them. Being Married was a huge step for us to take and I was nervous that it may have been the wrong one, but then I look at him and I feel him close to me and I know him like internally and he knows me to my core and you know that's enough that's all I need when our souls touch I feel warm cause I know that I am complete.
I sit back and I watch the struggle Erik and Ashley go through and I hurt I hurt and I feel quilty cause I didn't have to carry on my back what they carry on thiers. Yes Trevor and I didn't have it peachy before we were made a couple but it's been grand since we've been one. I know Erik Loves Ashley more than life itself and I know Ashley feels the same. I just wish there was a way they could be happy like Trevor and I. How long do you put up with the struggle before you throw in the towel? I would have never thrown it in cause I knew he was my meant to be, but The Ashrik never seem to make it even half way over that wall before falling down again. I hurt for them. My heart cries for them. I want Ashrik to feel the love that I feel everyday just being close to Trevor in my mind. I want the pain to subside and the sky to open up bright above their heads. I want more than anything for them to have Peace in their hearts I want them to be utterly happy and always in PARADISE. You know if someone deserves it ASHRIK does!
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