Below are the 17 most recent journal entries recorded in Zeeeee's Blurty:

Saturday, August 14th, 2004
8:30 pm	OH MY GOOD GOD THE F((**&ING MCATS ARE OVER (FOR NOW AT LEAST...) OH MY GLORIOUS LORD I DID NOT NO HOW GOOD LIFE CAN FEEL. THE SECOND I WALKED OUT OF THAT ROOM I FELT LIKE GOD HAD LIFTED MOUNT EVEREST OFF MY BACK. SO HERES A SYNOPSIS OF TODAY...(kinda starting with late last nite) so the fam decided to take me to a2 so that i wouldnt have to drive all the way there in the morning to make it to the test site by 8. we got there around 11ish and i was already so tired that i had fallen asleep in the car. we checked into the hotel room and just talked for a while (i was wondering why they put us in room 911---what is it with our family and them stickin us in room 911 at all the hotels?????) i could not for the life of me fall asleep. the bed was so uncomfortable and lumpy and i had to throw my leg over has in order to find a comfy position. she was nice in that she didnt mind it at all! i guess everyone just kinda took pity on me seeing as the way i freaked out yesterday. i dont no when it was that i drifted off into sleep, all i remember is the blaring wake up call right into my left ear. i kinda just chilled in bed for a while and threw myself into the shower in an attempt to wake up. went down and had these pancakes (the best freakin pancakes i ever had...too bad i was shovin em down my throat so that i could make it to the test site in time). so then i get to angell hall and theres a line from here to yugoslavia. so there i go all the way to the back waiting to get thumbprinted and laughed at cuz my picture ID looks so revolting. check in, i brush past the box full of test booklets and just like my true character, knock em all over. how fatally embarrassing i wanted to drill a hole and shrivel up and die. so then i get seated and i meet brian from princeton review which was nice. i felt good that there was someone happy in there with me cuz hes always constantly smiling! mark was also there and this other chick that i started to bitch and moan to about on how gay those procters were. so this poor guy walks in at 8:45 and the bitch wont let him in!!! its not like we even started testing yet. ugh people like that make me SO infuriated. wellll physics was a crock of shit...no forget that the whole exam was a huge crock of steaming crap! where the hell did that thing come from? i took so many practise exams and not one prepared me for the crap today. i honestly felt like puking. at our break ( a generous 10 mins) i went to the bathroom to put on my t shirt under my hoodie (cus it was -50 below zero in the room) and there was this girl crying and puking in the stall next to mine. wow...okay. so went back, did the verbal section which was the hardest verbal ive ever done...then had a lunch break. i met up with thomas and he took me to the earthen jug (?) restaurant buffet place which was nice VEGAN INDIAN food....mmmmmmmmm. we rushed back to the test site and they had to thumbprint us yet again. T and i decided that if i had to take the mcats again, next time we will assasinate this plan called 'operation MCAT burqa' and he will come in fully decked in burqua and take my physics section for me, whereupon at the lunchbreak we can switch and ill finish up with verbal and bio. we still have to figure out the shit about the thumbprint though...thatll be a toughie. it felt like i was in that room for ages. during the bio i started to see these weird green lines convoluting behind my eyelids in some really cool pattern. too bad thats never happened before..i wanted to concentrate on the lines but this bio shit was there waiting for me. interestingly enuf, i finished bio way ahead of time (maybe i was smart at it, maybe i just gave up when they started asking about ratios of prostrate tumour cells to some specially fluoresced tagging viral device...when there was NO way to answer the questions). i felt like DYING time was going by so slow and i wanted to get out and get into the warmth and heat that my brown skin is aquired to. finally it was time to go but oh no...wait we had to fill out this gay ass form on 'how was your testing experience today?' i wanted to tell them it sucked, icicles were hanging off my nostrils and that i wanted them to take this piece of paper, roll it and shove it nicely into a small opening ........after what seemed like a decade i got out and jumped into the car and sang all the way home. i did go to starbucks after and got myself a soy white mocha latte type deal but the bitch was so spastic...that she screwed up my order. after sitting in that room and getting my brain churned i totally just blew up at her cuz she was asking me for five bucks that i had already given the ho...i felt kinda bad but she should have known....some people are just so stupid that they ought to be sterilised. i am so relieved.........i cant stress that more often. i am going to go and catch up on like....two months of dawsons creek!!!! laters folks Current Mood: rejuvenated Current Music: FAUDEL-YAMMIMA (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
12:26 am	dude wheres my brain im freaking out like crazy here. i havent updated this thing in ages but rani told me i had to update....so im updating. i took a practise exam today and i did not do well. i am kinda getting paranoid for saturday. i mean ive been studying for what....like two months strate and i just dont no whats goin on in this head. saturday is so near. i am just so scared. so anyone who loves me please pray for me. i really am guna need it. after saturday all this fuck will be over. thank the lord and i am OUT talk to yallaters Current Mood: crappy (Comment on this)
Friday, May 14th, 2004
1:10 am	sugar on a lollipop its a lovely night. its been raining and it has made it cooler. ah thank god...it was getting too hot here man. lets see lately ive justbeen lazing aroudn on the days i dont have class. today i had a freakin quiz tho which was kinda rough...eh we will see how that goes. time to also start studyin for the mcats. i have a mcat study buddy!!! cassandra will be strugglin through these summer months taking 6 hour practise exams with me. how exciting. im starving. i just ate a full tub of cool whip with butter biscuits god........it was heaven on earth. i really want more!!! arrrrr bad bad bad. thats all i have to say. oh.........wait avril lavigne needs to get out of my head!!!! DID U THINK THAT I WAS GUNA GIVE IT ALLL TO YOUUUUUUUUUU LALALALALALAAAAAAAAAA DONT TRY TO TELL ME WHAT TO DOOOOOOOOOO DONT TRY TO TELL ME WHAT TO SAY Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: AVRIL (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 8th, 2004
2:24 pm	pondering... i was brushing my hair in the bathroom last night and saw a spiders web in the corner by the door. there was this little insect stuck in it and struggling and i felt terrible. but then i saw the spider come out of his little hole and i bet he was hungry. what a dilemma...i wanted to save that insect but then the spider would go hungry. it hurts to watch nature take place sometimes. i decided to finish up in the bathroom and walk out fast before i would try to interfere. i cant imagine how God must feel when He sees all this suffering in the world right now....and when i think of that i realise how petty everyday tribulations of mine are. the world is going out of control. there is no more respect left for life. so i dont no what one person like me is going to do to help. and feeling helpess is one of the worst feelings i have ever had. peace out people. Current Mood: sad Current Music: britney spears 'everytime' -never thought id listen to brit! (Comment on this)
1:59 am	KELLY:):):):):) I LOVE KELLY.....................................I DONT NO WHAT MY LIFE WOULD BE LIKE WITHOUT KELLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IMissinIMyIHalo [1:49 AM]: which song Flame Pixie 16 [1:51 AM]: tap the bottle and twist the cap Flame Pixie 16 [1:51 AM]: whatever song that is IMissinIMyIHalo [1:51 AM]: llllllllol IMissinIMyIHalo [1:51 AM]: did u tap his bottle IMissinIMyIHalo [1:51 AM]: and twist his cap too hahahaha only kelly and i....onlyyyyyyy kelly and i. Flame Pixie 16 [2:00 AM]: get ur ass over here Flame Pixie 16 [2:00 AM]: ! Flame Pixie 16 [2:00 AM]: i wanna play I LOVE YOU BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MWAH. PEACE OUT, HOMIES (Comment on this)
Friday, May 7th, 2004
8:27 pm	its been along long time so here it is summer holidays ---finally ive been able to slow down the pace of the seemingly neverending hubbub of student life. boy did i completely underestimate this year or what...it all started (how conveniently) in september with all those freakin indictments and bullshit. and since then its just been one huge ass nightmare on elm street evil rollercoaster ride from the depths of hell. when sometimes u are awake and truly think u are dreaming. the last couple of weeks at school were disturbing. i had so much to do in so little time i felt like i was a caged mouse trying to find my way out but each door i opened another one slammed me shut into a tiny quarantine of mockery hahaha. so there were papers upon papers (two french papers, ten pages and 12 pages consecutively) a presentation for my sociology class, two french orals, a huge ass cumulative chemistry exam. needless to say i started to feel so.,....OVERf*ckin whelmed with it all. so i would study and study lock myslef in my room until i sat there one day and my room felt like a miniature hell. i hadd to get out so i would go and study in the library. well after what seemed like two decades i was finally finaaaaaaallly done. it took three hours to clear out my room even with the help of my bro and sis. i honestly did not no one person can accumulate so much crapp into a tiny ass room over the matter of one semester. anyways here i am alive. wishing i could leave this place and just bugger off back to england. i miss everyone there i miss my cousins i miss my family i miss the food the air the rain. and i miss feeling like i had a place to call home. peace out homies...ill catch yall later Current Mood: lonely Current Music: take my breath away...jessica simpson (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003
12:35 am	santa baby today i was awaken at about 9 freakin am by the adults yelling like insane afghanis in the mountains and the two cousins screaming and playing some blind man buff game. they knocked on my door im like uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh its too earlllly and dint get up to open it. so sanas like 'ali maybe shes nakeddddddd' in her high pitched little voice im like dear lord...open the door ali goes ' no shes nottt sanaaaaaaaaaaa leave her alone.' i love that kid!so i returned to bed with them jumping all over it and then decided that it would not work out i just may as well wakeeeee up. which i did. then lets see what else did i do today ummmmmmmmmmmm take care of my sick cousins, watched the tellie and eat. highlight of my day was going to the gas station. boy i stocked up on some major chocolate....dove milk chocolate and this mofo or a toblerrone....white one. it was freakin good. i ate so much junk food today i feel so unhealthy. not to mention the only day im fully motivated to go to the gym.....its closed! haha lifes a bitch. maybe ill get lucky and theyll be open tomoro. theres this so cute little squirrel who has these white tipped ears and white little feet! i call him giovanni. hes so cute he comes to the tree right outside my bedroom window and will eat the bread we throw out and all the time hes starting at me!!! i think he has a crush on me! hes adorable i wish i could keep him. its time to go to my room and think about writing some flash cards for MCAT. my life is such a bore i bet yall that read this feel sorry for me :( peace meery xmas happy chanukah hanukah and kwanzaa and whatever Current Mood: devious Current Music: pachelbel (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 20th, 2003
11:50 pm	its snow outside and u never did look so beautiful my cousins are hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ::)):):) boy have i missed them like HELL. i took ali out to meijers today to buy the legos that he wanted. kids are a terror in the toystore and its so freakin hard to say no to them. instead of just say no to drugs it should be just say no to kids. damn they pick shit up and ur like oh mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn i dont no if i have enuf money then they look at u with those eyes and ur like oh damnnnnnnnnn there goes my burberry purse hahaha and my manicure pedicure (girrrrrrrl!!!! lol ) so i spoiled ali and sana today. its ok they deserved it. sitting in a plane for freakin two days then being stuffed into a detention center in montreal. damn. gotta wake up early tomoro....time to study for the MCAT whooooooo hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo i no u wish u were me. everyone wishes they were Z peace out homies Current Mood: apathetic Current Music: hey ya (Comment on this)
12:59 am	pass that dutch im painting my nails. united states justice system sucks. there is no such thing. what a hypocritical oxymoron call it what u will i hate how fast time flies. i think the signs of the armageddon are arriving. my throat is hurting and i dont no why. i was on biaxin for a week and a half and i swear to god that shit better have worked on me but why is my throat so sore?????????????????????? i need to work outtttttttttttttttttttttttt i hate feeling so bum like. its nasty. this feather duster carries many allergens good night all Current Mood: sick Current Music: missy who else (Comment on this)
Friday, December 19th, 2003
3:22 pm	its time to see the doctorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i was just going downstairs to collect my laundry from mrs koski and i found this bath and body works bag with a bunch of my crap in it from ages ago. i found a letter from kelly in there from like 4 years ago! it was on my 17th birthday and reading it made me miss her so much. so kel when u read this i miss u!!!!!!!!!!!!!! today is an interesting day. first off i kept having dreams that i was still at albion and that i had forgotten all about my biology paper...it felt so real i woke up sweating. that was so scary!!!!! at 9 am a cardinal was outside my window cocking his head at me as if to say hi z...wake up!!! it made me smile. its so pretty outside with the snow adn the icicles hanging off the trees when the sun shines thru it is as if u are cast into an enchanted world into the dominion of fairies and unicorns and the icicles turn into diamond lanterns. you can almost hear the tinkling jingle of happiness. this would be a perfect world for me. it is really funny how one gets accustomed to their own keyboard. for example, i type so well on my own keyboard but i make a lotta mistakes on my brothers. weird isnt it? how the brain makes touch a memory. i wonder if i went blind would i be able to tell the ones i loved through touch. i think id be able to. im talkin to james rite now kel...and explaining to him about how fucked up academy of the sacred heart was. and about that one time we got an in school suspension for going to kels home for seriously half an hour without checking out. when the dean told us we would have an ISS kelly and i cried and candace was like haha what the fuck whateverrrrrrrrrrr. i miss candace. that ISS was surely interesting. if only they knew what naughty girls do in the chapels they get locked in. kelly and i wrote letters to each other, i read the stained glass windows and started to think of them in twisted story plots "feed my lambs silence my lambs...' warped. i think i will go work out today. its been at least a month. i feel terrible not working out but i had no time at albionnnnnnnnnn. i seriously need to get back into shape and running my three miles. i bet today ill run like two minutes and collapse. damnit i hate how working out just has to keep being rebuilt when u stop. but it feels so good to work out damn. time for stinky z to go and take her shower. more cleaning of my room is up ahead catch yall in a few Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: i get high all the time ~50 c (Comment on this)
2:37 am	SURVEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OK I STOLE THIS FROM KELLYS JOURNAL!! IM BOREDDDDDDDDDDD MUSH I LOVE YOU KELLY I MISSSSSSSSSSSS UR ASS What's your first name? zahrah Middle name? naheed Last name? khan Age? 20 Sex? FeMaLE Birthday? 26th april 1983 Your sign? taurus baby Where do you live? right now bloomfield f'in hills (there are no hills here) Have you ever been in love? Yes What's your favorite color? black do you have any piercings, or want any? ummm yeah ears belly if so what do you have/want pierced? i think im done for now do you have a tattoo or want one? no, and no if so what kind and where? if i did have one it would be on my bootie and it would say KISS IT where do you shop the most? victorias what color is your hair? dark brown what color are your eyes? dark brown how tall are you? im debating this...5'5 i think??????? do you smoke? hahaha when im highly highhhhhhhhhly stressed...i remember doin it with ayla and neema once during exams and with satoko i had some 'mellifana!!!' do you do drugs? DARE to keep kids off drugs what kind of music do you like? everything but country (i do love dixie chicks though) and hard rock and western if your a girl what kind of makeup do you use? victorias secret kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use? herbal essences and garnier and tresemme tresemme ohh la la is your hair short or long? long Do you like to shop? shit...............do i?????????????? What sports do you play? basketballlllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What are you most scared of? Being alone yeah that too kel, and that i wont be able to have kids and that ill get a 3 on the MCAT hahaha na...that i wont be able to fulfill my role in this life and that sick kids are hurting and all those animals going through pain that really scares me i want to help all the people and beings that have no voice. Who were your old crushes? too many to name........i love professor SNAPE!!! and faudel...hes an awesome french algerian singer:) ahhhhhhhh do you look like anyone famous? yeah...me!!!! Do you think your attractive? yes my personality who is the prettiest girl/guy you know? everyone is beautiful are you a virgin? yes Do you sleep on your stomach, side, or back? i just huddle under my quilt and take whatever position feels good hahahaha do you sleep with stuffed animals? I sleep with men <<< you whore kelly!! yes i do...my unicorn:) and care bear do you sleep with the lights on or off? off its all better in the dark What is your favorite TV show? i love chapelles show, ummmmm absolutely fabulous whats is your faveorite movie? dirty dancing, interview with a vamp, harry potters, lord of the ring, scary movies too, wuthering heights u get the jist what perfume/cologne do u wear? my two most frequented scents are angel and escada magnetism do you have your own phone line? yes What is your phone number? 1 888 CAL ZEEE Have you ever kissed someone of the opposite sex? yes What brand of shoes do you wear? right now they are steve maddens What kind of clothes do you wear to bed if any? comfy ones WHat's your favorite kind of soda? dr pepper are you serious, loud, happy, or shy type? happy and very loud!!!!!! what kind of car do you have? its an SUV u SOB who is the coolest person in the world? hmm I'd have to say Z <<< i love kelly!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and my answer is KELLY!!!!! but also my daddy do you think your weird or funny? i think both yeah me too kel who is the ugliest person you know? george w bush...i dont no who can come close to that mother whoring filchmonger, altho ariel sharon could, condoleeza rice ah the list goes on how about the whole administration! Are you popular? id say so yes whats your most embarrassing moment? tooooooooo many this is z u are talking about if you could have 3 wishes what would they be? that animals will stop being abused, children will all be happy and id save my last wish for the special time i needed it where do you wanna get married? england, scotland or wales who do you wanna marry? my knight in shining armour if u could change 1 thing about yourself what would it be? my temper Have you ever stolen anything? yup do you enjoy filling all this stuff out? waiting for mum and dad to go to bed what is your favorite fast food resutrant? they make me puke Who do you hate the most? satan do you have any brothers and sisters? 1 brother and 2 sisters do you have a pool? yes do you have a spa? yes are you stupid? are you what is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes, hands, manners, if they like kids, cologne what are you addicted to? if i answer that this will turn into some sick x rated thing do you like jewelry? z??? jewels???????? helllllllll yeah who do you wish you were? no one but myself yeah good answer kel whould you rather be short or tall? im happy do you like to dance? yes! so you party a lot? of course! are you online a lot? as much as i should be do you do chores? yeah yeah what is your favorite subject in school? biology Who is the funniest person you know? kelly!!! my dad, anjum, patrick, shoo beeee, boozer, too many! i love funny people what time is it? 2:53am how many people are on your buddy list? im not guna count r u sick of those pornos in your email box? of course not haha kel u whore! what college do u wanna go 2? z college of wonderful people u sleep alot? i love it r u a night or a morning person? night person why do guys blame everything women do on pms? cuz women blame everything on the man can u define love? its like someone reaching up into the night sky and bringing down a handful of stars and placing them in your heart so they dance do u get along with your parents? every now and then what do u wanna be when your out of college? cardiologist, mother, wife, humanitarian r u ticklish? hehe yes what is your favorite flower? forget-me-nots What does your room look like? princess y how big is your bed? its a king size:) how many kids do u wanna have? 8, 9 maybe 10 but nothing less than 8 do u believe in god? yes what religion r u? thats a stupid question my religion is islam, but u dont really say what religion are u do u??? do u believe there is person who is meant to be your one and only? yes What color toothbrush do you use? red how many times a day do you brush your teeth? 2 what is your favorite fruit? i love most of them what was the best day of you life? when i as born r u mammas little angel? hahaha mamasita mona??????/ thats guna take some time are u wearing nail polish now? no how many rings or necklaces do you own? cant count what is your favortie toothpaste? arm and hammer do you floss? too lazy are you tired? no do you have any scars? yes have you ever cried over someone of the opposite sex? yes what are you thinking right now? my uncle and cousins who makes you laugh alot? my friends how many pillows do you sleep with? theres like 6 in my bed right now 147. Hershey's hug or kiss? kisses 148. top or bottom? depends what the reference is to 149. favorite person to dance with? eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 150. are you glad this thing is done? bla Current Mood: artistic Current Music: LUDACRIS (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:12 am	cuz this life is too short to live it just for you its been an interesting couplea weeks and ive been too busy to update. but anyways since everyones been botherin me bout it i suppose i shall pleasure yall with another entry. my last day at albion was really rather depressing. well the last week was a blur of emotions. more often than not i was too tired to think of what was going on inside my head. i had to get my withdrawal signed by all the officials so off i went to the library where the mega biatche told me i owed the library 31$ for not "rechecking in" my laptop. i dont think i have heard of a more shitty excuse for billing someone money...i had my laptop out for more than 4 hours. haha what a joke that school is. so i paid off library bills. then had to go to the anal accounting office, got my bill sorted out OUCH it hurt to write that mother fucker of a cheque!!!!! tom pitt that piece of shit made me pay for those 'fradulent' telephone calls. piece of mother whoring person!!!! to this day i still dont no where that pin number came from neither does chevvie or whoever the hell else was involved in that case. whatever...so that was attempt number two for albion to rob me of more money. i was so happy to leave that nasty fiske house with all its drunken whores inside. the first day of our reading days they were up at 8:30 am partying. good lord. whilst i was ecstatic at leaving albion i hated to leave my friends. that stung so bad:( i cried allllllllllllllllllllllllllllll the two hour drive home. it sucked. my last nite at albion was reallllly pretty interesting. i stayed up all nite studyin for cel bio and did more talking with patrick who used to be in a french class with me than i did studying. i went into the exam and think i did ok. i duno it was cumulative so whatever. it felt so sad leaving gosh i cried so hard:( blalalalalahhhhhhh anyways. holidays have been aiite. i rearranged my room. i cant believe what a girly girl i am its SICK!!! but who cares i feel liek a pwinsess:) ummm....gotta lotta shit to do this holiday season...study for MCATS, get some volunteering at the hospital, med school applications, find a place to stay at a2, register classes. damn........ chevvie called me yesterday it was nice to hear her vvoice and of course as always my biatche kel telling me all bout her lovely fantastic days in AZ!!! yeah whilst im frezzing my arse off in michigan....urgh movies i want to see;;;;;;;lord of the rings, gothicka, love actually, mona lisa smile for now, that is im out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 18th, 2003
9:07 pm	can i stay awake with hot chocolate coffee really makes me sick its tuesday night. last night after being at the library i felt so alone so at around 3 am i just went and sat in my car and listened to the rain. today i woke up after a nice sleep. i couldnt go to bed cuz my roomate was on the phone. well my teacher is pissing me off i wrote her an email letting her no one fucking week in advance that i would not be present in lab on tuesday and also that it made no sense for me to come to school on monday because i would have to drive one hundred miles monday mornin and then driveone hundred miles back since eid is on tuesday. she replies by saying 'i dont see why you wouldnt come to class...' fucking bigot would she drive her ass to school on christmas eve? i cant stand close minded people that think the world revolves around their selfish existence. jus cuz im brown skinn ded and muslim makes me less able to celebrate my fuckin most important holiday of the year.... (*#@ this bigot land thanksgiving my ASS its more like thankstaking rape thisland rape other lands why not just blow the whole world to pieces and call it america peace out people despite my sometimes frustrated journal entries i STILL believe that there are good people out there (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 13th, 2003
12:52 am	theres no one in the library now and rats are runnin in the vents this has been an interesting day. i woke up to eat something at 6am and went back to bed. at 830 i dragged my ass out of my bed to the shower since i had an appointment at the health center for my whacked up leg. so i walk in tired to death and the receptionist says that the doc called in saying he was guna be late. shit...i coulda slept in. thennnnn my neuro class was cancelled but i stilll woke up and walked there just to make sure since ive been missing that class lots. so i watched dawsons creek. man i miss that show. well then i fell asleep from 12-1 and when i woke up for class i was so dead tired but i absolutely had to go. i fell asleep probably more than ten times in that class and i got back to my room and read over my notes only to find shit like 'connective tissue proper, three levels of your dream are in the muscles...' right...okay. that class seemed to last forever. i got my exam back and got an 81. i was shocked...i thought i had done reallly badly..like close to a 30 percent. so i was pleasantly surprised but i honestly have to get at least a 95 on the final or i will not like myself anymore. i came back to my room and slept more. yeah it was weird i slept all day today. and every time i woke up i felt worse than when i had gone to sleep. i woke up to break my fast and then i chilled on line for a bit. then i had a meeting which was awesome and came back to the room. i had a nice telephone call (hehe kel u no what i mean) and then came to the library at around 11pm. im here now but i have no immediate exams to study for so what do i do? procrastinate my dumb ass off writing in this journal. this blurty is the devil. but theres something pulling me to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu im excited for tomoro...since i have no class im goin shoppin by myself. everyone is really busy so im not even bothering to ask anyone if they wana come with me. im not looking forward to this weekend. im nervous for this MCAT course thing. the beginning of the end of my life is here this weekend:( im sore and tired and feelin a little down i wish i was in europe on my honeymoon right now peace out people ps kelly stop droppin hints about what u want for xmas on ur journals u little filchmonger!!! i still love u though:) mush ---Z--- Current Mood: anxious Current Music: baby bash 'lifted' or whatever the hell u call that song (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 12th, 2003
1:34 am	yaaaaaaaaaay flamepixie16: girl u are my FUCKINGGGGG HEROOOOOOOOO Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: money cash hoes (Comment on this)
1:25 am	friends when i was a little girl i had some really good friends. i also had a wild imagination. i loved my best friends but sometimes i would rather spend time with my stuffed animals. i was convinced that they were alive. i remember one time after my teacher was explaining the process of a christening to us, i went home and christened my doll. but then i realised i wasnt even christian! so then i got scared of the doll and threw her out in the rubbish bin. at night my heart felt so heavy so i went out and got her back in. it was just a doll... well my best friends came and left. it wasnt until college that i found out the true meaning of friendship. i made lots of friends here at school, but when i really really needed someone to talk to, the only one that was really there for me 24 7 was kel. she may never no it but she is the best friend i have ever had. i seriously dont no what would have happened if we hadnt been on the basketball team together. then we would never have started making up condom jokes and pretending to our coach jeff gruca that this stocking on the floor was a used one. then we would never have been friends! i think id be dead by now!!! kelly is guna be the first invite to my wedding. she will also have a VIP station in the middle of the dance floor for when beyonce and destinys child make their guest appearance. kelly will be dressed in tribal attire and will shake her thang. before i get to go on a honeymoon with my husband, kel and i have a special date. i just cant wait till the fan goes on....................... for the second time --------peace out homies------------- Z Current Mood: stressed Current Music: my love is like whoah (Comment on this)
1:09 am	the ho at the table next to mine yeah so here is my first entry. it will be kinda depressing. i hate school. i had to go to campus safety for this piece of shit interview today regarding mysterious phone calls that were being billed to some chick who took a leave of absence last freakin year. some of the calls were made to my roomates home in jamaica and then some were made to my own home phone. this makes no sense because my friggin pin number got disconnected freshman year. why is albion so screwed up? on another note...i registered for MCAT classes today. they will start this weekend, saturday and sunday 12:30-2:30, 3-5:30. and every weekend till april. am i crazy??? here starts my meagre existence of having NO LIFE. all this so that i can get a good grade on ONE mother fing exam. day-uhm. i wish missy elliott or angelina jolie were here. then id be real happy:) TUPAC RESSURECTION COMES OUT FRIDAY. i miss tupac. kelly jus added another entry. i think she is high. maybe shes just gone overdrive on doing what she does when the fan is turned on. thats my kelly belly:) maybe ill get into my truck and drive three hours to chicago so that i can go and see her then we can turn on the fan when i get there. hahahahha. im out. peace all. --Z-- (1 Comment |Comment on this)