ok so yesterday i FINALLY went to get my eyes checked. considering its been 5 yrs since my last eye exam and my glasses have been broken for 3 months now, i guess its time i finally went.
i'd rather get my teeth pulled than have my eyes checked.
the doc was very nice and patient. i dont know what i said but i know i had him laughing.
he told me that i really needed to have my pupils dilated and blah, blah, blah. my response "baby steps, doc" he just smiled "i know"
he asked me what nationality i was. hehehe no one can ever tell. i could be a spy i can pass for anything.
we're gonna see if i can wear contacts. things in my eye...i dunno. i dont even like for them to do the glaucoma test and thats only air.
***
i shopped at several stores for glasses. god i loathe shopping for eyewear. i have a big nose. its like decoration that says "look at the schnoz on this chick"
the doc actually told me that i "must" wear sunglasses when you are outdoors. UV protection was actually on my prescription. so you know what that means: more expensive glasses aaaargh.
so my options are as follows:
1. 2 pairs of glasses one being sunglasses- thats expensive.
2. regular glasses w/ the clip on lens- great something for me to lose
3. glasses w/ transition lenses. like my lenses arent expensive enough.
***
after looking at several places i went back to Pearle Vision. they have the lenses half off right now. and since thats where my expense really is. i decided just to get cheap frames and save on the lenses. my lenses run around $150-$200 thats JUST for the lenses. so i'm telling the girl how much i loathe the entire experience and i tell her that i'd really like to have transition lenses but it costs too much. and do you know what that sweet lil darlin told me? "well actually if you do that the frames are free IF you get frames that are less than $100 if it's over a $100 you pay the difference."
SOLD
we did the whole this color, that shape, this finish until we found a pair.
i spent $169 on my glasses, which is very cheap. cause thats less than my lenses all by themselves.
it could/should have been:
$89.92 frames
+$180.00 lenses
+ $80.00 for transitions
total $349.92
I could vaguely hear the music through the door. He answered the door with a smile. He hadn’t quite changed out of his work clothes. The tie was removed and the sleeves were rolled up. He was gorgeous- 5’11, brown hair, blue eyes and a nice smile. you could tell through his clothing that he was nicely built. I wondered if he knew how much I wanted him to just once grab me and kiss me. As I stepped inside he stepped forward and pulled me to him, looked me in the eyes and smirked just before he kissed me. There we stood in the doorway kissing. It was the way I’ve always wanted to be kissed. He pulled me towards the living room as we kissed. One hand rested on the curve of my back holding me to him, while the other cupped my face. As silly as it sounds I felt weak. He lightly ran his hand down my back. He teased me by running his hands lightly up my back and just above the edge of my low rise jeans. I was torn between pulling him to the ground and letting him lead the way. He stopped briefly to look me in the eye as he slowly lifted my shirt. I smiled and he removed my top and exposed my red bra. “damn that’s sexy” He kissed me once more, then moved down my neck and my shoulders. He pulled me to him, then kissed me long and deep all the while resting his hands on the curve of my hips. I felt him un-button my jeans and slowly unzip. I pulled him to me. I could feel him smile as kissed me. He kissed my neck and shoulders again. He slowly lowered my jeans as he kissed down my stomach. There I stood wearing only my red satin bra and red satin thong, while he stood completely dressed. He stepped back to admire me. He smiled “you’re perfect” He lead me to his bedroom. He stopped just beside the bed. He stood behind me and kissed the back of my neck lowered my bra straps and kissed my shoulders, then light butterfly kisses down my back. He stepped around to kiss my lips. Then went down my neck and undid my bra. He suckled my nipples. “oh my god” I whispered. He kissed down my stomach down my inner thighs. It felt as though he were trying to memorize every inch of my body with his lips. Finally he removed my panty, which were now soaked. He smiled. I undressed him. He was perfect, nicely built but not overly built. I ran my hands over his muscles as I kissed him. He lowered me to the bed. Again he started with my neck, down my stomach to my thighs before finally licking, my now dripping wet… it didn’t take long for him to make me cum. No one has ever been able to work me so quickly. It was if he had been given a manual on just what to do. I could still taste me on his lips. Hell even I was surprised on how sweet I tasted. I had to return the favor, but before I could finish he stopped me “come here, I want you” We started off slow, but our animal instincts took over and we went from making love to fucking. I finally had my back arching, eyes roll back in my head orgasm.
Then I woke up
when i knew that our marriage wasnt working i couldnt understand why he wanted to stay married. i would ask him why he wanted me. his response was always "because youre hot"
i was talking w/ jayson. i made the comment "i dont know why anyone would want to be with me. i have no job, no money, i'm in debt up to my eyeballs, i'm divorced and bitter"
he gave me the best answer i've ever heard. if rob had once said any of those things, we might have had a chance. part of what made his answer so perfect was that he didnt once mention my physical features.
***
to those that dotn know "because youre hot" is an insulting answer. it implies that you dont really like the person or really enjoy their company, you are only with them because they look good.
coming from your spouse, it is the worst possible answer.
my ovaries hurt.
ya know i've noticed that in the past year my cramps are much worse than they used to be. i wonder if somehow not having a sex life has anything to do w/ it. like some kind of cruel joke. ya know extra pain for not getting laid or something.... doubtful...maybe i should have lots of sex over the next month, well not including this week eew, and see if my cramps are this bad....oh wait duh, i dont have anyone to have sex with, well i guess i wont get to test that lil theory.
oooouuuuuuuch
well the other evening i was bored, so i did a search on match. 5'9-6'4, blue eyes, brown hair, 29-33yrs, within 30 miles of me. i'm going through the list and all of a sudden i see a familiar face. i start cracking up. Jayson was on there. (my bro's friend, the one my ex referred to as a "fat faced motherfucker") i call brock & mom and tell them both. mom laughs, brock doesnt seem that amused. anyway so i sent Jayson a wink just to let him know that i saw his profile. the next day (wed) i get this email from match.
Holy Crap!!!
I totally forgot about this ad!!!
How are you? Did you really move to Irving? Your brother said you
might but I hadn't heard anything more on it...
here's my email: XXXXXXX
here's my cell: XXXXXXX
here's my home: XXXXXXX
Call me and I'll take you around...
Oh, and you have WAY more positives than what you list.
Laters.
Jayson
anyway i call him. we talked on the phone. kelly was out w/ john. shortly after kelly got back from her bad date, i got off the phone. we had been on the phone for 3 hours. chris & darby are the only 2 other guys with whom i can talk that long. i was surprised he stayed on the phone that long.
we talked about match and our ideal mates. we jokingly decided to get married. other than the fact that i'm just not at all physically attracted to him, he does have all the traits i desire, including the weird things like being good at algebra, cal & trig. and i of course fit his ideal:P
****
ok so yesterday, i walk in the door and kelly says "john will be here in 45 minutes." i dont know what that statement meant but i took as a sign to get out and leave them alone so they could talk. al my friends are like a 45min drive away & i'm broke and have no gas. so i call jayson.
m: are you busy?"
j: no, not all
m: can you babysit me?
j: aww, are you bored?
m: well its not so much that as it is that kelly is expecting company...
so he picks me up and we went to BD's Mongolian BBQ (i LOVE mongolian BBQ) and then went to his apt and watched Spanglish. (good movie btw)
at dinner i of course had to call him on his bullshit. he said that he forgot he had match, but in order to email you have to pay. that crazy boy paid $30 so that he could email me, because he didnt want to ask brock for my number. silly man, in his head it was just easier.
we are sitting at his place, i make myself comfortable on the couch- kick my shoes off grab the throw. the chair is his seat. i'm all comfortable and sitting there w/ his shoes on
m: jason how can you be comfortable w/ your shoes still on?
j: i'm not really
m: well, take your shoes off silly. i've seen your ugly feet (he has tiny flat square feet)
j laughs: thank you for not saying they're cute. i hate when girls tell me that.
m: cute?! somebody told ya you have cute feet? they lied to you. you have ugly feet, you have flintstone feet...all feet are ugly.
j taking his shoes off: not all feet, i've seen pretty feet.
i've had a cough for over week now, its a nasty cough. he tells me "ordinarily i'd say you are pretty good looking but that cough just kills it" he got me a bottle of nyquil "take this now, if you are still sick when i get back into town on sunday i'm taking your ass to the doctor"
its too bad i dont find him the least bit attractive...actually, i guess its too bad i'm a shallow person. he has a fat face, short stumpy legs, a big gut and UGLY feet. blehk
well this is my second week as a temp, but my first day in HR. i wasnt sure what i was going to be doing. well it turns out i am there to file. yup, yup, i walked in and was told see all those files, those need to go in those cabinets in, condense the duplicates into one file. (i swear there are three hundred and thirty three thousand files that need to be filed) all i can say is that they are lucky, that i am anal about files and that i have teh experience to know that you cant just file stuff, you have to double check info. i was fixing things that needed to be fixed i.e: files that werent in alpha order, files that had misspelled names on the folder, making sure that each of the robert williams had the correct papers,(ya know like robert w. papers and robert e. papers werent mixed together) so needless to say i didnt get that far into the stack. i was explaining to the supervisor what i was running across. she and one of the other lady's were all "thank you so much, for taking the time to check everything, most people would have just put in the drawers and not worried about it" about a 3rd of the files are duplicate files. it's a mess back there. when i handed them the stack of duplicates i was told "i knew we had a problem, i just didnt realize it was this bad"
Sunday:
ended up going to my bro's house. we shot off some fireworkd until the cops shut us down. i stayed the night at brocks i was too tired to drive the 30 minutes home. one of his friends has the friendliest, sweetest lil girl. i think theres something wrong w/ me, because i didnt seem to get that...that well i dont even know what you call it, that thing that make syou think that almost everthing the child says is precious. i.e. skunderstorm instead of thunderstorm.
Monday:
went to ft. forth and spend the after noon my tia rose & tio jesse, bryan & shelly, joey & melissa, marissa and her son corbin and tanya & her son adrian (sp?) the 2 boys played in the pool while the guys bbq.
then we went to teh river and watched the fireworks. we could see different shows from where we were. after spending the afternoon w/ those 2 sweet lil boys i have decided that i definitely dont want children. i just dont find children all that cute. they are very loud. these 2 boys are not brats, they are pretty well behaved. i just..meh
corbin doesnt like his dad, he's always trying to hook his mom up w/ a guy. this is even funnier because she's still married to his dad.
ok so friday night nothing exciting happened. kelly and i went to eat mexican food, came back and sat by the pool for a couple of hours BSing w/ other tenants, while looking at the stars. it was relaxing. it would have been better if my throat weren't killing me. i sound terrible, like a 65yr old woman w/ emphysema.
as we were leaving kelly said "look at our shadows.. damn girl your butt sticks out more than mine"
i looked and shook my ass and said "yep, ba-donka-donk"
i have a great butt
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saturday i did nothing, i felt kinda crappy.
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sunday so far i have worked out, gone to the pool and now i'm getting ready to go to my bro's house. my cousin Tanya is in from florida. i'm so excited to see her.
met this nice looking hungarian guy at the pool today. i think i found kelly a another man.
i still sound like a 65 yr old woman w/ emphysema
ACT I
-----Original Message-----
From: Melissa
Sent: Tuesday, June 28, 2005 9:26 AM
To: Rhonda
Subject: RE: assignment
Rhonda,
I just wanted to let you know that my first day with Mosaic went fine. You
are correct it is a piece of cake position. I almost feel guilty getting
paid. Of course I will cash the check :D
My biggest problem is working the doors. I felt like a monkey yesterday, I
couldn't get the side door open. Apparently there is a trick to that side
door. All I could think was "this is ridiculous, I have opposable thumbs,
I can change the oil in my car, so why can't I get this door to open" Some
very nice young man finally let me in and shared with me the trick to opening
that door.
Other than the doors and not really knowing who anyone is, I am doing fine.
Thanks again,
Melissa
-----her response-----
Melissa,
I'm glad everything is going well....outside of the doors....that was pretty
funny...!!! I appreciate you letting me know how everything is going! Thanks!
Rhonda
***
ACT II (read this after 1st day as a temp)- talk about first impressions
well, i just found out that the nice young man that had to show me how to work a door is ... are you ready for this...the VP.
oh yeah, great first impression. i'm sure i will forever be remembered as the temp that couldnt operate a door.
nice, very nice.
ya know this could only happen to me.
***
ACT III
so tom walks in this afternoon (tom is the VP, i call him tom, because we're tight like that :) jk )and asks "how's it going?"
me: fabulous, i was able to work that side door all by myself today"
tom laughs : well thats a heck of a victory
me: well ya gotta have goals
tom: actually everyone has trouble with that door. (bill is the
president) bill and i can see them from our offices, we just watch and
laugh. depending on who it is we let them in.
me: oh well then in that case, thanks for letting me in and not making
walk through the bushes.
i told garret that i was able to work the side door today
his response: hey thats actually pretty good, there are times when i've had to walk through the bushes around the building and come through the front door.
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thank god i looked damn good in my skirt yesterday or i may have had to walk through the bushes.
finally the pics from the party.
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/nievesbryant/album?.dir=/629a&.src=ph&.tok=phyuYNDBkhNgqgKH
reunion favorites
"the guy that's in the lead" gina referring to one of the guys that she is dating
"she looks pretty good" jennifer's husband referring to the heavy set old woman carrying a tray of food. we were all starving.
"you got a lil fine on ya" bobby referring to me
"i'd date you now" bobby to gina. he said it as though it were a compliment. nobody wants his ghetto ass.
"where are the fun people?" dawnita
"the girls are still pretty and the guys got fat" jennifer she said that repeatedly through out the weekend"
matt lewis, i think matt was my favorite person. not only did he lose weight he gained a personality. he was so funny. he got the award for most changed.
***
my high school reunion
FRIDAY:
the h.s. rotunda-
arrived in town shortly before 6pm so i decided to drive around town. drove past the jr. high. i get to the high school. everyone is standing arounding talking. Except for hair styles everyone looked exactly the same. well the girl were still anyway, they were still pretty, but the guys got fatter. Harold, Bobby, Rashaan showed up. harold picked me up when he hugged me. :) Bobby informed me as he checkes out my ass "you got a lil fine on you girl" I talked to Shonna she asks "is brock here" i looked at her like she was nuts "no, why would my brother here" well it turns out brock told her that he would be in town. I talked to Gina & asked her why she snubbed DB and I last month in FW. She thought we had snubbed her and told BJ. Well we got that straigtened out. Everyone asked me for Debra. 10 yrs have past and they just assumed i would know, which of course i did. I got to see Gina's parents and meet her lil girl.
Toby's-
Almost everyone went to Toby's. we took over the back room of that place. It was crazy then other people from burk started showing up. It was so much fun. I think outsiders were afraid to come in. they'd stand at the doorway look in, then walked away. That room was all about BHS. It was fun, I guess get a lil alcohol in people and they are much cooler.
IHOP-
Harold, Bobby, Rashaan, Tomika, Yolanda, Debra, Brock, Jo and brocks friend Jason went to IHOP. Harold talked then entire time we were there. He is so ghetto. ya gotta love him. since we had gone to elem. together and we were all base kids we talked about way back when.
We all laughed about my mom. i think she really wanted to be there w/ us. she called harold, debra, me twice and then she called again aroun 2:15am when we were all at ihop "what are you guys doin?"
Debra's Mom's house-
since db's ma is in the NH, they have an old friend of AD's staying there taking care of the house. all debra told me was that his name was dwayne. around 4am we arrive, woke the guy up. the 3 of us are standing in the dark Liv rm talking. We didnt know each other. he was our senior so of course we didnt know each other. he said something and i said "whats your last name?" when he told me i started laughing. "oh my god i remember you" he flipped the light on, looks at me, points "cafeteria" we both start w/ "i remember you" debra looks at us "do ya'll need to go make out"
it was funny, you had to be there
we stayed up until it was time for dwayne to go to work
SATURDAY:
pic nic-
well the pic nic was from 11-1 and you'd have to ask someone that went how it went. we woke about a qtr to 11 and decided it was too damn hot. we sat around thne got dressed. Dwayne got home about 12:30 so we 3 went and ate lunch. we were following him. we were stopped at a light, and debra said something funny and i almost choked on my water. dwayne saw us in his rearview mirror, he turned around and laughed. when we got to there he asked if i was alright.
Mall-
DB and i go to the mall to find something for her to wear. i thought that was funny. she came in from DFW, but shops in WF. what made it even funnier was that we ran to a few folks from school shopping for something to wear.
Ms. Beaseley-
oh my god i wanted to cry when i saw her. it was her b-day. deb got her a burger, fries and a milkshake from whataburger. she shaked real bad, she cant bend her knees and only has use of one of her hands.
Harrison house-
for $30 you'd think we'd have some food. i knew we wouldnt. thats where we had dad retirement. they had finger foods but no meal. some people showed up in jeans, some were dressed up. i liked it though everyone was comfortable. the one thing that everyone i think everyone talke dabout was how snooty Atchley and doty were. even people taht were friends w/ them in hs were making comments.
Grahams-
yes we went to grahams. it was fun though. again once people got tipsy they became fun. the thing i like dthe most is that people were not sticking to their old clicks. they were hanging out w/ people they would have back then. well for the most part there those few. Dawnita made laugh. "i was over there w/ those people and was bored, my god they are boring, i saw stacy and said where are the fun people?" so dawnita left that group and came over and joined us. one of the guys from our happend to walk by and debra grabbed. he had no idea about the reunion. in fact he was on our list of missing persons. so he joined us. John Martin told me that i had "upgraded since high school" that was funny for 2 reasons, one i dont remember at all (yet he remembered me), and everyone told me i looked "exactly the same" Gina and i got ghetto, we danced in the cage. they didnt think we'd do it. and no, we werent drunk.
toby's-
grahams was too hot and too crowed. so we left and hung out at toby's, again we took over the back room. ran into the photographer from my wedding. debra says "we were just talking about you. melissa was telling us how you were flirting w/ her at her wedding" he laughed and said "yeah, i was" he told me that he uses my wedding pics in his portfolio. i was gorgeous :)
ihop-
about 20 of us went to ihop. sat around telling stories. it was cool because it was a group that never would have partied together back then. i was informed that i hadnt changed a bit. i still say whatever is on my mind even if it makes others uncomfortable.
SUNDAY:
debra left to go see her mom before she went out of town. i hadnt finished packing so i stayed. Dwayne was out fishing. he gets home about 2pm. i was still there. shit i was tired. we sat and talked for a bit. when i was leaving he said "dont go" i laughed "the house is going to seem quiet huh"
i drove to irving. kelly and i sat out by her pool and i told her all the stories
yesterday
well, i have decided to go on ahead to dallas after my reunion. yesterday evening i picked up wela. i got her an ice cream cone and we went and watched the ducks in the park. she kept telling me she was going to miss me. :(
the birds were singing real pretty. she asked "what are they saying?" i said "pretty wela, pretty wela" she laughed and said "and pretty grand daughter"
we were getting ready to leave the park and wela said "well at least we came to the park one more time" i gave her a hug and said "i told you i bring you to the park again before i left" she smiled and said "si, you told me, you're a good girl"
***
when i told ma that i was going to go on to dallas instead of coming back she gasped and said "who's going to paint my toes?"
when i told ben he said "oh, you better make a big thing of hot sauce before you leave"
***
last night i made enchiladas, beans, salad and hot sauce. ben is eating away and says "you're alright melissa, you're gonna make someone a good wife one day" i just turned and looked at him like he was crazy "i have an ex-husband that will disagree w/ that statement"
so i'm home all alone this morning. i get out of the shower. turn the tv to music videos. here i am in the living room wearing only a robe dancing around as sexy as i can (which in truth probably isnt that sexy as i lack any type of coordination) when out of the corner of my eye i think i see the shadow of a man. i turn around and look and there in the back yard i see a man walk out the back gate. my heart beats faster then i notice the wheel barrel. ah hell its my cousin and his friend they were their to do concrete work. i didnt know that ben had given them the ok.
god i hope they didnt see anything. and thank god i had my robe on this morning. i usually dont.
now to my rant. is it me or shouldnt the lil bastards have told me that they were there. gee i dunno ring the doorbell knock on the door something. my car was there they knew i was home. you dont just go waltzing in. sheesh.
so early this morning before day break. i am sound asleep dreaming away when all of a sudden i wake up because i feel someone standing by my bed watching me. when i opend my eyes no one was there. i swear i could feel someone there.
my class reunion is in 2 weeks. i've decided to go.
i cant believe its been 10 years.
so i showed wela the lil penis i brought from the shower she laughs and says "its for luck, rub it"
she was sitting at the kitchen table. i was standing next to her. she starts smacking my butt like she was playing the bongos.
wela smacked my ass and told me i have a nice butt.
weekend plans: drive to dallas and attend 2 bridal showers
FRIDAY:
about 5pm friday we decided to go ahead and go to the shower. we left at just before 8pm and arrived around midnight.
the boys called me to see what i was up to. i think they were drunk... how people only call me when they're drinking?...
SATURDAY:
woke up and i was designated taxi driver. i was outranked by my tia's and wela. the weirdest thing is that im such a BAAAAAAAD driver. btw super target kicks ass.
just before shelly's shower wela asked me if we were leaving early. i tell her no wela we are leaving tomorrow. she says "you're crazy" i tell her "well that may be true but we're not leaving until tomorrow"
shelly's shower:
the shower was fun. we played some games.
1. ask the bride 10 questions about the groom. we had to guess how many answers she would know.
2. everyone tell 2 truths and 1 lie about themselves and we had to guess which of the statements was a lie.
3. blind fold one person and put a stick between their legs. their partner stands on the opposite side of the room with a tp roll between their legs and has to instruct the other into the hole. christina and i won. we did it in 25 seconds.
marisa's shower:
that was a toy party. ya know where they sell sex toys. so we spent teh evening passing sex toys around. and oh yes there are pictures. (NO, not pics of us using them just looking at them)
after the shower we went to a club called city streets. marisa wore a veil with condoms & oils sewn to it. i wore her penis antenna's. there were alot of chicks wearing veils. we passed around condom suckers. we had a lot of fun.
being the good neice that i am i took home some penis straws for my tia's.
SUNDAY:
my tias, wela & i had lunch with brock & jo. then we drove home.
yesterday i took my tia to her dr appt. i hope her bloodwork comes back ok. we went to lunch and then spent teh rest of the day talking then we went and picked up dinner. when i left around 9pm she said "thank you for spending teh day with me"
i'm so worried about her & my cousin they are just not handling my tio's death well at all. i think lil robert is still in shock.
i'm trying to remember how i dealt when my dad died. all i know is that its been 9 years and i'm still stuck in the anger stage.
***
i applied online today for several jobs.
***
i'm debating on going to dallas this weekend i have 2 bridal showers that i should go to, but oy vay, i dont want to drive wela. you have to stop every hour so she can walk around for 10 minutes. what a horrible selfish person i am. i hate to stop when i drive.
the good news i think i'm finally ok with the disolve of my marriage, i'm actually happy for both brides to be. why do so many people get married in june? its so fucking hot in june.
the church was full of people. you'd have thought it was sunday mass there were so many people.
my aunt said "gah, mija people kept asking me who you were, they didnt ask about marissa or sheila, they just wanted to know who you were"
my reply "why me?"
my aunt "because mija you walk around like you own the place"
:D hehe i find that amusing. i've been told that before.
***
why do funerals bring out the worst in people? instead of the family sticking together they create animosity. you could feel the tension in the chapel
***
margo keeps trying to convince me to hook up with a friend of theirs. he lives in portland, so i really dont see how it would work as i live in texas...
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