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My Heart *

My Computer Is A Fucktard . . . It Doesn't Deserve To Live . . . [14 Jul 2003|04:31pm]
[ mood | apathetic ]
[ music | Stacy's Mom - Fountains of Wayne ]

Well I'm writing rather late today, but oh well...I had a pretty ok day yesterday. It started out a little sketchy and ended a little sketchy but the middle was perfect. Well, nothing and no one's perfect but this was good for me, just right...I think I have my German down pat, and I actually sang for my sister today and she said I was ok with it. Not that she would know German, but she said and I quote "It fooled me". So I'm taking this as a good sign even though, you can fool her on a lot of things, minor details. While I was in the process of deleting many of my useless saved files, my computer very nicely decided to fuck itself up. So I had to restart it a legit, 7 times today. So not fucking cool. I'm not in the mood for it today, trust me. I almost broke it. Which wouldn't be a total disaster except for the fact that I wouldn't have a computer. There's only person on right now and there really isn't much for us to talk about, but he really isn't trying too hard, I tried, I mean I asked if he liked the Beach Boys to try and start a conversation and he said he really didn't know much of their music. Who doesn't know the Beach Boys' music? Who? Jeez. I played around with my computer all day, attempted to change my journal layout, but didn't like it so I put it back, then I downloaded a few songs. That was random, but crucial information I think you needed...I'm so proud of myself, I deleted every single conversation I ever saved, and actually had, with *insert name here*, because they were taking up a lot of space, and it isn't that I want to forget about him anytime soon, it's just that I don't need that kind of painful reminder. So now I have a nice abundance of disk space so that I can save things freely. lol. I'm done for now.

Later,
Amanda*

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If You Love Me You'll Fill This Out And Show Me . . . ;) [12 Jul 2003|05:32pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | When You Come Around - Deric Ruttan ]

I ____ Amanda.
Amanda is ____.
If I were alone in a room with Amanda, I would _______.
I think Amanda should _____.
Amanda needs ______.
I want to _________ Amanda.
If I could describe Amanda in a word: _______.
Amanda will never ______.
Amanda can ______ my _______.
I hope Amanda never _____.
I _____ Amanda because _______.

Courtesy of candymandy_301 . . . :)

My Heart *

Interesting . . . lol . . . [11 Jul 2003|10:21pm]
[ mood | silly ]
[ music | Traffic on Washington St. . . . ]

Butterfly Kiss - With your faces less than a breath away, open and close your eyelids against your partners. If done correctly, the fluttering sensation will match the one in your heart.

Cheek Kiss - A friendly, "I really like you" kiss. Often the preferred kissing method of a first date. With your hands on your partner's shoulders, gently brush your lips across her cheek.

Earlobe Kiss - Gently sip and suck the earlobe. Avoid louder sucking noises as ears are sensitized noise detectors.

Eskimo Kiss - With your faces less than a breath apart, gently rub your noses together.

Eye Kiss - Hold your partner's head with both hands and slowly move their head in the direction you wish your kiss to go... then slowly kiss up towards your partner's eyes and give them a tender kiss on top of their closed eyes.

Eyelid Kiss - While your partner is resting/sleeping with eyes closed, very very gently kiss the spot right below their browbone. A very intimate kiss.

Finger Kiss - While laying together gently suck on their fingers. This can be very seductive and pleasurable.

Foot Kiss - An erotic and romantic gesture. It may tickle, but relax and enjoy it! To give a toe kiss by gently suck the toes and then lightly kissing the foot. It helps to gently massage the base of the foot while performing the kiss.

Forehead Kiss - The "motherly" kiss or "just friends" kiss. The forehead kiss can be a comforting kiss to anyone. Simply brush your lips lightly across the crown of their head.

Freeze Kiss (or Melt Kiss) - Experiment with this fun kiss. Put a small piece of ice in your mouth, then open mouth and kiss your partner, passing them the ice with your tongue. It's an erotic and sensual french kiss with a twist of cold.

French Kiss - The kiss involving the tongue. Some call this the "Soul Kiss" because the life and soul are thought to pass through the mouth's breath in the exchange across tongues. Surprisingly, the French call this "The English Kiss".

Fruity Kiss - Take a small piece of fruit and place between your lips (juicy fruits such as grapes, strawberries, small pieces of pineapple or mango are ideal). Kiss your partner and nibble one half of the piece of fruit while they nibble the other until it breaks in half, allowing the juice to run into your mouths.

Hand Kiss - Gently raise her hand to your lips. Lightly brush your lips across the top of her hand. Historically this kiss was performed with a bow, which showed deference to a lady.

Hickey Kiss - The object is not to draw blood, but to gently leave a mark that will prove your interlude was not a dream. This is often included in erotic foreplay.

Hostage Kiss - Cover your lips with tape and get your love's attention. When they come near, make noises like you're trying to tell them something and motion as if you can't get the tape off. Once they remove the tape from you to hear what you're trying to say tell them: "I've been saving my lips all day just for you!" Then kiss your love passionately!

Hot and Cold Kiss - Lick your partner's lips so that they're warm, and then gently blow on them. The sudden cold blast makes for a sensual explosion, and they will often try it on you next, as well as get very passionate.

Mistletoe Kiss - Surprise your lover by capturing them with a gentle holiday kiss under the mistletoe. This is also a good method for shyer individuals to steal a kiss from a potential lover.

Letter Kiss - Send your lover a kiss in a love letter by writing the letter x several times in a row at the bottom of a letter such as XXXXX.

Lick Kiss - Just before kissing, gently run your tongue along you partners lip whether it be the top or bottom one depending on the position of your lips. Very sensual.

Neck Nibble Kiss - Gently nibble up and down your partners neck. End with a gentle kiss on the lips.

Nip Kiss - This kiss can create a very erotic sensation. While kissing your partner, ever so gently nibble on their lips. You must be very careful not to bite to hard or hurt your partner. When done correctly, this kiss ignites wonderful sensations.

Reverse Lips Kiss - It involves standing above your lover and kissing them from over their head. This way, each kisser can take the hyper-sensitive bottom lip of thier lover in their mouths, and GENTLY draw blood to the surface of the lip by nibbling and sucking. A very sensuous, connecting kiss.

Searching The Cavern - Use the lips and tongue to gently tickle and kiss your lover's navel. Vary speeds and stroke to change sensation. Invigorating and intoxicating.

Shoulder Kiss - Simply come from behind, embrace her, and kiss the top of her shoulder. This is a sensual, loving kiss.

Sip Kiss - Take a small sip of your favorite drink. Leaving a little bit of it on your lips, kiss your partner. It is a unique way to create a sensual feeling and your partner will enjoy it.

Talking Kiss - Whisper sweet nothings into your partner's mouth. If caught in the act, simply say as Chico Marx, "I wasn't kissing her. I was whispering into her mouth."

Teaser Kiss - Starting on the forehead, a sweet short kiss on lips, then move up the arms up to her hand, kiss her hand, then come back up her arm, to her face and then lightly kiss her lips till she wants a passionate kiss.

The Buzzing Kiss - Gently place your lips against your lover's neck , behind their ear. Now, send a shudder through their skin by gently growling and humming, vibrating your lips and cheeks as you do so. Move up and down the neck, over the bones of the face and lips. Stimulating and erotic when done correctly.

The Whipped Cream Kiss - Dip your finger into some cool whip or whipped cream of your choice. Lick it off slowly, then embrace your partner and kiss them deeply letting their tongue slip over yours for a wonderfully sweet kiss. It's very seductive and passionate.

Tiger Kiss - Quietly sneak up behind your partner making sure they do not know what you are going to do. Out of the blue, grab them and gently bite their neck. Make sure to get a few good growls in too. This will surely surprise them.

Trickle Kiss - Take a sip of a favourite drink and trickle it slowly into partner's mouth while kissing.

Tongue Sucking - A variation of the French kiss. During an open-mouth kiss gently suck on your partner's tongue (not too hard because it may hurt). Very sexy :-)

Quickie Kiss - When you're in a rush. Often the nose gets it rather than the lips.

Vacuum Kiss - While kissing open-mouthed, slightly suck in as if you were sucking the air from your partners mouth. This is a playful kiss.

Wake Up Kiss - Before your partner awakes lean over and kiss their cheek and move over giving soft kisses until you reach their lips. Definitely a more than pleasant way to wake up!

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I Wanna Be Made . . . lol . . . [11 Jul 2003|02:44pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Alone Again (Naturally) - Gilbert O'Sullivan ]

I'm watching MADE again. I saw this one but I liked it because the girl was pretty cool. She's a tomboy that they made into a beauty queen. Adam's my God right now. lol. I'm monotheistic by the way. I write a lot of nothing in this thing. I wonder if anyone actually reads it. Hmm...if you're reading leave me a comment, it's greatly appreciated. I need something to do tonight. Somebody suggest something and I'll try to do it. 'Cause trust me I'm bored as hell. Well Mommy's out shopping right now, actually she was just returning something but then she called and was like I think I'm going to do some birthday shopping so I'll be back later, if you need anything call. I was expecting her to be home earlier to bring me some Dunkin Donuts which I still want. Oh well...

Later,
Amanda*

My Heart *

Scary Squirrels Should Be Removed . . . [11 Jul 2003|09:42am]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | Pretty Woman - Roy Orbison ]

I practiced, well tried to, my German last night. My sister told me I was pathetic. You know what's pathetic? The fact that I'm three years older than her and she's bigger than me. She's a good inch, already, taller than me and I believe she weighs more. That's so rude. I want to be the bigger one, not the little big sister. :( Oh well, what can you do? Joe Jackson Band is coming to Boston on August 10 in case anyone wanted to go. They also have a new CD coming out I guess. Adam didn't make a journal. He claims no one would read it. Apparently I am no one. And I thought I was somebody, but NOOOO Adam is telling me otherwise, well he isn't personally but by not making a journal because "no one would read it" he makes me feel inferior. ::sniff:: The video for "Pretty Woman" is playing on VH1 Classic right now. I like this song. Now the video for "Don't Worry Baby" is on! Yay!!!! Beach Boys rock. This is definitely my favorite Beach Boys song, so I think my day is going to be pretty good. lol. I'm making a collage of all my pictures, because I was bored. It looks kinda cool right now. I wonder if the finished product will come out well or if I'll end up throwing it away. I am constantly being called short. I don't consider myself that short. I mean I'm 5'2''. That's almost average height for a female. The average is 5'3''. Only one more inch to go. lol.

Later,
Amanda*

My Heart *

Filler Outter Thing I Took From Marianne's Deadjournal . . . [10 Jul 2003|07:12pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Someone Like You - Linda Eder ]

Last...
x. movie you rented = God that was so long ago, but I think it was The Music Man?
x. movie you bought = That was also very long ago, but I think it was, Signs?
x. song you listened to = "When You Come Around" Deric Ruttan
x. song that was stuck in your head = That Superchick song that was playing in Wet Seal today
x. song you've downloaded = "House of 1000 Corpses" Rob Zombie
x. cd you bought = New Found Glory - Sticks and Stones, that was sooo long ago. lol.
x. cd you listened to = My Chicago Soundtrack
x. person you called = My Mom
x. person that has called you = Other than my Mom, I'd say it was Roy a week ago
x. tv show you've watched = Just watched Brendan Leonard. Yay!
x. person you were thinking of = Two people actually...

do....
x. you have a bf or gf = Nope I wish...
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = No I like Woburn although I'd like to move a few people here from other places
x. you think about suicide = Not so much anymore, but I used to, a lot more than I should have and should admit...
x. you believe in online dating = No, that's kind of silly...
x. you want more piercings = Yes
x. you want more tattoos = I only want one right now...but who knows what the future holds for me...
x. you do drugs = No
x. you smoke = No
x. you like cleaning = Not usually but when I get my period I get very ambitious and go on cleaning sprees. It's crazy!
x. you like roller coasters = Some, but not all.
x. you write in cursive or print = My writing is very, um how would you say, unique? Unique for lack of a better word, is you could see it you'd understand what I mean.
x. you carry a donor card = No, but I want to, but my mom told me I was weird, I don't think she took me seriously.

for or against..
x. long distance relationships = If it works for you, Great! If not I'm sorry, but as for me, I'd have to Really Really like him.
x. using someone = No that's rediculous.
x. suicide = I'm in between those two extremes on this...
x. killing people = Against.
x. teenage smoking = Against all smoking let alone teenage
x. doing drugs = Against, waste of time, money and brain cells.
x. premarital sex = If you lvoe them, then I'm for it, but if you're just "hooking up" then I'm against it.
x. driving drunk = Very, Very against, I hate all alcohol. You drink excessively, don't talk to me at all.
x. gay/lesbian relationships = For.
x. soap operas = Haha.

favorite...
x. food = Steak Tips
x. thing to do = Shop.
x. thing to talk about = Myself. lol. Nah, my friends.
x. sports = Baseball and soccer
x. movies = Romance, and romantic comedies are even better.
x. holiday = Christmas, I love the decorations and the spirit of Christmas and the mood it puts me in and the fact that the Mystic Players put on A Christmas Carol, which I like participating in. ;)
x. cars = SUVs

have you...
x. ever cried over a girl = Well, because she passed away, but romantically no.
x. ever cried over a guy = Yes, and I realized that he was a waste for me to cry over. Because, as cheesy as this sounds, the only guy who is ever going to be worth crying over is the only one who will never make you cry.
x. ever lied to someone = Yeah
x. ever been in a fist fight = Nope.
x. ever been arrested = Nope, not yet lol.

what...
x. shampoo do you use = L'OREAL Fresh-Vive
x. perfume do you use = Well, it depends on my mood and where I'm going I have quite a few...
x. shoes do you wear = Well, I own many, many shoes...so I can't really answer this one...
x. are you scared of = Bugs especially spiders and bees, being alone, loss

number...
x. of times I have had my heart broken? = Twice
x. of hearts I have broken? = 0, I'm not that type, trust me...
x. of boys I have kissed? = Three...Only one is really worth mentioning though...
x. of girls I have kissed? = 0
x. of continents I have lived in? = Only this one.
x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = One or Two.
x. of people I consider my enemies? = I have quite a few actually...
x. people from high school that I stayed in contact with? = I'm still in high school but after high school I hope to keep in touch with Marianne, Kayleigh, Roy, Adam, Lizz, Lisa...etc...
x. Of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = A few times, nothing really great though.
x. Of scars on my body? = Three.
x. of things in my past that I regret? = Quite a few...

1 * TouchMy Heart *

Mom Always Says I'm Too Young . . . [10 Jul 2003|06:19pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]
[ music | When You Come Around - Deric Ruttan ]

I like this icon, it was made by all_ap0l0gies. I took it from the icons_ community.

After I watched The Brendan Leonard Show, AFV came on and there was this one video thing that had a mother and her 4 I think it was, babies and they were all laughing, I thought it was cute, although I don't care for that show, whatever. I finally got my Coke. Yay! You probably have no clue what I'm talking about, but I think Marianne does. I hope. lol. Bored. Oh well.

Later,
Amanda*

My Heart *

Chocolate Mint Perfume Junk Smells Really Bad . . . [10 Jul 2003|04:45pm]
[ mood | Loud, no hamster man... :( ]
[ music | Some Superchick song that was playing in Wet Seal...lol ]

Well I just got home from the Burlington Mall with Marianne. I had fun, as I usually do. I tried on a bunch of hats, I love hats, I wish I had enough money to buy some and an occasion to wear them. Marianne didn't buy anything and neither did I. But we did buy some lunch. The guy at the Cajun Big Easy place apparently knows her and he kept calling me "Dickies" because it said Dickies on my shirt, I was a little creeped out until she explained that he knew her, then I felt alittle better. lol. I need a job so that I'll have some money to buy stuff, or just beg my mom for some. lol. Not that she'll give me any but who knows maybe she'll be feeling nice. I keep smelling that chocolate mint perfume junk that was at Sephora. It smells really bad, why I was so stupid and sprayed it on me, is beyond me. I'm in such a happy mood right now. I have been for a few days. I don't know, I just think I know who I am as a person right now. I'm being real and being me and if people see a change and don't like it I'm sorry but it's who I am...lol.

Later,
Amanda*

My Heart *

Finding Nemo Ice Cream Rocks My Socks . . . [10 Jul 2003|11:52am]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | Time Heals Everything - Bernadette Peters ]

Well the Red Sox won last night. Yay! Jason's going to the All Star game. Yay! I'm going to the mall with Marianne today. Adam's filling out the survey thingy, and maybe, just maybe making a journal. lol. He should, I want everyone to have a journal lol. I'm bored, it's kind of warm in my house right now. This is not cool. The squirrel is still looking at me. This new movie with Mandy Moore looks very good, I want to see it, Mandy Moore looks like Marianne, or is it Marianne looks like Mandy Moore. lol Whatever the resemble each other. She won't admit it, but they do. Well my mom and I think so anyway. Well I'm off to the mall.

Later,
Amanda*

My Heart *

Gary Rocks My World . . . [09 Jul 2003|09:37pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Someone Like You - Jekyll and Hyde the musical ]

My life is so crazy sometimes. Last night my dad was being a beast (see entry 2 below) and now he's being pretty tolerable. Weird. My mom's being a loser lately, I'm not sure why, but I don't like it. I'm really bored right now and my dad turned the baseball game off because we were losing. I didn't care I still wanted to watch it. Oh well. Now he's watching some Bill Pullman movie. I really liked him in While You Were Sleeping though, too bad that's not on. Not like my dad, being a guy, would watch a chick flick with me, that's asking too much. I wish I had a boyfriend. One that would watch chick flicks with me would be nice lol. Speaking of boys, Richard hasn't called me at all this summer, I kinda knew he wouldn't, Oh and Roy hasn't called me back from last week, I guess he's still in the shower. lol. I don't like this Bill Pullman movie. I don't like his hair either. I read someone I know's journal today, and it had one of the sweetest entries I had ever read in my life. It was so sweet. He wrote it about this girl he REALLY likes and is going out with. I want a guy like that. lol. For a guy, any guy, to confess their undying love for me would make me wicked happy. lol. But that won't EVER happen, I can tell. The Red Sox have tied it up. It's now 7 to 7. Yay! There's still hope. lol. Jason Varitek made the All Star game! Yay! He's my hero! lol. I wish someone was on for me to talk to. Well there are people on that I could talk to but no one I want to talk to right now. I voted for the Today Show's wedding thingy. Today was voting for the gown, I liked the Anne Barge one, it was such a gorgeous gown, I want my gown to look like that, that is if I ever get married. I probably won't get married, but I want to be a wedding planner. I'd love to be an actress but I'm thinking realistic here, so I believe wedding planning is my calling. Lyon is pitching now. Great, we're probably gonna lose now. Oh well, I hope we win. Bill Pullman movie's over, yay. I didn't like it, even though I didn't see the whole thing, I didn't like what I saw. I joined a Brendan Leonard Show community today. It's pretty darn cool I think. I love that show, it's so funny. I wanna do a show like that with my friends, now if only I were funny...lol. There is a squirrel stuffed animal staring at me over it's acorn right now. It's a little creepy. I could go for a nice Coffee Coolatta right now. Mmm...yummy. lol. I'm writing a lot right now. Aren't you lucky?!? lol. Well I'll stop so you can return to your lives if you've actually read this. Thank you if you have and I love ya! lol.

Later,
Amanda*

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I'm Bored Beyond Reason . . . [09 Jul 2003|11:29am]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Living Dead Girl - Rob Zombie ]

I am a thief. A bored thief who steals silly little quiz thingys from people...thanks to the owner...

1) Full name: Amanda McKenzie Keddie
2) Sex: If You Want...
3) Birthday: 7-31-88
4) Height: little less than 5'2
5) Shoe size: 5 ½ or 6
7) Eye color: Hazel
8) Ethnic background: Irish, Scottish, Brittish?
10) Hometown: Woburn, MA
11) Father's name: John
12) Mother's name: Joyce
13) Sibling(s): Corinne, sister

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Favorites
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14) Song: I can’t really pick just one but I really love Alkaline Trio’s “Every Thug Needs A Lady”
15) Band/Singer: The Alkaline Trio, Cave In, more…
16) Actor: Matthew Broderick, Adam Annable ;) lol
17) Actress: Molly Ringwald, Kate Hudson
18) Movie: Pretty in Pink, While You Were Sleeping
19) Book: A Tree Grows In Brooklyn by Betty Smith
20) Author: Shakespeare
21) Clothing brand name: Whatever I can find that fits me. lol
22) Animal: Tigers and cats
23) Day of the week: Saturday
24) Color: Pink, Black, Red
25) Food: Steak Tips, preferably my Uncle’s lol
26) Class in school: Science
27) Store: Sephora
28) City: New York City
29) Country: USA
30) Vacation spot: Maine, Kennebunkport or Wells, somewhere near the beach
31) Sport: Baseball and Soccer
32) Game [as in "board", or otherwise]: Candy Land, Checkers, Tic Tac Toe
33) Car: I don’t know, I like the SUV thingys though
34) Internet site: Probably all of the sites on my favorites list.
35) Ice cream flavor: Andes Mint Drift Frozen Yogurt, Brigham’s Chocolate Chip
36) Season: Summer
37) Month: July and December
38) Holiday: Christmas, I love the decorations like in the mall. I love it it’s so great.
39) Flower: Red Roses, and Lilies
40) Cartoon: Don’t have one.
41) TV show: I don’t really watch T.V.
42) Fictional character:
43) Perfume/cologne: Perfume: Chance by Chanel Cologne: Abercrombie and Fitch’s Fierce or Cool Water
44) Hobby: I am hobbyless
45) Flavor: Chicken?
46) Scent: I’m not sure, but if I smelt it now I could tell you.
47) Quote: Expect the worst for you will never be disappointed. And Carpe Diem.

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Either/Or
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49) Hot or cold: I’d say warm but that’s not a choice, so hot.
50) Sweet or sour: Sweet
51) Spicy or bland: Spicy
52) Fast or slow: Idk
53) Black or white: Black
54) Half-full or half-empty: Depends on my day
55) Long or short: Short
56) More or less: More
57) Soft or hard: Soft
58) Rough or smooth: Smooth
59) Air, land, or sea: Sea
60) Light or dark: Dark
61) Straight or curly: Straight
62) Straight or curvy: Straight
63) Large or small: Small
64) Near or far: Near
65) E-mail or letter: Either suits me just fine.
66) Phone or instant message: I hate them both but I use IM more often.
67) Day or night: Night
68) Breakfast, lunch, or dinner: Dinner
69) Past, present, or future: Future
70) Radio or CD: Both
71) MTV or VH1: MTV
72) Brush or comb: Brush
73) Slide, see-saw or swings: Swings
74) Doing or watching: Doing, usually.
75) Mind or body: Body
76) Consciousness, subconsciousness or unconsciousness: Humm…depends
77) Feet or hands: Hands.
78) Water or juice: Water
79) Ocean or pool: Ocean
80) Treadmill or road: Road
81) Speaker-phone or hand-held: Speaker
82) AIM or ICQ: AIM
83) Rain or shine: Only happy when it rains
84) Cat or dog: Cat
86) Inside or outside: outside if there aren’t too many bugs.
87) Up/high or down/low: Down/low
88) Closet or dresser-drawers: Idk
89) Bed frame or only mattress: Bed frame
90) Silver or gold: Gold

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Love/Sex
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91) Are you Hetero-/Homo-/Bi-sexual?: Hetero
92) Are you in love?: Yes.
93) Are you in a relationship?: Nope
94) Are you a virgin?: Yes…
95) Have you gotten your first kiss?: Yes.
96) Do you have a crush?: I don’t know what you’d describe it as.
97) Do you enjoy being in love/having a crush?: Sometimes
98) What form of birth control do/would you use?: I hope to never have to answer that question.
99) How far have you gone with a "lover"?: Do you really want to know….lol
100) Would/did you have sex before marriage?: Yeah, I would.
101) Do you believe in hookups (sexual relations without emotion)?: No.
102) Have you ever had a hookup?: No
103) Is there a difference between a crush and being in love?: Yes, of course there is.
104) Do you believe in love at first sight?: Yes
105) Do you believe in true love?: Yes.
106) Can long-distance relationships work?: Not really
107.)Have you ever had a long-distance relationship?: No
108) What of online relationships?: No that’s silly
109) Have you ever been married?: No
110) Have you ever been divorced?: No
111) Have you ever been in love?: Yes
112) If so, how many times?: Once
113) Have you had sex in the past and regretted it?: No
114) Have you fallen in love in the past and regretted it?: No
115) How old were you when you got your first kiss?: 14
116) How old were you when you had sex for the first time?: ---
117) Have you ever broken someone's heart?: I don’t think so, I’m not that kind of a person, trust me.
118) Have you ever sexually harassed someone?: No
119) Have you ever been sexually harassed yourself?: I don’t think so.
120) Have you ever been jealous of a friend for their boy/girlfriend?: Nope
121) Have you ever been jealous of your boy/girlfriend's "close" friend(s)?: Yes…
122) Have you ever been jealous of your boy/girlfriend's ex-?: A little…
123) Have you ever gotten back together with an ex-?: No
124) Have you ever gotten together with a friend's ex-?: No
125) Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?: Nope
126) Have you ever been in love with someone so much that you've cried over them?: No not really.
127) What's the most affection you deem appropriate for public?: I don’t care.
128) Have/would you ever see(n) an "X"-rated movie?: I don’t rightly know.
129) Do you enjoy French-kissing?: Yeah…
130) Do you keep a picture of your beloved somewhere?: Yes of course. lol
131) Would you (honestly) sacrifice your life for your beloved?: Yes
133) What do you look for in a lover (physically)?: Eyes, smile, strong arms, taller than me, not hard by the way..
134) What do you look for in love (mentally/emotionally)?: Kindness, sincerity, honesty, trust, intelligence, common interests, etc.
135) Do cherries or strawberries have any sexual meaning for you?: Hmm…
136) Have you ever dumped someone?: Yes, I wouldn’t say dumped that sounds harsh.
137) Have you ever been dumped?: Yes…
138) Have you ever had your heart broken?: Yes
139) Are you (honestly) afraid of commitment?: No
140) Are you attracted to people with accents?: Not really
141) Have you ever had sexual relations in public?: No
142) Do you have a memento from a previous relationship?: Yes
143) Is there a certain smell, sight, sound, or taste that reminds you of a lover?: Yes

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Miscellaneous
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144) Do you enjoy living in your town?: Sometimes
145) Do you smoke?: No
146) Do you drink?: No
147) How often do you shower?: Everyday
148) Do people you live with complain about the water bill because of the lengths of your showers?: Yes
34) 149) Do you trust others easily?: No
150) Have you ever lied to a friend?: No
151) Are you trustworthy?: Yes.
152) Are you anyone's secret-keeper?: I don’t know.
153) Are you a daredevil?: No
154) Have/would you skydive?: Nope don’t think so.
155) Have/would you bungee jump?: nope
156) Have/would you play "Chicken"?: Idk
157) If granted one wish, what would it be?: Should I say?
159) Which do you prefer -- slow or fast dancing?: Slow, it’s much better than fast.
160) Do you like to swim?: Yes I do.
161) Do you make friends easily?: Not really, I’m kind of a loner.
162) If so, where do you most often make friends?: People finding me “interesting” and stuff or cause I look lonely they come and talk to me and we become friends.
163) Do you color your hair?: No
164) Do you wear makeup?: Yes
165) Are you a person who lies a lot?: I try not to.
166) What religion do you practice, if any?: I'm Catholic but I don’t practice it very well.
167) Do you like high heels?: Yes.
168) Are you homophobic?: No
169) Do you like to travel?: Yes.
170) Granted you are American, have you ever been out of the states?: No
171) Do you own any pets?: Not anymore.
172) Do you have a cell phone/pager?: Cell phone
173) Do you like amusement parks?: No not really.
174) If so, what is your favorite park/ride?: Probably Canobie Lake, it’s really the only one I’ve been to. I guess the Corkscrew is my favorite.
175) Do you collect anything?: Yes…quotes, lol.
176) Do you enjoy having your picture taken?: Not unless I’m with someone and I feel good.
177) Do you keep your room/apartment/dorm clean?: Haha, not at all, I’m a pig.
178) Do you get annoyed easily?: Depends on what you’re doing/saying to me.
179) Would you consider yourself a depressed person?: Not at the moment, but I was extremely depressed at one time so I don’t know.
180) Have you ever been to a concert?: Nope, not any good ones anyway.
181) If so, who/what did you see?: Bah Humbug.
182) Have you ever performed in public?: Yes
183) Do you have any piercings?: Ears.
184) Do you have any tattoos?: No, but I want one…
185) Do you dream often?: Yes
186) Do you frequently daydream?: Sometimes
187) Do you have a job?: Nope
188) What was your first job?: I’m too lazy for that.
189) Do you have any health problems?: I don’t think so but right now I have no appetite which is odd so maybe. lol
190) Are you a vegetarian?: No way
191) Have you ever been in a crash?: Nope
192) Have you ever had a near-death experience?: Nope
193) Have you ever won anything?: Nope don’t think so.
194) Do you play a musical instrument?: Piano, not very well though
195) Have you ever had someone close to you die?: Yes
196) Have you ever broken a bone?: No
197) Have you ever had stitches?: No
198) Do you have any scars?: Yes
199) Have you ever had major surgery?: No
200) What is your earliest memory?: I can barely remember yesterday.
201) Have you ever gotten in a physical fight?: No
202) What is your dream job?: Actress or Wedding Coordinator
203) Do you plan on having kids?: I don’t plan on getting married unless ---- asks me. lol
204) What phrase do you use the most?: Dammit.
205) Have you met/do you know anyone famous?: If my mom’s boss counts, Buddy Lerux
206) Do you carry a wallet/purse?: Not really, I have my trusty Nike bag.
207) Have you ever baby-sat?: Yes, all the time.
208) In what position do you sleep?: I don’t know, I’m sleeping.
209) Have you ever fallen asleep on someone else's bed?: Yes.
210) Have you ever fallen asleep on someone else?: Yes.
211) Do you put on a front for anyone?: Nope.
212) Do you cry?: Yes
213) Do you have a pen-pal?: Nope.
214) If so, how long have you been communicating?: never
215) Do you have friends in other parts of the world?: If other parts of Massachusetts counts, then yes.
216) Have you ever gotten in trouble with the police?: No but almost…
217) Have you ever committed a felony?: I don’t know…
218) Do you believe in fate? Yes, of course.
219) Have you ever been skinny-dipping? No
220) Do you believe in yourself?: Sometimes, it depends on what I’m doing.
221) What kind of pin-ups do you have on your walls?: Ballet pictures, my honor society certificate thing, a framed picture of me when I was little in Disney world, a celestial moon and sun poster thing, Emily Strange poster, Calendar.
222) What is the background on your computer screen of?: Black with White Stars
223) What languages do you know?: English, I used to know a lot of Spanish until I had Mrs. Nelson…
224) Have you ever visited another country?: No, I though I answered this question twice already…
225) Have you ever needed to call 911?: Yes.
226) Do you have a sweet-tooth?: Not really.
227) What restaurant do you enjoy going to the most?: The Cheesecake Factory, Kitty’s, Chili’s
228) Have you ever ridden a motorcycle?: No.
229) Do you own a motorcycle, and if so, what kind?: Nope
230) Have you ever committed a misdemeanor?: I don’t think so.
231) Do you consider yourself organized?: Yes, I find what I need when I need it.
232) Have you ever fainted?: No
233) Do you wear a watch?: Nope
234) Do you wear any jewelry?: Sometimes
235) Did you enjoy climbing trees when you were younger?: I wasn’t that kind of a girl.
236) Have you ever driven through a cornfield?: No, but I’ve driven past them.
237) Do you have pictures around the frame of your mirror?: No.
38) Has an airline ever lost your luggage?: No thank God.
239) Do you read the comics?: Sometimes.
240) Opinion page?: No.
241) Do you read the sports section?: Sometimes
242) Do you spend money more than you save it?: No
243) Have you ever read/bought something "just for the articles"?: No lol.
244) Do you believe in aliens?: Sorta
245) Do you believe in God, the Devil, heaven or hell?: Yes.
246) Do you believe in reincarnation?: Yes
247) If so, what/who do you think you were in your past life?: I don’t know…a person…?…
249) If you died now, could you leave happily?: Yes I could
250) The survey is over! Are you still breathing? Yes I am still breathing, are you?

My Heart *

And Then We Wonder Why I'm The Way I Am . . . [09 Jul 2003|10:31am]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | One Song Glory - Rent the Musical ]

Well last night it was another great night with the family. Not. This is not a good sign of what is going to happen on our vacation...blah. Well, we went looking for an entertainment center and a new T.V. last night, and my mom is so picky about what it looks like that I doubt she'll find one anytime soon and end up getting the one I liked that would fit perfectly. Anyway, after we were done at the Jordan's place in Natick, which by the way is huge and they designed it to look like Bourbon Street very cool, we went to Wendy's because the family was hungry. So while we were waiting for our food, a huge, ugly, gross, bug decided that he'd chill on my dad's shirt. Now I was not about to touch it at all, I wouldn't touch it with a ten foot pole nevermind my hand. Yuck. So I get pissed off and told him to get my mom to do it, I mean it wasn't like the bug was moving and going to go to his head and eat it whole or something. So then he gets pissed and he's like "It's just a bug. Just get it off me". And the sad thing is that he should know that I would rather jump into a volcano than touch a bug, but since he's never ever around he wouldn't and doesn't know that. I had to get away from him so I sat down and then they all come over and there's two of us who are pissed at each other and what do my mom and sister do they put us next to each other, how smart is that? So he comes over and he's all like "You two are retards" I said "thanks" and he's like grumble grumble. I wish I told him to fuck off I really do. And sometimes I wonder why I'm insecure and everything, well maybe it's because my dad calls me a retard when he's the one being a retard. Well I'm done venting that for now...>:O

Later,
Amanda*

My Heart *

IBC Root Beer is My Savior lol . . . [07 Jul 2003|08:14pm]
I'm sooo bored...lol...

11 Days Until My Singing/Piano Recital...

12 Days Until I Get My Hair Cut...

15 Days Until I Go Away...

24 Days Until My Birthday...

Later,
Amanda*

My Heart *

Man O Man . . . [07 Jul 2003|06:32pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]
[ music | The Last Song - All American Rejects ]

Today at singing, there was this guy, his name was Chris. He was very, very nice and looked a lot like Adam and his cousin. He kind of acted like them too. It was crazy. But anyway, my songs are coming along ok, German needs some work. Anyone who knows German and wants to try to teach me, tell me, I'll pay you my whole $7.00 lol. I think I'm sick, I have lost my appetite, which I assume means I'm sick. I hope I'm not though...that would suck...

Later,
Amanda*

My Heart *

I'm Gonna Blow Them Away! . . . [07 Jul 2003|10:40am]
I am sooo excited right now because there is an audition, that I'm actually old enough for, for the musical Working! I'm so excited, I'm such a dork. lol. But I don't care because it's what I want. I'm determined to show people what I can do, I don't care if I look like an idiot or anything while I'm doing it. I just want a part in it, I'll take a part in the chorus, I don't care, I mean an actual role would be nice but not necessary. Hehe! This made my day! It's not so bad after all!

Later,
Amanda*

My Heart *

Post-it Notes Are My Best Friends . . . [07 Jul 2003|09:34am]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | Open Your Heart - Madonna ]

Well, I'm bored, I slept a total of oh let's say maybe three hours last night...not even really. Oh well. My ears hurt and they almost closed up. I don't like that idea. You'd think by now they wouldn't but whatever, they're fucked up. There is an INXS video playing on my television right now. I haven't seen/heard them in ages. I'm not sure if this is good or not, but whatever. I'm kinda hungry. Hmm...maybe I should eat something? Too lazy to go get food so I'll starve, it'd be good for me...kinda? lol. Shit, I just remembered I have singing today 'cause today's Monday. Dammit, I don't want to go...I hate this German, which isn't getting any easier for me, but I'm determined to get it right, with or without someone's help. What I realized last night when I was watching The Harvery Girls (with Judy Garland, pretty decent movie) was that I am a pathetic person. I obsessed over something that was stupid to obsess over. He isn't worth my obsession. lol that sounds funny. But seriously, he doesn't care about me so why in hell's name should I care about him the way I do? Well I'm bored and tired and sick of typing.

Later,
Amanda*

My Heart *

I Won't Send Roses - from 'Mack and Mabel' by Jerry Herman [07 Jul 2003|09:19am]
I won't send roses or hold the door;
I won't remember which dress you wore.
My heart is too much in control, the laco of romance in my soul will turn you gray, kid,
So stay away, kid.
Forget my shoulder when you're in need.
Forgetting birthdays is gauranteed.
And should I love you, you would be the last to know.
I won't send roses and roses suit you so.
My pace is so frantic, my temper's cross;
With words romantic I'm at a loss.
I'd be the first one to agree that I'm preoccupied with me and it's inbred, kid,
So keep your head, kid.
In me you'll find things like guts and nerve,
But not the kind things that you deserve.
And so while there's a fighting chance just turn and go.
I won't send you roses and roses suit you so...

1 * TouchMy Heart *

I See Possibilities Maybe More Than Meets The Eye . . . [05 Jul 2003|11:13am]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | Perfectly Marvelous - Cabaret the Musical ]

It's very hot outside today. I don't really mind it but it makes my sister even more intolerable than usual. Dammit. Well yesterday was pretty ok. My Uncle made me some steak tips, man they were good. My mom told me I was big, in her words *clears throat* "You're big, not huge by any means but of a good size.", thanks mom, thanks a lot. Well I have decided to stop eating most foods that I usually eat, I'm eating only plain grilled chicken and vegetables (yuck I hate veggies!) and I'm going to exercise more, I think I may take up kickboxing to help and then I'll go running whether or not I'm alone or not, I don't care, I need to run. I'm too fat. One nice thing my mom did say to me yesterday that I was a wonderful actress. She said she meant it too. Go figure. Insults me then compliments me. Whatever, I'll take compliments where I can get 'em. Lisa told me that next year at the high school Mr. H (can't spell his name) is thinking of doing The Wiz, she says she's going to most likely audition, I might if it doesn't conflict with the two other plays I was thinking of. I don't know whether I should do Lexington Players 'Who's Afraid of Virginia Woof?' or skip that and do The Mystic Players' 'A Christmas Carol' again. I'd do both but the Lexington Players' production runs into the Mystic Players' schedule. Well I guess I'll wait to get the full details on the Lexington Players' production, not that you care or anything lol.

Later,
Amanda*

3 * TouchMy Heart *

These Interested Me When I Was Bored Beyond Reason . . . [03 Jul 2003|04:59pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | Can't Believe - Faith Evans feat. Carl Thomas or someone like that, Idk. ]

These two will make a good match because their shining personalities join together. They have a lot in common, especially when the Leo is the woman and the _____ is the man. Jealousy plays a major role in relationship conflicts. This should make for one of the most compatible combinations, but a long and happy relationship will depend on which sex is which sign.

This water/fire combination sizzles! He's magnetic, intense, and mysterious. You add passion and loyalty to the relationship. This is an all-or-nothing match, since neither one of you does anything halfway.

Riven and driven, this couple wins the passion prize. Leo and _____ are locked in a struggle, united on the razor's edge. The emotional Leo is offended by _____ rudeness; in turn, _____'s deep feelings are masked by carnal urges. Tension and challenge define this relationship. Each is endowed with an infinite ability to wound or solace the other, and the two will endlessly oscillate between torment and delight. The clash of these two strong personalities is doomed unless indulgence and tolerance also reign. But selfishness may overcome them.

Haha, Later,
Amanda*

My Heart *

Mommy Can I Be A Vampire When I Grow Up? . . . [03 Jul 2003|02:37pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | All on Black - Alkaline Trio ]

My icon looks kinda like Marianne! Woo! lol Wow, I swear today is the most boring day of summer so far. There's nothing at all to do. This is so not cool. Boo Hiss. I think I'll clean my room at some point. But then again I don't know...I'm watching Saved By The Bell, I haven't seen this show in so long. Zach Morris is pretty hott...hehe. Damn I am feeling so fat right now. I look it too. I need to get some physical activity going or something, I hate this feeling of grotesqueness. I fiddled around with my journal layout, I think I like it better than before, although that was also great, I kinda like the "repeat"ing look. I wish I could get my desktop wallpaper to be the background for my journal. I don't know how to do that though. Hmm...Maybe I'll figure it out sometime...lol. This Tropical Sprite Remiz stuff is quite good. I didn't like it at first but it has kinda grown on me. I should stop drinking it though, I'd probably lose some weight that way. I do believe I'm moving on...which is good. I'm not so "obsessed". Maybe letting my feelings out was a good thing. Kinda like letting go. I mean I haven't entirely let go, but it's better than before. Ok, now Saved By The Bell is scaring me. This must be the reason I stopped watching it...lol. I say lol too much, I talk to much, I eat too much, I have to stop picking apart myself...jeez, I have issues. I'm still bored. I need a hobby, what should it be what should it be...hmm...I don't know. Rainbow Chips Deluxe Cookies are quite yummy in my tummy. lol. Enough blabbering for now.

Later,
Amanda*

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