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[21 Apr 2003|12:33pm] |
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john mayer- love song for no one |
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It's been a long time since i updated this, i think. *looks around* so much has went on. i was really sick for about 3 or 4 days, and then i was away for Easter with the family.
I havent really talked to anybody in a long time.. *looks down* i think somebody might be mad at me.. but im not saying who. they know who they are.
xoxo
Tara
OOC: I think i need a new community to join. Theother one just.. went away. If you know where to go, let me know?
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| *cracks up* |
[12 Apr 2003|02:28pm] |
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NERD--RockStar |
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You're JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE
There's no arguing the fact that you are a star.
You drive the ladies crazy with your smooth
dance moves and your "dreamy" voice
but really? You're nothin but a white trash kid
from Tennessee at heart. And damn proud of it
too!
Which TENN CREW boy are you?
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| *waves* |
[12 Apr 2003|01:20pm] |
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Audioslave-- Like A Stone |
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i think that I might go shopping later
scratch that. I have to friggen work. yeeaaaah. always the greatest.
good luck with the awards, if you're nominated. you know. the silly kid's choice awards. *smiles*
Maybe I'll watch it for the performances. Hmm...
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| sometimes |
[11 Apr 2003|09:33pm] |
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rockstar baby- Nick Carter |
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sometimes it seems like you can try and try and all people want to do is pull you down.
I just got a call from one of my good friends who is in europe shooting a movie. she was worried about me, because she had heard several people saying i was admitted into a Betty Ford clinic for abusing coke and alcohol.
uh.. no.
where do people get off making this up? is it something they do because they have no life? nothing better to do?
I am so sick of letting them get me down.
and men too. no more hurting.
sorry about not going out tonight, Justin. I doubt it will happen soon...
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| +i know now, you're my only hope+ |
[11 Apr 2003|07:46pm] |
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Mandy Moore- Only Hope |
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I'm off to think. if you need me, call my cell. send me a text message. anything, ha. take care. if you come over and i dont answer the door then i just want to think, ok? until later...
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| = wake me up inside, bring me back to life = |
[11 Apr 2003|07:13pm] |
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evanescene- wake me up inside (or bring me back to life) one of them! lol |
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sometimes love isnt fair. it isnt fair at all. and then when you discover something, all of your views change, they get jumbled up and you dont know what to do with it all.
-sighs heavily and rubs temples-
no going out tonight, people. not for me. i think i just need a glass of wine...
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| *whispers* wow... |
[10 Apr 2003|07:46pm] |
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nothing-no artist nothing nothing nothing |
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thank you so much, christina, for lifting me up. you too catherine. I luff you guys.
NOW LEAVE ME COMMENTS! i mean. *giggles* anyways. lol
Hey, Just... I uh... wow. Nevermind. Talk to you soon, I'm sure. *looks away*
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| *looks down, a saddened look on her face* |
[10 Apr 2003|07:08pm] |
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Who We Be- DMX |
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I think I know how it feels to have your heart broke just a little bit. Not to the point where the damage seems unfixable, but the kind of hurt where you know you will have to talk to that person every day, see that person all of the time... when you're close to that person. and they dont even know. they dont know what you feel- how you want them to feel. *brushes hair away from face*
Hey 'Lyssa, where have ya been? Now who is lurking, huh? lol Call me or something. I miss you.
Christina- i hope you get that puppy. *smiles* we need to have that party soon. heh
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| ugh....hang...over.... |
[07 Apr 2003|07:50am] |
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Just now really waking up. its far too early. Justin is in there up too. I dont think anybody else is here- unless they're down stairs. I dont know if we are going to go and get food or not. we might just try and order something. who knows? because we both dont feeltoo great. Im making coffee. i need something for this head ache... More of an update later.
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| oh holy mother of... |
[07 Apr 2003|03:46am] |
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hungover// tired as fuck |
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justin is mumbling |
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*rubs temples* your bedroom floor is really comfortable, Just. I really loved it when you rolled over onto my arm for about half an hour. heh *squints at computer screen* thanks for letting me crash here, man. holy fuck my head hurts. im back to bed. gimme some covers. heh heh
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| *give a toast to the sun // drink to the stars //get thrown in the mix // and tossed outta bars* |
[06 Apr 2003|11:50pm] |
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((Justin's Stereo Blaring)) Am I High?-- N.E.R.D. |
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Im at justins as i write this. drunk off my ass. hes in there talking, maybe even to himself, and i snuck on. im making so many typos right not it isnt funny. whats even funnier is the fact that now justin is fucking with the keyboard.
i just snuck on to let yall know that were ok. sorta. we aint gonna drink and drive. although we might jump is his pool. oh, yeah. swimming shit faced drunk. fun. nekkid.
justin says hi. off to drink me some more. i'll be here with my cell phone on until tomorrow, im sure. give me a call if you want me to amble. dont be offended. im always reaaally hones thwen im drunk. ignore my typos.
and fuck you. have a great night.
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| I'm gonna keep on..singing my song |
[06 Apr 2003|01:09pm] |
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The Jump Off (dirty)--- Lil Kim |
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I read 'Lyssa's journal and ... what happened with her and Justin. wow. I know she isnt trying to take Justin from britney or anything like that. I'm sick of people saying that. Why does it seem that few stand up in her defense when she isnt the one who broke his heart? Anyways...
I have to say I'm slightly worried about Justin. I havent seen him drink like this lately.. I'm sorry I have been too busy to be over there, J. but tonight... tonight we get shit faced drunk. Promise.
Alyssa, I told you my thanks. but again. Thank you for being so kind. :)
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| where to begin... |
[06 Apr 2003|12:46am] |
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REM-- Shiny Happy People (yeah the fuck right) |
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seems like I haven't said anything in a long time. *rubs eyes* I am so tired. not just physically drained, but emotionally as well. it seems like I have a million things on my mind and no time to think. I always feel so rushed.
*takes a drink of Bacardi Silver slowly, then sets it down*
what the fuck is with people trying to tell others what to do all of the time? sure, sometimes you mean well, and its just advice. but literally telling them that they are wrong, you are right, and you pretty much need to do what they say. *rolls eyes*
where. in the fuck. do they get off? *pops knuckles*
I guess I'm going over to Justin's tomorrow night *shrugs*. why the hell not? he just wants to drink too. maybe Christina will come too. pretty please? *bats eyelashes*
because, really. right now? drinking=good. *lets eyes close momentarily*
*rubs temples and takes another drink* this shit will give you a quick buzz, let me tell you.
anybody wanna fool around? let me know.
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| calling all cars! |
[03 Apr 2003|06:50am] |
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the cure- i will always love you |
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Did anybody cal last night and hang up? Dont be afraid. I'm not that bad on the phone, lol. ;)
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| cuz ya gotta have faith! |
[02 Apr 2003|06:13pm] |
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Thievery Corporation- Omid (hope) |
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i feel so happy right now. i was shown that no matter what, somebody will always be on your side. *nods towards miss milian* shes the coolest. you know, even though she isnt filming a video. lol. ;)
hmm.. other than the fact that i need to talk to people, im cool. and happy. *nods*
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| cry me a river... |
[01 Apr 2003|05:24pm] |
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limp bizkit-- just drop dead |
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i guess some things are better left unsaid. today just sucked so bad. i feel like im in a crowded room, screaming my lungs out, people are hearing me, but they just dont care. i feel so lost.. i really need a vacation. and a beer. maybe a shot. something good and strong...
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| turns out... |
[30 Mar 2003|07:02pm] |
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Keep Fishin-- Weezer |
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Nick Carter is a doll too. heh. Such lovely people! *slight laugh*
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| *looks around* |
[30 Mar 2003|06:44pm] |
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The Cure-- I'll stop the world |
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Where are you Justin Randall?
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| its official! |
[30 Mar 2003|06:42pm] |
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Hanson -- if only ((stuck in my head)) |
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Catherine Zeta Jones Douglas is the nicest person ever. Luff her, embrace her! *giggles*
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awake