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Ok. I'm putting Tara to rest for now. I don't do anything with her so ... yeah I hate making posts just to post.
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[10 Sep 2003|11:57pm] |
I've been in my own world where nothing but me matters. And I matter to myself, so I have to be good with me.
And I wasn't for a while, so that's where I've been. Getting good with Tara. Making Tara happy. And I'm good now, I've written a lot, made a lot of progress in putting together a new album, something I've been wanting to do for a while.
I miss the road, I miss everything about being there with the audience so lost in the music that none of you care if your ever found. It's an amazing feeling that everyone should experience at least once.
All my thoughts,
Tara
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[19 Aug 2003|01:24pm] |
That feeling right after the last set of the night is like a wave of the ocean flowing and crashing against a cliff. The buzz stays with me for hours, like all the energy I gave out during my performance and they feed it back to me with eager faces, singing along to the songs as if they, we, us were the only things in existance.
And now that's over for a while. Which I'm ready for, but I'm going to miss. I'm going to see my mother for two days and then I'm just going to drive, with the wind, where ever it should take me. I can feel it inmyself, the eagerness to be alone, but together.
To find what I've always been looking for.
It may sound crazy but I think fate is like the wind, and I put myself in its hands, it flows like an ocean awaiting to except me into the depths of things, feelings, dreams I can only imagine. I'll twist and bend and mold and shape and it will come out as it should.
to the wind I give myself.
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[16 Aug 2003|11:24am] |
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Evanescence - Bring me to Life |
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It's been over a year, and my heart still feels her. Like her spirit is all around me, letting me know she's alright, maybe to move on, to stop the rain of grief that still consumes me.
She was a light in this world that couldn't be stopped, and then, so suddenly ripped away. One light gone out, the room is darker, bleaker.
I write to her everyday, through my songs, my poems, even letters I wish I could send to heaven. I know she's listening, smiling down on me and the world. Experiencing the next life whatever it may me.
Shaye was more than my sister, she was my friend and she slipped through my fingers like water.
I'm nearing the end of this small tour. Its been a lot of fun, meeting fans, but being on the road peforming every other night but there is something missing. I think everyone thinks this.
You want to find that person who the instant you meet, your souls intertwine, and can never be unbound, never seperated. To love someone so completely. It's something we'd all like to experience, so sing our souls out to find each matching pair. Like two stars in the sky, completing a constellation.
~Tara
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