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you should have picked the scary one. [25 Jun 2003|11:08am]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | HIM- Heartache Every Moment ]

everyone should go now and take my new awesome X-Men quiz. it has pictures as of a few minutes ago and it rocks. go now, here's the link.

http://quizilla.com/users/blindside/quizzes/which%20X-Men%20are%20you%3F

if you don't go and take it, you won't experience life. heh. yeah

okay so here's Jimmy Gnecco and believe me, you can take that quiz too, it's starting to slow down. :)

http://www.miseryhead.net/img/txnov03.jpg

I Love Rick Cullen. :)

2 fallen souls| dream you're alive

i don't deserve you [18 Jun 2003|07:15pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | Ours- Dizzy (live and acoustic) ]

yeah i thought i would join the crowd and fill out this survey type thingy cause well yeah. i haven't updated in quite a while and i thought i would since i have nothing better to do.

SOUNDTRACK TO YOUR LIFE

opening credits: AFI- 6 to 8

waking-up scene: Ours- Red Colored Stars

best-friend scene: Radiohead- Talk Show Host

night-out-with-friends scene: Blindside-Pitiful

first-date scene: Incubus-Stellar

falling-in-love scene: HIM- Beautiful

First kiss: The Used- Blue and Yellow

love scene: HIM- Right Here In My Arms

fight-with-friend scene: Poison the well- Slice Paper Wrists

break up scene: Cold- No one

get-back-together scene: Ours- Sometimes

fights-at-home scene: HIM- Sigillum Diaboli

'life's okay' scene: The Used- A Box of Sharp Objects

happy after-date walking home experience scene: Blindside- Caught A Glimpse

heartbreak scene: Incubus- I Miss You

Mental Breakdown scene: Die Trying- Oxygen's Gone

driving scene: Interpol- Obstacle 1

lesson-learning scene: The Vines- Hate To Say I Told You So

deep-thought scene: Blindside- Thought Like Flames

flashback scene: Blindside- The Endings

party scene: AFI- This Celluloid Dream

regret scene: Ours- Meet Me In The Tower

happy-dance scene: AFI- Paper Airplanes (Makeshift Wings)

long-night-alone scene: Ours- Medication

closing credits: Ours- Dizzy

i'm going to six flags on friday with Rick and liz which should be really fun because well anything i do with Rick is fun and i havent seen liz in a really long time so i think it should be good times. they're sleeping over tomorrow night and i really want it to be tomorrow since there is basically no use for tonight.

i miss Rick a lot right now, he's at geoff's and i want to talk to him but i probably wont until later on tonight which is okay i guess. it's been 3 months with Rick, well 3 months yesterday, and i love him sooo much more than i ever thought could be possible, he's amazing and awesome in so many ways and i want to be with him forever. :) i love you Rick.

well yeah that is all for now hope you enjoyed the survey since i did such a horrible job on it. heh. bye bye. Jimmy Gnecco everyone:

http://www.miseryhead.net/img/smiths0309.jpg

dream you're alive

you might need to put your phone under your pillow. [30 May 2003|07:47pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]
[ music | AFI-6 to 8 ]

yeah, i am really bored and i took a few quizzes because that is just what i felt like doing. i need something to do so if anyone has any suggestions at all and can/wants to tell me in the next oh say 2 hours feel free to do so. yeah. okay well that is all for now, enjoy my quizzes. i love Rick.

silverandcold
you are "silver and cold". you are a
romantic at heart and would do anything for the
one you love - even die.


which song off afi's sing the sorrow are you?
brought to you by Quizilla


wolverine
Sheesh, another fangirl. Well, I dont blame you.
How can any woman resist a sexy body, and the
ruggedness that is Wolverine? Hes a loner by
nature, a heavy drinker, and is plagued by
memories of his past...or lack thereof. It may
take time to work your way into his heart, but
when you do, he'll do anything for his woman.
Just be careful, he has a tendency to stab
people in his sleep. ^_^;;


Who Is Your Ideal X-Men 2 Mate? (ladies only)
brought to you by Quizilla

dream you're alive

really bored [28 May 2003|08:57pm]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | nothing at all ]

Have You Ever

1. Kissed your cousin?: nope
2. Ran away?: nope
3. Pictured your crush naked?: pictured? heh.
4. Actually seen your crush naked?: ...
5. Broken someone's heart?: dont think so
6. Been in love?: yeah, and i still am.
7. Cried when someone died?: do pets count?
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have?: yeah
9. Broken a bone?: yeah
10. Drank alcohol?: nope
11. Lied?: yeah but most of the time for good reason
12. Cried in school?: i dont know

Which is Better

13. Coke or Pepsi?: coke i think
14. Sprite or 7UP?: SPRITE!
15. Girls or guys?: guys
16. Flowers or candy?: either one
17. Scruffy or clean shaven?: either one
18. Quiet or loud?: either one
19. Blondes or brunettes?: brunettes and i dont know why
20. Nice or players?: nice
21. Tall or short?: taller then me is all that matters and that doesnt even matter that much
22. Pants or boxers?: Pants

With the Opposite Sex

23. What do you notice first?: eyes and hair
24. Last person you slow danced with?: no clue, although i tried to teach Rick to slow dance...kinda
25. Worst question to ask?: i dont know
26. Last person you showered with?: no one
27. Had a great time with the oppostie sex?: yesterday


What is

28. Your good luck charm?: i dont have one
29. The person you hate the most?: i really cant decide
30. The best thing that happened to you today?: seeing Rick

Favorite

31. Color(s)?: red, black, and white
32. Movie(s)?: The Lord of the Rings The Fellowship of the Ring and The Two Towers, Signs, X-Men and X-Men 2
33. Book(s)?: The Two Towers
34. Subject in school?: english i guess
35. Ice cream?: chocolate chip cookie dough
36. Holiday(s)?: christmas
37. Season(s)?: spring
38. Breakfast food?: raisin nut bran cereal. heh
39. Place to go on your honeymoon?: Sweden. heh

Who

40. Makes you laugh the most?: Rick
41. Makes you smile?: Rick
42. Gives you a funny feeling when you see them?: Rick
43. Has a crush on you?: Rick...?
44. Do you have a crush on?: Rick
45. Can make you feel better no matter what?: Rick
46. Is easier to talk to, guys or girls?: Rick, sorry i had to. but i think guys are easier to talk to in general but jen is the easiest to talk to

Do You Ever

47. Sit by the phone waiting for a call all night?: not anymore
48. Save AOL conversations?: all of them
50. Wish you were someone else?: nope i'm the luckiest person in the world
51. Wish you were a member of the oppostie sex?: i've thought about what it would be like but i dont wish i was a member of the opposite sex
52. Cried because of someone's mean words?: yeah i think so

Best

54. Perfume?: dont like perfume
55. Kiss?: Rick :) i know that doesnt answer the question but hey.
56. Romantic memory?: before i first kissed Rick
57. Most recent advice given to you?: dont lose too much weight, you'll become anorexic. heh.
58. Fallen for your best friend?: yeah
59. Made out with "just a friend"?: nope

Have You Ever

61. Been in love?: yeah and still am
62. Been in lust?: yeah...
63. Used someone?: nope
64. Been used?: i think so
65. Been cheated on?: most likely
66. Been kissed?: yeah
67. Done something you regret?: yeah
68. What is it?:something that you would obviously like to know but guess what, you're not gonna find out.

.x.My mother thinks I am: annoying and funny
.x.My father thinks I am: cool?
.x.My siblings think I am: well if i had siblings i would tell you
.x.My boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife thinks I am: cute as a button. heh
.x.My best friend thinks I am: i dont know, retarded
.x.Your three best qualities?: going out with Rick. heh no i'm just kidding but i dont know my 3 beset qualities.
.x.Three things you are often complimented for?: eyes, hair, and being nice
.x.A compliment you got that made you blush?: "you have the sexiest body"
.x.You get embarrassed when?: i get embarassed a lot i guess
.x.What upsets you?: a lot of things

Yes or No

.x.Keep a diary?: kinda, i update my blurty every once and a while
.x.Like to cook?: well if i could i'm sure i would like it
.x.Have a secret you have not shared with anyone?: yeah
.x.Fold your underwear?: nope
.x.Talk in your sleep?: dont think so
.x.Set your watch a few minutes ahead?: nope but then again i dont wear a watch
.x.Bite your fingernails?: sometimes
.x.Believe in love?: yeah :)

Last

.x.Movie you rented?: X-Men
.x.Movie you bought? dont know
.x.Movie you watched?: The Virgin Suicides
.x.Song you listened to?: AFI- 6 to 8
.x.Song that was stuck in your head?: HIM-Right Here In My Arms
.x.Song you've downloaded?: Interpol-Specialist
.x.CD you bought: AFI- Sing the Sorrow
.x.CD you listened to?: Incubus-Make Yourself
.x.Person you've called?: Rick
.x.Person that's called you?: Rick
.x.TV show you've watched?: That 70's Show
.x.Person you were thinking of?: Rick

Do

.x.You wish you could live somewhere else?: nope
.x.You believe in online dating?: not really.
.x.Others find you attractive?: i guess so
.x.You want more piercings?: yeah i think so
.x.You want more tattoos?: i want one tattoo i think
.x.You drink?: nope
.x.You do drugs?: nope
.x.You smoke?: nope
.x.You like cleaning?: nope
.x.You like roller coasters?: yeah
.x.You write in cursive or print?: print all the way

Have You

.x.Ever cried over a boy/girl?: yes
.x.Ever lied to someone?: yes
.x.Ever been in a fist fight?: no
.x.Ever been arrested?: no
What

.x.Shampoo do you use?: some stuff called amplify
.x.Perfume/cologne do you use?: dont use any
.x.Shoes do you wear?: converse
.x.Are you scared of?: dark, bugs, flying, losing people i love, thunder and lightening, and a lot more things

Number

.x.Of times I have been in love?: once
.x.Of times I have had my heart broken?: once
.x.Of hearts I have broken?: none i dont think
.x.Of guyz I have kissed?: 3
.x.Of people I consider my enemies?: a lot
.x.Of CDs' that I own?: too many
.x.Of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: as many for honor roll things
.x.Of things in my past that I regret?: dont know

:::10 Bands/Groups/People You've Seen Live:::

01. Blindside
02. Tool
03. Depswa
04. Pacifier
05. Linkin Park
06. Hatebreed
07. CKY
08. Atreyu
09. Messugah
10. and who can forget the almighty backstreet boys!

:::09 Things You're Looking Forward To:::

01. being with Rick
02. marrying Rick
03. spending the rest of my life with Rick
04. seeing Ours in concert with HIM as the opening band
05. the 3 month mark for me and Rick
06. living with Rick
07. talking to Rick
08. seeing Rick
09. loving Rick for the rest of my life. now i know that was quite gay to all you people who dont read this but hey i love Rick, can you tell?

:::08 Things You Wear Daily:::

01. Rick bracelets
02. shirt of some sort
03. pants of some sort
04. bra
05. underwear
06. red and black converse
07. socks
08. eyeliner/eyeshadow


:::07 Things That Annoy You:::

01. bragging
02. stupid people
03. people that stand in the middle of the hallway and dont move
04. gym
05. people who talk to me that i really dont like
06. the stuff my cats get in their eyes
07. one of my eyes being bigger than the other

:::06 Things You Touch Every Day:::

01. my bed
02. my hair
03. Rick
04. my keyboard
05. my toothbrush
06. shower handle

:::05 Things You Do Every Day:::

01. talk to Rick
02. sit on my couch
03. watch the HIM-right here in my arms video
04. think about Rick
05. sleep

:::04 People You'd Want to Spend More Time With:::

01. Rick
02. Rick
03. Rick
04. Rick (if that's possible)

:::03 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over:::

01. The Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
02. Signs
03. X-Men 2

:::02 Of Your Favorite Songs At This Moment:::
01. Ours- Red Colored Stars
02. HIM-Right Here In My Arms

:::01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With:::
01. Rick Cullen

dream you're alive

GAY! [27 May 2003|06:57pm]
[ mood | crushed ]
[ music | Ours-Fallen Souls ]

if there is anyone out there going to the OURS show tonight at the house of blues in cambridge you should go be gay somewhere else. i wish i was 18 just for tonight so i could go, it would make my life. Jimmy freaking Gnecco, i am missing Jimmy Gnecco just cause of an age thing. the people who made up that it's an 18+ show should die. that is all. goodbye.

I LOVE RICK SO MUCHLY!

this is the sexy beast i am missing tonight: http://www.miseryhead.net/img/och36.jpg

dream you're alive

yup [25 May 2003|08:46pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | HIM-Right Here In My Arms ]

// series one - you
-- Name: Rachel
-- Birth date: September 6th
-- Birthplace: Brockton, Ma
-- Current Location: Quincy, Ma
-- Eye Color: Brown
-- Hair Color: blonde and black
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty
-- Zodiac Sign: virgo

// series two - describe
-- Your heritage: too many to even begin to describe
-- The shoes you wore today: one red and one black converse
-- Your hair: down, but now it's up in 2 little messy pony tail thingy and it's pretty gay
-- Your eyes: brown
-- Your weakness?: Rick. heh
-- Your fears: the dark, flying, bugs, and losing people i care so much about.
-- Your perfect pizza: bacon cheddar cheeseburger
-- One thing you'd like to achieve: having a good life

// series three - what is
-- Your most overused phrase on aim: uhhh i dont even know anymore since i havent been on aim in the longest time
-- Your thoughts first waking up: ugh
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite(or same) sex: eyes, hair
-- Your best physical feature: dont know
-- Your bedtime: i dont have a bedtime but i would say i go to sleep around 11 a lot
-- Your greatest accomplishment: being with the perfect guy
-- Your most missed memory: March 17

// series four - you prefer
-- Pepsi or coke: coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
-- Single or group dates: Single
-- Adidas or Nike: well i guess adidas if i had to pick
-- Lipton or Nestea: lipton
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: coffee
-- Boxers or briefs: boxers

// series five - do you
-- Smoke: no
-- Cuss: not usually
-- Sing well: no
-- Take a shower everyday: yes, unless it's a rare occasion when i dont want to
-- Have a crush(es): I have a boyfriend
-- who are they: Rick
-- Do you think you've been in love: yes and i still am
-- Want to go to college: well not really but i know i am going to
-- Like school: no
-- Want to get married: yes
-- Type w/ your fingers keys: no
-- Believe in yourself: sometimes i guess
-- Get motion sickness: no
-- Think you're attractive: no
-- Think you're a health freak: definately not
-- Get along with your parents: yeah
-- Like thunderstorms: kinda they're kinda scary though
-- Play an instrument: well i guess you could say i play guitar

// series six - in the past month, did/have you
-- Drank alcohol: no
-- Smoke(d): no
-- Done a drug: no
-- Have Sex: no
-- Made Out: Yes
-- Go on a date: kinda
-- Go to the mall?: yeah i think
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
-- Eaten sushi: no
-- Been on stage: no
-- Been dumped: no
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: no but i have made the slice and bake ones
-- Been in love: yeah
-- Gone skinny dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: no
-- Stolen anything: no

// series seven - have you ever
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?: no
-- If so, was it mixed company: ...
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: no
-- Been caught "doing something": no
-- Been called a tease: no
-- Gotten beaten up: no
-- Shoplifted: no
-- If so, did you get caught: ...
-- Changed who you were to fit in: no

// series eight - the future
-- Age you hope to be married: 18
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 1 kid and i dont know the name
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding: Rick
-- How do you want to die: i dont
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: a chef..well i really dont know
-- What country would you most like to visit: Sweden!!!

// series nine - opposite(same) sex
-- Best eye color?: brown/green
-- Best hair color?: black or brown
-- Short or long hair?: long
-- Best height : 5'8 or 5'9
-- Best weight: doesnt really matter
-- Best articles of clothing: Pants
-- Best first date location: movies
-- Best first kiss location: underwater. heh

// series ten - number of
-- Number of girls I have kissed in my life: 0
-- Number of girls you have made out with: 0
-- Number of girlfriends you've had: 0
-- Number of boys I have kissed: 3
-- Number of boyfriends you've had: 2
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 0
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: one or maybe two
-- Number of CDs that I own: too many
-- Number of piercings: 6, three in each ear
-- Number of tattoos: 0
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: it's only been in there for honor roll and stuff so that many times
-- Number of scars on my body: probably about 5
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: quite a few

1 fallen soul| dream you're alive

he didnt believe me that i was gonna marry you. [25 May 2003|05:59pm]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | Ours-Dizzy ]

yo.

what is up all? yeah well today i saw bruce almighty with my dad and it was okay. i mean it wasnt that great but then again it wasnt bad at all. pretty funny i must say so go and see it if you were thinking about it. yeah.

not too much has been going on lately, i've been hanging out with Rick like everyday, literally, and i love it. im hoping that he calls soon and we can hang out or something cause that would rock. i was thinking that tomorrow i might hang out with him and make him go see X-Men 2 with me again cause i really, really want to see it again.

so yeah. i have ordered a lot of stuff off of ebay like an Ours Distorted Lullabies poster that totally freaking rocks, a 2 sided Ours poster that i havent gotten yet but i know it will totally freaking rock, a HIM biography thingy that's in a different language but still is awesome (heh), a HIM necklace that i havent gotten yet, and a 10 cd single thing of HIM that comes with a pin and necklace that i havent gotten yet but it still rocks. yeah, with the biography it came with some pictures and i thought that was pretty cool since they are actual pictures from concerts and they rock.

umm. that 70's show rocks, dont ask, my mom just turned it on and i heard it and it like my favorite show in the world.

well i really want to see X2 again! i need to see it really badly i am like having withdrawals. heh. its soo good.

i was thinking today that i cant wait to see The Lord Of The Rings: The Return of the King. it's going to be so good but then i realized that after i see that (at 12:01 again mind you) there wont be anymore LOTR and that is sad for me since they all rock muchly.

okay well i think that is all for now. yeah. Jimmy Gnecco! i love Rick soooooooooooooo muchly.

http://www.miseryhead.net/img/nash51303.jpg

2 fallen souls| dream you're alive

do you want me to call you at 2 in the morning? [17 May 2003|02:14pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | HIM-Sigillum Diaboli ]

hello there everyone, that is no one since no one probably reads my journal anymore since i never update it anymore. heh. oh well.

the only reason i am updating today is because Rick is at his brother's graduation til around 4 and it's 2 months for me and him and i'm very excited about that so yeah. he rocks so muchly.

yeah. so the past few weeks i think, since it's been that long since i updated last, have been great. last night i went to a bike shop with Rick and geoff and brian and watched a biking video since they wanted to go and they invited me so i said why not? it was fun and funny and i got to spend the whole day with Rick and i love that.

i've been seeing him a lot lately but i think that's gonna change since he's going to start biking soon and hanging out with geoff and brian a lot more and also he'll be getting a job soon i think. so that sucks for me but hopefully i am wrong and get to hang out with him the same amount as i do now.

okay well i have come to the conclusion over the past few days that H-I-M rocks my freaking world. like they are so awesome that i am in shock, make fun of me all you want anyone who doesnt like HIM but i personally love them a lot. yeah. ville is sexy too. heh.

i need something to do right now and i am thinking about either taking down all my posters on the wall in my room or watching the OURS dvd thingy that i have, i'll probably go with the Ours dvd since they rock so muchly.

hopefully i get to hang out with Rick today although i dont know if i will be able to, well i think i can but i dont know if he can which is kinda gay but i still want to see him a lot today.

okay well i think that is all for now. happy two months to me and Rick (yes i know i am pathetic but it's okay cause it makes me that much awesomer. heh.) and take a look at Jimmy freaking Gnecco. I LOVE RICK :)

http://www.miseryhead.net/img/ch16.jpg

3 fallen souls| dream you're alive

i had to wait until i was almost 17 til i found the perfect person for me.. [04 May 2003|07:12pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | AFI-This Celluloid Dream ]

hey there all. wow it's been a really really long time since the last update and needless to say i am back from florida. yes i know you are all excited but hey, try and control your happiness.

anyways. nothing too exciting has been happening the past while. of course i have been hanging out with Rick almost everyday and i love him so much, more than anything to be exact and he is the most amazing, best, gorgeous, nice, and awesome person i know. i love him soo much.

well i have seen liz twice in the past week and i think that is pretty cool since i havent seen her in like ages but hey it was pretty cool. her friend 'tori' wants Rick and she was there the other night when i was with Rick and liz was there and she was trying to basically get Rick to not like me but it wasnt working because she is a gay, homosexual, person. yes, gay and homosexual. don't ask. anyways yeah she's gay. but it's okay cause first of all Rick doesnt like her and i have him and she doesnt. hehe.

yeah. yesterday was the greatest day in a while. it was soo fun. i went over to Rick's and shayne (or however you spell his name) was there and he is pretty funny. well at around 630 he left and me and Rick sat there and did many a things.heh. need i really say more? if your name is jen and you want to find out then be my guest and ask. hehe. yeah so that rocks and i love him so muchly.

well i think that is all for now. i know that is no where near as much that has happened to me in the past week or two but that's okay cause today i watched X-Men (the first one) and it totally freaking rocked. i really liked it. yeah so okay and goodbye.

enjoy Jimmy Gnecco, and no i didnt forget about these annual entry pictures. bye bye.

http://www.miseryhead.net/img/atlc1.jpg

2 fallen souls| dream you're alive

ahhhhhhhh [22 Apr 2003|08:56pm]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | nothing although i wish it was Ours ]

i miss Rick soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. i love him so much too. i cant wait to be back home in 4 more days and hang out with him!

dream you're alive

i feel like i've never done any of this before... [14 Apr 2003|09:13pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | HIM-Pretending ]

well hello there, i know i havent updated in a while but hey, whatever works you know? not like anyone reads this thing anyways right? yeah so let me tell you what i have done for the past few days shall i....

friday i hung out with Rick after school cause he was supposed to hang out with geoff after school but it was raining so he decided to come over here which worked out good for me anyway. then jen called and asked to come over so she did and she decided to walk here which was pretty funny i must say. anyways...yeah Rick stayed til about 7 then he went home and hung out with geoff and slept over geoff's house which was cool i guess..well cool for him anyways but it was good since they don't hang out as much anymore. heh i dont know why. jen stayed til about 10 and then she left me and got a ride from her brother in which she almost died but hey she's alright now.

saturday i thought was really fun and funny. Rick called me at about 2 and asked me to go to the mall with him and geoff and later to my surprise frank which was cool cause i never actually hung out with him anywhere but my house or his house so yeah that was fun. geoff is great and frank is cool but Rick is soooo freaking awesome. the mall was fun and i saw greg burrows. need i say more...he's just about the stupidest kid in the world and Rick thought i liked him so i laughed in his face. yeah but Rick totally freaking rocks. after the mall my mom drove Rick, geoff and frank to geoff's house and then i came home with jen and she slept over. jen came to the mall too but i dont think she enjoyed herself too muchly.

sunday was soo bad yet soo good at the same time. i went to my aunt shari's house in the morning/early afternoon for my grandfather's 75 birthday party thing that sucked so badly and jen wouldn't come with me so i was stuck walking around my aunt's house until about 5 when i finally decided to call Rick. so i called and he asked me to go to the movies with him and his sister but at that point i wasnt home so i made my mom leave then right away and take me home which she did and then i went to the movies with Rick and his sister to see anger management. good movie, yet weird but whatever works.

today i went to Rick's house and it was really fun. i love him so much and i love being with him so much, and i love talking to him so much, and i love going out with him so much, and i love everything about him so much. yeah. sorry about that i just don't know what i am going to do next week when i am in florida when i miss him so much all the time. i am going to be gone for a whole week and i can't even go 6 hours without talking to him or seeing him nevermind all of vacation. ahhhhh i miss him so muchly. okay well i will stop complaining now i think.

goodbye for now and hope for an update soon. Jimmy Gnecco! i love Rick Cullen soooooooooo muchly.

http://www.miseryhead.net/img/donhills06.jpg

1 fallen soul| dream you're alive

i think it looks sexy. what? gay, is that what you said? [09 Apr 2003|07:42pm]
[ mood | okay ]
[ music | Blindside-Time Will Change Your Heart ]

hello there all. i'm very bored at this point in time and you'll notice the boredom since i am updating my journal. heh.

anyways. tomorrow i think me and jen are gonna go to school at 730 even though we dont need to be there until 1020 or something like that and we're just gonna wander around. it's gonna rock soo muchly. we're gonna go to cvs and mcdonalds and dunkin donuts and other places just for the fun of it man. yeah.

school i have come to the conclusion, is gay. i dont like it and none of my classes are cool anymore man. although i guess keyboarding isnt that bad. people are becoming gay lately too, like no one is really the same anymore and it's really bothering me.

i dont think i wrote in here yet about how Rick cut off his hair. well he did and he still looks sexy, i personally like the long hair better but hey, he's growing it back out so whatever works. i parted it down the middle today so that it would go to the sides and it looked sooooooo good, like amazingly good so i took some pictures with my newly acquired digital camera from my dad. totally. but yeah the pictures came out really good and i love him sooooooooooooooo much. i told him that he should wear his hair to the sides from now on but i dont think he's going to since it "takes too much work" apparently. oh well i guess.

ah yes i must tell all about the massive zits that i have on my face. if you have not been graced enough to notice them yet, you most likely will. i have one on my cheek that is now basically gone and i think by tomorrow it will be but then, pointed out to me today by no one other than Rick, i have another one near my chin that's here to stay for awhile. so yeah be on the lookout for massive things on my face.

i hung out with Rick today and it was really cool. although then again it always is. i love him so muchly it's amazing. i want to hang out with him tomorrow cause my mom is going out to dinner with people she works with and she's not coming home til around 9 and i want him to come over after school and stay until she gets home cause that would totally freaking rock. anyways, but yeah i love him a lot and i took some really good pictures of him today. i attempted to take some of both of us but it didnt really work out too well. that's okay though cause i lllllooooovvvveeee him.

oh! jen saw who geoff was today and she said he was like a black dan harrold. totally. geoff rocks and he "wants" jen so it was good that they finally met. heh. he was at the school to see Rick's hair and make fun of him and call him stupid and tell him that he hated it. yeah so that's all for now i think.

Jimmy Gnecco, man. i looooooooooooove Rick sooooooooo muchly.

http://www.miseryhead.net/img/sjc10.jpg

dream you're alive

you're gonna hate me....you'll hate me so much you'll end up pulling out a gun and shooting me. [07 Apr 2003|03:54pm]
[ mood | nervous ]
[ music | AFI-Girl's not grey ]

[Significant Other's...]

Name: Rick
Age: 16, almost 17
Where they live: hough's neck
Height: 5'8 or 5'9 somewhere around there...he's not even too sure


[Stats...]

When you first met: a little bit after mid terms so like the end of january i guess.
How long you have been going out: 3 weeks today.
Where you met: in school
How you met: well technically online but i met him in person in school one day when he said hi to me
Did you have a crush on them: yes, i liked him and thought he was sexy the first time i saw him
If so, What attracted you to them: his sexiness...sorry i know that sounds like all i like him for but that's what first attracted me to him, you can't see someone's personality you know?
Did they have a crush on you: well apparently he thought i was cute and thought i looked like a cool person, does that count?
Who made the first move: that would be him
Where was the first move made: at his house

[Things you Share]
Do you live together: Nope
Mutual Friends: kinda?
Favorite Pastime: uhhh i dont know anything?
Common Interests: eachother. heh. no but like tv shows and some music.
Pet Names: hah quite a few.
Inside Jokes: well if i told you then they wouldn't be inside jokes anymore now would they?
Funny Coincidences: plenty of those.

[Do you...]
Think you can trust them in a room full of the opposite sex: yes
Like their friends: some of them, geoff is great and i dont know too many more of them. heh.
Think they are your best friend also: best friend after jen
Think you are a good companion for them: i love him sooooo much and he says he loves me too so yeah, i think i am a good companion for him although i don't deserve him being the best/awesomest/nicest/sweetest/sexiest man in the world.
Think you are their favorite person: i dont know but i know he is my favorite person.
Think they would tell you anything: i think so...he has so far anyways

[Have you...]
Decided this person is 'the one?': yes. i really, really, really, hope so.
Introduced them to your parents: He's met my mom, denise, and my aunt so yes.
Told them 'I love you': yes.
Had serious fight with them: Nope
If so, about what: haven't had one
Shared a secret with them: yes
Held a secret of theirs: Yes
Found any annoying things about them: nope. cant say that i have
A special moment you will never forget: the first time he ever kissed me.

[Crazy Questions...]
If your significant other asked you to help them rob a bank so that you would never have to worry about financial problems again.. would you? maybe....

If your significant other had to move overseas for a year and asked you to come would you go even though you couldnt talk to your friends and family back home for an enitre year? yes i would go, but i'd need to bring jen and brian somehow...i'd smuggle them with me..yeah that's it.

If your signifigant other asked you to marry you (assuming you arent married) would you say yes? yes i would.

Your signifigant other works for a top secret agency. They have a secret they are dying to tell you, the only thing is if they tell you, you will never be safe from those agents trying to kill you for what you know. But this secret has something to do with the future of your relationship. Would you want to know it? hmmmm probably.

2 fallen souls| dream you're alive

too bad we can't just fall asleep like this and i could spend the night. [05 Apr 2003|09:34am]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Ours- Sometimes ]

`*..do you drink// nope
`*..how many times have you been drunk// none
`*..is your best friend a virgin// yes. well as far as i know anyways. hah.
`*..do you wear short shorts// on occasion yes i do
`*..how many people have you slept with// 0
`*..do you get along with your mom// yes
`*..how many guys have you kissed// like 2
`*..been so drunk you couldn't remember your name// nope
`*..do you have any eating disorders// nope

`*..piercings or tattoos// 3 in each of my ears. no tatoos
`*..do you wear shirts that show your clevage// nope
`*..ever wear shirts that show your belly button// on occasion but usually cause it's a really cool shirt but it got too small for me and i still try to wear it. heh.
`*..have you ever smoked// nope
`*..are you a regular smoker// nope
`*..do you have any kids// nope.
`*..do you think you could be pregnant// well you see, since i am a virgin..of course.


`*..ever find yourself wishing to poke people with sticks// not too often. sorry
`*..ever taped your nose to your face// cant say that i have
*..do you wish you could live in another realm// depends on what it was like.
`*..have you ever ran in circles like an elf// elves run in circles?
`*..do you pick your nose for a living// nope
`*..do you fart in public// who doesnt exactly?
`*..do you pick wedgies in public// yes, if it's bad enough heh.
`*..what's your view on religion// i dont really care about it, and i dont follow a religion.
`*..ever stop to smell the roses/ nope, i dont think so anyways
`*..what about wake up and smell the coffee// nope, dont drink coffee
`*..can you smell// yes i can
`*..gotten so drunk you didn't know where you were// no, i've never gotten drunk for the fifth time.

MORE QUESTiONS..
`*..what is the most common questions you get asked// "how did you do your hair?"uhhh that's about it i think.
`*..your usual response// my aunt did it.
`*..what's your natural hair color// brownish
`*..eye color// brown
`*..how tall are you without shoes// just under 5'6
`*..favorite colors// red, black, and white. and sometimes grey.
`*.what's your highest level of education// 9th grade.
`*..how many surveys have you taken//quite a few.
`*..do you have any siblings// nope
`*..if yes how many// none
`*..do you have any pets// yes
`*..if yes, what kind// 2 cats and a turtle
`*..what's your sexual prefrence// men
`*..do you agree that men are little boys in men's bodies// no?
`*..do you have your own site// nope
`*..do you sleep with clothes on// yes i do

MUSiCAL STUFF..
`*..favorite band// Ours, Blindside, and Incubus. but my favorite out of those would be Ours i think.
`*..favorite song// Red Colored Stars-Ours
`*..what song most describes you// uhhh i really dont know. maybe Meet Me In The Tower-Ours
`*..what song shows how you feel about your best friend// i have no clue.
`*..what song makes you cry// a lot of the songs off Distorted Lullabies (Ours) are really sad and if you listen to them when you are sad they can make you cry. also some Incubus songs like I Miss You or Stellar.
`*..what song describes your love life// Stellar-Incubus. i love Rick sooooooo unbelievably much.
`*..what song describes your happiest moment// last night. that's all i really need to say and don't think that you sick fools. i am a virgin remember. heh.
`*..what song describes your worst moment// i dont know.
`*..what song describes life for you// Meet Me In The Tower i think.
`*..what song describes your feelings for your enemy// i dont know
`*..what's your one favorite lyric// ummm "you do something to me, that i can't explain. so would i be out of line if i said i miss you. (?)
`*..what lyric reminds you of an exlover// "i have never failed to fail"
`*..what lyrics do you want the world to hear// "if we feed from their eyes, dream we're alive, to feel, when the beast flies tonight and the world he describes suffer, suffer."

EVEN MORE QUESTiONS..
..and some repeated..
`*..eaten a box of oreos// probably
`*..been on stage// yes i have
`*..dumped someone// nope
`*..gotten in a car accident// yes
`*..been in love// yes. Rick :)

EiTHER//OR..
`*..coffee or hot choccolate// hot chocolate
`*..neve campbell or jennifer love hewitt// neither
`*..tom cruise or brad pitt// neither
`*..jeans or cords// jeans
`*..sweater or sweatshirt// sweatshirt
`*..t-shirt or tanktop// t-shirt

iN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU..
`*..cried// almost i think
`*..helped someone// yes, ryan in keyboarding heh.
`*..bought something// yes
`*..gotten sick// yes
`*..gone to the movies// nope
`*..said i love you// yes
`*..written a letter// nope
`*..moved on// nope
`*..talked to an ex// nope
`*..missed an ex// nope
`*..talked to a crush// yes? if you would consider Rick a crush.
`*..had a serious talk// nope
`*..missed someone// yes
`*..hugged someone// yes
`*..fought with your parents// nope
`*..fought with a friend// nope

DO YOU//WHAT..
`*..wear eye shadow// yes
`*..put on a 'front'// no?
`*..kiss on the first date// depends
`*..have a crush on someone// yes? Rick.
`*..eat with your mouth open// yes
`*..color is the carpet in your room// gray
`*..the last CD you bought// Blind Melon-self titled


RANDOM QUESTiONS...
`*..how did you spend last summer// sleeping and talking on the phone
`*..when's the last time you showered// yesterday morning
`*..are you lonely// at the moment, yes. but not always.
`*..are you happy// yes
`*..are you wearing pajamas// yes, i just woke up about a half an hour ago
`*..are you talking to someone online// nope
`*..what's your astrological sign// virgo
`*..what are you listening or watching right now// Ours- Drowning

yeah so last night was sooo amazing. Rick came over, obviously or else it probably wouldn't have been amazing.

school sucked but then i saw Rick at the end of the day and we decided that he should come over so he did and he stayed until 10. (that's why i didnt call you back jen) it was so amazing. when we first came home it was really fun then i called my mom and told her to bring home pizza so she did and then we ate and then we sat on the couch and did stuff. heh. and then jen called, twice and i talked to her and i want to see what this kid looks like jen. you have to show me the picture man.

okay yeah but i have come to the conclusion that i love Rick so much that i can't even begin to describe how amazing and awesome and sexy he really is. i dont know what i am going to do when i go to florida for a week, i'll have to cry. i miss him already.

okay well that's enough of that. goodbye and Jimmy Gnecco. by the way i am listening to Distorted Lullabies right now for the first time in a awhile and it's soooo awesome. Ours rocks my world. i recommend everyone listen to it. okay goodbye all. i love Rick Cullen an unbelievable amount.

http://www.miseryhead.net/img/tamtem8.jpg

1 fallen soul| dream you're alive

i guess it's a good thing they shut it off cause i never would've let you go. [03 Apr 2003|08:56pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | Ours- Fallen Souls ]

hello all you people out there. how are you all doing? me? oh well i'm just wonderful thanks for asking. actually if you know what is best for you, you wont ask about that whole thing right there. heh.

well my past few days have totally annihilated and rocked sooo muchly. i have hung out with Rick all this week so far...yes everyday...and i hope to continue the chain of hanging out into tomorrow. i love him and i love being with him sooo much, everything about him is great.

anyways, school today sucked pretty badly since i didnt do anything and was really bored all day, the only thing that kept me going was the thought of being able to hang out with Rick later on. you know?

yeah so yesterday rocked. we (biology classes) went on a field trip to the museum of science and it was pretty cool although the lab part of it was gay i got to work with courtney forti and basically andy and ryan too so it was all good for me. yeah so after the field trip we came back and late might i add and i was going to go to Rick's house but i knew he wouldnt wait for me so i took it upon myself and upon andy to make him come to Rick's house with me. so me and andy took the 300 bus to Rick's and then we went to his door, now the whole time i was thinking oh my god he's not gonna be home and i'm gonna be screwed but then about 5 minutes after i rang the doorbell he answered the door. :) yay. i was happy and then we hung out until 6 and did stuff. hehe. i love him.

so today i hung out with Rick again until 6. total freaking annihilation is all i can really say. okay well i think that is all for now. i really hope i hang out with him again tomorrow. we'll see. okay well Jimmy Gnecco. i love Rick Cullen soooooooooooooooooooooooo much.

http://www.miseryhead.net/img/atljen01.jpg

dream you're alive

i love you...a lot. [01 Apr 2003|05:42pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | Ours- Disaster In a Halo ]

hello there and welcome. don't ask i just got the sudden urge to say that. someone totally commented on my last journal entry and was all like Christian Lindskog is the hottest man ever and you better believe it. dude Christian rocks my world. so does Blindside so whoever said that rocks.

anyways. today was soooo fun. school totally sucked. biology i had a test that i know i failed since i didnt know that we were having one. skills i didnt pass in the homework cause i couldnt get to the website he gave us. keyboarding just sucked. study was gay since ms rothman was there and she made us watch a stupid movie since maggie wasnt in class and she needed to watch it sometime..gay. math was stupid, we didnt do anything really at all. history sucked. need i say more.

i had saw Rick before skills this morning and he told me that he was probably going to come over my house today and then i was and could be happy for the rest of the day. :) i saw him after skills too when he was going to auto so whatever works you know? then he waited for me after history outside the room and i met him there and we were off.

we got to the t and jen came later and was like you know your bus isnt coming for another hour? and then i cried, no but really i was very upset. needless to say it came about a half hour later but hey. Rick looked so sexy today, i dont know why but it was soo sexy. ahhh. anyways we got on the bus and it was a fun time. i guess. we got to my house and then i'll let you take it from there. hehehehehe. *snickers cause i know something you dont* hahah. okay anyways that's enough about Rick for now. even though he is the sexiest, awesomest, nicest, amazingest, coolest, best person ever. i love him soooo much.

so at about 330 denise came to take me to the orthodontist and we drove Rick home and then went so now i have new elastics, same colors just newer. when i came home i got a call from Rick and i talked to him for a bit. then my mom told me that jen called on her phone so i called her back and she told me the best news in the world for her anyways. JEN GOES OUT WITH BRIAN COLLINS. oh man that was so awesome. he asked her out and i was so happy for her. dude she once again gets the guy she wants. heh. jen you are awesome. happiness overcomes you i'm sure so be okay and i'm happy for you. i told Rick to guess the good news on why you called and he was like "do her and brian go out?" and i was like yes. he's good but hey brian collins yo. hah.

okay well i think that is all for now and i leave you with Jimmy Gnecco, totally. i love Rick soooooooooooooooooo much. sooooooo much that i can't even begin to tell.

http://www.miseryhead.net/img/donhills05.jpg

dream you're alive

i really could see myself spending the rest of my life with you [29 Mar 2003|09:09pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | Ours-Meet Me In The Tower ]

today was gay kinda but that's not what i am going to write about, i am going to write about last night and the awesomeness of it all. but i can't say everything in here because i dont want everyone to know my true feelings. hahah. no but i dont even know what i am talking about i'm just really bored.

okay well yesterday rocked sooo much. school was okay i guess, you know nothing too good happened but then after school i was going to go with Rick to cvs so he could buy his mom a card for her birthday. and i did.

we walked back to the busstop and took the bus to his house where he then proceeded to sign the card and then give it to her. then we watched mr. deeds and it was really funny. i had never seen it before so i found it pretty hilarious i must say, good movie good movie.

after that his sisters came home and talked to me for a little while then we went downstairs to his cellar so that we could watch tv alone. it was awesome. great tv i must say. heh. needless to say tv wasnt the main thing of the cellar so that is all i can say.

i'm really bored right now though and i need something to do. i want to be with Rick right now but i cant since he couldnt hang out although i just called him back and i think geoff or someone was there and they were going out. i dont know, i just wanted to be with him tonight. oh well i guess. i think he's calling back later anyways.

he told me earlier that liz's friend tori told his sister that i went out with quite a few people and not for long periods of time, meaning that i stopped liking them for no reason and then broke up with them. i then soon found out that tori wants Rick so i came to the conclusion that she wants him to think that i am going to stop liking him very soon and break up with him so that he will break up with me and go out with her. little did she know that her plan backfired...i only went out with one person for 3 months and i didnt break up with him mind you, so now Rick doesnt like her and she's a retard. plus i want to know how she would know who i was going out with when i only knew her in 5th grade and i never talked to her after that. oh well she's gay anyways. "if that was her plan to get me to like her by telling me something not true about my girlfriend who i love then she's completely wrong and i dont like her at all anymore" thank you very much yes i the girlfriend that he loves mentioned above and if you didnt already know that was what Rick said about the whole thing. so yeah.

okay well i think that is all and i also think that all of you should go to my OURS community and look at the new sexy Jimmy icon. total annihilation. okay Jimmy rocks. I LOVE RICK SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH.

http://www.miseryhead.net/img/e1.jpg

2 fallen souls| dream you're alive

really, really bored [29 Mar 2003|07:30pm]
+ what do you think of cheerleading: i think that it is gay, although i once was a *throws up* cheerleader
+ favorite Disney character: uhhh i have to go with dumbo
+ what brand of deodorant do you use: i dont know what it's called although it could be called secret
+ worst kiss: all of them except the ones with Rick
+ anyone you think is homosexual: many, many people
+ do you know anyone named LeRoy: nope, i wish i did though
+ do you like Pickles: at one point they were my favorite food so yeah i love them
+ do you have a website: i used to but that didn't work too well
+ do you watch PORN: nope can't say that i do
+ are you black: no cant say that i am
+ do you wish you were black: no, no i dont
+ who you gonna vote for: no one
+ do you have your own phone line: yes i do and if i didnt have it i dont know what i would do
+ your thoughts on abortion: could care less really
+ do you like brittney spears: oh man, she's my idol. no but really she's gay
+ do you want a brittney doll: no, what is your obsession with 3 subquestions per actual question?
+ if not do you want one for christmas: ^^^
+ What do you want for christmas: i dont know yet
+ do you have your 2 front teeth: yes i do
+ what do you want to do with your life: i dont know yet
+ ever been butt naked bangin on the bathroom floor: no i cant say that i have
+ would you ever get plastic surgery if so on what: no i wouldnt, oh god not after that show i saw
+ biggest redneck you know: i dont know
+ last time you went to skateland: never...
+ last time you went to the bowling alley: i dont even remember
+ last time you were in a hoopdy truck: these questions are gay
+ what perfume/cologne do you wear: nothing!
+ do you think forigen accents are sexy: some i guess, i was just thinking about that this morning...scary
+ do you like jell-o if so what flavor: all flavors
+ do you like hot dogs if so do you know whats in them: i like hotdogs but not when i think about what's in them
+ brand of toothpaste: aquafresh
+ last time you went to the doctor: i dont know
+ do you think ricki martin is gay: sure, well all i know is that in 5th grade i used to think he was hot. hah.
+ do you think my tractors sexy: gay!
+ do you have a credit card...can i use it?: no and if i did i wouldnt let you use it cause you make up gay questions.
+ do you love your mom: yes
+ do you love your mom as much as norman bates did in PSYCHO?: i wouldnt know since i never saw that movie
+ ever taken ballet: i did when i was a little little kid but then i quit like a month later
+ favoite juice: uhhh fruit punch i guess
+ Last time you used the restroom: probably about an hour ago
+ most attracitve person: Rick Cullen
+ any diseases if so what are they: asthma all the way, i think that's how you spell it anyway
+ last book you read...was it good: The Lord Of The Rings The Return Of The King and yes it was very good
+ white, dark, or milk choclate: milk chocolate man
+ ever died your hair: yup, quite a few times
+ What brand shampoo: i think its called amplify
+ favorite holiday: christmas or should i say st patricks day. heh
+ thing you hate most about your body: everything...and me and jen think we are becoming too obsessed with food and we're gonna get fat
+ do you still play with barbies: nope, although i should
+ last thing or person you rode: Rick. hahahahha. sorry i had to even though it's not true i just thought it would be funny for me to say that since i am soo hilarious. no but really i rode in my mom's car this morning
+ are men really from mars: nope, that would just be gay
+ do you have to do chores if so what are they: well i dont have any regular chores but occasionally i have to vaccuum or empty the dishwasher which i hate sooo much
+ last time you smoked: hmmm let's see, never
+ last thing you bought: fries

m0re rand0m..

+ are you stressed out...if so from what: i guess so but i dont know from what
+ what do you wear to the beach: a bathing suit?
+ do you belive in angels: i guess so
+ would you ever join the army: no
+ do you want a puppy: it depends on the kind
+ ever had a kick me sign on you: no, or at least i dont think so
+ how about a lick me sign: no, i cant say that i have
+ Favorite icing: vanilla yo
+ are u a flirt: no i dont think so
+ last time you were scared: last night
+ by what?: people coming downstairs....
+ last party you went to: i dont even know, probably dan villena's new years party sometime in 8th grade
+ do you do your own laundry: nope and thank the lord i dont
+ what detergent do you use: i dont do the laundry
+ what fabric softner do you use: ^^
+ are your nails real or fake: real all the way
+ do you get jiggy with it: cant say that i do
+ do u live at the wild wild west: nope
+ what do you wish you were named: i used to want my name to be a guys name like randi or something like that but i dont know anymore
+ favorite movie star: Orlando Bloom i guess
+ are your parents divorced...if so for what reasons: yes and i dont really know
+ would you ever wear a waterbra: nope
+ do you work out: i used to do gymnastics but not anymore
+ are u muscular: no, not really
+ are you flabby: not yet, but i think i will be soon enough
+ are you fat: no, not at the moment anyways
+ do you take a lot of pictures: nope, although i really should
+ favorite tv show: the weekenders! and that 70s show
+ do you want a baby: not really but i guess one kid wouldn't be too bad
+ last time you were sick: about a week ago
+ butter or margerine: margarine?
+ your feelings on mcdonald chicken nuggets: nowhere near as good as burger king's, the breading stuff isnt that good but i'll eat them
+ do chinese people really cook cats and dogs: i dont know, maybe
+ do you belilve in santa claus: oh yeah! no just kidding i dont.
+ do you go to a tanning bed: nope cant say that i do
+ are you in love...with anyone...with me???: yes, Rick, and no not with you. i love Rick soooo much.
+ do you have a car: nope
+ do you have your licence?: nope
+ how do you get around: my mom or the bus
+ favorite rugrats character: none of them
+ got milk: no
+ do you sniff markers: nope
+ are you dissatisfied with your hair color: nope it's pretty cool and inspired by carlton megaladon!
+ what kind of jewlry do you wear: bracelets i make (Ours, Blindside) Blindside wristband, Incubus ring, LOTR ring, Incubus necklace, mokey necklace, and elastic band around my neck
+ what do you think of *//\\//Sync??: they totally like rock my world. no really though they suck.
+ have you ever modeled: nope
+ do you shop in catalogs: kinda
+ what do you like the opposite sex to wear: anything really. although i must say that the tighter side of pants and shirts are pretty good
+ do you have a cellie: yeah sadly enough
+ what do you think of eminem: totally freaking gay
+ favorite kind of gum: uhh i dont know all gum rules basically
+ would you ever get a tatoo: i dont know if i ever would but i want to
+ do you think lil bow wow is cute: god no
+ have you seen charlies angels: yes
+ what magazines do you get: revolver, hit parader, circus (with the Blindside pinup!) and that's about it i think
+ do you belive your horoscope: not really
+ Whats your sign: virgo

even m0re rand0m..

+ do u like coffee...what kind...what in it: dont really like it
+ do you write in pen or pencil....or markers: pen most of the time unless i am desperate then i use a pencil
+ are you getto: no
+ favorite lip gloss: none
+ do you wear a watch: no but i used to
+ sunglasses: dont have any
+ ever use nair....if so where?: not anymore but i tried it on my legs, it sucked
+ ever been to the mall of america: no
+ do you want a leather jacket: nope and proud of it
+ ever ridden a motorcycle: yeah when i was little on my uncle's
+ do you think justin timberlake and brittney spears are really togther: i dont think i could care less
+ what you think of bsb?: gay
+ do you read the chicken soup books: i used to
+ have you seen the exorsist: nope and i dont plan to
+ are you online a lot: not anymore, or so i've heard, many people complain to me about it actually.
+ do you have an old navy performance fleece: no but i remember when i used to want one really badly
+ are you getting tired of doing this: eh, not really i have nothing better to do
+ do you buckle up: yeah
+ any siblings: nope
+ what are their names: ^^^
+ what are their ages: ^^^
+ do they wanna fill out our great survey: ^^^
+ do you know how to yo yo: not too good
+ what color are your panties: uhh i dont know, white i think
+ ok we're done are you happy?: not really

m0re.

+ number of times I have been in love: once, well i only count one as being in love
+ number of times I have had my heart broken: once
+ number of hearts I have broken: 0 or at least i think
+ number of boys I have kissed: like 2
+ number of girls I have kissed: none!
+ number of men I've slept with: none
+ number of continents I have lived in: just this one
+ number of drugs taken illegally: none
+ number of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: 2 or 3 people
+ number of people I consider my enemies: a lot of people
+ number of people from high school that I stayed in contact with: well considering i am still in high school...
+ number of cd's that I own: too many for me to know
+ number of piercings: 3 in each ear
+ number of tattoos: none
+ number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: 1 maybe
+ number of scars on my body: probably about 3
+ number of things in my past that I regret: a few things, i dont know the exact number

current residence; my house.
marital status; i have a boyfriend who i love.
current crush; Rick
piercings you have; 3 in each ear
tattoos you have; none
piercings you want; bellybutton i think
tattoos you want; it would be really cool if i got the Ours O or if i got the two Incubus fish.
today's date; march 29
time; 6:33 pm
wearing; black and red converse, blue pants, green Incubus shirt

Questions;
Have you ever had sex; nope
how old were you when u lost ur virginity, if not when are you going to; i havent lost my virginity and i dont know
have you ever loved somebody so much it made you cry; yes
have you ever tried weed; nope
what colour socks did you wear last year on your birthday; i would assume white
when was the last time you cried; probably about a week ago
when was the last time you bled; i dont know
when was the last time you got bit, by a human; i dont know, maybe last week?
when was the last time you got in a fight; dont know
when did you last take a shower or bath; this morning
have you ever had lice; nope
who was the last person you kissed; Rick
describe yourself in three words; i, dont, know
do you hate stereotypes; some
what is your favourite band; Ours, Blindside and Incubus...i cant pick just one
what size shoes do you wear; 5 in mens about a 7 in womens
boxers, thongs, g-strings, granny-panties, bikinis, briefs or boxer-briefs; briefs. hah.
what's the thing you regret most in your life; i dont know really
what song is playing right now; nothing
do you like to swim; occasionally
have you ever talked in your sleep; nope, i dont think so anyways
most embarrassing thing to happen to you; i dont know
last movie you saw in theatres and who did you see it with; agent cody banks cause i am that damn cool and it was with my dad
ever sleep with a shirt, stuffed animal, etc because it smelled like the person you got it from; nope
ever go to say something and completely forget what you were talking about; oh yeah
ever flip words around like 'i rather smoke beer than drink pot'; yup
ever fall into the toilet 'cos some idiot didn't put the seat down; no cant say that i have
can you touch your tongue to your nose; kinda
can you roll your tongue; no, but i wish i could
do the voices talk to you; nope
time now; 640 pm


CHILDHOOD

1. What did you wish your name was? clarissa

2. Did you have an imagianary friend? yeah i think so

3. If yes, what was his/her name? i dont know

4. Did you want to get married? yes

5. How many kids did you want to have? a few

6. What did you want their names to be? i dont know

7. What kind of a perfect life did you want to live? i dont know, i dont remember that far back

8. What kind of house did you want to live in? dont know

9. Did you play with dolls or army toys? dolls i think

10. What was your most favorite toys' name? uhhh maybe a stuffed animal cow but it didnt have a name

11. Who was your childhood hero? i dont know

12. What was your favorite article of clothing? my power rangers outift thingy

13. Who did you want to be like when you grew up? everyone

14. Who were some of your best friends? jessie, anita, evan, and nicole

15. How old were you when you learned to ride a bike? probably about 6 or 7

16. How did you feel? dont know

17. What was your favorite food? i dont know but when i was really really little i used to like broccoli a lot

18. Who was your favorite baby-sitter? i dont know my aunt maybe?

19. What did you think it would be like to drive a car? really cool and fun

20. Did you ever own anything that had to do with My Little Ponies, Rainbow Brite or G.I Joes? my little ponies like a million things and same with rainbow brite...oh man she was sooo awesome

21. Did you play with Barbie and Ken dolls? yes all the time basically

22. Did you play with baby dolls? yes

23. Did you ever have one of those play kitchens? yes, it was my favorite thing in the world

24. Did you ever own a Cozy Coupe? no, i dont think so

25. Do you remember shows like, Ducktales, TaleSpin,Gummi Bears or LunchBox? oh man totally, i loved ducktales so much

26. Did you ever own a power wheels car? i think so

27. Did you ever watch the show "Puff the Magic Dragon?" i dont know

28. What was your favorite pet? my cat shady aka shaboba

29. Did you ever believe in Santa Claus or the Easter Bunny? totally.

30. If yes, who did you think the santas and easter bunnies at the mall were? their helpers. heh.

31. How did you feel when you learned how to tie your shoe finally? happy, although i learned to tie it the lefty way

32. Did you ever have one of those slap-on wristbands? yes and i still do

33. Did you ever wear stick-on earings? all the time

34. Write down one specific memory that you have never forgotten of your childhood: when i did a cartwheel off the firehydrant

what's the story behind your username? Blindside/Ours

name five of your favorite pig-out foods.
1. ice cream
2. doritos
3. fritos
4. funyuns
5. swedish fish. heh

have you ever had a makeover? yeah quite a bit

whats the longest you've stayed out of the country and where? no where

name one thing that you're grateful for today. going out with Rick

what is your favorite high school memory? still in high school

what is the most insane thing you've done for your crush that he does't know about? uhhh i dont know

describe your dream wedding. marrying Rick, anything would be good if that happened.

would you ever join temptation island? no

name your three favorite high school/elementary school teachers.
1. Ms. McNiece
2. Ms. Morris
3. Mr. Jones

do you have a favorite quote? what is it? i dont think i have a favorite one, i cant choose just one

my first heartbreak was . . . i dont know...

the school picture at the bottom of your drawer? all of them

do you have any weird preferences? what are they? dont think i have any

what is one thing you will never understand about the opposite sex? why some of them like me

who's your best friend(s)? jen and i know this is gonna sound really gay but Rick too.

what tv character do you most want to be? dont know

if you were famous, and were to be a guest on a talk show, whose show would you choose? why? uhhh last call since Ours was on it...no matter how gay the show is i still love Ours that much to want to be on it. heh.

give yourself a porn star name. no thanks

do you have any weird sleeping habits? i dont think so

what are you planning on doing this summer? dont know yet

what is currently your favorite song? "Red Colored Stars"- Ours

write a line from any song. "well i'll open my eyes and a new day will come, i'll see red colored stars in the sky and in your eyes"

do you know any disney song by heart? yeah stuff from pocahontas

describe your dream house. dont know

your typical sleepwear includes . . . pajama pants and my elc shirt. oh yeah

what's in your bag? stuff

what's in your wallet? pictures and cards and stuff, no money at the moment though

how much money is in your wallet? none

favorite pair of shoes? my black and red converse yo

if you could've gone to your senior prom in a different outfit, what would you have worn? i'm not a senior

how was your senior prom? it hasnt happened

favorite birthday? uhh i dont really know

would you rather be an elf, dwarf, or hobbit? elf all the way

what were the first five things you would splurge on if you were a multibillonaire?
1. i
2. dont
3. know
4. at
5. all

what is your daily going-to-bed rituaL? take off the bracelets, necklaces and rings, and put on my pajamas then put on the Precious-Ours cd and got to sleep

what is the weirdest/funniest nickname anyone has ever called you? rational. hah.

3 favorite cartoon characters:
1. tino
2. carl
3. twister

***************STATS AND OPINIONS***************

FULL NAME: Rachel Anastasia Fishman
BIRTHDAY: September 6
BIRTH PLACE: brockton ma
HOME: quincy ma
EYES: brown
HAIR COLOUR: blonde with black tips and brown roots
WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN: virgo

***************LOVE***************

DO U HAVE A BOY/GIRLFRIEND?: yes
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE?: yes, i am
A SONG THAT DESCRIBES YOUR LOVE LIFE? i dont know.

***************FUTURE***************

WERE DO U C YOURSELF IN 10YRS TIME? hopefully with Rick
FUTURE SONS NAME?: Jimmy Gnecco....first and middle name there. heh.
FUTURE DAUGHTERS NAME?: dont know, girls are gay anyways

***************HAVE U EVER***************

BROKEN THE LAW?: i dont think so
RUN AWAY FROM HOME?: nope
EVER CHEATED IN A TEST?: really, who hasnt?
HAD A MEDICAL EMERGENCY?: i think so

***************DO U BELIEVE IN***************

LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT? yes
ALIENS?: yes
HOROSCOPES?: not really

***************WHICH IS BETTER****************

MUD OR JELLY WRESTLING: jello man
WHITE OR MILK CHOCOLATE?: milk
BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?: brunettes but both are okay i guess i just prefer brunettes
ROLLERCOASTERS- DEADLY OR EXCITING: exciting

***************WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME U***************

FRACTURED SOMETHING? :uhhh 2nd grade
CRIED?: like a week ago i think
GOT A REAL LETTER?: i dont even remember

***************WHAT IS*****************

YOUR MOST PRIZED AND IMPORTANT POSSESSION?: i dont know
THE WORST SONG U HAVE EVER HEARD?: anything rap or pop ya know?
FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN U WAKE UP?: Rick
WOTS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?: me!
FAVOURITE NUMBER?: 1024
WOTS ON UR BEDROOM WALLS?: posters of people
WOT DO U WEAR IN BED?: didnt i already answer that?
WOT IS THE WORSE THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE IN UR LIFE?: uhhh i dont know

***************FAVOURITES***************

RELATIVE?: my uncle i guess
FAVE TV SHOW?: the weekenders and that 70s show
SHAMPOO?: amplify
BOOK?: all 3 LOTR
MAGAZINE?: hit parader, revolver, circus
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND?: sleep, and hang out with Rick
BAND OR GROUP?: Ours, Blindside, Incubus
MOVIE?: LOTR fellowship of the ring and the two towers, and Signs

***************IF***************

YOU COULD HAVE NE JOB IN THE WORLD WOT WOULD IT BE?: i dont even know

***************DO YOU***************

GET MOTION SICKNESS?: nope
GET A LONG WITH UR PARENTS?: yeah, most of the time
LIKE TO DRIVE?: i wouldnt know
SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?: nope
TYPE WITH THE FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? sometimes, although most of the time no
DRINK OR SMOKE?: nope
WHO IS YOUR BIGGEST CRUSH RITE NOW?: Rick
WHO DO YOU GO TO 4 ADVICE? BOYS OR GIRLS?: jen
BELIEVE IN REINCARNATION?: kinda
CONSIDER YOURSELF A GOOD LISTENER, SPEAKER, SHOULDER TO CRY ON? yeah most of the time anyways, if i like the person i will definately listen but if it's someone i dont like then i couldnt care less
WOULD YOU RATHER BE HAPPY AND POOR, OR WEALTHY AND UNHAPPY?: happy and poor all the way
LIKE TO TALK ON THE FONE? yeah i like to talk on the phone
ARE YOU TO SHY TO ASK SOME ONE OUT? yes
WOULD YOU RATHER GO ON A WALK OR WATCH TV?: watch tv i guess
WHAT IS YOUR DREAM HOLIDAY?: being with Rick
DID U HAVE FUN DOIN THIS?: yes
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totally [29 Mar 2003|03:09pm]
sleepwalking
Sleepwalking
Words so secure screaming like an alarm
Are you trying to wake me up
Now what was that you were trying to pull
Is it my arm
I do believe you're trying to wake me up

But could it be maybe
It's not me sleeping
Could it be maybe you awakening

Sleep this time tonight
Sleepwalk in the light
Sleep this time tonight (one day we'll)
Sleepwalk out of sight

Now here I am, but I'm just sleepwalking
Yes here I stand
But I guess I'm just sleeptalking for myself

But could...

Sleep this time tonight...

One day this world will see me at the horizon
One day from a distant light
And just before I stand to face my love
I'll turn around
And with a smile I'll say my goodbyes
Just one last goodbye
Goodbye


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i love Rick soooooooooooooo much.
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my head is shaking from lifting it up so much [27 Mar 2003|07:33pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | Ours- If Flowers Turn ]

today was...i'll let you figure it out since that's how i start most of my journal entries these days. all i can really say is that i love Rick, so much that you will probably never know.

school was okay i guess. i saw Rick in the lobby in the morning but it was nothing special since i never really have anything to say..ya know?

double skills was good since we had an assembly the first half hour and it wasnt too bad. then i switched my skills class so now i have mr mcgibbon and i was supposed to print something out but i dont know what the website was that he told us to go to so now i am doomed...or not.

i got a pass from him to spanish since me and melissa ended up going to the store and on the way there we saw Rick going to auto and he looked sexy as anything. heh.

spanish was okay i guess since we didnt really do anything except fill out a chart thing the whole time and it was really easy and i'm hoping that tomorrow's double should be the same as it was today. oh and mr lugo tried to steal my food that i got from the school store.

keyboarding was well keyboarding and nothing too exciting happened. i sang though and i know that ryan appreciated it greatly, no really he told me he did. heh. i totally am almost done with the 7 million applications that we had to do oh yeah.

double math oh man. it was okay i guess, he just gave back the tests and went over the homework but it was so boring. mr gendron was like really off today, he like got distracted so easily and it was great, or at least i thought it was great.

lunch was okay i guess, nothing too good. i dont think _ _ _ _ _ _ sits with us anymore which sucks but i think i may be able to deal with it.

english was kinda fun, although then again it always is since mr jones rocks the world. he had us look up racist things in the dictionary and tell the class the definitions, great times great times.

i saw Rick before history and i also saw him before english but yeah, i love him.

history was sooooo boring. i dont know how i honestly survive every class, thank the lord i dont have it tomorrow or i seriously think that i would have to cry. ms day is gay, officially.

after school i saw Rick and he said that he might be coming over earlier so i asked him if he was still planning on coming over and he said no, he was going to go home since he felt dead. then some kid (i dont know his name all i know is that he's really funny) came up to him and was like are you going to the skatepark and Rick was like i dont know then he ended up going and was going to go home afterwards so i came home and sat with denise while the guys fixed the heater thingy. after the people finished fixing the thing denise left and i went online. about 10 minutes later i hear a skateboard outside the door and i look out the window only to see Rick skate by. he decided to come over after he finished skating and i honestly thought that was the best thing in the world. he came over unexpectedly and it was so awesome. i love him so much. so he came in and we watched some tv then other stuff heh. well it totally rocked and that's all you need to know for now unless you are jen and feel the need to know. hehe. then i will tell you. muahahahahahaha. sorry that was supposed to be an evil laugh.

okay Jimmy Gnecco, have a blast. I LOVE RICK

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