||The news... they're talking about the pokies.
I signed in about ten minutes ago, and now I don't remember why. Hmm.
Well, school has been much the same as ever. I am feeling much more optimistic about leaving, though. It used to be a bit like I'd become institutionalised, but now I just want out. I think it's because I've become more embittered with people, the world, everything. And so I really want to get away from the inane social microcosm that is our school.
I still don't know what I want to do next year. There's a few courses that might be interesting, but don't know where I'm heading career-wise, so I don't know which ones would be best to choose. I just don't know. I think that I'd like to do some kind of humanitarian aid sort of thing. But when it comes to next year, I'll do German, Mum wants me to do International Studies, and English would be all right, although I don't know what purpose it would serve other than providing me with something that I like doing. So... I'm still quite undecided. I should really choose something some time soon.
Hmm. I don't know.
Reverting back to what I was originally saying, I've been embittered lately, as some people (Jenny) are well aware. I don't know why, but lately I've been seeing a lot of immaturity everywhere, and it's annoying me to no end. I know that I'll be immature at times, like when we have some fun and act stupid, but I'm talking about when people are petty and acting like children with their obsession with social standing (Holly knows exactly what I mean here). It's infuriating. I'm also annoyed with a couple of other things that I won't go into detail about here.
I was saying this to Jenny the other day... I don't know why I've become embittered and incensed by the immaturity of the people around me. I must have matured at some time; I think that maybe having to live in Germany without my family or a decent knowledge of the language taught me to be a lot more independent and mature. But it's just an odd theory, I don't really know.
I must seem really bitchy and grumpy in this post. I actually feel fine, I'm just expanding on the venting that I've been doing lately. It's quite therapeutic to be able to talk about/write about everything. So, to those who listen to my rants, thank you very much :D
And, on this note, I shall end this rant and continue downloading last week's edition of short.fast.loud which I failed to listen to and has a Sommerset interview (Squeee!).