Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in Isis' Blurty:

Saturday, May 31st, 2008
10:46 pm	A little bit of more info about my "girlfriend"... She's nine years my senior. She's kind of "wild" as in she drinks like a fish, smokes weed all the time, and has been to jail for fighting. She's recently separated. She's non-monogamous, but not exactly polyamorous. If anything she's into what can be loosely described as polyfidelity. I didn't really start thinking about a relationship with her until last week. She and her husband came over while my husband had his girlfriend over. Before we continue, let's go over the cast of characters. My hubby is "A", my "girlfriend" is "K", her husband is "P", and my husband's girlfriend is "L". Anywho, K and P come over and we introduce L as A's girlfriend. K and I go into my bedroom and talk for a bit. She asks me if L is my girlfriend too. I tell her no and that L is straight and she's just with A. K is shocked and doesn't know why we'd want to have separate relationships. She then explains how she and P like BOTH of us and wanted the four of us to be one big happy group. She was pretty upset and started crying. I knew she was kinda diggin' me, but I had no idea she wanted me and A. I just told her that it's not easy to find someone both A and I like and that like us back, so we decided that he can have his own girlfriend and I have mine. She didn't really get it, but she respects my decisions. Even though she still doesn't approve of A's relationship with L. I'm just thinking if she's that sensitive, how am I gonna bring up some serious topics? Like, how do I bring up STI testing and safer sex practices? If I want a boyfriend or another girlfriend, how would I even bring it up? Most importantly, how would I go about telling her I'm not 100% sure if I want a serious relationship with her? She's just so different from what I want in a woman. But, at the same time, she's really cool. Any advice would be appreciated. (Comment on this)
Friday, May 30th, 2008
3:27 pm	I'm gonna revamp this thing again! It's hard to find private places to post anymore. A quick update. I'm still married. We're now living with a friend. I MIGHT have a girlfriend. She wants to get "frisky" and I'm really nervous about that. Here's the thing, I'm a virgin when it come to the ladies. Also, I don't know much about her sexual history and I don't want the risk of catching a STI. So, I don't know what to do or tell her. I can only go with the "I'm on the rag." excuse for so long. In other news. I've been using my Facebook account to add people that were my bullies in school. I really want some closure and reasons why they picked on me, but I wouldn't know how to bring it up. Also, the whole idea of it is so silly. You'd think years later I'd be over it, but I'm not. My insecurities from have just been building up from those days. All these people have college degrees and awesome careers. All I have is a G.E.D. and a job at a grocery store. I can't help to think I'm not worth much. I feel like a nobody and that's what I'll be for the rest of my life. I don't want these people to look at me like how they looked at me years ago; a freak! So, instead of showing my "emo" side on Facebook, I feign confidence. That's all I feel like sharing for now. I'll update this later. Ta! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 15th, 2007
8:07 pm	Foooood! Well, today is the first time I kept track of how many calories I was consuming and how often I ate. 4 times(about once every 4 hours) 1456 calories...so far It's really not as much as I thought. I really need to get out of the house and get active though. Anywho. I joined a really cool dating site last year. Since then I've had a few responses from women. Unfortunately, every time I have one conversation with a chick, I feel totally intimidated and just stop talking to them. I don't know how to fix this problem. :-( That's all for now. Ta! Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Guild Wars (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 14th, 2007
9:35 pm	The past year has flown by so quickly! Wow, I can't believe I abandoned yet another journal! LOL! It's like I have so many different sides of me, and each one has it's own journal! ^_^ Well, let me tell you about what has happened in the past year... First off, my living situation. I'm living with a relative right now, because money is tight. Hopefully I'll get on my feet soon. Secondly, my relationship. I got married to my boyfriend of 2 year in May!(Don't worry, we're still open! ^_~) I'm still looking for a girlfriend though. I haven't had any luck in that department. That's all for now. (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 8th, 2006
12:46 pm	I'm back! Wow, it's been a while since I updated. Well, let's see. About a week ago, I got to make out with a very pretty girl. It was fun, but, it was only a one time thing. I'm still looking for a girlfriend of my own. :( That's pretty much it. I'll update later. Ta! Current Mood: horny (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 19th, 2006
8:56 pm	*cough* I'm soooooo sick! My throat's sore and my nose is stuffy. I just wanna be better. Current Mood: sick (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 12th, 2006
1:30 pm	Goodness.... I have all this love and I don't know where to put it. I haven't had a girlfriend in so long. I'm afraid I've forgotten how to relate. I just want someone I can stay home with and snuggle in front of the T.V. I don't need sex. Just someone to kiss and caress me. That's all. Ta. Current Mood: lonely Current Music: Bulls on Parade - Rage Against The Machine (6 Comments |Comment on this)
12:50 pm	Oh boy. My icon. I just noticed that my tummy looks a lot bigger in that picture than it really is. *shrugs* Oh well. Current Mood: embarrassed Current Music: none (Comment on this)
11:57 am	Guess what?! I've revived this journal! I'm starting over. I guess this'll be my private journal. No one really knows about it. So yeah. That's all really. Ta! Current Mood: refreshed Current Music: air conditioner (Comment on this)