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how did i say that last night? how did you doubt for a whole night, that i love you?
i'm working til 3 on the 4th of july... i can't wait to watch the fireworks with him.
my parents are going out of town and leaving me the car for 8 or 9 days. i have outtings planned. i am stoked.
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| 05:09pm 03/07/2004 |
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how did i say that last night? how did you doubt for a whole night, that i love you?
i'm working til 3 on the 4th of july... i can't wait to watch the fireworks with him.
my parents are going out of town and leaving me the car for 8 or 9 days. i have outtings planned. i am stoked.
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| 05:07pm 21/06/2004 |
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..ha he is playing video games with my brother. the last couple days have been kinda hard. but i think it's getting better. it's hard when you're used to seeing someone everyday, and sleeping with them every night. i'll write later. i love corey, blahh. |
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| 02:56pm 17/06/2004 |
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trouble in paradise. i really am sorry. you've forgiven and forgotten by now. but it still sucks that i made a smudge on my perfect note. i really like making you feel lucky. i really hate making you feel rotten. you said "you don't love me anymore" then you said "i didn't mean it". saying i don't love you isn't a joke when that's all i do. anyway i'm still as happy as when i first met you- there isn't less love, just less mystery..which is good and bad. we might go to islands of adventure-i so need a vacation! or atleast to DO something (ANYTHING) on my days off. i like talking to random people online. i like saying creepy things and reading their akward reactions. it's relaxing. heh. corey and cory are at lauren's house- according to austen. i'm trying to get ahold of everyone but no one answers except ilya. who is busy working. my dad.. is lame. he stood me up. he better not do it again today.it's father's day sunday and he won't be in town. i got the day off work for a reason. blah! i need some grapefruit and a salt bath or something. it doesn't feel like summer when you don't have time to sit around and wonder what to do. -buhbye |
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| 10:44pm 09/06/2004 |
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the show is tommarrow. fall that far at kelsey club. corey's uncle is taping it and making a music video (he's a director i guess.) my dad is going. ha. i am excited. i hate the idea of corey being really famous and the whole world wanting a peice of the band. the whole world wanting to be part of what i am part of. it's sick. it's gross. it's what being a rockstar, pop icon is all about. and it's his dream and my nightmare. but i love him. this is gonna take some sacrifice and some getting used to and some lonely nights. i fucking hate celebrities. so your'e pretty and your a household name, so what? so fuck off. i don't want a big mansion in beverly hills with a 10 car garage and a jacuzzi the size of a football feild. i want a simple life. colorful but simple. i'm scared of fame. eventhough i dont think it will change corey. "the road to excess leads to a life of.. FABLOUSS-NESS"- party monster (our favorite movie) suddenly this quote makes me sick. people do crazy things for love. even live a life they cant.
i'm sure it won't be that dramatic..(please no!) i do support the band and i do want to "make it"- just not at the expense of our privacy and quality of life. people are crazy. am i on the crazy side or the not-so-crazy side. whoever is stalking adam (corey's drummer) needs to die a painful death at the mercy of alex, austen and i.
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| 09:29pm 04/06/2004 |
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blah waiting for corey and austen and adam to go see the new harry potter-eventhough they've seen it..but austen has "premire tickets"- and i'd do anything to get out of the house. the highlight of this day so far is waiting for them. that sucks. work sucks. have you ever glimpsed into the future and seen how much better your life could be witha few simple changes-unfortuately those changes take a little while- and i am an impatient, underage weirdo and ontop of wanting my own place and car and time most importantly i also have peter-pan syndrome. childhood is something you never get back. i'm afraid of being old and serious. i'm afraid of slowing down andsuddenly waking up when i'm30 and realizing i'm surrounded by asshols i don't recognize and that i gave up art for whatever job pays well and is in demand. i hate not having time to sleep in or wander around on my stupid bike. i applied at hot topic- i know shut up. sadly the only interveiw time available is on a day& time i'm working- guess i'll have to get out early. and by the way shut up- it's the wellington hottopic...eh. the next show is kelsey club thursday june 10th with upper class trash. i miss peace and quiet. i went to goodwill today and almost got a bunch of cool retro plates and candle holders but i dont have my own house so why the fuck would i need those yet. lame. i almost miss school work sucks so much. there i talk of a trip to california w/ the band and austen. also ralk of a trip to michiogan to see the grandparents. my eyes burn - i think it's time to change my contacts. tip is down again. i guess i'll see her later. i don't have much else to say.. just complaints. i had the greatest talk with corey the other morning at 6am when he came to bed at austen's. i miss talking to him. he's my happy cloud...love bubble.. okay too much mush.
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| 07:51pm 15/05/2004 |
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yeah i haven't written in here for a lonnggg time. let's see what's new.. tip moved.. i hardly ever talk to her. i'm still at crapstein's bros bagels. 40 hours a week. corey's band has grown a lot. we have the other cory on guitar, ilya the crazy, russian, glamour-boy bassist, adam on drums, chip as a percussionist- sometimes and of couse corey on guitar and vocals. their show is on fri (may 21) they start at 7pm at spankys- the name is "Fall That Far"
-oh we also have Austen the tour manager-she rocks. My dad is designing/silkscreening the shirts (that's right it's our first show and we're gonna have merch!) and the demo is almost complete. (i say "our" and "we're" like i'm in the band too- sorta am i go to every practice and meeting and show i play the girlfriend/i used to hold the mic before we/they got a mic-stand.) i'm out of school now. i'm going back next year mostly to tutor instead of class and hopefully dual enroll. my dad is also most-likey going to compete in the 2005 olympics in Athens (mmm...Athens) for Greco-Roman Wrestling. ha. and he's drawing my tattoo - a koi fish and a lotus flower- lots of colour. anyway life is pretty allright- especially when i am not at work. it's raining.:D bitchin', no?
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blahh friday i'm in love. afterschool corey and i went to chris's house to get some ahhhsssiddd... chris took some and had a seizure...but it's okay he's allright and he's prone to seizures (uhh i dunno how to spell that ciesure siezure ciezure?) so it wasnt the acid... it was really creepy though.. his eyes were blood and blinking and he drooled everywhere..it all began with him suddenly making weird noises then shaking until he was incapable of talking or responding. i was scared. corey knew what to do though. corey is so smart. i don't know what i wouldv'e done if it were corey. actually, at the time chris started drooling corey was sucking on acid, he took it out after that. when we left chris's corey apologized again and again as if it was his fault as if he made me go, as if he made chris have a seizure... as if i didn't knowingly expose myself to this shit. he kept apologizing like i was this innocent kid that was scared by this moment- like it would haunt me forever. i felt so bad that he thought it was his fault. i love him. i love that he cares. theyr'e triple-dipped. we still have 4 more hits. i have work tommarrow though so..none of that. i still havent been able to get a hold of tip, i called last night and today.
i hate being forced into worrying about someone i really dont care about- chris is an aquaintance.. if he died my biggest concern would be calling 911 and getting the hell out of the house with corey and the acid. i'm gonna go now bleh.
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hi. heh. it's the new year..and two weeks past. my job is getting better and easier.. coreys back at school :D, school is good. all my work is in i'm getting awesome grades. corey and i are AWESOME. :D seriously. and mom lets me spend the night over there on school days now (hahahaha) we took a break from the drugs. it's been... since new years. ha. two weeks and uh no it wasn't a new years resolution. also..i havent seen tip since new years. she moved in with these kids..they rock but now she's not going to school and i miss her. i don't have her new # becuase they only use cells.. and they're always dead. dead cells ahhaha. life as a whole is pretty bitchin. :D i love corey so much and everything is so..stable!
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it's 10:13 and where am i? home!! why?!! you have EXAMS today rachel! yes, i know, but you see i awoke this morning and my eyes felt like someone was putting their cigarrete out in them, so looked in the mirror and noticed my eyes were blood red. hooray. so i went to the eye doctor. he gave my eye drops. i have to come back saturday at 9:45 am to get new contacts that i can leave in over night and to check my eyes. i'm wearing my glasses until saturday. ehhh. and that means no getting fucked up this weekend. #1 corey doesn't get paid until NEXT tuesday. #2 i need to spend all $ i get on xmas presents and pants for work. #3 i work thurs., fri,. and sun. and now i have a doctors appointment on sat.also, corey works all weekend and goes to work in boca. there is no way we can get fucked up and stay at tips and both make it to work by 8 when he lives in boca and there are no buses to my work. lame. especially lame because everyone we know has ACID. MMMMMM that's righhht ACID. AAAHHHHSSSSSSIIIIIIDDDDDDDD. man oh man do we want some. oh well..
atleast i'll be set for contacts and atleast i finally got a job atleast we're saving $ to get an apartment. hoooorayyyy. i love corey (hahaha A LOT) and this will be good for us to take a break or atleast do something that wont fuck us up so bad it handicaps us from doing anything in public that doesn't involve being extremely retarded. ... i wrote my grandma a letter...i rock.
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| 09:23pm 15/12/2003 |
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this weekend was pretty nuts, at times awesome and also kinda shitty. friday i rescued tip from the ultimate depressing crisis and we went on a search for beans with meghan, matt and katie. we got in a car accident and junk too. that sucked. then we went to drews. got no beans because katie had to get to an xmas party. blahh. corey showed up. we got beans from this other kid that met us at the beach on a goped. corey thought they sucked except for a few minutes of it. tip thught they rocked. i did too but corey was so tired and upset it killed it sorta. we met these dumb kids there. ryan: a kid tip met at bakesale (she thought he was hot when she was drunk..she was confused>) he's obsessed w/ her and hung on her the entire night. matt: ryans cool/hot argentianian friend that has a car, tip likes him. vince- black comic relief skater kid hahaha. loves porn. they hung out with us we went to the park, ryan streaked ew!!! tip and i kissed so ryan and matt would. the next morning we went to the parade. i saw dannielle and alex's mom (nancy). ::burp mmm blt::: and eventually we left them skating at the highschool. saturday night sucked completely. jeremy had to sell 100 beans for at least 10 bucks a pop.. he sold like 20. we didnt get any... lame. saturday at 2-3 corey and i went to his house <333 yay fun. damn evil video games. man oh man do i love my corey. oh man corey rocks the casbah. i slept over. that's about it. corey had work at 10 so i took the bus to tips. hung out w/ amber and tip at some rich kids house.. then back to tips.. that's all. got my work schedule. i work thursday and friday from 2pm-6pm and sunday from 8am-4pm and monday from 2pm-6pm. that's about it.
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| 10:14pm 09/12/2003 |
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say you'll never leave. that's all i worry about. say i'm irreplaceable. say your love for me will never fade. say you'll stay. say you need me. say even if you didnt need me you'd want me just as much. i wish i occupied your mind so much that every song you wrote was hopelessly about me. i hate feeling needy and all that crap. i swear there's at least 7 cure songs like this. mehhh. i love you, you're perfect. i'm sorry i worry too much, it has nothing to do with you. you do your best to convince me i worry for nothing. it's just that something this good never seems to last. it's too early for me to worry about this. i should just be happy and giddy and high on love- and i am..but ughhh i worry too. meh corey's so special. i never wanna let him go. "when i see you happy as a girl who swims in a world of magic show it makes me pull my hair all out to think i couldv'e let you go.." i still feel high when i kiss him. man corey i'm so crazy about you it's crazyyy. heh.
dad picked me up.... we went to target... then barnes&noble.... i got $20. i miss dad. he misses me too. he said so. i suggested we go camping the day after x.mas, he said it sounded like a good idea. i get all depressed whenever i don't see him for awhile. it makes my heart ache like when i was little. it sucks. i'm such a baby. i've always been crazy about my dad. i wonder if he knows. i wonderif i'll ever tell him. i hadn't seen him since thursday when he took me home from emilie's. so we didn't really talk much or go anywhere.. plus he was mad because i gave him shitty directions. that's probably why i threw up. mehhhh. anyway i feel a lot better since i saw him. :)
oh ughh i have to go see dr.ellinger the nicest shrink in the world tommarrow. i hate shrinks. they're paid to listen to you complain, they're paid to be your friends because your'e too pathetic to have any that will stay long enugh to listen to you complain without a fee. my mom says he's not a phsyciatrist, he's a phsycologist, he prescribes medicine. i told her i don't want medicine i can't sell. hahahahaa ehhhhhhh. i hate shrinks because my mom has been making me go since i was little and my dad says she's crazy and that shrinks are stupid- and he's right. and because there's crap i don't like thinking about and especially talking about especially with strangers (who are being paid..but not helping..infact they make it worse by bringing shit up.) it's not even shit i try to hide..it's shit i don't even realize i'm hiding. shit i never think about. i hate cryong infront of strangers. i hate feeling weak. bleh tommarrow will suck.
i'm gonna make my mom take me to this really cool thrift store after i have to go to the shrink..it's by his office and i have $.
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corey finally gave up on josh last friday after waiting for him at a busstop for 4 hours. josh had promised he'd be there to show he cared. a perfect example of exactly how much josh cares: he didn't show up
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we had a great weekend. we were together almost the whole time- except when he had to go to work. we talked. everything was great. he said it was gonna be just me and him. just us for awhile. i was happy. i made plans with him to ditch school and take the bus to his house all day. we said goodnight and hung up.
he called at 11 saying he had an idea or something i wasn't going to like. he had seen josh online, josh gave him another lame excuse about friday- josh is ever full of lame excuses. corey said prove it, come over tommarrow (I WAS SUPPOSSED TO COME OVER UGHHHHHH!!!!), apologize, pick up your bass and i will allow you to still be my bassist. so basically he's still gonna talk to josh. he says he's learned and he won't give him another chance, and i trust him..but i don't trust josh. not for a second. if he and josh continue to have band practice josh could weasel his way back to corey and in turn hurt him more with his lame excuses. corey assures me he won't let that happen. that josh hurt him too bad. either way i was pretty upset that corey gave away my day to be with him to josh who left him waiting at a bus stop for FOUR hours. blah!!!! corey says "but you saw me alll weekend". it has absolutely nothing to do with how long i saw him or when i'll see him again (which won't be til wednesday because he works tuesday.) it was that josh gave his lame excuse and corey said prove it and josh said when and corey said i dont care and josh said how bout tommarrow and corey said fine. eventhough we had just made plans. blah!!! he knew i was coming over. if he hadn't reached me to tell me, if i was too asleep to hear the phone i would have came over and then had to leave or something because josh would come over. ugg. i am apparently making a big deal out of nothing as usual. i suck. then he said " can you dome a favor?", i say yeah. he says "make sure josh gets onthe 2 bus" i say no and explain perfectly that me putting josh on the 2 bus would not make josh dependable. corey saw my point immediately so i really shouldn't have written that like i'm still mad about it. i'm not mad at corey at all. i'm pissed off at josh and the situation. i am worried and disapointed about corey. anyway i stayed home today sick, puking. which is why it's almost 11 and i am home online instaed of asleep in class. blah. ever since corey got suspended until jan.6th i never wanna go. i just wanna go to his house and skip or stay home. my mom put up no fight with me staying home- i had perfect attendance, she figured if i asked to stay home i must need a doctor. i told her it was just my stomach. i couldv'e gone to school, but whatever i'm throwing up anyway.
let us see what is new in andres's journal shall we?:
shattered heart
just a work of art
that no one cares to notice
with so much more to give
right now, invisible
impossible
the man on the corner, begging for change
is the man i have become, begging for love
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-andres ...he has become a poet? sometimes i feel so shitty for hurting him, but i really believe i had to and that i made the right decision, amazingly he agrees. i dunno if i'll ever be able to be friends with him again since it's been almost 2 months and he's still really hurt. meh i hate hurting people. i should stop reading his journal but i still do, hoping to see that he's over it and happy again.
blah i am bored perhaps i should have gone to school. oh well i shall watch judge judy and make myself a sandwhich.
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| 02:23pm 05/12/2003 |
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what the hell does every journal have to somehow mention the cure??
today was so shitty ha. corey got kicked out of school until jan 6th.. which sucks because he was in every one of my classes. now class is meaningless and i have very little moivation to go to class. (atleast wer'e making rat mazes in science class- it's like recess in there.) yesterday tip and i ditched at coreys..corey cut her hair retarded..it was the highlight of the day, that and dancing silly at the bus stop. neither tip nor corey were in school..that sucked. i'm home super early. i have nothing to do. josh went to coreys.. tip is at ashleys. i'm gonna go to sleep i think. |
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| 02:03pm 27/11/2003 |
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You're so depressed... but why? Some people might
call you whiny and annoying, and you are, to
them. You still have people that are willing
to listen to you... right after they've been
dumped.
What band from the 80s are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
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today is thanksgiving, in an hour and a half my mom, stepdad, brother, sister and i will all pile in the car and drive down to ft. lauderdale. this will take about an hour. i'm bringing coreys cd player and a bunch of cds and perhaps even a book for he car. i'm actually kinda excited to see everyone. i called my grandparents in MI, no answer. i miss them. they rock. dad didnt answer either- he loathes holidays. just another inconvience. the banks aren't open, there's mad traffic, the only good thing about holidays for him is he gets off work because he's a teacher, that and he knows holidays make me happy. :D my mom and keith and the kids are going out of town. i'm staying at tips. corey will probably end up spending the nite too. i have to go make salad i'll write later tonite. peace and turkey grease.
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last night was tuesday night. the begining of the fall break. i had to go to that stupid jail tour. then later greg dropped tip off and we went to goodwill w/ my dad. then to carvel for icecream. later greg picked up corey from his house and tip and i from my house. we went to tips. they got drinx. blah. i wasn't drunk. i barely drank at all. corey and greg went for a walk to talk about heroine..and suicide. guess corey helped him. greg left at 12. josh came over and fell asleep. they had sex. then we did. the cure was on and so were a bunch of candels. then we went to bed..i didnt sleep until 5 or so. corey was asleep around 4. i woke up early. tip and josh woke up around 11. josh left. corey woke up. we sat around. i felt sick. they kept smoking their ciggarettes and i kept feeling like i was gonna puke. it was too hot in the house. mom picked us up. we made cookies. corey just left :( eerily i miss him already. i love corey. he's so understanding and lovey and sweet. he rocks the casbah.<33333 tip is asleep on the couch. the kids are watching "the king and i". mom's going to the hardware store. i'm just sitting here. typing. i was gonna try to hang out w/ jessykah..no go. it's her dad's b-day. i was also gonna see andres- also no go. guess he's not really capable of being normal aound me yet. thanksgiving is tommarrow. i probably wont see tip or corey. :( but there will be some goooood foooood :O. meghan is coming back from jacksonville w/ the acid on sat....gel tabs...$4. i wish i could spend thanksgiving with corey. i love him so much. i love the holidays. the weather. the decorations. corey and i made cookies together. he made one that said i <3 u. it was cute stuff. corey is hot shit.
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kcccc mcd [7:29 PM]: hey its casey
Starla di dah [7:29 PM]: hey (yeah i know)
kcccc mcd [7:29 PM]: yeah
kcccc mcd [7:29 PM]: whats up?
Starla di dah [7:29 PM]: how are you?
kcccc mcd [7:29 PM]: im ok
Starla di dah [7:29 PM]: not a whole lot.
kcccc mcd [7:29 PM]: alex told me something about you yesterday and i didnt know if it was true or not.
Starla di dah [7:30 PM]: i saw tim in world thrift the other week
kcccc mcd [7:30 PM]: heh
Starla di dah [7:30 PM]: ?
kcccc mcd [7:30 PM]: he said that you're like
kcccc mcd [7:30 PM]: dealing rolls now and doing acid and stuff
Starla di dah [7:30 PM]: not dealing rolls.
Starla di dah [7:30 PM]: but yeah
kcccc mcd [7:30 PM]: oh.
Starla di dah [7:31 PM]: then again tip deals
kcccc mcd [7:31 PM]: oh.
Starla di dah [7:31 PM]: yep, i know..i suck but..meh
kcccc mcd [7:31 PM]: well, allright.
Starla di dah [7:31 PM]: ?
kcccc mcd [7:31 PM]: nothing rachel.
Starla di dah [7:32 PM]: pissed off are you?
kcccc mcd [7:32 PM]: yeah
whatever dude. i mean i guess that's fair for her to feel the way she feels but I haven't even seen her since like summer. i mean face the facts..we just aren't best friends anymore. it's no one's fault... we each have seperate friends, schools and lives. i mean i like casey. i love casey. but we have deffinitely grown apart. i do feel bad that she found out through alex of all people but..eh.
talking to jessica now. man i love jessica.
andi where are you?
anyway yep we tried acid this weekend..it was bitchin'. trolling is bitchin'.
aparently everyone thinks this is really fucked up of me but it's pretty fun and i don't feel stupid yet.
i got my braces off.... my teeth are BIG.
that's about it.
i love corey. my teeth are big. i miss andi and jessica. and i'm not apologizing for being "dumb" eating rolls and acid. because i sat around from saturday to sunday having very important, halarious conversations with tip and corey. i do agree that we should probably take a break for a bit....too many conseutive weekends..still...groovy.
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mood: loved music: "wildflowers" -Tom Petty
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corey didn't come to school today which really sucked because i was planning on going home with him and having special close time, especially since it was our one month day. ;D it worked out fine though, afterschool i took the bus to coreys but then his brother showed up, just as i did to take him to his mom's work so that he could go to the doctor later. it again worked out fine though :D we went to his mom's work, she works at a retirement home and we watched t.v. in the private theater. we didn't leave until 6-ish. It was awesome. We ran around the theater and tried to catch each other- mainly him running around and loosing his shoes in the process and me running after him to tickle and kiss him. everything is so great with corey. the insecurity and anxiety about josh and crap is as good as gone, i'm fine with it now, because i know corey loves me. meanwhile other elements of social life remain fractured. tip is ever on the edge of crisis and i never know exactly what to say or do, I wanna be a good friend, but ehhhhh... this weekend i don't really know what i'm doing. friday corey is busy and i think tip is too. i don't want to tag along w/ her and her girlfriend and her admirers. i could chill with greg and ben-o, assuming they aren't also busy or i could just stay home, or hang out with dad. actually hanging out with dad sounds like the best plan. unless andi or lydia aren't busy- which i doubt. nothing else is really going on i'm "happy as a girl that lives in a world of make" belive with corey. tip's life never seems to be without drama- i feel bad but there's only so much i can do. oh john is stalking me again urg. anyway that's not important. oh shit i gotta call dnielle and plan some hours i can go to lake worth playhouse. i haven't called her in like a week or two..a week? two?? eh i feel bad now about not calling danielle but things have been kinda crazy- she'll understand, she always understands. danielle rocks like that. life's pretty good right now. the good evens out the bad. man oh man i love me some corey. (corey rocks the casbah.) okkaayyy that's good. byyyeee kidssss |
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