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[13 Jan 2005|06:50am] |
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who cried a river and drowned the whole world she looks so sad in photographs...This is like the song to my life again. I used to love my job and what I did. But nothing good ever lasts forever and now Im a target for the new boss and wake up with a stomache when I even think about going to work. So here is what happened...Yesterday and I admit this was stupid we were supposed to have some sort of stupid ass meeting but I wasnt going to be there so I said yay I dont have to go to which the bitch(new name for the team leader) sd "Oh you will have to go." and then I stupidly replied since I rarely think before I speak "Ok Ill go but Ill just be wasting 2 hours of my life."(or something to that affect I think I said that it sucked as well). To which after contemplating for a whole 10 seconds the bitch decided that she knew me well enough now to take me in a little room and rip me up one side and down the other about how unprofessional and insubordinate I am. This is slightly amusing coming from someone who misspells my name and tries to find some sort of fatal error in my work everyday. So while she is saying Im uprofessional, insubordinate, and disrespectful I keep so ok Ill change that because I already tried to argue my case and she just snaps "I dont want you to change." Which leaves me with ok then why tell me. So then I just shut up and she says something else and it is a whole drawn out thing that just proves she doesnt know and is a complete moron. But now I hate my job. And now I have to pretend to be something Im not at work all day everyday. Part of this is my period I know this. But really she is a sucky boss and I dont have time to go into everything she has done but its like she has personally targeted me on the team to take her aggression out on. So amyway I want to quit but need the money so am stuck trying to figure out what to do. I know she probably wont give me my time off now but thats ok cause Ill just call in sick. I dont care how suspicous it looks. So this is what is going on please excuse me while I go continue to drown the whole world.
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| Sorry havent updated in awhile... |
[10 Jan 2005|07:24am] |
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Things have been a little crazy my boss at work quit and now we have some lady that has no idea what the hell she is doing. But instead of asking us what we are doing and how or actually paying attention when we do tell her she accuses us of not doing our job. So thats a laugh riot all on its own. And Then this weekend I nearly overspent to the point of overdrawing my account.
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| Isnt it funny... |
[30 Dec 2004|07:08am] |
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How people claim to dislike other people for things and they wind up doing the same things?? Take Luke and Lana they both tell us that we are great friends and the like but neither one of them talks to us unless they want or need something. Just my thought of the day have to run to work now.
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| I Think... |
[20 Dec 2004|06:59am] |
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I may not just be gaining weight. I think I might be pregnant. My period is supposed to start this week and there is still no sign of it. I havent been overly emotional or really craving anything except hamburgers this week either. I really dont know what we will do if I am pregnant. I dont know how to raise a kid I dont even want a kid. I hope my period starts soo so this can all be done and I'll know I hate wondering. This wondering is horrible so we should probably wait to have sex until Im actually weight wise where I should be so this doesnt happen again. Umm yeah so that is my worry of the day. Along with I couldnt sleep all night. I woke up like every hour after midnight and I also had a hard time falling asleep so Im dead tired. It sucks cause now I have to go endure 8 hours of probably invoices and issue customers before I can come home with a massive headache and go to sleep. Ok gotta run now ciao!
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| THIS IS ALMOST AS GOOD AS TOMMY MAKING A NEW ALBUM |
[19 Dec 2004|07:25am] |
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Im so excited I had to wake up my bf and my mom to hear this. Tmobile will now let you have Caller Tunes AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH Its like my world is so complete now. Now when people call me they can hear the wonderful Wheatus, The Killers, orrr Sublime. God I love those 3 bands. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY Im so excited I want to scream and it is way to early to be screaming.
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| Wondering... |
[17 Dec 2004|07:01am] |
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Do most girls travel in packs?? Yes I know Im girl asking this but Im one of "those" ones the kind that rarely gets along with her own gender cause they all suck. Its just that everytime I see a girl there is usually at least one more tagging around if not 2 or 3. I understand having a best friend I used to have one but I only had one not 12. Yep ok that is my mystifying moment of the day. Ohh and yesterday I found out that we finance a car for Santa so he is real. YAYAY oh and I still have to register for my stupid traffic survival school or they are going to suspend my license the only reason I care is Im trying to get my credit score up so...cant have a suspended license on it. Ok really nothing to update except Im starving oh and my bf has to work on Christmas Eve and that really sucks. I hate the papers even though Im not doing them they are gay. I still dont really see the good in them. But whatever. Ok gotta run
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| Back 2 this... |
[14 Dec 2004|07:17am] |
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Lately he has been a little touchy...like really sensitive which means I get snapped at alot which then begins the cycle of then I get my feelings hurt cause I didnt do anything which upsets him and round and round we go. Variety is the spice of life they say but I rather things just remain happy. Im also getting tired of being asked if Im sure or not 100 times before we do something I know sometimes I change my mind but god like twice is enough more then that just annoys me. Justifying things annoys me to I dont care why or why not that doesnt matter. So thats my bitch of the day work has being going good its really busy I think we are actually going to make goal this month even if it is tier 5 which means a $1100 bonus which would be amazing towards going to a car. Right now all I can use is my tax return and the $350 Rick owes me. Then whatever I manage to save (hahaha me save). I did get a replacement title to the truck it only cost me $10 so thats not bad. Rick is returning the Stripper Team Loco jacket says he doesnt really like it that much. Im like whatever. People are strange. Anyway we are going out to eat tonight which should be cool I dont know what I want yesterday I wanted Sweet Tomatoes and Red Lobster so we will see. I got some great deals shopping this weekend like a $40 jacket for 10. I also bought a cute hello Kitty hat thing those things that you pull down and only wear in winter I bought one it looks like HK is eating my head. Its cute I like it. I dont know where it is currently but I do like it. Ok Im done for now Ciao Ciao!!
P.S. Cant you just talk to me instead??
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| My rather mundane analysis |
[07 Dec 2004|07:18am] |
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Look at that Im getting better at subject lines. YAY today is my half day. Ok what actually spurned the subject line is Marc D. He keeps posting things about how lame he is because he goes to bed at midnight because he doesnt have a gf. I find this rather funny since I god to bed at 9 almost every night and I live w/my bf. He also goes on about how he has tried being everything you know an asshole(what I usually refer to as his mexican hitler days God I wish I had had a camera phone it was hilarious), Himself(quite frankly that is really the best way to be), being the nice guy(he is usally quite nice even if he is scared of me cause Im not a stupid stripper), and being someone else(refer to the asshole stage for my assement of this. He comments on what the other girls have said that he has talked to is always be yourself obviously a cop out. This is my assement Marc really is a great guy but he goes after the wrong kind of girls he goes after the stupid stripper girls that he doesnt really like but that ever one else thinks is great because none of them are really his friends and are just pretending. I know this because I am not a stupid stripper girl and very quiet so eyes slide right over me and tongues are rather loose. As for the girls he has asked obviously they dont give a shit. Being yourself is part but part is actually going after a girl that you could love not just the ones who can up your status. The ones you can talk to for 4 hours in a Denny's for your second date and still not get tired of. Yeah there are hot girls that are intelligent just not really any of the ones around Team Loco. I mean being Mesa based and really close to AJ for Mesa based you arent really going to come up with to many intelligent hot girls and who cares what everyone else thinks is hot if you think they are. Oh and my bitch response is if you dont like going to bed before midnight everynight because you dont have a gf grow some balls and get off your ass and go out even if it is by yourself. Yep ok I just found this amusing and love analyzing things to death. Marc is a rather fun one to analyze. Ciao Ciao.
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| I feel like... |
[05 Dec 2004|06:03pm] |
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Im failing life today. First I dont have money and I wanted to go see my mom, second I cant find the title to that truck anywhere, and lastly I was disappointing to Rick because he wanted to have sex and I was a wee bit sidetracked. I just wasnt expecting and I had planned on reading and then he like comments on my book and then lays down and starts kissing me and I was just side tracked and then it didnt help that he then told me that it was like kissing a corpse. But then he just laid there for a long time and I told him several times we could but no he was too busy being disappointed it irritated me and talking about it irritates me again. So I went ahead and read then I come out here and he is sleeping on the love seat so I try not to get mad but it just throws my whole head into a loop then I keep complaining Im hungry so he asks me what I want and Im not sure but I tell him I dont want to leave and I know he doesnt have alot of money left so I decide on tuna helper but that wasnt the right answer so like now I dont know what the fuck is up. Its just one of those days that I dont feel like I can do anything right. I feel misplaced and wrong. Im trying not to get upset though because so is life and sometimes life sucks but I like didnt even do anything this time. Ok and that is the drama of the moment...
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| Confessions of an Adult Drama Queen.... |
[02 Dec 2004|07:07am] |
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I went to fucking IKEA yesterday. Im addicted it sucks not having money There is a table that only on sell today and yesterday for $20 granted I dont really need a table but for $20 we could use it for scrapbooking or something. They are a really odd store though some things are an amazing deal and then some things are just like the same as anywere else or more expensive but they definently have alot of cool shit. We bought a trash can for $0.99 and a 2 things of curling ribbon cause I have a curling ribbon obsession. Ok yep thats all.
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| Boyfriends suck... |
[01 Dec 2004|05:27am] |
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Yeah Im once again wondering why I am even in a relationship. I think I went to fast and now dont know what it was ever like to live by mysefl and now I have to sit her and deal with issues about him staying home and everything else in the world. He cant even bother himself to make sure I have clean stuff for breakfast and lunch. I used to make his fucking lunch every single day and put a note in it. I dont even fucking get dishes to put mine in. Yeah and I know I wasn't much of a housewifey person I know I never did the dishes and mostly only did laundry but by the time the dishes got this bad and the house was really starting to stink I would at least try and take out most of the garbage and try and get some of the dishes done or at least try to find the moldy ones and get them done. We also never ran out of electricity at 4 in the morning and made him listen to a sad little beeping sound for 10 min then be scared to go back to sleep because the alarm clock wont go off if the electricity goes out and someone has to go to work. Then to top that off when I told him Bashas didnt opend until 5 or 6 he didnt believe me and left of course without even telling me he was leaveing or anything because thats what I get for slamming the door and waking him up. With him everything is just a big game of how bad we can hurt each other. And forget ever actually trying to listen to me cause nothing I have to say is important and every in the fucking world is just out to get him. His mom is the same fucking way. Drives me fucking insane yeah I do think everyone stares but I dont think everyone is out to get me and there are hidden secret agendas behind everything. We have now limited my subject of topics w/ his mom even more by the fact that I cant talk about money or shopping around her anymore. Because she gives all her fucking money to his stupid sister who is sitting in Maryland being a fucking leech. So that means because Tory is doing well and making money she is now evil in her site. Money has also been an issue w/ me and Rick as I thought it would but was assured wouldnt be by Rick. And the problem is I have it and he doesnt. He doesnt mind spending mine, and he doesnt mind when Im going to complaining about it but Im not allowed to say things like I have money and you dont nanananana even when I was just excited cause I just got my check. I wasnt saying it to offend him but of course I did because everything I say and do offends him. Its quite impossible to get by a day where something doesnt happen that offends him or I hurt his feelings. Quite a few go by where mine arent but then again I dont think the world is out to get me. Oh yeah and from our last argument Im always the ones who has pity parties even though he is the one who goes into other rooms in the dark and pouts. In his world silence means you are having a pity party. Not that you dont want to fight. It is actually quite amazing how long he hurls insults after I dont respond too. Cause he is just pushing for there to actually be more at the same time he is claiming that we shouldnt. Oh yeah add to all this that he doesnt want us to go see the counselor anymore as well. So this is how my morning is being and its not even 5:30 yet. Excitement right...Dont you wish you had my life.
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| Mr. Goodbar Bites |
[30 Nov 2004|06:57am] |
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So yeah I just sold my little shit box truck thing for $500 to my Uncle Boo YAh Bitches. I tried to give it to him for free he said no he would give me money cause he knew we need money which I really dont but YAYAYAYAYAYAY. This is almost as good as when Tommy said he was coming out with a new album. Which Im still waiting for. Right now Im waiting for breakfast I have put myself on a schedule and dont eat until 7 so that way I stop being online and get everything done before I leave anyway this was just filler for my time. TTYL
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| Mr. Goodbar Bites |
[30 Nov 2004|06:57am] |
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So yeah I just sold my little shit box truck thing for $500 to my Uncle Boo YAh Bitches. I tried to give it to him for free he said no he would give me money cause he knew we need money which I really dont but YAYAYAYAYAYAY. This is almost as good as when Tommy said he was coming out with a new album. Which Im still waiting for. Right now Im waiting for breakfast I have put myself on a schedule and dont eat until 7 so that way I stop being online and get everything done before I leave anyway this was just filler for my time. TTYL
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| Weekend Update |
[27 Nov 2004|07:26am] |
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Ok so after my last post on Thanksgiving I wound up going and folding papers. Ive been staying up really late at night which is not a good idea but since I helped fold a bunch of papers. Rick could throw them all and had yesterday off. And yes we did go shopping even though I didnt have as much money as I wish I had. Next paycheck should rock though cause there is going to be quite a few extra straight hours and I think 2 hours of over time. So that kinda rocks. However Rick lost his Team Loco ring yesterday so I offered to buy him another one and that is a $150 so that is like 1/2 my extra money and then I still have some christmas presents I need to buy like we need to go do his moms and I have my aunt and the rest of my Uncles to get and I should probably get something else for my dad and the lock for my brother. So see I have quite a list on top of the fact that I have to stay in a hotel 2 different times before News Eve. Which takes up like $50 so that is $200 out already and however much on Christmas presents. We did go shopping yesterday I got the Sims Makin Magic, Vacation, and Superstar. All we need now is a real version of house party and Unleashed and we will own them all cause Rick is getting the Sims 2 dvd edition from my family for Christmas and probably gif cards from my aunt and uncle since he hasnt given them a list yet. I should be getting a digital camera and Jasc PaintShop Pro 9. Those are the only 2 things I have asked for so that is what I should be getting. As for getting Rick a Christmas Present he still hasnt told me what he wants and he is like the hardest person in the world to shop for. Hopefully soon I will have money to go to IKEA cause the next place we move is going to need lamps and shit and Im tired of our furniture and never having a place for anything to go. We needto get rid of about 70% of all the stuff we have or at least organized boxing of it so that way it is put away. I should probably get rid of like all my stuffed animals now since they have just been in the toy box for 2 years. Plus I can always buy more. I really have no idea what is up with girls an stuffed animals. Well I better run cause I have to work today and Then have extra hours on Monday Ciao!!
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| Happy Thanksgiving!!! |
[25 Nov 2004|09:10am] |
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Not really on the one day you are supposed to spend with loved ones I am locked in my apartment alone and bored. Sometimes I wish I had friends. I am so fucking bored and Rick is getting irritated that I keep calling him. As of tomorrow though we may have a new computer because best buy is having an amazing sale on one. My bank is also confusing because I have no idea if my available balance is actually available or if it isnt because it is dated for tomorrow because Americredit sucks ass. Anyway next time I get paid I should have enough to just up and open a savings account without having to with hold any money or anything. I cant believe they are actually making us work saturday. Hopefully alot of people will have sent in there reinstatement apps so that way we can get a bonus which I seriously beginning to doubt we are going to hit. Not due to any fault of mine my job was done but some people werent doing their's and that put us behind stupid lazy asses. Oh and to make this day better I fell down and skinned my knee and cut my toe. You cant walk on ceramic tile with wet feet I learned the hard way. Oh well I was long overdue for a fall anyway. Ok well this is my thanksgiving update ciao ciao.
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| Save on Everything you buy.... |
[17 Nov 2004|07:21am] |
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So another day at work 2 more days till the weekend though and only like 9 more when I would regularly get paid but I think since the holiday only a week until I get paid. Hopefully today is not as slow as yesterday was. There is absolutely no way to look busy there. I cant do invoices because Allison isnt there so I cant forward all the ones I have to her. So I cant really do those. So Im stuck just doing reinstatement verifications which we dont really have that many of because we are 300K over the allocation for repos. And if cars arent being taken in then they cant be given back. If some of these people who say they want there cars back would actually get on the fucking ball and do what they are supposed to then we could still be doing repos. Hopefully there are some in my bin this morning when I get there. I have about an hours worth of work right when I go in checking to see if there is any new info on any of the accounts that I still have. So yeah Ikea is still a fucking madhouse I was hoping I would get to go there soon but hell there are like a shitload of people there all the time. We even have signs that say to watch for event traffic. And it has now become my catch phrase for busy places. "Its not like its Ikea" So yeah guess I better go cause Im going to have to leave soon. Ciao Ciao
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| Another Day Another Line... |
[16 Nov 2004|07:04am] |
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Damn my stomach hurts like hell I should be dressed by now but am not cause I dont really feel like going to work. The next 2 weeks I dont get any half days. I just get extra hours. Hey at least the money is good but next week I have to work monday 9am-8pm and I do have thursday and friday off but I have to work that Saturday a regular shift from 8-5. So its like an extra 11 hours cause we get paid for being off Thursday and Friday. Oh Yeah!! Plus my job keeps me very busy. I should be eating breakfast and getting dressed but I dont want tooo. Ok well Im off anyway.
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| Radeon |
[11 Nov 2004|06:10pm] |
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MMM another long busy day at work. I like being busy it makes me a much happier person. I also got like $100 extra dollars on this paycheck somehow. Took the bf out for lunch at NYPD Pizza Department after having atrocious craps and calling in to the dr today. Im having severe breakthrough bleeding caused bt my stupid ass patch and I think my weight so Im going to have to get on it and start losing. I thought that by getting a job being busy and the stress would help but it hasnt yet. Umm yeah thinking about what I want to do about food tonight since Im so tired Im suprised Im still awake Ive been up 13 hours right now because of agnozing pain in my uterus and work. Work was okay the mornings are extremely swamped and we had stupid ass corporate visitors. I swear personal references are the nosiest people ever. I had one guy who didnt understand English tell me no he didnt want to buy anything and I had to explain like 5 times that I was just calling to see if he knew 2 people I swear. Then the guys whose app it was called Brad and had a big attitude with him. Which is funny cause then he is all like yeah you want to write my name down it is Brad FU anomri or whatever its a strange last name but its hilarious to hear him do it. I wonder if quality control has caught on yet and if they have what really can they do about it. I would make a great quality control person cause I wouldnt give a fuck I mean if you are 105 days delinquent and you are getting mad about your car being repossesed you got to be really fucking stupid. What did you think was going to happen?? Ok well nothing else to say Ciao!!
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| Tragic beauty lost in conformity... |
[08 Nov 2004|07:21am] |
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Everything is going good. Ths week was a little hard on us cause we went all spend crazy last weekend. I wore my new punk rock prom dress thingy it was cool. We still had a good weekend I went and hung out with my mom and Rick went over to Marc D's. I am utterly exhausted today. I could not get to sleep last night and then I wokeup at like 4 this morning covered in bug bites and they wouldnt stop itching so I had to get up and take a shower to make them stop. And then I got up at regular 6 and came out here and slept on the couch which is not very comfortable. Still not sure what we are going to to do this weekend I have to work 9-1 but I have a half day wednesday. Ok yep thats all. Oh and I made 2 new backgrounds!!
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| Ikea |
[04 Nov 2004|06:51am] |
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Is opening on the 20th we went through the entire catalog last night they have some neat stuff in there. Some weird but some neat. So we resolved some of the issues we were having last night. My mom is taking me to lunch today YAY!!! Yesterday Rick came and took me to Panda Express and we tried to use our gift card but she didnt run it so we still have full balance which is cool. I have to try and figure out how my check is going to be next week when I get paid, I need $150 for the trip and I wanted to try and open a savings account but I also want to spend some so I think Im going to set aside $100 from it and get like $300 and then go open one. Cause I think with the $150 that Im already using it wont really leave me anything to spend and they just opened the book market over here by me. And I need books and then I need to buy a new cellphone which I said my third check but I dont think that is going to be plausible. Ok well I have to figure out my money now TTYL!!
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