| Just Like Everyone Else ... |
[24 Jun 2003|09:30am] |
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Need fodder for rumors … use Mia.
I guess in a way it’s flattering. I really don’t give a damn what people think, if they get to know me then they will find out about the real me. I’m a complicated person and yes I do have a shy side … when I get close to a person or start to yes I can be shy.
Mia is a big flirt and I flirt with everyone and I flirted my ass off at Tobey’s party. I even flirt with Tobey. Hell I flirt with Orlando.
Damn people.
During spin the bottle I had to kiss girls does that make me gay? No.
If you want to know something ask me.
So I’m going to flirt. Get over it! Mia isn’t with anyone all those rumors false.
Natalie says her life in the tabloids is more interesting than her actual life. Well hell the rumors are much more interesting than my actual life. Jesse did you know you and I are suppose to be a couple? ::sighs:: We aren’t.
I’m so very proud of each and every one of you for spreading those rumors because it’s so junior high. Congratulations.
Am I interested in anyone? Not your business only his. I don’t even know if it will go anywhere.
I do appreciate my true friends.
Love thanks for setting the record straight. You and Maj have been there more times than I can count. I appreciate our posse thanks for being there for me and for my new friends much love.
Tobey, Sarah and Breckin thank you for trying to help last night that was sweet. (Congrats Breckin I’m very happy for you. Guess all of us are looking for that something special.)
So is this now a judgmental community? I sure hope not.
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| SSDD - Like the Title Matt? |
[23 Jun 2003|10:52pm] |
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My day started out fine and then all this mess happened. This day just purely sucks. Anyone else had one of these damn days? Well this is mine. Someone get me out of this mood!
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| Where The Wild Things Are ... Tobey's Party |
[23 Jun 2003|04:09pm] |
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Love calls me the ‘wild child’ of the group and I guess I am. But I’m not the stereotypical wild child. It doesn’t bother me for Love to call me that or some other people but it gets old after a while. For the record I’m not that wild … okay almost. Why is it aggressive guys are cool while aggressive girls aren’t? Just don’t put me in a box … I don’t wear labels; actually I’m quite complicated.
Love’s parties always rock. Although I guess she won’t ask Leo again. ::winks at Leo:: Truth or Dare got a little wild. JD she did try to take the truth. Spin the bottle was much more fun. Of course I think the game was rigged cause I kept getting girls. So hell I guess hauled off and kissed Kelly cause he’s a good kisser. So are Tobey and Jesse for that matter.
But for a while I felt like a fifth wheel … so many couples. Being single is starting to suck.
If I live to be one hundred I’ll never understand men at all. Love since Nat doesn’t need that dummies book I need it. Someone just surprised me last night ::wrinkles nose:: which I think might be a good thing. There is always room for more friends.
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[20 Jun 2003|03:48am] |
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I went out with Breckin last night. He grins that lopsided grin and he is so cute. It was hard not to think about Mark. Then other times it was very easy. It was one of those typical first dates with the awkward silences.
Love says I should go out with several people and see whom I fit with. She makes it sound like trying on clothes. But then that was the advice I gave Nat today when she called from Australia. I guess that’s what we do .. see who fits.
Speaking of that I had a very interesting IM tonight. It's not everyday a man tells you those things. Gave my ego a boost since I didn't make 'the list'.
I spent a long time on the phone with Amy. She so fits into our posse. We had some major girl talk going on today. Told her I’d take her with me when I went to Australia to visit Nat. Saw her in ‘Rat Race’ today. Breckin looked cute. Seth cracked me up. Told Nat when we finally talked to rent it if Hayden will let her use the DVD player. Although I’m wondering what’s going on over there. Talking to Amy was good cause I miss Nat … I wish I had her problems right now … or do I?
Speaking of missing people: Orlando usually at least says hello so does Tobey. But I really miss Love. I need her advice. I know Love is on location and then I guess she and JD are burning up the phone lines cause she hasn’t been around. Has anyone even seen her? I know she and JD met once this week and she was very upset. I know things are hard but the road seems to be wearing both of them down. You watch her face when she talks about JD she’s in love with him … like she said … totally, truly … madly. Isn’t that what we all look for?
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| Lessons |
[17 Jun 2003|02:19pm] |
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Natalie is off to Australia. Love, Maj and I took her to the plane. I’d gone off to bed when they came and roused me out of it. I needed to sleep I’d been to long without it and my judgment was seriously impaired.
We all think Tobey is an enigma? Natalie is more of one. When she’s around Ewan and Hayden she is a different person not as reserved. Well not that she’s different she’s still down to earth and sweet and all, but she isn’t as shy. Guess it has to do with her comfort zone with people. She doesn’t open up with us like she did with them in the chat room.
(I missed the good stuff too; I’d left the chat room) Maybe she’ll feel that way with all of us someday - have that type comfort zone. The three of them banter like siblings. You can see Hayden watch Natalie and Natalie watch Hayden. It’s not in a romantic way more protective.
Airport security had to escort us to the VIP lounge to wait for Natalie’s plane. She was the one swamped for autographs because of all the Stars Wars hype. (Of course we all had to sign autographs. There were a bunch of Maj groupies there. Maj was so tickled.) Nat was so gracious. She spent so much time with the little kids. The girl was tired but you wouldn’t have known it. Watching her, made me think about my own reactions to my fans. I’d call her superstar yet she’s so down to earth. I learned a great deal from Natalie today.
Natalie doesn’t tell all, but you can just sense that there was a strong romantic bond between Hayden and Nat; but they’ve been able to move to their relationship to another plane. I had to ask about the filming. We all know part of what is happening in the next episode. “Kissing Hayden now is like kissing my brother. We tried and it just doesn’t work anymore. I’m not like Katharine, I’m not into brothers.” She laughed when she said it. Why do people always say that? That line and the take a dump on your chest line I’m so tired of them. Those are the worst. I’m ready for someone to come up with something original.
We all enjoyed the VIP lounge. The airline had gone overboard for Natalie. She really got the superstar treatment. Even Love commentated she didn’t get that type of treatment. They boarded Nat last so she didn’t have to go through the entire fan thing again. She didn’t even travel with an entourage as someone on their flight did. As she left I made the comment that she was so some classy chick. Maj laughed and said we all were. I’m not in the same class but it felt good that she said that.
I understand now why Maj jokes about writing an advice column with Love. Neither of them ever seems scared they are so comfortable in their own skins. No wonder they have great relationships. They advised to me date several people and find what I wanted. When I found it to go after it with all my heart. They told me not to limit myself yet and not to settle for something I didn’t want.
I thought back when Love and JD first went out and the controversy surrounding their dating. She believed him and put up with all that mess. I saw her friends rally around her and saw JD fall in love with her. But I also saw her courageous side and well LeAnn’s too. How difficult it must have been for them to put all that aside? LeAnn asking Love to her party and then Love going. She must love JD.
Maj went into a diatribe about love and men and dating. What she said made sense. “I guess Ewan’s singing or lack brings this to mind. But it’s true Mia. The greatest thing you’ll ever know is just to love and be loved in return. You may find it in a minute a day or an hour, but you’ll find it. Mia just let love find you.” She reminded me of the Wizard of Oz, the great and powerful Maj.
I finally made my apology. Okay score another one for me. Damn. Let’s just say color me stupid and leave it at that for now.
I know Love sent Breckin after me to get me ‘off my mopey ass’ as she calls it. I’m not to the point that I want to just go out with one person. But the only way to know someone it is to go out. There are a few people I’d like to know better … I think. So this is a step in the right direction.
Not everyone is like JD and Love. It seems like with they knew when they first met that they should be together. I’d never been one to believe in love at first sight but it seems to have happened between them. They’ve become the quintessential couple. Love doesn’t go into details but you can tell they have passion. I miss passion.
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| It's All In What You Say |
[16 Jun 2003|10:53am] |
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Nat I'm glad I talked to you. You really put things in perspective, thanks. I think the idea of being an extra is cool. It has that entire Hitchcockian thing going on rather cool.
Tobey you're dancing is cool, hon.
Ste ... talked to anyone lately? :: still wants to know ::
Tom ... happy birthday again. Oh and did I say happy birthday.
Now I need to apologize to someone. Of course he's not on line. :: sighs::
Did I tell you how much our new digs rock?
Later
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| Just When It Started To Make Sense |
[15 Jun 2003|03:35pm] |
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I thought I had it all figured out. Everything changed with one word, hello.
It wasn’t our first hello; hell it’s our last for quite a while maybe forever. Why do things have to be so damn complicated? I wasn’t his type, the kind of girl who always broke his heart. Then he asked me out. He asked me out and then he couldn’t handle it.
I figured I’d never hear from him again. Then last night before I went to hang with Maj, Sarah and Love there he was on my doorstep.
So we talked and then we stopped talking.
In so many ways time stood still but yet it rushed by. It was one of those perfect moments. In a moment you can live a lifetime and we did.
When he leaned his head against mine and told me he understood I was human he looked so sad. He was furious at how things worked out. I think he would have asked me to go with him if I hadn’t had commitments. He was so different. He gave me that speech about being human. Then he asked me not to break his heart. How do I not do that? He asks me to wait and then he tells me he doesn’t expect me to? I’ll never understand men.
I took him to the airport and he left. We didn’t say goodbye we didn’t say anything. It reminded me of that movie … I expected ‘Memories’ to start playing in the background and we don’t have any memories.
I went on with Love and Maj and all these folks and was quiet, reflective. Why did he have to leave me his heart?
I don’t know how he did it. But on the counter was a single red rose.
Mia:
I was wrong you are my kind of girl. Remember me!
Mark
Just when I thought I had things figured out.
Hello. It’s such a small word. But then so is goodbye.
~Mia
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| Passion is the source of hope ... |
[14 Jun 2003|03:51am] |
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Welcome everyone. I hope you like it here.
Color me confused. Yeah that’s my color for today. Definitely confused. Never thought my shy side would win out but it did. So thanks to Love and O cause yeah like that would have happened own it’s on … one just doesn’t get random IM’s like that like how would he know my AIM name? :: smiles ::
I look at Love and JD and what they have, is it too much to want that connection, that passion? I don’t know if they are soul mates or not but I see how they look at each other and I want that.
So of course tonight I’m suddenly talking to people and damn I’m feeling sparks and from the most unexpected place too. Which really floored me. So I guess it’s time to see if any of those sparks ignite into passion. Passion is such an incredible word isn’t it?
I lay back in the dark listening to the music letting it fill my soul taking me to so many places. This business is all fluff. At the end of the day when you come home you can’t sleep with a script. Well I guess some people do.
:: Sings Freefalling ::
Then it hits me like a truck, I know which spark I hope ignites my passion. But how do I tell you? But then what if I'm wrong? Maybe I haven't met him, or hell I don't know.
Think I'll just be open to the possibilities and see what happens. Sometimes you have to start the sparkage right?
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| SSDD |
[13 Jun 2003|01:28pm] |
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The top man on my cool list is Tom. I swear he is a riot. He is too cute. I think he and Love should start an advice column: Lenk and Love. Or maybe they should call themselves the Love Lenk.
We’ve decided to start our own talk show … Lenk Me (Mia). :: laughs ::
Met a few new people last night. Some really rocked and others were rude. ::sighs::
I listen to the rain caresses the house and it makes me want to be in someone’s arms. Someone who would dance in the rain with me, dance in the moonlight and love as if there is no tomorrow.
I wonder if the apple is worth the climb or am I climbing the wrong tree.
And my pet peeve for the day …. I hate is when people talk about you in their journals and you can’t respond because it is a friends only journal. :: Shakes head ::
Going for a walk in the rain cause walking in the rain is just too damn cool.
Love thanks for listening all the time to me rant and rave. And girl I think you are cool but the Garfield movie?
O thanks for the invite to the chat room you are too cool. You rock my socks. Are we still kidnapping Tobey? ::smiles::
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| Pimping My Stuff |
[11 Jun 2003|09:09pm] |
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Okay I didn't join the band wagon with the fairy tales ... cause hey that's not me. I will show off my background. Okay it's not as smooth as all the others but hey I did it and I like it.  miaxkirshner
Thanks to Hayden for my Icon. You are a sweetie.
Tell me what you think.
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| Wondering How Many Cults Clubs Sarah Is In ... |
[10 Jun 2003|01:57pm] |
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I’m in the ho club? Thanks Love … I can pimp myself if need be. :: laughs :: I will agree though that things are certainly slow around here. But the people I’ve met have been great. Just takes me awhile to get to know folks. Maybe Orlando will be my pimp?
So I'm in a club with Eliza to take over the world. So that makes two. Sarah and Love let me in their posse but Eliza is in a million. :: sighs ::
Think I’ll get Sarah and we’ll go pimp ourselves. :: laughs::
Don’t believe all the rumors about my being a wild child … just some of them are true. :: winks ::
Edit:The other hottie :: laughs :: okay she did tell me I was hot, informs me we are talking about Cults. So yeah baby cults. How many cults? But then I'm not as popular as Eliza, Orlando, Love, Sarah, Maj. et. all.
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| Bored Now |
[09 Jun 2003|10:21am] |
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I'm stealing Tobey's idea of IMing everyone. Of curse you can always IM me first.
Big thanks to Ste ... I owe you one.
Thanks to Kerri, Orlando and Love for being there. I hope to get to know some of you guys (meaning everyone) better.
So I'm bored now. Anyone else? If you are IM me and we can talk. Hey Love I saw Heartbreakers last night. You so rocked!
~Mia
MadCityMia
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| Damn |
[07 Jun 2003|01:45am] |
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Okay I missed ya. Damn beauty sleep. Talk to you soon? :: coughs :: unlock your journal or add me as a friend. :: Cough hint ::
Met some new people ... :: waves ::
Happy Birthday to Danny whom I don't know yet.
I'm bored. :: Sighs ::
~Mia
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| New Friends |
[06 Jun 2003|02:59am] |
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This has been the kick so far. Everyone I've spoken with is so very nice. Some people whom I’d like to reply :: coughs :: a certain bagpipe player :: has his journal locked so I can’t flirt reply to his post. :: blushes :.
I’ve pretty much stayed to myself so thanks to those took the chance to get to know me. Yeah shy girl here, but I’m getting better or I’m trying.
I’m ready for production to begin on my movie. For me learning lines can be tedious.
I was floored when Eliza told me I was hot. Wasn’t quite sure how to respond to that one. Now Eliza if we can just convince someone of the male persuasion that I'm hot I’d be happy.
Eliza so rocks she made me icons. She made me feel special.
So I get to learn to play the bagpipes. :: smiles :: I’ll save the comment I was going to type for my teacher. :: grins ::.
Again a big hello to those of you I don’t know. I look forward to talking with you.
~Mia
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| Can We Say Junior High? |
[04 Jun 2003|11:06pm] |
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J U N I O R H I G H - this is stupid.
What the hell I’m going to freaking jump on the bandwagon. Wrong is just wrong! I’ve talked to like what five people here so far. Okay usually it’s hard for me to strike up conversations.
I can name the people I’ve talked to on IM on one hand and the all rock. Kerri was so sweet and helpful. So I asked her whom should I talk to and one of the first names she mentioned was Love.
Love is one of the sweetest people I’ve ever met. I asked her something last night. She started crying. What impressed me is she never said a bad word about anyone. She just wants JD happy. Even told him to leave her; the band was more important. Has he left her no?
Honestly, why would you want someone who doesn’t want you? Why would you break up a band that rocks just because someone follows his or her heart? You can’t always help falling for the people you love.
I’ll admit it I’m a hypocrite. So color me a hypocrite. Cause yeah if you’ve never made a decision that hurts someone then say whatever the hell you want. But the things you are doing now are hurting other people and more importantly hurting yourselves.
So now no one’s going to want to talk to me … but I have to stand up for what’s right. After all I’m always the bad girl causing trouble right?
Eliza the icons are great! I used one see.
I hope to meet more of you. Those of you I don’t know, I hope you’ll over look this diatribe but things like this just really piss me off.
Maybe this has scared my shyness off, or maybe not.
Love – people care about you.
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| New Kid On the Block |
[04 Jun 2003|11:42am] |
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Wouldn't by title be a good name for a band? :: laughs quietly at her attempt at humor:: I'm usually not this shy but this is an interesting group of people.
Eliza said I was hot. That's a rather novel way of introducing yourself to someome, but I get the idea that's Eliza. Thanks hon. Oh then sweet Kerri. She is so kind. Love cracked me up well for the most part. I'm here for you hon if you need someone to talk to. She told me about this dance thing tonight. But I don't know.
Sarah was sweet, I so love Scrubs.
:: walks to the refrigator to get something to drink :: I Imed Tobey because Love told me to. That didn't go so well, I guess I'm too shy when you first meet me I like to figure people out find out whats important to them.
The one guy person I wanted to meet I can tell I made a stellar impression on him. But he was really sweet. Maybe he'll give me a second chance. :: thinks yea I'd be just as impressive as she walks to the pool and dives in while reciting the words in her head. ::
When filming starts I'll be more like me.
:: Resolves to not be quite so shy. Dries off her long raven hair wrapping a towel around it. Goes inside to practice more lines and gets distracted my the movie 'Clerks'. Looks at the empty couch and sighs. ::
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| Boring City |
[02 Jun 2003|12:50pm] |
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Having Meredith and Domique here for the weekend was a real riot. Those two can shop. We left with bags and bags of clothes. I was surprised there was anything left to buy.
It was great talking about old times. I remember the first day filming, they all thought I was a bitch, but I have my quiet moments until I get to know someone. Can’t help that I prefer playing the bad girl. Villains are so much more fun so many layers. I’m pretty lonely here haven’t had the opportunity to meet anyone yet but hopefully things will change.
They razzed me again about a boy friend. It’s odd that I can be all flirty in a group but one-on-one they never quit teasing me. I think I really surprise people with my wild girl image but I’m not all that wild, well until I feel comfortable and then well who knows. Ah yeah this girl does have a wild side if some man out there is willing to try and find it.
There was a wolf lake marathon on this weekend and they made me watch it. I like so hate watching myself on screen. I kept leaving. I enjoyed that series though it was pretty cool. Wish it were still going on, but hey that’s the biz.
I’m so bored around here. I’m hoping to meet some interesting people. I can’t wait to start filming. Even though location can drive you wild I don’t like just sitting around. All right well time to go learn more lines. ::smiles and walks out to the pool and sits in a lounge chair sipping on bottled water and sighs::
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