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Hayden rocks fuck yeah! Am I the only one who felt depressed after Love and JD's wedding? I don't think so. I know Hayden and Maj did. All right Maj and I had different reasons. Not sure if Hayden still has feelings for Natalie or not but something definately has him wigging.
So Mr Spur Of The Moment Boy thinks we should go to New York!
Pretty damn easy for us to go around unnotticed as long as Mr. C is in disguise.
Best way to take a girl's mind of things ... spend money.
We come home this weekend. Not sure I want to go back to LA and that big lonely house. I wonder if I can convince them to raise a little hell in Canada with me. Take them home my real home.
My movie's wrapped so I'm absolutely bored and fucking lonely. Never thought a woman was defined by a man but it sure helps.
Glad to see Lacey is so happy. Treat her well Gale or I'll come after you! :: smirks:: Any single freinds .... one for Maj and one for me?
Keri - love to you.
Love and JD - you guys are perfect I know you are.
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[08 Oct 2003|11:25am] |
Yes this is my happy face. See. :: Puts on mock smile :: Yeah … Yeah I know I know I have to be in a good mood for the wedding. It’s just easier to do when you’ve …. I’ve …. we’ve had something to drink.
First let me just say Ashley Judd is gorgeous, great house, adoring husband. Then Nat is on the arm of Colin Farrell who is a sex god acting like a straight up guy. What the fuck is this? We come back on a plane and I sit next to the FAT guy and Nat gets Colin. Karma baby? Damn.
Anyways, watching some of these people try to country line dance … that was just cruel. Watching them eat was even more revolting.
I’ll let other people tell you about the Nat and Ashley’s party. I’m going to tell you about the parties afterwards … well I’ll start and everyone can put in their two cents worth. I have to say David is now my hero and I retain my status as bitch of the community. Or maybe not … I’ll have to say after the ‘bar party’ I do have some hefty competition.
Actually the tension started earlier. Yep … coming in shit faced and late was Freddie Prince Jr. Some Buffy culter … which I have to rethink everything I’ve ever thought about the Buffy cult cause that was just classy ….. okay well Tom is still up there on my fave list … told JD Freddie was here and luckily any major scene was avoided cause they sent him back to the hotel.
( All Hell Broke Loose )
This morning all the women woke up to roses from JD and some sappy song he wrote about Love. So we are all officially in love with David and JD.
Most of the partygoers were late to Opryland this morning. JD took Love, Maj and some others to the Grand Ole Opry.
I decided to wait and go to Opryland tonight. So my head is three sizes too big? Plus I wanted to spend time with Keri and give her all the gossip first hand. And cruise the hotel for men
And I thought this was going to be boring.
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[04 Oct 2003|11:19pm] |
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Fuck! I knew it when I asked him his wish. So many damn signs. I should have warned Natalie ... I should have prepared her. Watching her now is breaking my heart. I keep telling her there is someone out there better for her.
Hey I just had a good time. Maybe I was down there to be there for Nat right now. However, I'm not so good at this sunshine stuff.
Why the hell are all the men around here taken or bi? And the bi ones always chose the men. What is wrong with this community?
I think I'll take Nat, Keri and Love out drinking. Hell we are there two days before anyone else.
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[29 Sep 2003|07:18am] |
God am I crazy? I sincerly think so ... or just in lust? So here I am in Australia. Nat thinks I'm coming in on a later flight but I in taking a nap so I'll be ready. After all Helen of Troy and Cleopatria had their own plans.
What is so bad a bout a woman going after what she wants? God I love the freedom to tell him I want him.
Now we'll just see if he delivers. ::smirks::
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[26 Sep 2003|03:36pm] |
Took Keri and Isabella out of the house today. Told Keri several of us wanted to have a shower for Isabella but we all have to survive Love's wedding first. Picked up Lace on the way and we tried on our dresses. I have to say they looked great and Keri just made me sick ... she is allready back to size.
Love was late getting there. We all cried when we saw her in her dress. We think JD will cry too! Love is really beautiful. Maj came in about the time Love got the dress on and she teared up also.
Then of course it was off to scarf down pizzas, share gossip and start talking about Keri's baby shower. For some reason we couldn't stay on the baby shower topic ..... Maj told us about her talk with Nat and Hayden and dern her she saw me blushing. Keri said that Jude seemed really happy with Nat. Jude and Nat would be perfect for each other. Lacey was totally out of it and wanted details. I thought that got me out of trouble but no.
Love wanted us to fly with her to Nashville on Monday to try out the food for the menu. I had to beg off. Love kept changing the dates so I could go. I finally had to stay look I'm not going to be here I'm going to Australia to see Nat.
Maj gave me one of her looks. They all wanted me to dish.
Let's just see. I grinnned. Keri just winked at me. I think she figured it out.
So I'm off to Australia until Love's wedding. I've never been to Australia. I hear it's really beautiful there. Plus I get to see the action on the Star War's set. :: smirks::
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[24 Sep 2003|07:56pm] |
(OCC - since Mark has restarted his journal I'm assuming he and Mia haven't met yet and may not ... haven't a clue if they will or won't get together .... there so she's back in her slump and unattached :: sighs::)
I'm so very happy for Love and JD I just wish he could clone himself. JD you are one great guy andI'm so happy for you both.
Props to Kelly she's going to be on American Dreams .... everyone watch.
Happy birthday to Marieh!
Being my myself has helped me so much to get to know who I am. But I've had enough alone time. I ready to find that person ... but how do you do that? Does andyone else feel that way or is it just me? At least I've got work .. but there has to be more to life than work! :: sighs::
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[21 Sep 2003|09:19pm] |
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I hate technology. Burty ate my post. In fact I hate fucking answering machines more. Mark called and now I don't have an clue what his answer was. Damn it. ::paces::
What if he's changed his mind? What if ... ? Did I say I hate these damn answering machines?
I miss Mark so much!
Edit: Mark moved in tonight! :: smiles::
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[17 Sep 2003|04:06pm] |
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::Walks to the refrigator and lovingly fingers the note and the now wilted rose gingerly attached::
My feel myself blush as I realize Mark will be coming home for good, well as much as a person in a band can stay home. I get excited at the thought of being in his arms again.
::goes to the living room snuggles down on the couch tucking my feet under me:: My mind wanders over this long summer and my thoughts lead me to Leo. I'm so glad we took the relationship slow. I grin in spite of myself knowing I kept my promise to Mark.
I close my eyes as I think of Mark and that night. He had to give up his apartment and now the poor boy is homeless. ::smirks:: Surely some friend of his might need a roommate. How do I ask him?
Can't wait to show him how much I missed him. My luck he'll go hang out with his mates first. ::sighs::
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Life has a funny way of surprising you. Once again Love is right and Ste baby you were so wrong. So color me surprised when I opened the door and there was Mark. In a second I was in his arms again. The days melted away and the feelings of that night came flooding back. Damn it felt good to be back in his arms. I never thought I'd see him again. Of course it sucks he has to turn right around and leave again but it won't be long until he'll be right where he belongs ... ::smirks::
So now I can listen to Love babble on about the wedding. I like the bridesmaid dresses she chose they'll look good on all of us ... even you Maj!
Now if I can just get Lace to get her ass back online!
I guess they were right anything worth having is worth waiting for ... and Love don't say a word!
( OCC )
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[17 Aug 2003|06:29pm] |
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:: I go to the fridge and pop open a beer:: I slam it to and a note falls to the ground. I lean over and pick it up gingerly.
I see the words remember me written on it. I remember our only night together and the promises I made to him. I kept them ... he was always in the back of my mind. I wonder if I was in his. I debate on calling STE to ask ... but STE is the one who warned me in the first place. ::I place the letter back on the fridge::
He'll be back soon. Will he even talk to me? I feel my heart beat faster. Is he still there is that why I didn't try harder? Or am I just fooling myself? Should I move on?
Of course Orlando's gone ... damn it. Tobey is always filming. Christain and I are never on at the same time and Love well her head is in the clouds.
Talking to Lace now about this ... besides she never met him. Mark what are you thinking?
:: goes out to the pool to drink another beer::
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I'm so damn tired of being all .... not even sure what to call it. Has to be more to life than work. All I seem to do is work.
Gotta find the fun. Anyone wanna help?
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[05 Aug 2003|07:55pm] |
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Updates. What the hell should I update about? Another week and I'm still here. Work is hard life is hard and Jason Behr pissed me off. Think we should spam Nat so she can feel the love! There are times that life just sucks. Does anyone else feel this way or is it just me? Damn.
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[30 Jul 2003|07:42am] |
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Maj and I went out and had a little too much to drink. Sometimes it's hard to me a shiny happy person all the time. When I start singing songs from NATM - then I'm too drunk. Well Maj sang with me. Men - can't live with them and can't live without them. I don't know how I'd feel if Leo came back .... I think their leaving and staying away is a good thing.
We talked along time ... had a great time until we sobered up that is. Making breakfast in this state is rather interesting. She wanted me to drink a raw egg - so I cracked in on her head. Now we have a rather messy kitchen to clean up. Good thing it not ours. Love's in such a good mood she's not going to care.
Sorry I missed you on Orlando last night Love. It's Maj's fault she kept me out clubbing!
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[25 Jul 2003|10:07pm] |
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Almost everyone seems to be doing great. For that I'm glad. We get Maj back and Orlando disappears. What's up with this. Where are you Will?
Go see Sea Buscuit - Tobey there is your shameless plug.
I'm so tired of the jokes on set. So many things right now I'm just going through the motions.
Orlando come back alive damnit! We miss you. You kept me going when no one else really gave a damn.
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Congratulations Natalie and Jason! I'm watching 'Anywhere But Here,' and she was such a baby. Our Nat has grown up!
Finally Maj is back. The incons are beautiful, thanx. I just want to know what you and Love don't want me in the studio with you guys cause I can sing! Okay so it maybe about doing my brother but that was a movie.
Christian baby, I keep missing you ... but I'm off in the studio. I do think of you and congratulations. I've been lurky girl talking to Will (Orlando), Love and Tobey but Orlando got to me to unlurk. :: Steals the guy's sign about damage::
Ready to kick ass now though. Anyone want to raise a little hell with me?
James where did you go off to? :: Looks for Jamie::
Maybe I should go visit Will. He's been lurking for awhile ... he must be stalking Tobey. If I know him, he's stalking Cameron too!
Okay another pointless up date. But the shoot is tiring - grueling as a matter of fact.
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[11 Jul 2003|11:17pm] |
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Orli made me icons. He is such a sweetheart! I love you Will!
Tobey is so good for the ego he is the nicest guy.
Thanks Jamie, Love and Lace.
Edit Pimps new icon! You make me look good Will!
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[08 Jul 2003|08:00pm] |
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Drew kicks ass man! We’ve started our own club, yeah baby! She’s my new best friend. :: laughs at pun :: Go see her new movie or we will come after you.
Check out Orlando’s new icon. :: Drools :: Who would miss Johnny Depp’s Orlando’s movie. I mean its Orlando. :: laughs:: Sorry, I couldn’t resist.
I love you, Will! You are the best. ~Grace
We have some great new people here!
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| I Ain't Missing You At All ... |
[05 Jul 2003|08:09am] |
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The time we’ve been together has been amazing. He is so incredibly romantic but he doesn’t show the world just me and I love that side of him. However, I miss Leo. Lately, he’s been elsewhere. I’ve been on set missing him terribly. Unlurk babe and post! :: sighs::
Orlando too. Where are you guys? Tobey well, we all know where he has been.
Maybe we should put their pictures on the milk cartons?
Speaking of ... Jamie and Chris where did you go?
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[29 Jun 2003|03:09pm] |
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We started talking … just like best friends do. I don’t even know when like turned into like. I hadn’t ever thought of Leo like that in fact my thoughts were elsewhere, definitely elsewhere. Three days ago if you’d told me I’d be dating Leo, I would have laughed at you. I was so determined to date several people and see where I fit.
Having dinner wasn’t anything new. I’ve always enjoyed being around Leo. Then, I’m not sure how everything happened but one minute it was dinner Saturday night, then it became a date on Wednesday night then sparks and we seem to fit.
Leo wants to see where this will take us and for once, I do too. Did that really come out of my mouth? :: Smiles :: He blew me away. Leo looks at me differently … he sees something more … he looks past the flirt and the rumors and he looks at me.
:: I look up at my post.::
I wrote that days ago … but I just couldn’t post it for many reasons. :: sighs::
I spend my days shooting; ‘The Sky is Green,’ and my nights I spend sometime with Leo and the rest bothering Orlando. Leo and I are taking it slow just to make sure. It’s hard moving from that friendship to something else and neither of us wants to hurt our friendship. But everyday it feels more right.
Now I'm offical a member of Orlando's funny hat club. What next Orlando? :: laughs ::
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[25 Jun 2003|02:55pm] |
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This week has been loaded with ups and downs. But isn’t that how life is … full of incredible possibilities on one hand and on the other character building challenges? Many times it’s in that minute that one stops looking then everything begins to happen.
Life continues to surprise and that my loves is a good thing. I don’t understand the world and I don’t pretend to nor will I pretend to understand what has happened in the last two days. So I’m going with the flow.
The smell of roses competes with the smells wafting through out the house the source coming from my kitchen. Cooking relaxes me and I want everything … perfect. ‘A Walk to Remember,’ is on HBO and we sing to the music. I think I surprise Love at how well I do sing. That reminds me I so have to talk to Mandy about several things. When we aren’t singing. Love sits at the counter moaning about JD. I swear that women must moan all the time, cause I bet he makes her moan when she’s with him. ::smirks and ducks from the food she tosses at me::
I carefully slice the melon and wrap it in prosciutto. Love grabs one and eats it then lunges for another. I can tell by her face it’s delicious. The Chianti is chilling along with the desserts. Yes I said desserts. Love makes with the Hannibal Lector jokes and I laugh. At least there will be plenty to talk about.
At what point do best friends realize there might be something more? What motivates you to take that step over the threshold to see if there is something else … what made yesterday different? Love points out the fact he made the date and then changed it for tonight … she says he wants to be with me. ::I shrug::
Things like life are so complicated right now. Just when I thought I had everything figured out life comes in and changes things. The first strains of the music float across the room and the tears fill our eyes as we try to sing the final song. Love looks at me and asks me what I want as she changes the channel. On screen Nat and Hayden are kissing. I wonder what happened to them. They were lovers’ first and then friends.
I smile. "Love I’m not looking for the man I can live the rest of my life with, I’m looking for the man I can’t live the rest of my life without.
Love grins and I know what she’s thinking or rather who she is thinking about. We are getting much to philosophical and besides there are still other things to be considered. I grab the remote and change the channel. I speak Russian and not Spanish; watching Nat speak Spanish cracks me up.
I finish what I can for dinner, the left is rest for tonight. Love says her goodbyes and I go out to the pool and swim. Then I sit back and begin memorizing more lines. Thankfully the day’s shoot wasn’t as grueling as first days on the set usually are. I can’t concentrate too many things are on my mind. I stretch out in the sun and gently fall off to sleep.
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