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[22 Aug 2004|11:43pm]
well the only boy i ever loved broke my heart tonight. he told me in the nicest way possible that he found someone else but he will always love me and im the reason that he's so happy. what a slam.. i haven't been this upset in a long time. eric if you ever read this... i love you more than anything and i always want you in my life. im not one to profess my feelings for people but you're the only one i feel this strongly for. i know no one will ever read this but i wish somehow i could change your mind... a piece of me died.
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you borrowed my heart, give it back. [21 Aug 2004|09:31pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | Howie Day- Collide ]

blaaah... it feels like sunday... but it isn't. it's definitely saturday night and im just chillin at home. it was the longest day ever. i woke up and had to get ready for my moms company picnic... it was pretty fun but it lasted forever... i made a new friend from grovecity though. she's so fucking pretty i could scream. so i came home.. went over and saw phil, rich, and company. it was pretty fun... i miss those two tards. i can't believe school is a week away. i do/don't want to go back. i have tons of mixed feelings. i hate all of the work... and then im a senior. blah... college? ha. everyone seems so anxious to go away.. just go away! well why? it's not like you'll never come back here agaid you stupid shits. i mean sure college is probably more than i can imagine, but i don't know.... why in such a hurry to forget everything? even the best people don't forget the people that were there for them... blah.. i guess no one cares. part of me does. im wishing i could have one more night back with everyone i care about that's leaving... i need a second chance for some things and an ending to others. nobody knows the half of what's went on this summer.. emotionally and physically. you might think your so special, but this isn't about you. i can't believe i've pushed so many people away this summer.... well maybe 3 people but that's three people that could have made an impact on my life. i think i need to stop thinking i meet every person for a reason. im sure it's true to some extent but some of these people have brought me nothing but sleepless nights and heartache. i always give and give of myself.. what a whiner i am. haha. im never gonna get to say goodbye because im too scared. I feel as if i should get over this a-s-a-p.

bye.

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hello, hello, how low? [20 Aug 2004|10:59pm]
[ mood | discontent ]
[ music | Nirvana- Smells like teen spirit ]

oh my gosh, it's been months since i've wrote in here! so much has happend... some stuff i'd like to forget.
sara just left.. we had a nice night and she helped me decide to revive this thing. i think it can be our secret let go. im really tired of worrying about silly things. Tyler told me if it was meant to be okay everything would be. So im guessing it's not... i've got a lot of friends back this summer. THANK GOD. i lost my best friend, katy, but im assuming if she was my best friend to begin with i wouldn't have lost her. all things fade. our friendship was one of them... i want really badly to party before summer ends.. i need to find some ass too. lately dinger and i have been hanging out again. i really like him. i do believe he is the one for me. even though we dated for seven months 2 years ago... we've still been so on and off. no one but us understands. he is precious to me... saturday night was amazing. He can make me forget all of my worries. i need that. alright.. im done for this entry but i will be back.

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atchoo [22 Dec 2003|10:12am]
[ mood | sick ]
[ music | killswitch engage- my last serenade ]

well i have a blasted cold and i need a shower. i dont write in here much anymore... im contemplating getting rid of this BLURTY. meh HAVE A DAY!

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here we go, on my own. [17 Dec 2003|09:11pm]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | All American Rejects- Last Song ]

WELL DOODA.... i can't get enough of blurty, even if i do have a XANGA now i still love this piece of shat.
my neck is killing me and im waiting for my favorite person to get on... but i duno if that'll happen... urgh
this weekend is gonna be soooooo busy! ktb and i's LONG awaited date friday, wrestling in zanesville all day saturday and then sunday columbus with k8y and hopefully meeting TIM!!! alright guys.... this was short and simple..... ILU tittys

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Close your eyes, you're beautiful when you're sleeping. [12 Dec 2003|10:46pm]
[ mood | drained ]
[ music | something corporate ]

_________________________________________

Let's get drunk
You can drive us to the harbor
Wish upon a star but
Do you know what stars are?
Balls of fire, burning up the black space
Falling from the landscape
Exploding in the face of God

Let's get crazy,
Talk about our big plans
Places that you're going
Places that I haven't been
Build my walls up
Concrete castle
Keep this kingdom free of hassle, yeah

Yeah
Yeah

But I hear sound echo in the emptiness
All around, but you can't change this loneliness
Look at what you've found, I'm falling down

Taste the saline rolling down your cheekbone
Tell me that you're alone, tell me on the telephone
Feel your heart it breaks within your chest now
Try to get some rest now, sleeps not coming easy for a while, child

Child, yeah

But I hear sound echo in the emptiness
All around, but you can't change this loneliness
Look at what you've found, I'm falling down
Down, down
Down, down

But I hear sound echo in the emptiness
All around, but you can't change this loneliness
Look at what you've found, I'm falling down
Look at what you've found, I'm falling down.......
______________________________________________________

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well kids.. [12 Dec 2003|03:11pm]
[ mood | sick ]
[ music | coheed & cambria ]

looks like i've got that flu that everyone else has.. i hope i dont die from it though :*( .... ahh geeze
so today was the worst day i've had in a long time... i broke up with nick, katys still sick, i feel terrible too, i feel really bad for nick.... and i duno! i just feel like everythings caving in .... urgh i only complicate things more myself, but what can i do?? i don't feel like being in a relationship, that may sound selfish, but it's not. i don't want to lead anyone on. so yeah, my cousin from columbus died today. she wasn't that old and i think we may go down there for the funeral but im not 100% sure.... i miss katie b .... and sara! where is my sara?!
i didnt fall asleep until 330 this morning.... i couldnt sleep i was so achey/cold and in so much pain! i had to get up and get a hot bath.. it helped so much! but yeah here i am again...... all shatty... im doing NOTHING all weekend! cause i don't want to.... i want to get better, this flu thing freaks me out ... im just gonna sip gatorade and nick's calling me tongiht.. that kid probably wants some answers but i duno what to tell him.... i just feel to
to ... to... I DUNO! he's just not right for me.. 2 months was great but i wanna see other people and we were boring.. i know i know HOW FUN DO YOU WANT IT TO BE? you just have to know how i feel and know me i guess.... meh what fuckin ever..... everyone have a good night and for god's sake BUNDLE UP..
say a prayer for me and i'll say one for you.... tata babies

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we're just two lost souls swimmin in a fish bowl, year after year runnin over the same old grounds.. [11 Dec 2003|03:08pm]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | pink floyd- wish you were here ]

well, it's almost naptime.. i jsut figured i'd POP on here and typey type. today was a decent day. im in a pissy mood again... people rub me the wrong way. i saw KTB NEGATIVE times today.. just lunch! it was odd..
my secret santa got me the yummiest chocolates... you kick butt secret santa :) i need to get mine something soon because we meet them next week! so yeah, im pretty blah/boring... nothing to say.
things with nick are meh. im not the happiest, but i duno. we hang out tomorrow night though
i'm ever so confused.... IM HANGING OUT WTIH COURTNEY SUNDAY! we're doing lunch.. that's our old lady way of putting it. OOOOOh today like 80 old people came to our school and watched us and ate lunch! it was cute because my religion class did tons of stuff... we made treat bags and cards for them... it was cute! lol
OKAY so last night i stayed up til like 12ish talking to jacelyn and baldwin... ughhh jacelyn i really hope your computer gets an antibiotic A-SAP! i miss you chica. my katy hillyer is sick and stuff.. i should call her... AFTER MY NAP DOODS.. cause im real tired.. TOMORROW IS FRIDAY! im so glad. i hate waking up early, but after this saturday my weeknds are shot because of wrestling... I LOVE WRESTLING :)
my goal is to not get sick this winter.. im drinking water and dress warm.. i just can't can't! i don't want to at all.
and i feel kinda ICKY today urgh..................
oh where oh where has my marisa gone....... i never see you anymore. sometimes i do.. but not for long
meh... know i still love you. ok? well it's off to dream land....... tata poopy pants.

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bomb ass pussy [10 Dec 2003|08:38pm]
[ mood | mischievous ]
[ music | Holiday inn ]

Basics :
> [ .001. ] first name: Maria
> [ .002. ] middle name: Lauren
> [ .003. ] last name: Gilland
> [ .004. ] nickname: mia muhweea titty myria
> [ .005. ] gender: female
> [ .006. ] age: 15
> [ .007. ] birthday: 7 25 88
> [ .008. ] height: 5'4
> [ .009. ] hair color: brown blonde red blonde brown
> [ .010. ] eye color: brown
> [ .011. ] race: never ran one ;) MWAHAHAHA lol
> [ .012. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: no sireee
> [ .013. ] ever had or do you have braces: nope never
> [ .014. ] is your hair long or short: long
> [ .015. ] where were you born: ohio
> [ .016. ] current location: ohio
> [ .017. ] zodiac sign: leo
> [ .018. ] how many languages do you know: 2
> [ .019. ] nationality: american
> [ .020. ] bad habits: biting my nails
> [ .021. ] piercings you have: two
> [ .022. ] piercings you want: eyebrow
> [ .023. ] tattoos you have: none
> [ .024. ] tattoos you want: none
> [ .025. ] today's date: 12.5.03
> [ .026. ] the time: 8:15 Pm
> [ .027. ] ready for a bunch more questions: not really
>
> . : Family : .
> [ .028. ] mother's name: MOM... jackie
> [ .029. ] father's name: michael
> [ .030. ] step-parent's names: Jeff and Maggie
> [ .031. ] brother(s)'s name(s): brandon mike wes
> [ .032. ] sister(s)'s name(s): NOTTA
> [ .033. ] favorite aunt: MIMI
> [ .034. ] favorite uncle: Bill
> [ .035. ] favorite grandparent: nanny
> [ .036. ] worst relative: buh.
> [ .037. ] best relative: emily
> [ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: nope!
> [ .039. ]Does anyone in your family understand you?: if i dont understand
me, chances are no one does.
> . : Pets : .
> [ .040. ] do you have any pets: no
> [ .041. ] what are their names:
> [ .042. ] what kind of animals are: invisiable
>
> . : School : .
> [ .043. ] are you still in school: yea
> [ .044. ] did you drop out: no
> [ .045. ] current gpa, or last gpa you got: 3.89
> [ .046. ] favorite grade: freshmen
> [ .047. ] least favorite grade: 7th
> [ .048. ] favorite teacher(s): mrs saavedra
> [ .049. ] least favorite teacher (s): buh
> [ .050. ] favorite subjects: spanish, adv.bio
> [ .051. ] least favorite subject: religion & geography
> [ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: BUY BITCH
> [ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: vbizzle
> [ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular activities: yes
> [ .055. ] are/were you popular: im a loser
> [ .056. ] favorite dance: PROM!
> [ .057. ] favorite memory: making kyle drive around for 20 minutes because
i was nervous about walkins :\ hahaha
> [ .058. ] least favorite dance: o i loved them all
> [ .059. ] least favorite memory: being fat
> [ .060. ] most humiliating moment: having ppl ask what's on the back of my
head :(
>
> . : Favorites : .
> [ .061. ] number: i dont have one
> [ .062. ] clothing brand: American eagle
> [ .063. ] shoes: adidas
> [ .064. ] saying(s): shat, fuck you
> [ .065. ] tv show: real world, rw rr challenge
> [ .066. ] sport: to play- vball
> [ .067. ] vegetable: peas
> [ .068. ] fruit: PINEAPPLE (crushed dood)
> [ .069. ] movie: romeo and juliet ... psycho(the old one)
> [ .070. ] magazine: people
> [ .071. ] actor: hugh grant
> [ .072. ] actress: Julia Stiles
> [ .073. ] candy: chocolate covered raisins
> [ .074. ] gum: dentine ice or some shat
> [ .075. ] scent: mike edwards
> [ .076. ] candy bar: crunch
> [ .077. ] ice cream flavor: balella
> [ .078. ] color: green
> [ .079. ] season: SUMMER
> [ .080. ] holiday: christmas
> [ .081. ] band: soco, AFI, waiting for autumn,beatles
> [ .082. ] singer: chris carraba
> [ .083. ] group: dashboard confessional
> [ .084. ] rapper: pastor troy or master P
> [ .085. ] type of music: punk rock rap
> [ .086. ] thing in your room: pictures, COMPUTER
> [ .087. ] place to be: katys house or my room
> [ .088. ] radio station: 92.5 ...
> [ .089. ] tv channel: mtv
> [ .090. ] junk food: umm they should call me Maria Junk Gilland
> [ .091. ] overall food: taters
> [ .092. ] store: abercrombie
> [ .093. ] shoe brand: Adidas
> [ .094. ] fast food: dq
> [ .095. ] restaurant: tgif!!! (i love you waiter boy.. wherever you are )
> [ .096. ] shape: circle.. because everything goes in circles yea
> [ .097. ] time of day: 11pm
> [ .098. ] country: USA
> [ .099. ] state: cali-forn-I-A
> [ .100. ] boys name: sam
> [ .101. ] girls name: jackie
> [ .102. ] mall: Easton shopping center
> [ .103. ] video game: vicecity
> [ .104. ] shampoo: whos uses that.. haha
> [ .105. ] board game: connect four
> [ .106. ] computer game: snood
> [ .107. ] car" STYLE="text-decoration: none; border-bottom: medium solid green;" HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||cars|AA1VDw">car: this one car that i once described as sex on wheels
> [ .108. ] music video: NO RAIN- blind melon
> [ .109. ] swear word: fuck
> [ .110. ] word: shat
> [ .111. ] month: may
> [ .112. ] cartoon character: i hate cartoons.
> [ .113. ] scary movie: i duno
> [ .114. ] team: ND
> [ .115. ] possession: pics
>
> .: What's the first thing that comes to mind when you hear : .
> [ .116. ] eminem: white
> [ .117. ] dog: cat
> [ .118. ] hot: tamale
> [ .119. ] britney spears: boobs
> [ .120. ] nsync: aw
> [ .121. ] real world: ROAD RULES
> [ .122. ] orange: pop
> [ .123. ] choice: one
> [ .124. ] fuck: YOU! my favorite thing to say
> [ .125. ] bisexual: uhhh haha
> [ .126. ] black: door
> [ .127. ] icq: friends
> [ .128. ] insane clown posse: *looks around*
> [ .129. ] linkin park: my december
> [ .130. ] jack: n jill
> [ .131. ] rainbow: pie
> [ .132. ] cherry: popper
> [ .133. ] cucumber: dip
> [ .134. ] shark: bite
> [ .135. ] lifehouse: litehouse
> [ .136. ] bats: KTB!!!!
> [ .137. ] leather: S & M
> [ .138. ] whip: cream
> [ .139. ] america: the bootyful
> [ .140. ] water: polo
> [ .141. ] volcano: uh
>
> . : This or that : .
> [ .142. ] rock or rap: rap
> [ .143. ] rock or pop: rock
> [ .144. ] rock or r&b: rock
> [ .145. ] rock or metal: rock
> [ .146. ] rap or pop: rap
> [ .147. ] rap or r&b: rap
> [ .148. ] rap or metal: metal
> [ .149. ] pop or r&b: pop
> [ .150. ] pop or metal: pop
> [ .151. ] r&b or metal: metal
> [ .152. ] linkin park or limp bizkit: limp park
> [ .153. ] tool or korn: tool
> [ .154. ] selena or jennifer lopez: selena
> [ .155. ] hot or cold: hot
> [ .156. ] winter or summer: summer
> [ .157. ] spring or fall: fall
> [ .158. ] shakira or britney: shakira
> [ .159. ] icp or eminem: eminem
> [ .160. ] marilyn manson or rob zombie: marilyn
> [ .161. ] kittie or garbage: garbage
> [ .162. ] mtv or vh1: mtv
> [ .163. ] buffy or angel: buffy
> [ .164. ] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: dawson
> [ .165. ] football or basketball: football
> [ .166. ] summer olympics or winter olympics:WINTER !! I L U APOLO ANTON
OHNO!
> [ .167. ] skiing or snowboarding: skiing
> [ .168. ] rollarblading or skateboarding: blading
> [ .169. ] black or white: black
> [ .170. ] orange or red: orange
> [ .171. ] yellow or green: green
> [ .172. ] purple or pink: purple
> [ .173. ] slipknot or mudvayne: mudvayne
> [ .174. ] hot topic or pacsun: hot topic
> [ .175. ] inside or outside: inside
> [ .176. ] weed or alcohol: alcohol
> [ .177. ] cell phone or pager: cell
> [ .178. ] pen or pencil: pencil
> [ .179. ] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: charlies angels
> [ .180. ] scooby doo or dino: Scooby doo
> [ .181. ] dragon ball z or pokemon: NETHER DAMN IT
> [ .182. ] star wars or star trek: Star Wars.
> [ .183. ] tattoos or piercings: piercings
> [ .184. ] prep or punk: punk
> [ .185. ] slut or whore: whore
>
> . : Private life : .
> [ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: yep
> [ .187. ] do you have a crush: yes
> [ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: no
> [ .189. ] have you ever been in love: nope... well.. maybe in lust
> [ .190. ] The story behind your e-mail- nick name graduation year
> [ .191. ] jewelry" STYLE="text-decoration: none; border-bottom: medium solid green;" HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||jewelry|AA1VDw">Jewelry worn daily: hair ties, hemp bracelet and pooka shells
> [ .192. ] how many hearts have you broken: not sure
> [ .193. ] how many people broke your heart: 1
> [ .194. ] best quote to sum up love: love is dangerous or you're
dangerously in love
> [ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: ummm. wonderful, he's all that
and more right now
> [ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: yup
> [ .197. ] please post it if you do: bump dat
> [ .198. ] do you have a picture of yourself: yea
> [ .199. ] please post it if you do: wont...lol.
> [ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: BOTH
> [ .201. ] ever kiss a friend: hell yes.
> [ .202. ] are you still friends: YUP!
> [ .203. ] so moving along..have you ever smoked: hell no.
> [ .204. ] have you ever smoked weed: nuh uh
> [ .205. ] ever trip on acid: well josh....... haha
> [ .206. ] how about a little x: negative
> [ .207. ] crack, heroin, anything else: nope
> [ .208. ] beer good or beer bad: beer buzz
> [ .209. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine" STYLE="text-decoration: none; border-bottom: medium solid green;" HREF="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=5977|1||||wine|AA1VDw">wine coolers: nope
> [ .210. ] do you like smirnoff ice: yup
> [ .211. ] prefer beer or liquor: LIQA!
'> [ .212. ] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke: negative
> [ .213. ] are you a virgin: si si
> [ .214. ] if no, when was the last time you got some:i got some today
>
> . : Would you ever : .
> [ .215. ] bungee jump: no
> [ .216. ] sky dive:: no
> [ .217. ] swim with dolphins: yes
> [ .218. ] scuba dive: no
> [ .219. ] go rock climbing: no
> [ .220. ] eat shit for $1,000,000: no
> [ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: no
> [ .222. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: uh...
> [ .223. ] cross-dress: YEAH!haha
> [ .224. ] lie to the police: yeah!
> [ .225. ] run from the police:only once
> [ .226. ] lie to your parents: yes many times
> [ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: hahah ONCE!
> [ .228. ] be an exotic dancer: no
> [ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: naa...
> [ .230. ] streak: sure!
>
> . : Your friends : .
> [ .231. ] best friend(s): ktb katy Courtney Sara marisa jackie
> [ .232. ] known longest: katy pie
> [ .233. ] wish you talked to more: giovanni
> [ .234. ] wish you saw more: josh
> [ .235. ] how many friends do you think you have: a lot..at least 190!
> [ .236. ] who drives you insane after a while:uhhh
> [ .237. ] who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: KATY
HILLYER
> [ .238. ] ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level':
yeah.. who cares, it was fun.. god i sound like a whore
> [ .239. ] craziest: JACELYN
> [ .240. ] loudest: jackie
> [ .241. ] shyest: none of my friends.
> [ .242. ] best hair: ktb
> [ .243. ] can always make you laugh: jackie and ktb
> [ .244. ] best eyes: TYLER
> [ .245. ] best body: jordan
> [ .246. ] most athletic: mike edwards
> [ .247. ] sex symbol: Jordan or nick hersh
> [ .248. ] sweetest: marisa
> [ .249. ] most impatient: courtney
> [ .250. ] shortest: ktb
> [ .251. ] tallest: brett
> [ .252. ] talented: all of em
> [ .253. ] best singer: Bekah
> [ .254. ] skinniest: jackie and or jacelyn
[ .255. ] nicest: all of em
> [ .256. ] best personality: courtney
> [ .257. ] biggest drug user: oh i could blow your cover mister ;)
>
> . : Have you ever : .
> [ .258. ] flashed someone: yes
> [ .259. ] told the person you liked how you felt: yes
> [ .260. ] been to michigan: no.. what the hell.. michigan?haha
> [ .261. ] gotten really REALLY wasted: no
> [ .262. ] gone to jail or juvi: nope
> [ .263. ] skateboarded: yes
> [ .264. ] skinny dipped: yes
> [ .265. ] stolen anything: yea
> [ .266. ] wanted to kick my ass for making this so long: no but I'm
getting
> there
> [ .267. ] kicked someone's ass: yea
> [ .268. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: yup
> [ .269. ] broke a beer bottle: yes
> [ .270. ] gotten into a bar, under-aged: yes
> [ .271. ] kissed someone of the same sex: yes
> [ .273. ] gone on a road trip: yes
> [ .274. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: no
> [ .275. ] been to a concert: nope
> [ .276. ] been to another country: no!
> [ .277. ] talked back to an adult: yes many times
> [ .278. ] got pulled over: yeah
> [ .279. ] got in a car accident: nope
> [ .280. ] broke a law: yeah
> [ .281. ] given money to a homeless person: yeah
> [ .282. ] tried to kill yourself: nope
> [ .283. ] cried to get out of trouble: yes
> [ .284. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: yup
> [ .285. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: yes
> [ .286. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let
> someone eat it anyways: YEAH! hahaha
>
> . : Opinions : .
> [ .287. ] what do you think...about pop music: CRAZY STARS GLITTTTTER
> [ .288. ] about boy bands: vomet
> [ .289. ] about flag burning: rut roh
> [ .290. ] of the war on terrorists: right idea.wrong execution
> [ .291. ] about suicide: dont give in to your life
> [ .292. ] about people who try to force their opinions on you: leave me
> alone
> [ .294. ] about rock/metal music: sweet?
> [ .295. ] where do you think you'll be in 10 years: workin and engaged?
> [ .296. ] who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 yrs: katy ktb
marisa jacelyn
>
> . : What did you do : .
> [ .297. ] last birthday: went to eat with nichole and marisa and nichole
ran over my feet.
> [ .298. ] yesterday: worked a train ride
> [ .299. ] last weekend: partied
> [ .300. ] christmas: went to nannys
> [ .301. ] thanksgiving: stayed home!
> [ .302. ] new year's eve: oh dear.. i dont remember!
> [ .303. ] halloween: went to a dance
> [ .304. ] easter: aunt mimis house AND FLORIDA!
> [ .305. ] valentine's day: aw dinger!
>
> . : the last : .
> [ .306. ] thing you ate: pizza
> [ .307. ] thing you drank: tea
> [ .308. ] thing you wore: jeans and shirt
> [ .309. ] place you went: nannys
> [ .310. ] thing you got pierced/tattooed: my ear
> [ .311. ] person you saw: brandon
> [ .312. ] person you kissed: nick
> [ .313. ] person you fucked: virgin
> [ .314. ] person you talked to: josh baldwin, katy hillyer
> [ .315. ] full song you heard: pastor troy- pimp
>
> . : Now : .
> [ .316. ] what are you eating: nothing
> [ .317. ] what are you drinking: nothing
> [ .318. ] what are you wearing: jeans, shirt
> [ .319. ] any shoes on: no
> [ .320. ] hair: down
> [ .321. ] listening to: vendetta red- accident sex
> [ .322. ] talking to anyone: josh
> [ .323. ] are you pissed i made this so long: yeah
>
> . : Yes or no : .
> [ .324. ] are you a vegetarian: no
> [ .325. ] do you like cows: negative
> [ .326. ] are you a bitch: yeah
> [ .327. ] are you artistic: yeah
> [ .328. ] do you write poetry: yeah
> [ .329. ] are you a fast runner: no
> [ .330. ] can you ski: maybe
> [ .331. ] are you british: o it's fun to pretend
> [ .332. ] do you want to spear britney: sure
> [ .333. ] do the voices talk to you: sometimes
> [ .334. ] did you ever give barbie a haircut: BUTCHED HER haha
> [ .335. ] would you eat mac & cheese with hot dogs in it: maybe
> [ .336. ] do you think disney creators were on acid when they made 'alice
in
> wonderland': YES! i love that movie
> [ .337. ] are you straight: yes
> [ .338. ] are you handicapped: no
> [ .339. ] are you fat: no
> [ .340. ] are you skinny: no
> [ .341. ] are you short: medium dood
> [ .342. ] are you tall: no
> [ .343. ] do you own a hot pink shirt: YES
> [ .344. ] how about orange pants: no....
> [ .345. ] can you see the flying monkeys: nope
> [ .346. ] are you evil: no
> [ .347. ] did you ever know someone who had a mullet: yes
> [ .348. ] is britney a whore?: yeah
> [ .349. ] are you a teenage zombie: no
> [ .350. ] am i annoying you: nope
> [ .351. ] do you like marilyn manson: yeah
> [ .352. ] are you secretly from another planet: no
> [ .353. ] did you ever touch someone else's private parts: hahahaha yes
> [ .354. ] do you shop at hot topic: for t-shirts: yeah!! i have one on now
biotch
>
> . : Random questions : .
> [ .355. ] if you could be any animal, what would you be: baby elephant
> [ .356. ] if you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what
would
> you eat: frenchfries
> [ .357. ] do you remember any of your dreams: all the time
> [ .358. ] do you dream in color or black and white: mix
[ .359. ] do you admit when you need help with a problem: sometimes
> [ .360. ] can people read you like a book: no
> [ .361. ] what's your biggest fear: i dont know
> [ .362. ] do you talk a lot: yes all the time
> [ .363. ] are you afraid of clowns: nope
> [ .364. ] do you like spiders: no
> [ .365. ] how about grape kool-aid: meh i prefer blue
> [ .366. ] can you drive: nope
> [ .367. ] are you spoiled: kinda
> [ .368. ] are you anti-social: not at all
> [ .369. ] do you see dumb people: haha everywhere i go
> [ .370. ] do you see dead people: nope
> [ .371. ] What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow: uhh i could do whatever i wanted.
> [ .372. ] any last words: why was this so long? and most importantly WHY
DID I DO IT? AREEEEEEEEBA!
> [ .373. ] now that this is over, what are you going to do: sit here some
more hahaa
MUHWEEEEEEEEA!!!

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typed by the fingers of a bare soul...... [10 Dec 2003|05:24pm]
[ mood | crazy ]
[ music | Pastor Troy - you can't pimp me ]

hola mis amigos... i'm home from another predictable day. it was decent though!
we played hockey in adv. pe. haha i have to sound like a loser putting that in there but HEY it's required for me!
school has been such a breeze lately! all we've done is taken tests and done christmasy stuff.. mwa haha i lurve it. so anyway, tonight i have to go practice singing for christmas mass with caitlin at .. herm.. 615. it should be decent fun. she's ever so amusing. my grades are so kick ass this year! i duno what i'm doing.. certainly not getting any sleep! i NEVER sleep anymore. i'm like nocturnal and a day timer ( can't think of the word )
no sleep shall be the death of me if i ever shut my eyes long enough to go.. :)
i'm waiting on dinner, im so hungry.. i've been eating TONS lately.. i should probably start running again but i can't seem to find the energy.. im always doing something else. nothing too worthwhile though...... like sitting on here...... oh who cares! i love my puter...... katie anne benenvich and i stayed after school for a little while today, mrs kramer told me she nominated me for student of the month! i'm so proud.. * sigh * .. katie and i had a real kickin time.. her feet absolutely smelled RANK! i was about ready to throw up.. then my mom picked me up and something smelled real bad in our car! i'm the sniffiest person and i was surrounded by smelly shat!
just a lil humor for my day i guess.. katie was going to shave coach korns head but we had to get going, so we're doing dat tomorrow.. well i've got a little bit of spanglish to do.. and i gotsa go to the bathroom! BAH!
tata titties

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i will lie awake [09 Dec 2003|10:00pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]
[ music | Behind blue eyes ]

WELL it's about 1000 and im just sitting hurr .. got home from the game, what an interesting night!
we lost by one meeezly point... you guys played good though. So um what's new with maria......
well i hung out with nichole for a bit today, HUNG OUT WITHT HE SEXTASTIC KATIE ANNEVELOPE!!!!, went to subway, habermans, and home wiht josh..... it was a boring night but i talked to a bunch of people i missed. ERIC CONTINI ROCKS MY SOCKS. anywho... today was a better day than yesterday, but i still don't know how i feel one hundred percent... i wish someone would just point me in the right direction and say RUN! i guess life wouldn't be very fun if that happend naturally for us!
oh dear cait robie is so frickin funny! i hung out wtih her tonight, she was a lil rock star. :)
Buh.. well it's time to go.. ppl to do, things to see. RICH GIRLS IS ON IN 25 MINS!! EEEEEE!
night night.. ILU

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looky here [08 Dec 2003|05:27pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | brandon new- Me Vs. Maradona Vs. Elvis ]

it's me again... this time im studying and enjoying the quiet... my little brother is sleeping, mom is going to church ( i went this morning ) and dad.. he's somewhere.
i really should call my dad tonight, he sent me a nice christmas card, yes maria yes do so ASAP.
i feel rather alone at the moment.. i just took two quiz's about a porno... you can check the results B-LOW!
i really despise learning, but i guess we all have to at one point or another... today i really feel like something bad is going to hit me for some reason, ya know? like blind side me or kick my ass or fuck me when im not looking... ah man i hope im looking when i get fucked... so kiss me hard cause this will be the last time that i let you, i really want a kiss... i just ate ice cream, that was the last thing to grace my lips... it was damn good too.
im a loser, i love it. well i have a new mission... i wanna go to a concert reaaaallyyyyy bad. brand new. that's who i want to go see.
my room is such a mess, when my room is a mess or cluttered i think things go bad for me because that's how i act.... i am cluttered, my mind is full and i'm empty. it's rather odd, but it's credited to many copasetic ordeals.
that's a good word to describe life right now... i just wanna crawl under my sheets and be one with the bed... if that makes any sense at all... i hate it when 624 rolls around in the morning, and i hear the monotonous static of my alarm clock, i hit snooze out of anger and retardedness... then i retreat to the bathroom and hang out by the register... i love warmth. i long for the summer sun to light up my face once again, instead of early sunsets that kill the day.
Today was an odd day, i kept staring at blake for some ungodly reason.. the kid probably thinks im a goofnut, but i miss blake! we were good friends... same with eric and ryan... i duno, can't stop change i guess? I say that too much... well good night to all and to all a good night... i need to finish studying adv. bio. and religion....
until next time......

Bye Kids.

After one or two I get used to the room
We go slow when we first make our moves
By five or six bring you out the car
Number nine with my head on the bar

And it's sad, but true
Out of cash and I.O.U's

I've got desperate desires and unadmirable plans
My tongue will taste of gin and malicious intent
Bring you back to the bar
Get you out of the cold
A sober, straight face gets you out of your clothes
And they're scared that we'll know
All the crimes they'll commit
Who they'll kiss before they get home

I will lie awake
Lie for fun and fake the way I hold you
Make you fall for every empty word I say

Barely conscious in the door where you stand
Your eyes are fighting sleep while your mouth makes its demands
You laugh at every word trying hard to be cute
I almost feel sorry for what I'm going to do
And your hair smells of smoke
Who will cast the first stone?
You can sin or spend the night all alone

Brass buttons on your coat hold the cold
In the shape of a heart that they cut out of stone
You're using all your looks that you've thrown from the start
If you let me have my way I swear I'll tear you apart
Cause it's all you can be
You're a drunk and you're scared
It's ladies night, all the girls drink for free

I will lie awake
And Lie for fun and fake the way I hold you
Make you fall for every empty word I say
_______________________________________________
My inner child is sixteen years old today

My inner child is sixteen years old!


Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
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SHAT! [08 Dec 2003|03:05pm]
[ mood | groggy ]
[ music | Men in Hats- Safety Dance ]

what a day... it was so boring! another manic monday.... we had mass and we have tons of homework
im so in the mood for a milkshake.. MMM.. so many ppl missed today.. and i have no idea why! must be monday fever. i hate mondays and school.. well for tonight i have to study for many things and probably talk to nick!
i don't know why but it doesnt feel like our relationship is going to well. maybe it's just me! who knows.. i hope it's allok...... but if it's not SO BE IT... :\
today is katys moms bday... happy birthday kim. :) man, i can't wait til i turn 16! vroom vroom.. permit next month, that'll be a treat for my mama ! well nothing really to say.. just b/s-ing! see ya
P.S. im soooooooo tired!! i think it's nap time..... im so lazy.. fuck me !

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i can't stop eating. [07 Dec 2003|08:38pm]
[ mood | thirsty ]
[ music | poison the well- horns and tails ]

well i just got back from a wretched christmas party but i guess it wasnt all that bad
caitlin and i sang for old people and we did muy bien. i ate soo much there .. wow it was really good though
i should be studying adv. bio but i can't find it in me to study! we are supposed to be having mass tomorrow so maybe i won't have to take it, more than likely we will! i'll just study later... i need to call nick too but yeah i dont want to..... i dont feel like talking cause my head hurts.....
so my weekend is winding down.. i guess it was an okay weekend ! nothing too spectacular happend, but drowning my phone was pretty significant. have a good night.. i need study time.... and im waiting on ktb to call me.... ilu! tata titties
ewy baldweenie is being gay..... ahh i love josh. hahaa

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top of the mornin to ya........ [06 Dec 2003|10:45am]
[ mood | discontent ]
[ music | Blink182- down ]

woooooah i just got home a lil bit ago from a GNO (girls night out)
im kinda tired, but the snow looks so prettyful today..... i might have to go play in it...
right now im just talking to sara and aaron and wishing i were with my wrestling team in philo, but i can't be because i have to sing tonight and they won't be back in time :( it upsets me greatly... i haven't missed anything before... blasted urgh.... i shouldn't complain but whatever. im in a shatty mood, and i should be happy .. i miss my nick! yet im still feeling blah.. .. well anyway..
i hope nick wrestles well today! along with everyone else, dinger needs a win to boost his confidence.
so yesterday was a smashtastic day! all of my friends were happy and i was too... the basketball game was cancelled *yay* and everyone stayed home i think? meh oh ya good luck to jackie she had driving this morning!
i watched old school and some of the hot chick.. katy and i snuck out into the snow around 12... it was rebelious of us eh? *kidding* ... i feel like shit today! wow... hm someone make it better.. everyone have a great whatever i'll be back later.... i think... ilu
_________________________________________________________

Your vows of silence fall all over,
the look in your eyes makes me crazy
i feel the darkness break upon her
i'll take you over if you let me
tidal waves they rip right through me
tears from eyes are cold and sad
pick me up now, i need you so bad.


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and you may take my heart away.... [02 Dec 2003|08:52pm]
[ mood | busy ]
[ music | sneaker pimps- low five ]

boooo... im so sick of working on stupid english! only 2 more articles to go, piece of cake ;)
well, today was alright.. rather meh... the days are so long anymore, i mean some day i'll look back and kick myself for wishing it would go faster, but i can't take it sometimes and class is uber boring....
so is my life, im only tired anymore, i garuntee nick is tired of hearing me say IM TIRED ! aww nick :) he makes me so happy.... WOO! so do a lot of other ppl.... lalala..
tomorrow is the first wrestling match, im pretty pumped to kick off the season! it'll be loads of fun again... i hope!
good luck guys... so i talked to leo today for the first time in a while. i love that kid.. he's so fun(ny).
ever notice how i jump from subject to subject? i sure do.... im wondering right now what kyles up to. haven't seen that pooper in a while and i wonder if he's doing alright cause he's been so shotty lately. :\
so i'm just chillaxin, waiting on the real world reunion to come on but ya that's in an hour... i've already got my shower and i really wanna hop in bed for the night and call it quits.... but i can't! i must go on
have a good one everybody..... bye titties

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my milkshake breens all the boys to tha yarrrrrd [01 Dec 2003|12:03am]
[ mood | curious ]
[ music | sublime- saw red (acoustic) ]

okay so it's the end to my fun 5 day vacation from school and all of it's anal policies.
back to the grind tomorrow, but sara and katy and lexy are picking me up and we're going to
applebees to achieve apetizer goodness. i hope tomorrow is a good day, im not in a sleeping mood tonight for some reason, i'd like to sleep through tomorrow and pretend it's a day that doesn't exist and won't come.
oh well,i gotta deal with it sometime. im ever so bored..... no one good to talk to..
have a pleasant night ya'll.. -mia

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goodbye sunshine, i've put you out again.. [30 Nov 2003|03:14am]
[ mood | touched ]
[ music | Bright Eyes- Katie Come True ]

well im not sure what im doing up so late, in fact i don't believe i'm truly awake. everything seems so perfect lately, nick is wonderful and so are my friends. thanksgiving wasn't that special, but it served it's t-givin purpose.
I'm not even tired..it's like im just thinking about everything and anything and how i miss some things.
i had a real nice heart to heart with josh tonight (yes ktb grandpa).. we talked about sex and how care free people are with it anymore, i'm not sure if i'll ever understand why people have so many partners... i'm certainly not in any place to judge, i just know i wanna wait until marriage and when i find that numero uno person. i don't think i've ever been in love, i kind of think i'm afraid of it. i watch all of these people around me engaging in something so beautiful, and i've got something beautiful too, i just don't worry about where it's going.. i think it's because i don't care. i tend to not care a lot. katie and i kind of got into a lil fighty mcfight wednesday but it was pointless.. not worth marking down as a tiff.. i love you katie, you know that. for god's sake i have a whole song about you. Bff you fucker. ;) so i've been hanging out with lacy A LOT lately and i love it. she's such an awesome person. She survived that accident for a reason and she's truly making me appreciate my life. she's so strong... ILU. i want to be strong, i am i am. I believe i am..... i swear i am. im like a brick house, just try and tear me down. That's why i get scared when i think about not playing volleyball next year or not having something im so familiar with. I love change, but when one woman had the power to make me so nauseated/depressed/sad/hurt.. that's when you know it's time to let go and make yourself happy. What a feeling i used to get when i stepped out onto that court in my new kicks and spandex (yes it's okay to sniggle at that) .. simple things make it all worth while.. i hope i never forget that... i love making people smile...
so smile on lil buddy.. and have a good one two three four... whatever .... i wish i could keep my eyes open long enough to catch the sun creeping over the bare trees, but i won't.. i'm so tired.. good night and good morning


____________________________________________________________________________________
Girl behind the screen, the movie I seem to see is hardly there.
The glass contacts in my eyes make it hard to focus.
When you step out on the floor, your dress is swaying in the piano.
The fabric of your invisible body is being sewn with music.
Katie, will you come true for me? Come by sometime when I'm awake?
Everyone else just lies to me; yeah they say you're a dream.
Will you step into the light from the screen so that I can make out your shape?
You don't need to tell me anything, because I know what you mean.
Girl, up in the window. Let the air and the music inside your room.
Turn off the TV, stretch your body as far as it goes.
The plants you nurtured are beaming and growing in gratitude.
The ones forgotten have withered and they're black as coal.
Katie, will you come true for me? Come by sometime when I'm awake?
Everyone else just lies to me; yeah they say you're a dream.
Will you step into the light from the screen so that I can make out your shape?
You don't need to tell me anything, because I know what you mean.
The rain shall come, and corpses become roses.
There's a hidden beauty finding it's way out of everything.
Katie, will you come true for me? Come by sometime when I'm awake?
Everyone else just lies to me; yeah they say you're a dream.
Will you step into the light from the screen so that I can make out your shape?
You don't need to tell me anything, because I know what you mean.
Just hold your tongue. Don't be so quick to curse them.
There's a hidden beauty finding it's way out of everyone.
Katie, will you come true for me? Come by sometime when I'm awake?
Everyone else just lies to me; yeah they say you're a dream.
Will you step into the light from the screen so that I can make out your shape?
You don't need to tell me anything, because I know what you mean.

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brr [16 Oct 2003|06:14pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]
[ music | Saosin- Seven Years ]

holy fuck. long time no write
well it's been over a month or something .. and shockingly nothing is new
people are still assholes and im of course just a gem ;) *weenk weenk*
well volleyball season is over and it sure was a treat.. we did real well and our varsity and freshmen won the ivc! isn't that wonderfull.. yea.. grades are real good this year! alleluia..well homecoming was spectacular! i went with ryanh and we had lotsa fun.. hes a nice guy! last weekend me courtney and josh and nick went to see shcool of rock.. it was so funny
nick's such a great kid :) hmm well nothing worthwhile to say at all.. but ima try and get some pics in here.. but football game tomorrow night and other crudd this weekend.. so behave yourself. -mia

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and i'd give it all away, just to have someone to go to... [10 Sep 2003|10:26pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | Linkin Park- My december ]

WHY CAN'T I SLEEP? im such an insomniac....*clock says 1030.. wow i've got probs*
tomorrow is a big game against garaway.. im pretty pumped.. we are both undefeated.... COME WATCH!

umm well what's new... school sucks but is getting better! im getting my old friends back, thank you lord :)
im going to homecoming with ryan, he's such a cutie... we're going to have fun and play dance dance afterward lol... so we voted for homecoming attendant at school today.... i duno who's going to get it!! seems like a lot of ppl want it.. it's CRAZY!! friends yellin at friends... its kind of amusing... but anywho im pretty pumped for homecoming! ryan can't dance but that's okay, we'll have a blast ...everyone is starting to get dates now..
hmph.. well school grade wise is going pretty good except for geography! im a bit worried about taht... psycho grades..... hm well im off to ponder.... mucho dinero- mia

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