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22nd August 2003

12:47am: People irk me so. Everyday, my opinion of humanity drops a little more. I'm tired of pointless drama and I'm tired of getting hurt. I'm tired of my friends being hurt by it too. I'm tired of feeling like I have to keep quiet. I'm tired of feeling like I'm forced into everything.

Forgive both the outburst, and the lack of updates. I haven't really felt like writing in this thing. College... various online dramas, all of it is putting a strain on me. Well, in happier news, I got a package from a friend of mine. ^__^ A bright spot on an otherwise dismal week. At least something goes right in my life. They do say that every cloud has a silver lining. Maybe there'll be an end to my crappy streak. :\ Better not get TOO optimistic.

This is shaping up to be one of the longest entries I've ever written. Hell, I suprise myself sometimes.

Take care my friends.
Current Mood: angry

1st June 2003

9:09pm: When the World Falls Down
I really haven't been posting too much in this journal. Heh. I guess I really haven't had much occasion to. I guess I should view it as a blessing. Things have been going relatively well so far. ^___^ Graduation has been a tad stressful and I haven't been sleeping like I should but generally, I've been happy. But as my last day swiftly approaches, I find myself feeling even more and more depressed. I don't know if I'll ever see any of my friends again. There may not be a whole lot of them but they're like my family. ;___; Jesus, I'm gonna miss them so much.

Private message - Don't read! )

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Sparks - Wonder Girl

29th April 2003

4:37pm: Just something to kill time
You're Kyou - the cat.

Which Fruits Basket Character Are You?
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Current Mood: drained
4:24pm: If I died tonight, who would notice? Would anyone even care that I was gone? I'm invisible. The only ones who even acknowledge my existance are miles and miles away and only read the words I put here and let them see. I feel so invisible.
Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: Abba - The Winner Takes It All

17th April 2003

4:46pm: I know I've been horrible about updating this. Frankly, I don't care. This place is hell. I can't say it in anymore ways. These past couple of days have been nothing but futility. I'm in so much pain, both physical and mental. I don't want to be the way I was last year. I don't want to be the pathetic little child who needs everyone else to prop them up. I want to stand on my own two feet damnit. I WON'T let it happen again. NEVER!!!!!

Current Mood: pissed off

6th March 2003

4:49pm: And why am I not surprised?
XD I find this so amusing...

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Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Saiyuki - Junk Boys
4:31pm: Random... so random.
I actually feel good for once... so strange. I almost don't feel like this is real. Oh and don't ask me why I'm listening to christmas songs in the middle of March. It would be too complicated to explain.

Well, here's a survey I got from theartbook35. Enjoy... -___-

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Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Digi Charat - Welcome to X-mas

25th February 2003

8:27pm: I thought I could be happy but people insist on dragging me into their insipid little dramas. It's driving me mad. Maybe... It wouldn't be so bad to be alone right now. Maybe it would be good to pretend that people don't even exist. I'm so tired of this... I want to scream.

Current Mood: melancholy

19th February 2003

1:58pm: If stupidity were measured in gallons... school would be the pacific ocean. You will not believe how many times I have been pushed, pulled, and otherwise abused w/in the confines of that "fine learning establishment". If these people can't even grasp the simple task of walking down a hallway, what hope do they have in the real world? I thank whatever supreme being is up there that I have people to make the tedium go by faster. -___-

Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: Sakura Wars - OP

18th January 2003

8:04pm: Friday was not good in the slightest. Today was slightly better. It's amazing what a good cup of coffee will do.

-____- *smile*
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Samurai Troopers - Nasuti Yagyu's Theme

13th January 2003

6:14pm: Today was unusually good. Yet I can't help but feel disappointed in some small and intangible way. It's almost as if this small victory has yet to erase the bitterness that I still feel. I don't know how much time it will take to erase these hurts that still lurk inside of me. I don't know if they can be healed all. I suppose I must simply live day to day as best I can.


7th January 2003

4:23pm: How can I be tired and so... hyper at the same time? It's infuriating. I'm too sleepy to do anything but to hyper to sleep!
Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Moulin Rouge - Because We Can

5th January 2003

5:08am: People infuriate me.
The more I live, the more I realize that most people are less then scum. They are putrid, wretched little things that will more than gladly stab you in the back or insult you to make themselves feel better. It's stupidity. These people I see are nothing more than glorified monkeys. Fortunately for me, I have met some decent people who have kept me grounded and from going on a potentially dangerous rampage through the streets of suburban U.S.A.. To those people and to all the people like them, I thank you for being true human beings. To the rest of you, I sincerly hope you rot and die a painful and unneccessarily long death.

Current Mood: infuriated

4th January 2003

5:58am: 0__o What the...? Mew?
This is my answer:
From Four-Pronged Fork - The Boob Quiz~ You are Lulu!

And this is Mew's. Mew!

From Four-Pronged Fork - The Boob Quiz~ You are Auroran Flash!

That was pointless and ridiculous but I suppose even pointless things can have a purpose. I HOPE I won't be forced to endure another such encounter though. *shudders*

5:34am: I find this...amusing.
Dude!  I'm Jesse!
Which of our Guy friends are you? Find out @ RelentlessDivas.Net!

Ummm...I'm Crazking.
Are You Crazy??Find out!

What Kind of Pokemon Are You?

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Why, isn't that interesting? Ha.

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Current Mood: amused
3:11am: Who am I?
Often times, I have asked my self: Who am I? Why am I here? No matter how hard I think, no answer will be satisfactory. You turn your mind inside out looking for a solution and yet still it does not come. Endless endless questions.

Current Mood: curious
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