anthony lovato

12:28am: i was actually alive today and i talked to joel and sarah. be proud, kids.

i have nothing to update about but to say that sarah madden is the greatest girl on earth.

-yawns- i'm going off to bed now. night.

4:07pm: eh, sorry for not updating. [computer trouble.]

i don't really have much to update about. sarah and i are still together.
and oh yes.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BENJI AND JOEL.

24. -shakes head- damn. i feel young.

i suppose i have nothing else to update about. later kids.

7:53am: [Thought I'd post this before I skedaddled off to my classes. My computer's now fixed and I'm going to be around a lot more. Thanks. I missed you guys :( ]

5:24pm: some freak kept calling sarah the other night and hanging up, so she called me in a panic pretty much weirded out. i came over and we sat on the couch and i held her and she was crying the whole time. i don't blame her, i have the feeling that if i was a girl i would be freaked out too, considering her brothers weren't there and neither was cash. then she finally calmed down and then it all kind of spilled out again. she started talking about how she never wished we had broken up and all this crap. finally she stopped when i wiped away the tears that she was crying and put my finger on her lips and used some "say anything" lyrics from GC on her. then i kissed her. and oh my lord, how i have wanted that kiss. i've missed her so badly since valentine's day when i kissed her for "old time's sake." yeah, that was a lie incase you didn't tell.
anyway, later on we fooled around a little bit (i would go into detail but i have the feeling benji is going to kill me badly for that alone, so i don't think i will.) and then we were laying on the couch and we started talking. and a bunch of sappy shit that i really meant spilled out of my mouth, like about how i would do anything to make her happy, even if it meant breaking up with me. and then she said that she thought the reason that she had been crying was because that she was afraid that i had actually moved on like i had told her i was going to on valentine's day, and that i wouldn't take her back for all the pain she had caused me when we broke up the first time even if i felt the same. and i told her that would never happen because i would always be there for her. (if you make fun of me for that, then i will ridicule you like hell when you get your own girl.)
i love you sare-bear. so much that i can't even put it into any form of words, no matter what language.

6:59pm: hm well i've been up to a big fat load of nothing the past few days. i went shopping for some more stuff to better my apartment with, but it didn't really...work since i can't shop. tony + shopping = bad.

i should call sarah again to see if she will come with me to buy some shit for the place. maybe i'll give her a call later, or something.

12:18pm: look. i'm alive. i'm on AIM and not lurking!

IM me, damnit. sdjfkl tony x

hah and you love my AIM name since i couldn't think of anything better!

5:57pm: i hung out with sarah at the madden home yesterday. it was pretty cool. i learned that i can't make pancakes and i really shouldn't try to either.

we sat and talked for a while which was cool/good.

um -thinks- i had something else to say but i don't remember it now.

guess i'm gonna go off, be cool and watch tv with my band's dumbass drummer also known as nick.

7:24pm: yeah, so sarah called me tonight. apparently she really fucked up her knee. somehow i missed out on all of this. anyway back to my point. she called me to see if i wanted to do something tomorrow. which was kinda funny, considering that originally i had had this whole big shitbang planned. weekend at the hotel, stuff planned, the works.

anyway she invited me over. i said yeah, cause why the hell not?

i keep telling myself that i have control, that i'll be able to stay neutral, but i know that the first second i see her, that's all going to go down the fucking drain. -thinks- anyway. i'm almost afraid to go.

valentine's day is tomorrow. and anything goes.

7:08am: Some girls are crazy
Just listen to what I have to say about it
You've gotta watch out for the beautiful ones
They'll twist your head right off your neck
And laugh about it with their friends
That's just one night for them
They target you with their eyes
And move with their lips
And it pulls you in
She shuts you down with her voice again
And now are you listening?
This song goes out to girls
That we haven't met just yet
This song is for stupid girls
Who think that every boy is all about them
These girls are crazy...
Just listen to what I have to say about it
You've gotta watch out for the younger ones
They'll tightly wrap you around their fingers
And brag to all their friends
It's nothing but a game to them
Then target you with their eyes
And move with their lips
And it pulls you in
She shuts you down with her voice again
And now are you listening?
This song goes out to girls
That we haven't met yet
This song is for stupid girls
Who think that every boy is all about them
You think you're on top of the world
When all the eyes are on you
Just wait until your heart breaks
And you'll know how I felt when I wrote....

8:15pm: -sighs-
sarah has turned into a fucking flirt.
and i don't know why it's bothering me.
-runs hand through hair-
fuck.
has she always been like this, and i just never noticed, because she was flirting with me?

2:30pm: -shrugs- sarah and i broke up. it's cool though, we talked it out and everything. there's no hard feelings on either end, at least as far as i can tell.

so i'm single. it's kinda cool, feels kinda weird, oh well.

it's time to party, i suppose.

8:13pm: -frowns- something's up with sarah. i'm confused as to what.

4:55pm: yeah, i have a girlfriend, and her name is sarah madden!

9:29am: ASDLKFJAS matt stop being emo.

what sarah said in her comment is true. there are plenty of girls here, even a porn star -winks- AND I DON'T GET ALL THE GIRLS SO I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT.

jeremiah will probably get a journal soon so no fears. WE ARE GOING TO BE ON THE WARPED TOUR SO YEAH! and don't be alone talk to me next time you are on AIM >:O

and sarah is 10,000 times a million times better than chelsea. she is just a whore.

edit thanks joel for my new icons.

4:17pm: hee...so sarah and i's date monday was a ton of fun. sorry for not following up on it sooner.

we went to see darkness falls and i ended seeing nothing but her face since we were making out for pretty much the whole damn movie. we'll have to see it again then. later..

anyway i needed a fast food fix after the movie so we went to the dairy queen next door after the movie and got approached by some fans who were like "is she your girlfriend?" they looked like they were gonna pop her if she was. -grimaces- obsessive fans. but anyway i was like no... but it would be nice if she is someday, provided benji doesn't murder me first.

and today i called her up around noon and actually woke her up which was pretty amusing in itself but i guess she picked up the sleeping late thing from benji and joel. and so i asked her to come to the mall today to help me shop for some new stuff for my apartment since all that is here now is shit.

so we ate lunch in the food court at the mall, talked to some more fans, and then finally went to the store. as a joke i took her bed shopping which i thought was funny enough but i guess she didn't think it was as amusing. -shrugs- oh well, i didn't mean any harm. i'm sorry if i scared you somehow sar. i wasn't trying to. we ended up buying some shelves for my shithole-in-the-wall-"apartment". hopefully now i can stay organized. yeah right.

yyyyyyeah, i'm just sitting around now staring at the shelves cause i'm lazy. i should go put those up..

7:48am: i'm gonna molest sarah on our date tomorrow at the movie theater. O:X

6:21am: hi, i'm tony from mest. *yawns* and i'm sleepy.