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[14 Oct 2003|12:35am] |
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none -- family's sleeping |
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things are going better i guess. i only work three nights a week now, good because i don't like work, bad because i need the money. my car is in the shop, again. gods know what's wrong with it this time. having a few family problems too. trying to work things out. going to see about getting a disability check every month for my bipolar disorder.
i can't sleep, and i have to wake up early to take one of my rats to the vet. i guess i'll try sleeping again. goodnight everybody.
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| i tried |
[11 Oct 2003|01:37am] |
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Smashing Pumpkins - The Aeroplane Flies High |
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i tried forgetting him. i stopped thinking about him. i practically gave my computer to someone else. but i realized, it's hopeless. i guess i really am obsessed with him. terri, i think i'm finally starting to understand how you feel
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| to zach |
[05 Oct 2003|04:59pm] |
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i won't forget how you fucked me over
i won't forget how immature you were
i won't forget how i loved you so innocently
but i guess my feelings didn't count
i never thought i'd be so glad to lose you
i'm going to pay back what i 'owe' you
but i'll never have what you promised me
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[04 Oct 2003|01:35pm] |
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Tenacious D - Tribute |
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my wal-mart nametag says 'petra' on it.
my life is complete
yep
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[03 Oct 2003|07:48pm] |
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well, my life was grand. i guess that's what you call 'bipolar disorder'
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[02 Oct 2003|04:17pm] |
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Smashing Pumpkins - Thirty-Three |
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i got kentucky tags for my car today. i'm perfectly legal for the first time in a while. my mom and brother are going to visit family in alabama on monday, so i'll have the house to myself for a whole week, and for that i am glad. they're all starting to get on my nerves.
going to orientation for work tomorrow morning. i hate wal-mart orientations, they are boring as hell and last practically all day long, but i'll be getting paid for it, so i might wanna shut up now :-X
i'll probably start work saturday night. i'm actually looking forward to it. i've been so hideously bored these past few weeks. good thing money and a job go hand-in-hand... the only two things that can save me from my boredom. that or a nine hour long biography on dominic monaghan.
ahh.. life is grand and i don't even know why
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| teeheehee |
[30 Sep 2003|09:06pm] |
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Radiohead - Creep |
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dom explaining to the interviewer how he shoves his thumb up his bum when he gets nervous
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[30 Sep 2003|11:21am] |
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Morrissey - Every Day is like Sunday |
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so far, had a somewhat eventful day, considering under normal circumstances i wouldn't even be awake by now. went to wal-mart and ended up being the 1000th person in line for an oil change. got that finished and went for a drive in the cool morning air.
been trying to adjust my sleep schedule to get ready to work overnights. i woke up early so i could nap during the day, and go to sleep later and later at night. i'm not sure how my little strategy is going to work out, so if anyone has any ideas or suggestions i'm open to them.
btw, organic milk is the best stuff in the world
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| before i forget |
[29 Sep 2003|11:09pm] |
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Smashing Pumpkins - Frail and Bedazzled |
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it looks like he's trying to pick elijah's nose with his tongue
did somebody say.. slash?
nah, couldn't have
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[29 Sep 2003|09:15pm] |
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accomplished |
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my mum watching tv |
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my car is fixed! it runs! it's alive! bwahahahahaha
and i have a hyper blinker now
one of the many modifications i wanted to make to my car, completed!
i'm feeling pretty good
today wasn't as boring
maybe that's because i ate a whole bag of milano cookies this morning
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| we only come out at night |
[28 Sep 2003|03:26pm] |
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Radiohead - Fitter, Happier |
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i finally got a job. i'll be working overnights at wal-mart now. not the most glamorous job in the world but i don't have room to be picky. now i have to pay everyone back including my ex for the 'gifts' he bought me. if i could send him a bomb in the mail instead of a check i probably would.
getting my car fixed tomorrow. we tried to bumpstart it by pushing it until it reached a certain speed and putting it in gear. that didn't work out too well. my car is now sitting abandoned in a school parking lot. we're going to have to put it on a rope and pull it to the auto shop early tomorrow morning. even jumper cables failed to work.
and oh yeah, i have something very important i want to share with the world:
ahhhh
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| a test |
[27 Sep 2003|12:34pm] |
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Zwan - Declarations of Faith |
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| zzz |
[27 Sep 2003|12:18pm] |
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The Beatles - Happiness is a Warm Gun |
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today is going to be a very long, boring day -_-
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[26 Sep 2003|10:29pm] |
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say hello to craptastic layout extraordinaire
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| dom |
[26 Sep 2003|07:19pm] |
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The Cure - Friday I'm in Love |
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that is all
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| more pointlessness |
[26 Sep 2003|11:31am] |
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Blue October - Calling You |
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i thought that the world had lost its sway
then i fell in love with you, and you took that away
'to the world you may be one person
but to one person you may be the world'
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[25 Sep 2003|07:41pm] |
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lonely |
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Zwan - Honestly |
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i had to be 1000 miles away to realize how much i missed home
and now that i'm home i want to be somewhere else
i think what i really miss is the past
wishing that i cared enough to enjoy those moments, instead of letting them pass with the clouds
found a wonderful picture. merry looks totally different in that armor. i could almost think i know how he feels
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[25 Sep 2003|05:16pm] |
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apathetic |
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Smashing Pumpkins - Apathy's Last Kiss |
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the lame and the droll have needs to let their feelings show
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[25 Sep 2003|04:04pm] |
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Blue October - Inner Glow |
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whatever happened to our inner glow?
whatever happened to the song..
the soul..
the me..
i used to know?
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[25 Sep 2003|03:41pm] |
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Smashing Pumpkins - Drown |
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damn the world! turns out my car wouldn't start because i had a bad battery. took it to wal-mart and got a new one, and it was running fine, until suddenly, it's doing the exact same thing it was doing before i got a new battery. what the bloody hell! i really hate driving my mom's jeep. it feels like you're trying to move a 300 pound rock every time you push on the clutch. oh well, at least i still have some form of transportation.
i got to perform that song with my aunt today. i guess you could call it 'moving away from my comfort zone.' surprisingly i did pretty well. maybe we should go on tour O_O
i can't wait until i have the house to myself for a while. i hate playing my music in 'whisper mode.' that's one of the reasons i love my car so much, i can turn my music up to a deadly level and no one is around to tell me to 'turn that crap off.'
i'm desperately looking for a job. went to the unemployment office yesterday, have a couple of people i need to call. i just want money so i can buy a merry doll. jeez people, that's all i want
his cuteness almost surpasses his hobbit form in this one
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