| when everything you'll get is everything that you wanted... |
[23 Mar 2004|11:32pm] |
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Taking Back Sunday - Cute Without the E (Cut from the Team) |
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I always try to fool myself into thinking I'm an intellegent person, a logical person....but I'm really just a stupid hopeless romantic in the worst possible way. I'm desperate for attention and seek it in the most destructive places. I keep proving this to myself over and over again, but haven't actually admitted it until now. Why do I keep doing this to myself? Im just...ugh. I guess I'm just mad at myself for letting him trick me into going over tonight. I never even questioned why the hell he was still here, I just ran over as soon as he asked, hoping he had decided he made a mistake. But no, he just didn't want to leave it quite as open as it was before...I guess me storming out wasn't really the best idea. You never really know how much something can hurt until the one person you know you care about tells you that you're "just not worth it anymore." And yes, thats what he said. I keep hearing it in my head over and over again.
"And I've made up my mind,
I'd be better off alone.
Love is just a waste of time."
~Matchbook Romance
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