| and I swear it's my last try |
[22 Feb 2004|10:23pm] |
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Less Than Jake - Look What Happened |
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Well, a lot of shit has happened since my last entry, and its only been 3 days. Some people who I thought were my friends seem to not want to talk to me, and havent given any reasons at all. Apparently I use people. If you have a problem with me, tell me. Thats the only way to work something out. How can I try and make it better if I don't even know why its wrong?
Last night was either really good, or really bad. I haven't quite decided yet. Sam invited me to a party at his friend Chris's house, cuz he knew I didn't really have any plans. I go in, get a drink, talking with some people and Steve comes over. I was like what the fuck. I havent seen him since about september, when I kinda just stopped answering his calls. We went outside to talk, and ended up kinda hooking up. I think I might have made a big mistake, or perhaps it was good. He called me at work cause he said we needed to talk. So I called, and I think he wants a relationship with me. He's visiting friends again next weekend, so we're gonna figure it out then. Damn I'm so confused. I'm really not sure what I want.
I don't want to hurt anyone, or use anyone. Steve is a nice guy and love hanging out with him, and I don't wanna just keep hooking up with him and leading him on. So maybe I do want a relationship with him. But then again, if the feelings arent there, its not fair to him. Any advice would be greatly appreciated....
So now I'm off to try and fix the problems and confusion in my life. Peace
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