Just remembered i have this journal so i figured i would write more in depth stuff in here than in the other places.
So depression has become yet the biggest thing in my life.Its consumed me completely, wholey.
I have lost all i love and all i care about yet again, and instead of standing up and brushing myself off like i always do, i am giving up. I have thrown in the towel and am done with hope. Everytime i get better, and i find love it is stripped away from me... so whatever i give up. Life wins.