10:35PM - The fool that I am
I am such a fool. The dark side never really went away. It came back. I allowed it to come back into me.
She found out and she says it is over.
I must not self destruct.
I must not self destruct.
I remind myself the words she say, to love myself more.
She is ever so understanding and caring despite it all. Why am I such a fool.
I'm a monster...
( The words... )
I haven't been able to fall asleep much since. I try to but my mind refuses to stop thinking. I keep waking up...
The tears just won't stop flowing when I listen to this. It sums everything up...
I miss her calming voice that puts me into slumber land every night. Now even this simple thing is gone and it is all my fault. I destroyed everything with my own hands. Like she says... it's not the same anymore...
I am nothing. I am a fool. I am a monster...
depressed