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Thursday, December 31st, 2009
3:53 pm - At the turn of the year
2009 was a year of many challenges and obstacles. It was an unbelievable learning experience.

Hopefully, 2010 will bring more rewards as I embark on many new journeys. I believe that it will all work out, if I really put my mind to it and be disciplined enough to focus.

Wishing one and all, a brilliant 2010 ahead. May the brand new year bring about more great and memorable times.

current mood: optimistic

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Friday, September 25th, 2009
12:07 pm - Hmm
I guess I shall write less here. Eventually, I might even have to stop writing here altogether. Who knows?
Just do what I need to do and let time tell. Keep a clear mind and focus.

current mood: numb

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8:45 am - F1 ROCKS
I can't believe my stroke of luck.

NO DOUBT live @ F1 Rocks tonight. Here I come!!! *jumps with joy*

current mood: excited
current music: No Doubt - Spiderwebs

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Monday, September 14th, 2009
9:53 pm - Detached.
I need help to sort out this fucked up brain of mine. Self reflect. Isolation.

The tears can't stop falling. The only thing I can do is to walk away now. I feel my self destruction button growing bigger and bigger...

Good bye. I know I won't be missed. Not at all. I am sorry for the trouble that I had caused.

current mood: depressed

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1:08 pm - Disconnected
I don't even know what is going on now.

Good bye.

current mood: discontent

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Wednesday, September 9th, 2009
4:03 pm - Booze week
The course last week and the test on Monday was horrible. I was whining and bitching with my course mates about our suffering everyday then. So much that the only thing I was looking forward to was some good cold beer on Monday night.

And so I did. Went down to Wala Wala to watch Alfe's top40s band, AlterEgo and had some beer. What a nice way to start the week methinks.

Somehow, that 'kick started' the rest of the week. It has somewhat become a booze week really. Mon was beer at Wala. Tue was whiskey at Guitar77. Tonight is probably beer at Maska. Tomorrow will be beer destruction at La'Dies 8 year anniversary gig at Home Club.

Then there is a possibility of another round of drinks on Friday. Pending still.

I'm not complaining though. It's quite nice how the 1 week short holiday is turning out to be. I don't get to do this often anyway. So yeah.


current mood: satisfied
current music: Bob Marley - No Woman No Cry (live)

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Sunday, August 16th, 2009
12:19 am - Everything..
Everything in life happens for a reason. Live and learn. Do so positively. Only then will things improve.

That is what I try to tell myself when I wake up each day.

Let fate decide what lies ahead. Whatever will be will be.

current mood: thoughtful
current music: NIN - The Fragile

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Tuesday, August 11th, 2009
10:35 pm - The fool that I am
I am such a fool. The dark side never really went away. It came back. I allowed it to come back into me.

She found out and she says it is over.

I must not self destruct.
I must not self destruct.
I remind myself the words she say, to love myself more.

She is ever so understanding and caring despite it all. Why am I such a fool.

I'm a monster...

The words... )

I haven't been able to fall asleep much since. I try to but my mind refuses to stop thinking. I keep waking up...

The tears just won't stop flowing when I listen to this. It sums everything up...

I miss her calming voice that puts me into slumber land every night. Now even this simple thing is gone and it is all my fault. I destroyed everything with my own hands. Like she says... it's not the same anymore...

I am nothing. I am a fool. I am a monster...

current mood: depressed
current music: Ours - I'm A Monster

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Thursday, July 2nd, 2009
12:01 am - Return of the examinations
Tomorrow is the last day of one of the several modules I'm studying for at NIE. My previous modules have all been assignment or class project based. However, the current Outdoor Education Techniques module I'm taking is different...

There will be an examination!! *horror*

It has been a looooong time since I've taken an examination. I was falling asleep while reading through the notes just now. Ok, what's new about that right? lol

Anyway, it'll be an open book test. Some of my course mates were like "Aiyah then no need to study already!". But I can't man. I'm the sort who wants to feel prepared before taking any sort of test. Preparation work for anything is very important to me.

Then Friday, it's back to teaching in my school. Yes, hello to 5.30am mornings again. I'm due for H1N1 temperature screening station duty next week too. I've got to wake up even earlier (5am) as I have to reach school by 6.30am! *faints*

Well, on a positive note, at least there is Youth Day holiday next Monday. Long weekend! Woohoo!

current mood: indescribable
current music: Faye Wong - Zai Jian Ying Huo Cong

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Sunday, June 28th, 2009
7:09 pm - Looking ahead
It's going to be a hell of a busy 5 months ahead. Looking at how things are shaping up now, it will get even more draining.

But I've got to find a way to balance everything with my 2 bare hands. If there is a will, there is a way.

It's crunch time! *RAWWRRRSSS*

current mood: indescribable
current music: Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

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Friday, June 12th, 2009
12:24 am - First Anniversary
I'm all excited. Carol and I will be heading to Kuantan for our first year anniversary over the weekend. We will be heading up north together with Trish and her bf, Reginal.

I'm sure it'll be great since it's Reginal's home town. So he can show us the best places around there.

I can't wait to give Carol the stuff I got for her too! :D

How time flies. It has been a year. But it feels like we've been together for ages already :)

current mood: bouncy
current music: Al Corley - Square Rooms

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Monday, June 8th, 2009
4:20 pm - Blurty is back!
Yayy! I can access blurty again, like finally!

Apparently, people who were on starhub cable internet could not access the site at all for the past week or so. That's me included. How odd.

Anyway, good to be back! :D

current mood: awake
current music: LGF live @ Red Dot Museum

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Monday, March 30th, 2009
9:15 pm - SCANDAL will take over the world!
No, not a scandal. I'm referring to the Jpop/rock band SCANDAL.

Ever since I came across their live performance late last year, I got interested in their developments. SCANDAL is basically a band made up of a group of school girls who put on the high school uniform when they perform. The best thing is, these girls can really play their instruments well and rock out on stage!

Check out their music on their myspace site.

They girls apparently went over to USA to perform for a Japan Nite event to rave reviews. Check out the review and some pics here

Witness SCANDAL's energetic live performance here.

These girls sure can Rock And Roll!


PS: Rina has now taken over Mizuho (of ZONE) as my new favorite female drummer hehe.

current mood: energetic
current music: SCANDAL - DOLL -01- DOLL

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Sunday, March 22nd, 2009
8:34 pm - Jimmy Chamberlin leaves The Smashing Pumpkins
Yes, Jimmy Chamberlin signature snare drum for years. But splurging more than $700 on just a snare is too much. I shall continue drooling at pics of it and how it sounds in Smashing Pumpkins albums then.

Oh and school re-opens again tomorrow. 5.30am mornings, here I come again lol.

current mood: indescribable
current music: Detroit Metal City - Fuckingham

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1:02 am - Amai Koibito!!
Strangely, the track Amai Koibito wasn't included in the Detroit Metal City OSTs. So I went around searching everywhere for the track on the net.

Lo and behold, click here to download the mp3.

Amaiii Amaiiiii! Boku wo koibitoooooooo!

current mood: satisfied
current music: Soichi Negishi - Amai Koibito ~for the movie~

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Saturday, March 21st, 2009
1:24 am - GO TO DMC FOR ALL!
Here's something for all you DMC fanatics!

I've put up both the movie and anime OSTs for download.
Click here for the movie OST.
Click here for the anime OST.

Link will be valid for 7 days or about 14 downloads, whichever that comes first.


current mood: exanimate
current music: Detroit Metal City - Fuckingham Palace

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Thursday, March 19th, 2009
2:29 am - SPEED x SMAP
My friend, Orange (who is a HUGE SMAP fan), showed me this video of SPEED performing with SMAP.

The idea of it sounds amazing, having arguably the 2 biggest girl and boy groups in Jpop to perform together.

The thing is, SMAP isn't known to be good singers nor are they good dancers, other than Kimura. Suffice to say, SPEED owned SMAP in this performance.

And it is a bad idea for SMAP to follow SPEED's dance steps. It is really too gu niang for them lah! lol

But nevertheless, good effort and it's nice that SMAP is willing to do all this to showcase SPEED on their own tv program.

current mood: amused
current music: Dope - No Regrets -02- 6-6-Sick

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Saturday, February 7th, 2009
1:46 pm - FurTV
The folks from FurTV teaches you how to test a condom's sensitivity.

I was LOL-ing when the fella kena whack. "Feel that!?? Feel that!??" LOL!

Important note: Do NOT watch that clip when your family is around, due to the erm... 'sound effects'. Apparently a friend was watching it and his father walked into his room towards the end of the clip. Embarrassing moment! LOL

FurTV also has a hilarious Guide To Metal as well.

current mood: amused
current music: Gackt - Jesus

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Sunday, February 1st, 2009
10:45 pm - I'm a Sun that shines on everyone :)
My fortune )

I think mine is about 90% accurate. What do you think?

For the benefit of those who can't read it in the mandarin form, I shall translate it another day.

Try reading your own fortune here!

current mood: mellow

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Wednesday, January 28th, 2009
11:46 am - Finishing strong
A colleague shared this inspiring video via email today.

As I watched it in office, I felt tears well up in my eyes. I was very moved by Nick Vujicic.

Yes, we all need to learn how to finish strong. If he has the strength to live on (he can swim, go about daily routines and even got married), I don't see why any of us should give up on things that easily.

Salutes to you, Nick Vujicic.

current mood: optimistic

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