10 Jun 2003 - 15:36 mood  ::  angry music  ::  Hit or Miss :: NFG Hey my name is Meghan and I need a LIFE. Im in a bad mood because these entries seem to put me in one. Wow remember when I was happy? Really? Cause I dont. Is there anyone here worth talking to? That doesnt have some sort of sad sob story to pour on me about theyre broken home? Listen about 95.3% of Dover Academy/University consists of problem children with one or more dead parents. Wonderfullll..... Becuase Im one of them. Its so fucking difficult to stand out here when everyone seems so the same. Theyre all shy, unhappy, sad, emo, need love, are in love, have some sort of love triangle going on.... Yeah, ok Im under the unhappy, sad, emo, and angry ones. Because I just am, now shut up. Fuck, I need someone to cheer me up: xleggoxmyxmeggo 11 kisses :: kiss me

Grow. 09 Jun 2003 - 13:43 mood  ::  annoyed music  ::  Yesterday :: The beatles At the end of the day, the sun becomes so saturated with minutes and hours, that it has no choice, but to slowly sink beneath the hills and wring itself of time. Wow can you say pissed, much? Yeah, thought so. People here suck. I need someone who isnt a total idiot to come and talk to me. God, I wish things could be the way they used to. Should I continue to brood on the past? I dont mean, like, a month ago. I mean, when I first got here. When people were here that arent now. It was awesome. I had absolutely no reputation here and I could sit around and hang out with everyone. I remember how I was so inactive at parties. But I was somewhat happy. It was great. I think everything went downhill when that reaalllyyy old shizzle happened with West and Deryck. Wow, was that a long time ago. Seems like years. I wonder how much Ive changed since then. I remember when Carter was still in the school. We hung out everyday and he was the coolest mofo I had ever met in my entire life. I remember when he left. I was sorta confused. Doesnt matter now, or does it? I remember when me and Calista went out to that farm and harrassed that little boy for his tractor. Good times. I hardy even see Cali anymore. And what about Max? Where are you buddy? And Josh? I mean Josh Davis. I need to catch up with him. I feel like its been a lifetime since weve spoken. And me and Josh Stevens need to clear things up and hang out this weekend, (as I was promised!). Things...Just arent the same anymore. 2 kisses :: kiss me

Dont back down. 08 Jun 2003 - 23:23 mood  ::  annoyed music  ::  Incubus :: Consequence Mm sleep is really needed. I feel like Im drifting into my nothingness once again. I need something good to happen. Wow I love to sit around and feel sorry for myself. This is fucken awesome. I think me and Josh faught a bit today. He made a remark about blow jobs and I just got totally turned off. The flares in my head went up. Im tired of those remarks and Im fucking tired of everyone being so fucking horny. Why cant I just have something fucking real for once? Why does everyone have to be so goddamn self-fucking-centered and needy of a fling? Im fucking tired of it and I dont need that bullshit anymore. Im not directing this at Josh, I fucking love him, hes one of my best friends, its just all those jokes in general. I dont want to hear those jokes anymore. I just want someone or something fucking decent kiss me

Everyone has to pick on their saviors. 07 Jun 2003 - 22:49 mood  ::  cold Hm. Bad mood as usual. Nothing different from my usual self lately. I suppose that everything has me down. Im keeping mostly to myself. I see no point in trying to socialize with anti social people anylonger, really. Your all a goddamn waste of my time, get it? You all suck, etc, so on and so forth, yea you get it. Im not totally and completely shutting people out... I guess Im just like... giving up on the anti social ones. Im tired of trying to talk to people who only make it difficult for me to be friendly. I think Im emotionally scarred. Traumatized? Pissed? Ill get over it. I need time to vent, though. I need time to clear up my thoughts and rearrange the way I see certain people. Sometimes people arent always what they seem kiss me

Overlooking what I need the most. 02 Jun 2003 - 22:36 mood  ::  crappy music  ::  Forget my name :: NFG My mother had me take off a few days, then come back. It sucks that I have to come back, but anythings better than being home. It wasnt fun. I suppose Itll be cool to be back in school, though. New kids come in about every week, so Im all pumped to introduce myself and whatnot. Ive been thinking about alot lately. Especially the time I had home. No more fucking around with Meghan. Im pretty much just shutting myself out. Maybe its not the best thing to do, but how else do I stay unscarred? I hurt. Alot. Especially when I care about someone and Im droppped on my ass after I feel as if Ive been lied to. Moving on? Eh probably as soon enough as I can find someone else to bitch. I will soon enough. I always do. Maybe I can find someone decent this time who doesnt leave me for men... Am I that lucky? Could be so. Bleh. Im such a little shit. Im in a bad mood. Please excuse me... No wait dont... eh whatever. 2 kisses :: kiss me

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