hello there   
11:55pm 29/10/2003
 
mood: frustrated
music: interpol
i am so done with life. it fucking sucks ass. let me tell you. well i dont fell like it right now bye
 
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hello   
01:55am 26/10/2003
  todays the day everything ends!  
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i need friends!   
11:55pm 20/10/2003
 
mood: lonely
music: le tigre
hello everyone i need some online friends, so if you wanna talk email me! well gottas to go, lates
 
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hola i need money, badly   
01:28am 19/10/2003
 
mood: aggravated
music: the cure
well i started to think about what i am going to do with my life since i graduated 4 months ago and everyone i know as already started to do something to better there future i.e go to college or get a job and i havent done any thing. i did work during the summer but those were temp jobs and now i sit at home doing nothing and i am fucking going crazy. i want to go to the beauty school out here but i dont have the money to do it. its 8,500 dollars and see i would be able to get financial aid if my sister was my legal guardian( i have been living with her for the past two years ) but nobody went to court and so i need to get my legal guardians tax returns to apply fo financial aid. so i would have to get my dads since he is legally my guardian but he he makes way to much money for me to qualify for aid. get my point. which sucks cause he does not help me out financially anyways. everything fucking sucks. money controls the earth. whatever so now i am looking for a job.
 
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weddings suck   
06:29pm 13/10/2003
 
mood: blah
music: david bowie
hello, i went to a wedding this saturday, its was so freaking boring. the only thing that made it okay was i fell in love with one of the groomsmen. he was absolutley beautiful. well lates
 
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whats up with people?   
01:22am 08/10/2003
 
mood: confused
music: rilo kiley-picturesof success
i dont understand anyone anymore, do you ever feel like everything you think and feel or what other people think or feel is just a bunch of shit. theres such a need to be different but look around you your not that different than anyone. but its nice to think you are. i wish there was more understanding in this world. why cant people just except the fact that there needs to for change. people ideals are shit. i dont know what i am talking about, just rammbling like always
 
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blah blah blah   
01:14am 06/10/2003
 
mood: annoyed
music: bikini kill-pussy whipped
today sucked liked usual. i went down to northridge to find an outfit for a wedding that i have to go. no way to get out of this fucking wedding. familys suck!
 
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writing again   
12:06am 03/10/2003
  im writing again even though i know probably nobody is going to read it.  
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life i s boring   
01:41am 02/10/2003
 
mood: anxious
music: sleater kinney-the day i went away
hey all you people that i dont know! i am sitting here wondering why i am up right now, i should be alseep, but sleep doesnt come easy. to many thoughts in my head to let me sleep. i am bored out of my mind, somebody talk to me please(not the voices in my head though). today i was driving to pick up my friend from the mall and i realized something, nothing is ever going to change. i think i will be stuck in this same rut that i am in right now for the rest of my life. if anyone one wants to help me, contact me please. lates
 
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