Saturday, March 26th, 2005
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1:58 am - kady... suspended?? what 've u been upto
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i donot know, why i cannot get to kady's blog.. and why the heck does it say 'suspended user'. X-(
hope u havent been upto some mischief ...hehe...
neways, hope u can get back here. miss reading ur blog. well. email me if there's something i cam do. kady. do let me know.
well. nothin else seems to have changed.
neways, thats all for now.
current mood:  cheerful
current music: none - watching test-3 - go sehwag
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Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005
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10:04 pm - Reality Bites
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long time... hmmm..
aint goin no where ... things just stopped. right in their own tracks. life has become a repetition. something has gone amiss. hehe. i guess its back to the slow days of old. not depressed. but.. well.. life just stopped being fun all of a sudden. dreams remain dreams.
well. looks i am blabbering again. gotta get things back to stub. aint dreaming no more. reality bites. i guess.
current mood:  bouncy
current music: mere naseeb mein tu - dnk
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Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
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7:08 pm
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Monday, March 7th, 2005
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6:55 am - work to do:(
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havent been here in a while. makes me wonder, is this gonna b one of those things that came and went. a passing cloud. :O
neways, looks like i gotta get really tough on myself for a while.bcos without that, i dont eem to be getting anywhere near getting a job. when i graduated last december, i was pretty sure, bout me starting work by feb.end. hmm.. as is, thats been gone for a while now. gotta get things goin, or else, hehe.. well.. things dont seem too good after that thought.
neways..'ll get goin now. got loads to do.:(
current mood:  determined
current music: light my fire - the doors
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Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
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4:13 pm - almost a poem...
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i came here for silence..
i came here for peace..
i have spent last evening here..
and many before ..
i feel at home here..
i feel supreme here...
the sea unfurls underneath..
and expands around my stony sheath..
i fear not its rumbling waves...
i fear not its incessant raves...
my rock stands steadfast...
unwavering to the mighty haste..
i wait here until the red one recedes..
and its color the ocean bleeds..
i remember the first time i was here...
i remember my consummating fear..
i had hoped for respite..
i had hoped i did not have to fight..
how i wanted the waves to win..
how i wanted the world not to hear me whine..
i had come here to die..
i had hoped no more to lie..
but my rock stood its ground...
ever since to it i have been bound..
it has taught me life's little art...
it has given me a new start...
i have learnt to stand and fight
even when the tunnel end has no light
for there's something on which i can rely
through life's low and high...
my little rock will stand still
and deny the ocean's will...
current mood:  calm
current music: Hole in my soul - Aerosmith
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Tuesday, March 1st, 2005
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8:29 pm - touching back
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Sunday, February 27th, 2005
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2:23 am - purity..whatever test results...
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| Your Ultimate Purity Score Is... | | Category | Your Score | Average | | Self-Lovin' | 68.3%
Explored the pleasures of the flesh | 65.1% | | Shamelessness | 81%
Has yet to see self in mirror | 79.3% | | Sex Drive | 94.7%
The Pope is envious | 77.6% | | Straightness | 30.4%
Done the nasty, but not creatively | 44.5% | | Gayness | 100%
| 83.8% |
| Fucking Sick | 94.7%
Refreshingly normal | 90% |
You are 76.73% pure
Average Score: 72.7%
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Wonder how kady comes up with all these... the last section had some really nasty stuff...hmm... guess there r ppl who do that...yuckkkkyy.... ne ways... peace now. got stuff to do tomorrow morn.
current mood:  blah
current music: I do cherish u - 98 degrees
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Saturday, February 26th, 2005
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8:41 am - miss the sunsets
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I have a blog goin on in blogger.com ... hehe.. sounds like.. i have an affair.. anyways.. I think i like it here, but am gonna post in blogger too just to keep in touch with ppl, i relate to... do i??  ... anyways...
if u wanted to visit there too.. u could.. its.. wallppr.blogspot.com
well.. actually have nothin to write of late.. am whiling my time away.. need to change my schedule.. i need to get back to eastern standard time. I seem to be living surreally in Vizag.. hmm.. how i love vizag... how i miss the beaches.. how i miss driving along beach road.. how i miss evenings in the sand... damn.. i made a wrong decision to come here.. but i guess thats something i have to live with .. atleast for a while...
if u r wondering where vizag is... click on the link. .
its been 3 and a half yrs now..sine, i 've gone back.. i miss everything... especially those sunsets.
current mood:  nostalgic
current music: this used to b my playground - madonna
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Thursday, February 24th, 2005
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11:49 pm - sleep and more smileys
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5:50 am - wish list 101
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Wednesday, February 23rd, 2005
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5:05 am - story writer - mcme
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I have a story. i think its good enough to make a movie of. I donno how to get intouch with a decent director whos ready to spare five minutes for a story of a life time... he atleast my life story. Only indian director i could find online is Deepa Mehta... not that i would not give it to someone in hollywood, but hollywood would not find the story appealing, bcos it does not relate to the story. Indians, i am sure can relate.
i donno... every now and then i come up with wonderful ideas... atleast thats what i think they r... and time eats them up..
anyways... peace now.
current mood:  blank
current music: Chakkera ekkada nakkina - Nani
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Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005
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6:50 am - interesting guy..
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damn.. i am jealous of this guy.. :(
anyways.. good for him.. hes doin great. i guess iam not gettin anywhere near as half as hes done... not at the pace i am goin..anyways.. sounded like an interesting guy to share.. with... hmm..my blog.
mayb..someone mite find some inspiration.. not me though....
current mood:  jealous
current music: See right through you - NSYNC
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6:12 am - women vs. cars...
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compare & contrast
DesktopMachine.com vs. Skin.be
I am bamboozled(well worth the word) by cars... the smooth surface.. the graceful moves.. the sensual curves.. hmm.. sounds like talkin bout a woman. hehe.. well.. i love them. both of them. cars & women. Do not give me a choice. I will not be able to pick between them. well actually, i 'd get bored with women, eventually, but cars. nada nada.
hehe... sounds pretty stupid. but, a car is a car and a woman is a woman. women would say no and need a lotta coaxing and cajoling. but a car... hmm...
actually this is all bs. i am more attracted to women than cars. hehe.
is this me talkin or the booze. well.. if its the booze its the truth... if its me... hehe.. well.. u can forget what i have said...
so.. peace now.
current mood:  drunk
current music: Cats in the cradle - Harry Chapin
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Monday, February 21st, 2005
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7:10 am - women
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what is it with women... can they never be normal... why do they always have to be so jealous and insecure. Well, i guess that is why men rule the world ... hehehe... we rock.
from what i have seen, women are better at most things than men. from art to academics.. women seem to b gettin the upper hand always.. but somehow.. i am pretty sure... this will not become a women ruled world as yet. And know what... i know the reason too... god made them to be insecure... hehe..(god's a man too.. u c.)
One woman cant stand another... they need to be jealous.. they need to envy.. i guess... gabriel's feminine.. as in constantine.. >:)
its not the case with us men.... we can stand the fact that 'there are other fish in the pond' (Chris Rock)
In relationships... we tend to be more secure.. women need the insecurity i guess... to keep them alive.
anyways.. the point is i donot disrespect women. Infact, i have great respect for the feminine gender and its emotions. Love was born off them... but... too much emotion is too much sugar... it tends to burn the taste off ur buds. I guess thats where the term 'Bitter Sweet Symphony' came from... hmm.. whatever.
And hence i salute the women and hope that they continue to bicker amongst themselves.. so we can rule :)
current mood: blah
current music: Never change Lovers - Boney M
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Sunday, February 20th, 2005
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8:47 am - list & guilt
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( ) Had a 3 some
(x) have had more then 1 sexual partner
( ) have had more then 2 sexual partners
( ) tried at least 15 positions in the kama sutra
(x) had pictures or video taken of sexual experiences
(x) snuck out of the house
(x) gotten lost in your city
(x) saw a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides canada - not to canada though:(
( ) had a serious surgery?
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
(x) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
(x) been in a fist fight.... does becca count
( ) been arrested?
( ) done drugs
(x) had alcohol
(x) laughed and had a drink come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
(x) made out in an elevator
( ) swore at your parents
(x) kicked a guy where it hurts?
(x) been in LOVE
(x) been close to love
(x) been to a casino
(x) been skydiving
( ) broken a bone
( ) been high
(x) given someone a bruise
(x) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
( ) flashed someone
( ) had oral surgery
(x) saw a therapist
( ) done a split
( ) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?
(x) bitten someone
(x) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) shoplifted...
(x) been fired
( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(x) stole something from your job (a church)
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
(x) had sex at work
( ) have a child
(x) saw someone die
( ) been to Africa
(x)Driven over 400 miles in one day
(x) Been to the states
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( )been the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
(x) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been sking
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) Been moshing at a rock show
( ) Been to a moto cross show
(x) been in an abusive relationship
( ) lost a child
(x) gone to college
(x) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
(x) tried killing yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) been bungee jumping
hmm... quite an odd list... got it from a friends blog.. looked like fun... am readin some blogs now and then..
sometimes feels like i am invadin someone's privacy.. i donno.. feels like readin someone else's diary. hmm. too much guilt.. >:)
hope kd doesn't mind. hehe... i guess she doesn't. I have an odd feeling. Its like i know she mite read this and i am still writing as if she would not read it. hmm.. quite the con.
current mood:  guilty
current music: Happy Hardcore - Rave Nation
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8:29 am - just for funsake...
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current mood:  accomplished
current music: The game is over -NSYNC
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7:40 am - almost an ode...
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A long time ago..
when the grass looked green...
and the world... i had not seen..
i has no cares on my mind...
and no shackles to unwind...
A long time ago..
when i had a different hue to my voice..
when i had the luxury of choice...
i took the path untrodden...
hoping for my horizons to broaden...
a long time.. sure.. it has been...
and a lot, since have i seen...
and the question irks me yet...
on a differnet road... would we still have met...
for you are what keeps me afloat..
when nothin remains of my haute..
to b continued..... am too sleepy,.. tired... hmm.. and the excuses.. flow on...
current mood:  stressed
current music: Joyride - Roxette
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5:04 am - time & basic instinct
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time management is crucial.
hmm. just had to say it. well anyways, the best thriller i have seen ever has to be basic instinct. There's a depth in each of the characters and i love the ending. damn. that is one good movie. besides it has the perks too. well. lets not get into the details. But it has its perks. hmm.... that must b one psychotic mind that cooked up the story. He looks like one too... :)
anyways.... time to get some sleep. aint helpin stayin up late. gotta get some things moving. need a job.
And bout not writing to the grp - i 'll stick to that. i guess.
current mood:  awake
current music: Careless whisper - George Michael
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Saturday, February 19th, 2005
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5:39 am - constantine to religious fanaticism...
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Constantine was educational... hehe... atleast bout the demons. And very graphical too. Sure is worth a look. What is it with religion... seems to be catchin up. mythological characters... constantine... gabriel.. lucifer...
and i thought hindu mythological charecters were complex.
but the myth doesnt seem too complex to me. Atheist that i am.. or think i am... all it does is make a great bedtime/coffeetable story. Coming back to the movie, reeves was his own self. - nothing spectacular, nothing stupid. Weisz, hot as usual. (She has a latin charm to her. or arabian. or whatever... but not english - somehow.. english doesn't sync with sexy to me.) btw. is elizebeth hurley english as well?? :O Somehow the hot english actresses end up being hot because they donot come across as english.
the final verdict: Pretty decent weekend flick
while we speak of religion. I think theres too much hypocrisy with the hindu religion. The fact remains that somewhere in between, religion got mixed with social structure and gave rise to the caste system. And thats what is all that is fucked up bout indian society. I guess, hindusim is the only religion that segregates its followers into such divergent levels of importance, hence debasing a section of them to inhuman levels of untouchability and worse. Hypocrisy abounds in the religion. I am not as much against the belief of God as i am against this false sense of superiority etc. that debases hinduism itself.
moving on... fanticism is what scares me the most. religious fanaticism will, i guess, be the cause of great sorrow in the new millenium. I am ashamed of what happenned on december the 6th, 1992 - the babri masjid demolition(One of the most disfiguring scars on indian history). But i still appreciate the managerial talents of religious leaders (/ or the religious faith of thses dumb heads who actually participated in the demolition) - who could get people from unmapped villages - remote as can be - to get to the masjid to demolish it. These are people who could not earn enough to meet their basic needs. But found the zeal to take a brick on thier heads and make it all the way to ayodhya from their remote homes - for the demolition. Such leadership is rare to find... But it would make more sense if it had been used for constructive social purposes. religion has a grip on humanity as has nothin else. If only it could be used for constructive purposes, we would not see hungry kids dying of starvation in the world. God - time to save ur followers.
current mood:  cynical
current music: Master of Puppets - Metallica
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5:18 am - mundane
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amongst the most depressin things in life is writing to people who.. would not even care to reply. trying to stay in touch has lost its value. I say this becoz writin to the yahoo grp has become such a bore to me.. with atleast noone even botherin to reply. hmm.. why am i whinin about it here. well. i really donno.
Anyways... i guessi have to quit writing(to the grp) afts all. Its funny how i am omitted from all conversations.
I guess, i m someone not that liked afterall. yeeeeeeeeewwwwwwww.
anyways. who cares. i gotta make new friends.. the world aint so small afterall and there are ppl here who like me just for what i am. why give a f*** bout someone who doesnt even care. crrap.
anyways.. time to sleep. gotta get my schedule in line. looks like its al sleepin so far and hence. So gotta get a ttable ready.
I guess the blog is my best friend. It takes whatever crap i write without a compalint. gotta.. keep this going.
this is a funny. why do ppl need to do this :O
guess ... its a statement... but a dumb one at that. more to be discussed bout it..
current mood:  melancholy
current music: Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton
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. gottta fall down and die for 12 hrs atleast.
sleepy
... hehe.. modest ..am i not...
geeky