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Tuesday, November 16th, 2004
7:17p - surface of your surprise
on this journey, to seek perfection
my lonliness will cleanse my soul
my longing for this stays strong
i can defeat this tempation to be whole

in this light-headed, manic state
my skin in begging to be pulled tight
those who pass judgement upon my will
will never understand, my willing to fight

this shell is becoming a burdened home
for inside, i wish to fly
beautifully,lightly on the surface
of your surprise...

calming, pouring on my body
my heart has resided to a cold state
i can't be that pretension little girl anymore
allthough she cries inside, from her dream i wake

seemigly i have my own reality
pastel shades swhip by
in this peace, my bodies calm
i see the peak of my perfection..from the corner of my eye


this shell is becoming a burdened home
for inside, i wish to fly
beautifully,lightly on the surface
of your surprise...

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8:01p
*mazystar* is poisonous! Induce vomitting if ingested.
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POISON

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9:46p - carve our truths
oh how we deny what's real...
we don't know truths from lies
reality is a border often broken
not a line...

i feel a tremble...
and i know that shame is not far behind
i need to get out of this place
one more tremble and i'll lose my mind

i'll ban the demons glutony
no time for hunger pangs
i need this high, this peace
i'll ban the demons guilded fangs

these walls full of memories
twist and turn around me
i'll close my eyes and carve our truths
can't you see?...how can i make you see?

i'll carve our truths...close your eyes

this cheap wine curbs my hunger
this soul desire, you too often steal
i feel outside of myself
i'll carve our truths...though unreal

i'll carve our truths..

i hate feeling binded
i once was unbound
what is my truth?
i'll carve my truth, and curse the sound

reality is a border often broken
not a lie.


current mood: drunk
current music: Portishead, give me a reason

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