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what if i ripped your heart apart at the seams, maybe then you'd know how i feel [21 Sep 2005|03:53pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | The Spill Canvas --All Hail The Heartbraker ] and if you think i've given up on you, you're crazy. and if you think i dont love you, then you're just wrong. okay, just before i get started, i just want you to know.. i'm not updating this for attention, i'm just doing it because thats what i feel like, and last time i checked.. thats what these journals were for. alright, well lately.. things have sucked. this year has has been horrible so far. i miss olivia. and things are just soo different, i feel like i'm in a whole new school or something, ahh.. i just hate it. and cory? god, i know.. i shouldnt complain, i've been waiting for things to go like this between us for forever but, he always says stuff that makes me get these ideas that he likes me or something, then i'll hear that he makes out with some girl or he likes someone else.. then he wonders why i care so much. it's just like, grr.. god. are you stupid? so i heard he wants ashley back, he likes jenna wright, lindsay jackson, kathlene anddd he made out with katie yanity. it's just, wow.. he makes everything so stressful. but so far, school hasnt been too bad. i'm getting good grades. all a's and one b. but my classes, they're just stupid. the only teacher i like is mrs. roberts, the other ones just find thier ways of annoying me. and my friends, yeah okay so i've become friends with people like ally and breanne and shane but i'm also losing friends.. god.. hannah? i dont even know. it seems like we arent even friends anymore.. and i can just picture her changing so much now because of gay stuff.. she wont even talk to me anymore or anything idk, emilie and i are still friends i suppose, but tori, idk, i mean, were friends obviously.. but like.. it's just different with her, and becca, i never ever ever talk to becca and i guess thats my fault but still. i just feel like i dont have any friends. and gina and stephanie dont act like they like me anymore so whatever. i really miss liv. she was the best friend ever and she's gonneee : ( i had so much fun with that girl.. ahh, i just hate it. fjalfjldjfafdsajaja. anddd whats worst is, i talked with kayla's family.. her face is the worst they've ever seen anyones face from any sort of accident. it's crazy, i just feel so bad. i love kayla. she doesnt deserve this. and now my grandmother is sick and she's like, depressed because of her stupid dog dying, and my mom and dad hate me. my brothers are too wrapped up with their own lives to give a shit about mine like they used to, and kenneth is leaving in october for some gay ass police academy and ahhh, i just want my old routine back.. but yeah, thats my life right now. here's some surveys. i'm bored as hell. The Official Fill-in-the-Blank Biography (Extended Version) Created by dezzert88 and taken 44 times on Bzoink Chapter 1: The Basics Full Name ashley morgan warren Initials amw Primary Nickname ash mostly Other Little Nicks idk Sex female Date of Birth 3-22 Star Sign um? Chinese Horoscope Sign idk Current Location home Height 4' 11'' - 5' Weight 108 i think Hair Length a little past shoulders Hair Colour light brown Eye Colour green, blue Skin Tone (Light, Medium, Dark) medium Piercings my ears Tattoos dont have any Scars and Birthmarks no birthmarks. lots of scars, i love them. i want more. Chapter 2: The Background Mother's Name rhonda Mother's Hometown indiana Mother's Occupation idk, she works at vna Mother's Hair Colour blonde Mother's Eye Colour green, blue Father's Name ed Father's Hometown marion center Father's Occupation idkkk.. some drilling company Father's Hair Colour black/gray. ha. Father's Eye Colour blueee, his eyes are soo pretty. What do you call your parents? (i.e. um, mom and dad.. sometimes rhonda and ed Do you get along with your parents? they hate me Do you live with your parents? yes Are your parents married/separated/divorced? married Do you have any step-parents? no Do you have any step-siblings? no Name/s and Age/s of Siblings kenneth(25) christopher(20) Do you get along with your siblings? yes, they're wonderful. Do you live with your siblings? no Name/s and Number of Pet/s aspen(dog), kiddles(cat), eddie(horse), and a bunch of cows Did you grow up in a different place where you live now? no Where did you spend your summers as a child? um, here or at my grandmas What was the name of your elementary school? rayne Did you play any sports in elementary school? yes, tee-ball for a while.. Did you participate in any special extra-curricular activities? umm.. Who was your favorite elementary school teacher? mrs. marshall and mrs. malicky What were some of your favorite TV shows in elementary school? idk.. anything on pbs Who were your best friends in elementary school? camilla, breanne, amber, tia, emilie, stephanie, becca What was the name of your junior high school? mc creery Did you play any sports in junior high school? no.. Did you participate in any special extra-curricular activities? umm.. Who was your favorite junior high school teacher? idk, i really like mrs. roberts who i have this year What were some of your favorite TV shows in junior high school? i like instant star, gvb, degrassi, the real world, etc. Who were your best friends in junior high school? tori, stephanie, amber, emilie, becca, gina, sarah, etc. What was the name of your high school? havent been there Did you play any sports in high school? .. Did you participate in any special extra-curricular activities? .. Who was your favorite high school teacher? .. What were some of your favorite TV shows in high school? .. Who were your best friends in high school? .. Did you attend mostly private or public schools? public Were you ever required to wear a uniform? no Did you go to the same school as your parents? um, no? is that even possible? Did you go to the same school as your siblings? chris was in the high school when i was in the middle school.. What is your family's cultural heritage? irish. yes. this girl has got some pride. Chapter 3: The Style and Fashion What's your dress size? idk.. dont wear dresses What are your favorite clothing labels? idk, ae and wet seal. Do you prefer massive chain stores or little trendy boutiques? umm? Do you consider yourself materialistic? yes Do others consider you materialistic? sure Do you subscribe to any fashion magazines? no What brand/s of make-up do you use? um, idk.. What's your choice of shampoo or conditioner? either dove, tresemme, herbal essence, pantene or fenesse Have you ever gotten a Japanese perm? no How often do you get a manicure and pedicure? i dont. i do those by myself. Do you ever colour or highlight your hair? no, but i wanna get auburn highlights.. Do you own a pair of UGG's? idk what that is Do you own a high end designer handbag? no Do you own any Louis Vuitton luggage? no Do you own more than one item from Tiffany & Co.? no What's usually on your wrist? my hair ties? and my 11:11 AM bracelet.. along with my "rock the arts" How long does it take you to get dressed each day? like, half an hour including make-up and stuff How would you define your typical dressing style? idk, jeans and a cute top is fine with me Are you obsessed with expensive designer brands? no Describe your perfect pair of jeans they're from ae.. and yeah, they're cute. idk? Do you judge other people based upon how they're dressed? not really.. i try not to Do you have a signature scent? not really Chapter 4: The Favorites City chicago, damn do i love that place. Vacation Spot ocean city, md Sport idk Food idk Dessert idk Drink (Non-Alcoholic) ice tea Drink (Alcoholic) strawberry margiritas Eating Location mc donald's, hoss's, or olive garden Ice Cream Flavour dont like ice cream Season summer or winter Holiday christmas and the fourth of july Actor johnny depp Actress rachel mc adams Athlete idk Athletic Team idk Decade idk Recent Memory idk Older Memory idk Number 24 Colour green, purple Word queer, penis, slam, whore, flatter, etc. Phrase idk Magazine cosmo girl Tacky Pick-Up Line idk Language um, french? Country/ies IRELAND Flower rose Girl's Name adrienne Boy's Name shane Chapter 5: This or That? Lefty/Right right Rock/Country rock Diamonds/Pearls diamonds Blondes/Brunettes brunettes Puppies/Kitties puppies Contacts/Glasses contacts USA/Canada usa Gold/Silver silver Hummer Limo/Stretch Limo hummer limo Gatorade/Powerade neither Diet Coke/Regular Coke regular McDonalds/Burger King mc donald's Chicken Fingers/Chicken Nuggets they're pretty much the same thing Skiing/Snowboarding skiing East Coast/West Coast idc Jay-Z/Snoop Dogg neither Jennifer Aniston/Angelina Jolie angelina jolie Marissa Cooper/Summer Roberts idk George Bush/John Kerry john kerry. george bush is an asshole. Britney Spears/Christina Aguilera idc Lindsay Lohan/Hilary Duff idc Tim Horton's/Starbucks? idc Snow Day/Spring Day snow day London/Paris paris New York/L.A. L.A. Golden Retriever/Chihuahua golden retriever Morning Person/Night Person night person Chocolate/Vanilla vanilla Shower/Bath both Love/Money love Nike/Adidas neither Target/Walmart target AIM/MSN Messenger aim Blahnik/Birkenstock idk Janice Dickinson/Twiggy Lawson idk City Mouse/Country Mouse both Winter Olympics/Summer Olympics summer olympics NCAA/Professional Sport Leagues idk Mexican Food/Italian Food italian Pink Wristband/Yellow Wristband pink? Summer Wheatly/Pedro Sanchez pedro sanchez Chapter 6: Do You... Shower every day? yes Write little memos on your hand? yes Have any special sleeping requirements, i.e. lights off, left side, etc... lights off, music has to be playing Have your driver's liscense? no Hold citizenship to more than one country? no Exercise? yes Think you're attractive? no Like yourself? not really Have any weird little habbits? sure Chapter 7: Have You Ever... Gone skinny dipping? no Smoked a cigarette? no Smoked a cigar? no Smoked anything else? no Kissed a member of the same sex? no Been in love? no Been heartbroken? yes Shoplifted? ..idk, sort of Been in a fight? not a fist fight.. Snuck out of you're parent's house? no Been chased by the cops? no Made out with a stranger? no Had sex with a stranger? no Lied to a friend? yes, everyone has Had a crush on a teacher? no Skipped school? no Been expelled/suspended? no Thrown up in public? yes Seen someone die? no Been to Mexico? no Been to Europe? no Been to the Carribbean? no Been to Australia? no Flown first class? no Taken pain killers? yes Taken sleeping pills? yes Taken drugs? no ODed? no Got alcohol poisoning? no Been in an abusive relationship? no Rode in a limousine? no Gone SCUBA diving? no Gotten stung by jellyfish? almost, haha but hannah saved me.. Gotten stung by a bee? yes Failed a subject in school? yes Made a snow angel? yes Written a letter to Santa Claus? yes Slept in your parent's bed because you were scared of something? yes Been to sleep-away camp? no Been on a 3+ day canoe trip? no Been called a bitch? yes Been called a tease? yes Been called a prude? probably Been called a whore? yes Had detention? yes Been sent to the principal's office? yes Met someone famous? sort of Been robbed? no Been cheated out of a large sum of money? no Made a prank phone call? yes Been to the opposite side of the country? well, texas? Cried yourself to sleep? yes Hurt yourself on purpose? yes Kissed in the rain? no Kissed under a misteltoe? no Kissed infront of your parents? yes Had a song dedicated to you on the radio? no Had a book dedicated to you? no Been mentioned in someone's wedding or bar/bat mitzvah speech? no Been a bridesmaid? no Been a maid of honour? no Sang in the shower? yes Lost your cell phone and had to get a new one? no Screamed yes Had sex in a public washroom? no Had sex on the beach? no Had sex at church? no, that's horrible. who ever does that needs shot. Had sex at a football game? no Been thrown in a pool with all your clothes on? yes Broken a bone? yes Made your own porno? no Laughed so hard you cried? yes Cried so hard you laughed? post comment

i'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate [16 Sep 2005|05:58pm] [ mood | satisfied ] [ music | Brand New-- The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot ] okay, so i got a new journal because i'm sick of people always posting gay comments that make no sense. haha i dont know why that bothers me so much, but it just does. so this journal is for just my friends and stuff to see.. not gay asses who i know will post comments that are rude and/or senseless. heres my survey. Think About This Created by worthlessone and taken 18 times on Bzoink Have You Ever... Been raped? um, no.. Molested? i thought that was the same thing? Physically abused? ....no Physically/sexually abused someone else? no. shut up. Been attacked? no Robbed? no Been held at knife/gunpoint? no Held someone at knife/gunpoint? no Attacked or robbed someone? no Been forced into something? yes Said yes when you meant no? yes Had a panic attack? um, sure Been diagnosed with a mental disorder? no Stayed in a mental hospital? no Been betrayed? yes Betrayed someone? probably. i think almost everbody has. Prayed? yes Jumped in a pile of leaves? yesss Worn yellow rubber boots? ha, dont think so Wished on a plane because there was no star? ha, no Spent a major holiday alone? no Been stranded? yesss, at fisher auditorium at night. i thought i was gonna get raped, it was so scary. Remembered an important part of your life that you had forgotten? no Forgotten someone completely? no Been forgotten? idk Been accused? yes Accused someone? yes Been terrified of someone? not really Had a "bad feeling" about someone or something? yes Used Tarot cards? no Gone to church? yes Been too scared to say no? idk? Recited a poem? yes Started singing out loud, unaware that you were doing so? yes, hahahaha today i did.. and alonzo was like, what the heck? Forgotten your own birthday? no Almost drowned? ..yeah, i fell in the pool before i could swim, my brother had to save me, haha. Been on fire? no Seen someone on fire? no Sat or stood on the roof of a very tall building? no.. haha but i've sat on hannah's like, 6 ft. high off the ground "deck roof" or whatever, haha Seen someone die? no Cry yourself to sleep? yes Laugh so hard it hurt? yes Cry until you felt like you had no tears left? yes Known a criminal? no Tried to make someone do something they didn't want to do? yes Purposefully hurt someone that cared about you... that you cared about? yes Jumped in front of a moving vehicle? hahaha, yes. i do it all the time, it scares the hell out of my mother. Spent the day in a cemetery? no Written a letter longer than five pages? no Been stuck somewhere for over three hours? no Stood for something that you refused to back down on? mhmm Been truly criticized for your beliefs? idk Been shunned and ostracized for your beliefs? no Lost friends for your beliefs? no Not had a friend? um, not really Been completely alone? no Completely destroyed something you cared about? idk Walked out of a relationship forever that was going great for both of you? haha, kind of. it hasnt been forever yet though, so yeah. Screamed at the top of your lungs? yes Stood at the top of a cliff? no Fell asleep on the beach? yes Been inside a tent? yes Did something you promised yourself you would never do? idk, not really. Break a promise, not only to yourself, but to others? yes Truly wanted to die? not really Intentionally hurt yourself? yes, ha. today in art, i poked myself w/ those little sharp thingys.. i was bleeding : ) Knew someone who intentionally hurt his or herself? yes Told a lie that hurt you, and who you were lying to? idk, probly Lied to take the blame for someone else? yes, because i'm such a good friend Lied in court? never been in court Had recurring nightmares? yesssss Decided you'd had it with society? idk Broken someone's dream? idk Had your dream broken? yes Last Person you hurt? mike, i stabbed with those things in art Smiley face you've used? just the regular one Time you really laughed? at lunch, hahahaha. it was great. Time you were truly acting like yourself? idk Time you confided in someone? idk Person you had confide in you? idk Insult you were given? idk Compliment? um, ha. well, nice ass. from cory and ben. they're gay. Grade? uhhh.. Test? we had one today in algerbra Project? i'm working on right now Time you really looked at someone? idk, it was most likely cory. god, i'm retarded. Song you listened to? plain white t's --fireworks Time you sat down at the dinner table to eat dinner? idk, a long time ago, we never eat dinner together Dream or nightmare you had? idk Favorite or Best Memory? anything with hannah Friend? hannah, tor, gina, rebecca, em Subject? nothing. school's gay Thing to do? out with my friends being retarded Hero? BATMAN IS MY HEERRROOO : ) Quote? dont have one Thing someone said to you today? "i love you ash, you're great" afjlkjajfjlfjaas. cory said that. Book? the perks of being a wallflower Author? stephen king Game? moods, good times*emilie.stephanie. Word? idk Poem? idk Teacher? Mrs. Ciarelli i suppose Stranger you saw today? some black guy walking through fisher Letter? seriously, who has a favorite letter? Flavor? green apple Smell? love spell, victoria secrets and smile, some cheap stuff from deb Taste? idk Emotion? amusement, happiness, i guess? Myth? umm, idk Mythological creature? idk Fariy tale? Thumblina, or whatever it's called.. haha Fictional character? Butters from South Park, you know it. Part of life? ? Part of your life in particular? ? Thing you did today? every moment spent with cory. Thing you said today? "oh my god ally, you're bleeding!" that was sooo funny, hahaha. Compliment you could ever receive? iddkkk Least Favorite or Worst Part of life? idkkk Insult? idc, insults dont insult me, haha. Memory? when ben and alonzo.. yeah.. nevermind. Scent? idkk Flavor? orange Author? j.k. rowling Taste? idk Poem? idk Book? you dont know me Store? limited too, hollister/abercrombie Thing that ever happened to you? idk Thing you've ever done? idk Thing you've ever said? idk Person? Tyletta fucking Lane, i hope she slits her own throat. no joke. Flower? idk Place? idk Food? idk Subject? social studies and science Emotion? feeling lonely Some More Stuff Do you believe in hate? not really.. Love? yes Apathy? ummm.. Do you have a good memory? no, it absolutely sucks Where was the last place you've been, that isn't where you are now? fisher auditorium Describe the tiny details of that place. um, it desperately needs a paint job. theres pictures on the walls of theatre majors, and each person has something mean written on them. How many people have you loved? zero. besides like, my family. Have you fallen in and out of love? idk How many people do you love now? idk Do you believe in an All-Powerful deity? umm? idk? Where do you believe people go after death? heaven. Why do you think the universe exists? good question If you could pick the theme of the world, what would the theme be? idk Would you rather die alone or with people around you? die alone Do you have a secret you've never told anyone? well, i told my brothers. none of my friends know though If there was one thing you could get rid of, what would it be? dont know You're alone on an island with one single object. What is it? does cory count? yeah, okay. i'm not obsessed just so you know, really, i'm not. If only one piece of technology could exist, what would you have it be? idk? phone? Why? because its the first thing that popped into my head If you could only pick one memory, what would it be? idk Why? .. If you had to choose between being blind and deaf, what would you choose? deaf Would you be able to give someone the death penalty? no way. even though i think there should be death penalties What is one thing that makes you who you are? idkkkk. 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