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I’m sorry Tony, although I don’t know why. I just feel like I should be sorry, so maybe you’ll talk to me again. So, yeah.. I told you this like 10, 000 times last night but I’m sorry.
I’m sorry Kristin for acting like a fucking dickhead. I hope you come out of lurking.. cause, yeah… I like talking to you. Good luck getting a dorsal fin.
I’m sorry Benji for loosing it in front of you.. I didn’t mean to like.. make you uncomfortable or something. I’m sorry.
I’m sorry Joel, too.. though I don’t know why. Just am. I hope you’re having.. fun on tour..
I’m sorry about what’s going on with Kit, Tim.. take care of him and stuff…
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[21 Apr 2003|05:12pm] |
I’m exhausted emotionally. It’s hard trying to be both extremely happy and extremely a depressed at the same time. Happy because, I’ve found someone.. someone who actually cares for me. I mean, I wasn’t expecting it.. but, it’s a good thing.
But how I can I be happy when I keep doing things to get Tony mad at me? I’d like nothing more then to know what I’m doing wrong.. and I don’t believe him anymore when he tells me nothing. It can’t be nothing or it wouldn’t keep happening. I was up till 6am fighting with him and we just kept saying the same things over and over again. I’m no closer to finding out why my own cousin is acting so fucked up towards me. I cant keep apologizing when I don’t know what I’m doing wrong.
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[20 Apr 2003|03:12pm] |
Happy Easter.
I’m not pukey anymore, which means I could eat chocolate.. if I had any. But, sadly, I am chocolateless. That’s okay.. I’ll go buy some at discount prices tomorrow. It’ll be great. I’ll be all fat and stuff by the end of the week. It’s not like I need to look good for anyone.. hah. I’ll molest myself now that David is taken. Or maybe I’ll molest Jere.. if I had any idea where he was. Heh.
-molests himself-
And thanks for the condom, Tim! I’ll keep it forever. It’s not every day you get a rainbow condom from Tim Fucking Armstrong.
Tony – do we have any large family Easter feedbag things today? I’m so out of the family loop. It’s really quite sad.
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[18 Apr 2003|03:37pm] |
First off.. I feel sorry for Sarah.. if she has to sleep in the same bed as Tony on a regular basis she must be bruised. He fucking kicks and elbows like there's no tomorrow. Not to mention he is a blanket hog. Bastard... heh.
Kristin needs to stop calling herself gross. She just has to.
Now, if you'll excuse me I need to go puke.. and talk to Tim. Yeah, thats right.. he actually stopped lurking. He's cooler than David!!!
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[18 Apr 2003|02:20am] |
I think I have that flu that's going around. It fucking sucks.. I havent eaten anything all day then I'm hit with this. It better just be a 24 hour thing or.. I'll shoot myself in the foot. I don't know what good that will do... but.. maybe if I scare myself my body will be all anti-flu. One can only hope.
Tony and I are getting along again. He's taking care of me.. making sure I don't fall down any stairs. If he gets this flu because of me... I'll be so fucking pissed off. We've been arguing over who gets the couch. I hope he realizes he's wasting his time cause I'm not getting off this fucking floor.
Benji hasn’t been around in a couple of days. Wonder where he went.
Fucking edit: Kristin, you're not gross, dammit!
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[16 Apr 2003|11:41pm] |
I need to get really, really drunk. I’m so frustrated and it just doesn’t seem to want to go away. I need to stop causing shit with my cousin… everything I say or do causes a fight. It’s just so frustrating and I don’t know how to make it stop.
Any ideas?
I have one.. how about I go jump off a bridge?
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[15 Apr 2003|09:20pm] |
Okay, for the record.
MY COUSIN DOES NOT HAVE 'FEELINGS' FOR ME.
Thank you.
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[14 Apr 2003|04:10pm] |
Looking over my journal, I realized I have shitty ass entries. All one liners and stuff.. So…yeah, I’m gonna write one now.
Tony and I hung out last night. We both noticed it was all awkward.. but there was no reason for it to be.. so, yeah. That was confusing. I don’t like it. I hate not being able to talk to my cousin.. and him not wanting to talk to me. We tried to fix it but, unfortunately, we just aren’t smart enough. That and we don’t know the problem.. unless he does and I’m just dumber than I look. Which is entirely possible.
Also the whole Benji/Kristin thing is all weird… and I can’t take sides cause I understand where both of them are coming from. Why cant we all just get along, dammit!?
Oh yeah.. and my name is no longer Matt. I am Joel.. I’m till learning ghetto hands.. I’m slowly getting there. –attempts them- I still need some lessons from the former Joel. But.. I’m on my way. Oh yeah… I should probably learn to sing too, right?
David.. prepare to be molested nightly… haha. Warped is gonna be awesome… it’s too bad GC wont be there.. oh yeah, and speaking of Warped… are The Distillers still gonna be there? Cause it would be awesome if both Armstrong’s were there.
So… there you have it… my big long entry of boringness. Woo!
Oh yeah,.. David.. stop fucking lurking.. I know you are!
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[13 Apr 2003|11:04pm] |
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Tony rocks... he got my lazy ass some icons.
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[13 Apr 2003|12:57pm] |
I. Hate. Hangovers.
Hows that for an update?
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[12 Apr 2003|10:04pm] |
Wow, I'm in serious need of some icons.
Too bad I'm lazy. I even needed Tony to come over and change the TV channel.. too bad he's all harassing me now. He takes joy in upsetting me.. its really quite cruel. And I call him my favorite cousin.. how sad.
Edit:
For the record:
Kristin has permission to rape me as I sleep.
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[11 Apr 2003|03:55pm] |
I'm here.. as you can see.
I have nothing so say.. so.. yeah, hi.
you can catch me on AIM: TheMattLovato
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