WiTHOUT YOUR LOVE [022403]

Did the captain of the Titanic cry? [( 041804 )]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]
[ music | Cursive ; Pulse ]

I don't know what my deal is, but I can't stop shaking. I feel lost, for some reason. God only knows what the hell's wrong with me now. I tried to put on some old summer shorts today...yup, they don't fit anymore, just like a lot of my pants don't. I don't know what the fuck happened. Why 10lbs just found its way to my thighs....why? I feel like a fucking fat ass. Sometimes I feel ok when I can fit in a 3 again, and some are even too big, but then there are those times when I slip on a pair & they just don't feel like they used to. I wish this would go away... It makes me feel so self-conscious and I thought I was fat before, boy was I in for it. Everyone says cardio, but with my asthma & my knees, I don't know how the fuck they expect that. I want to be me, and who I should be, body & all, but it's so fucking hard sometimes. Sometimes I just want to cry. I know people love me, and it's hard to tell I have gained, but I can tell myself & only if my AE pants would fit again... Doubt that's possible, though. I don't even have to lose the weight, but if my pants fit it doesn't matter to me. I can't starve myself, 1 bc it's fucking dumb, and 2 I have to eat. I am doing pilates, but who knows if I will see results from them. It's better than nothing, though, I guess. I know I am not as fat as I think I am, but this is fat to me...this is what I expected after a fucking kid, not at 17. I hate it... I hate it so much... I just wish Dan would go to the God damn gym with me, but of course not. I am so unmotivated on my own, especially if no one helps me get started. Once I get going, I'm ok, but Dan won't even do that. There's always an excuse... Fuck it... I'll stay fat & wear jeans all summer, but I also won't be going swimming being a fucking cow. Peace.

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[( 041404 )]
[ mood | creative ]

Hi :P~ I think I have returned. Sry for lack of commenting etc. Still love you

True Love

Why do I do these things that I do to myself? [( 110503 )]
[ mood | sick ]
[ music | SC ; Drunk Girl* ]

Lately I have been posting in my LiveJournal: missingelements, so if you have a livejournal, then go there. :o) That is most likely where you'll find me.

<3<333<33 i love you baby~

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Friends Cut [( 051003 )]
[ mood | crazy ]
[ music | Dru Hill ; I should be ]

Please remove me if you're one of these people because either you never comment, or you leave rude comments & I don't appreciate them. :)

_starliteangel
ripple
in_view
blissified
hack


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And on the story goes...

Danny, I'm sorry about the other night. I love you more than anything & I honestly don't know what I'd do (besides go crazy) if you weren't with me. The argument was completely stupid & we were just both being stupid & stubborn. I'm sorry if I said anything mean to you. I know, you know that I care about you so much & I'd never intentionally do anything to hurt you. -- Thank you for the picture you drew me on the reciept while I was asleep. It was very thoughtful of you and I love it!~ :) It was cute that you put it by me so when I woke up I'd see it.<3 :P THANK YOU!~ I love you, bigbird...I love you so much...

Gina, I LOVE YOU BABYGIRL!~

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Stop trippin' [( 043003 )]
[ mood | bitchy ]

To y'all who won't stop running your damn cock gobbling, cum guzzling mouths: First off, what the fuck is my name doing in your mouth? It doesn't belong there, so don't ever say it again. Second of all, because you're hatin' & some guys show attn, you think you gotta bash on someone cause it's all not on you. I know y'all aren't going to admit to it and "aolaugh" at this shit, but it's true. Get your ass out of denial, first off & 2nd off, get your fucking ass off AOL. The ones who talk shit are the ones who live their so called "lives" on AOL. That's no life at all. AOL is a bunch of fake people and bullshit. It's for people who wish not to face reality & want to live in some god damn play land. Those who won't get the fuck off their asses & apply themself in the real world. Oh, you can say you go to school, but that still doesn't mean when your ass gets home you don't run to your damn computer to catch up on the latest aogossip and to talk to your internet boyfriend/girlfriend. If you don't have one, don't say you don't live your life online either because 90% of the time your real bf or gf is at your house, your probably sitting your ass in front of the computer screen & when they're not there, you're on AOL talking about he/she to all your internet friends. Don't try & say you aren't addicted cause the state forces your ass to attend school & you have a real boyfriend. I know how the shit works 'cause yeah, I used to be addicted to this shit. It's a total & complete different thing from the real world, which you fail to face. Stop worrying about what he or she said in a god damn chatroom. Are you really still going to be sitting your ass in front of your computer talking to the same people, which probably aren't even who they say they are in 10 years? If you think so, you're denying reality and you're also pathetic. If you know you won't, but still worry about AOL shit, you're pathetic & what the hell is the point in talking shit online? None. Maybe you feel cool for about 5 minutes, but that's it. Are you really going to go tell someone you dropped someone's acct in 5yrs and be proud? Are you going to tell your mom you defaced someone's site (which most of you can't even do) and expect a pat on the back? Yeah, fucking right. AOL is a joke, and if you live on the internet, or let your life be interfered by or affected by it, you're a joke as well. :) You should be locked in a solid steal box filled with cow testicles, left to rot. :) Holler.

Btw: I am aware of my big ass. No need to remind me.
"I'm beautiful in every single way, words can't bring me down."

To those of you who keep it real, I love you.
Jade, Gina, Britton, etc.

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Happy 18th Birthday, Gina! [( 043003 )]
[ mood | thirsty ]

Happy Birthday, Baby! (click)

I love you, babygirl. You are my best friend ever!
Everyone tell Gina happy birthday! :)

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Lockdown, wha?!~ [( 041003 )]
[ mood | anxious ]

This will be my last public entry. From now on, it is friends only. If you want to be added, comment & add me...I will add you back.

I am not going to post a bunch of rules here because if you are a true friend, you will obide by the rules of friendship, rather than my list of "conditions" so you may call them. Stay true, comment, be caring...that's all I ask. :)

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I wish you were here... [( 040603 )]
[ mood | exanimate ]

Can't nobody make me feel quite like you do...
As we all know, I've got it bad. :blush:



Why am I up? Cause I can't keep my mind off of'em...that's why

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[( 040503 )]
[ mood | giggly ]

entrancing
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.


What kind of kiss are you?
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You are a complete prep. Your prioroties are
shopping and guys. You feel that you aleays
ned to talk. Take a breath once in a while.


What school stereotype are you?
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Lips


Which of Spike's hot body parts are you?
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You are a romantic lover. You like nothing more
than cuddling and kissing, showing your S/O how
much you love and care for them. You take
things nice and slow....whatever happens
happens. You are the eppitemy of romance. GO
YOU!


What kind of lover are you??
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PS: I LOVE JAVI. 4403. :P

True Love

Monkey Lips [( 040503 )]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | 50 cent ; fat bitch ]

Here monkey lips, I changed your journal for you. Hope you like.

<3Beachball ass.

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[( 040403 )]
[ mood | rejected ]
[ music | Eminem - Love Me ]

"I really wanna hear you say that you know just I feel
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see

Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
"

You know who you are...'cos I really meant what I said earlier to you...but I guess I cannot change what you said either...unfortinately.

True Love

My neck hurts :\ [( 040403 )]
[ mood | sore ]

jade erica: ROFL lets call him lord of the PB
virtuaL bitch: 4real
virtuaL bitch: LOTPB
jade erica: ROFLMAOAROFL
virtuaL bitch: WDAP LOTPB
jade erica: FUCK LORD OF THE RINGS
virtuaL bitch: LOL
virtuaL bitch: NO FUCKIN SHIT
virtuaL bitch: LORD OF THE PB REPRESENTIN'
virtuaL bitch: MAKE A FUCKIN MOVIE W/ DIRECTIONS ON PBING.
virtuaL bitch: FOR THE SUPER SEXY PHONEBONE
virtuaL bitch: PRESS ONE NOW
jade erica: ROFLLLLLL
virtuaL bitch: IF YOU ARE USING A VIBRATOR PRESS THE POUND KEY
jade erica: FUCK THE MISSION FINDING THE RING
jade erica: THE MISSION IS
virtuaL bitch: ROFL
jade erica: TO FIND THE CALLING CARD LOL
virtuaL bitch: LOL
virtuaL bitch: 4REAL DUDE
virtuaL bitch: AND THE FUCKIN NAPKIN TO NUT IN ;X
jade erica: ROFL!!
jade erica: I knew this girl once..
jade erica: Who made her boyfriend jack off in a grapefruit and pudding in the phone
jade erica: She she mb'd with a screwdriver!
virtuaL bitch: ROFLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
virtuaL bitch: EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
jade erica: ROFL I KNOW
jade erica: I WAS LIKE UH
virtuaL bitch: MAN I HEARD BOUT THIS BITCH WHO STUCK A CURLING IRON UP HER CHACHA
virtuaL bitch: I WAS LIKE
virtuaL bitch: THE FUX.
virtuaL bitch: I HOPE THAT SHIT WAS TURNED ON HIGH=
jade erica: OMG
virtuaL bitch: AND SHE BURNT HER TWAT SILLY.
jade erica: I HEARD ABOUT THAT TOO
virtuaL bitch: FUCKIN CRUSTY CUNT =X
jade erica: AND SOME GIRL DID IT WITH A BRUSH
virtuaL bitch: ROFL YES I KNOW WHO THAT IS =X
jade erica: ROFL ISNT HER NAME
jade erica: FUCK. DAMN.
jade erica: There are like 3478634 girls with her name.
virtuaL bitch: BET YOU SOME BITCH STUCK SOMETHIN' CRAZY UP THERE LIKE SOME HEDGE CUTTERS.
virtuaL bitch: SAW ALL THAT TUNA OUT.
virtuaL bitch: I KNOW TASHIA DID IT W/ A BRUSH LOL
jade erica: RFOF+FROFIRFKIL
jade erica: SHE DID?!?!
virtuaL bitch: ROFL YES
virtuaL bitch: 'JASON' TOLD ME =X
jade erica: WTF I DONT EVEN WANNA KNOW WHAT CHRISTINA DOES.
virtuaL bitch: ROFLLLLLL
virtuaL bitch: HEDGE CUTTERS!
virtuaL bitch: HACK SAW!!!!!!!!
jade erica: ROFLMFAO
jade erica: A KNIFE
jade erica: "PLS STAB HARDER"
virtuaL bitch: FUCKIN' WHATS THAT SHIT CALLED THEY HAMMER CEMENT W/
virtuaL bitch: JACK HAMMER OR SOME SHIT
virtuaL bitch: LOL
jade erica: ROFL
jade erica: "Jason" was a loser, he always begged to pb
jade erica: Who has to beg?
virtuaL bitch: YOU EVER SEEN THAT COMMERCIAL WHERE DUDE IS LIKE
virtuaL bitch: WE WONT JACK HAMMER YOUR BASEMENTS
virtuaL bitch: HELL IT MAY BE LOCAL BUT DUDE
jade erica: ROFL LMFAO NO BUT NOW WHEN I SEE IT I'LL THINK OF YOU
virtuaL bitch: WE WONT JACK HAMMER YOUR PUSSY OR FRY YOUR TWAT WALLS.
jade erica: MAN
jade erica: Saddam Hussein is one ugly mf
virtuaL bitch: rofl no shit
virtuaL bitch: HE GOT SOME ORANGE GUMS.
jade erica: DID YOU SEE HIM ON THE WELCOME SCREEN
jade erica: IM LIKE WTF
virtuaL bitch: HE GOT LIKE IRAQIVITIS
jade erica: S^ WITH THAT CHIN
jade erica: ROFL!!!!!!!!
virtuaL bitch: NOT SOME GINGIVITIS & SHIT
virtuaL bitch: that nigga needs a fuckin wire brush to whipe them crusty cammel cum filled teeth off with
virtuaL bitch: before we find his ass & roast him like KFC roasts chicken!
jade erica: ROFL
jade erica: HIS CHIN LOOKS LIKE
jade erica: FRIED CHICKEN 4REAL
virtuaL bitch: ROFL HIS ASS BE EATIN SOME KFC
virtuaL bitch: AND HE ON THE RUN
virtuaL bitch: THE HELL.
jade erica: ROFLLLL
jade erica: I KNOW RIGHT
jade erica: AY LEMME EAT YOUR CHIN
virtuaL bitch: HOW DO THEY SAY KFC IN IRAQI?
virtuaL bitch: KDFJDKJDKFJ 938398KDHJ KDJSKIE
virtuaL bitch: THAT'S KFC.
virtuaL bitch: LOL
jade erica: ROFL!!!!!!!
virtuaL bitch: HABADABA MOHAMMAD KABBA FABBA CABBA
virtuaL bitch: LOL
jade erica: ROFL "O AIGHT DAWG YOU WANT A NUMBER 3?"
virtuaL bitch: mohammad gimme some fuckin kfc is what that says
jade erica: "MASHED POTATOES OR COLSESLAW?" ROFL
virtuaL bitch: ROFL
virtuaL bitch: MASHED CAMELTOES PLZ
virtuaL bitch: ew
virtuaL bitch: omg x;
jade erica: ROFLLLL
virtuaL bitch: im seriously fuckin crackin up over here
jade erica: ROFL WELL WHAT KINDA DORK SAYS MASHED CAMELTOES LMFAO
virtuaL bitch: rofl
virtuaL bitch: ME
virtuaL bitch: duh!!!!!
jade erica: LOL
jade erica: "SIR THATS NOT ON THE MENU"
jade erica: "TRY AGAIN"
virtuaL bitch: rofl
virtuaL bitch: OK FRIED CAMELTOES
jade erica: ROFL
virtuaL bitch: MY BAD NUGGA.
virtuaL bitch: lol
jade erica: "ROTISSERIE CAMELTOE?"
virtuaL bitch: I WANT SOME COLLARED CAMELTOES
virtuaL bitch: AND SOME CAMMELBREAD
virtuaL bitch: LOL
jade erica: ROFLLLL
virtuaL bitch: AND SOME CAMMELMELON
virtuaL bitch: AND SOME CAMMEL-AID
virtuaL bitch: HOOK A NIGGA UP
jade erica: Camels are -SO- ugly.
jade erica: Oh my GOD.
virtuaL bitch: rofl
virtuaL bitch: oh my mohammad*
virtuaL bitch: GET IT RIGHT BITCH
jade erica: MAN now I want some KFC. :-X
jade erica: LOOK WHAT YOU DID.
virtuaL bitch: rofl
virtuaL bitch: MY BAD
virtuaL bitch: KFCAMMEL.
jade erica: ROFL

True Love

I've got the mic & you've got the moshpit... [( 040303 )]
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | TBS ; Timberwolves @ New Jersey ]

Just wanted to tell everyone again how much I love them.

I LOVE YOU GIRLS/GUYS!~@~!<3333333 :)

I don't think I can say it enough, nor do I say it enough.


"I have friends money couldn't buy" ~ The Movielife

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'Cause I got high... [( 040303 )]
[ mood | high ]

Hi guys. I'm blazed as fuck right now waiting to make sure Dan got home okay, and then I am going to bed. For the record, fuck AOL. :) Mia & I talked the other night about a lot of shit, and we agree on a lot of it too. People take this shit too seriously, and in no way am I saying at times I don't do it myself, but I realize it. I have pulled away & I'm glad I did. Mia pulled away too. I still talk to people, but only my true friends of years & in no way is my life controlled by the computer such as other peoples'. Not dissin' some people who do it, but can manage it, but the ones who don't have a care in the world for anythig other than getting online. You will have to face reality someday & not AOL's so called 'reality.' I have a lot to say, but my eyelids are getting heavy & my neck is really hurting me, so I'm going to go lay down. Hope y'all had a nice evening. Love you bunches. :)

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:P [( 040103 )]
[ mood | ditzy ]

To all my true friends, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!! <333

I have nothing to say to anyone else. You're not worth it. :)

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