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Tuesday, March 9th, 2004
3:42 pm - nelson
im going out w. nelson now ... im really happy it's weird how you can learn to love someone he isnt the same person though ... he always seemed to eager to be with me and when he started acting like he didnt care i wanted him more and idk hes just really diff i love him !! im sooo happy he treats me so good we have so much fun together too

current mood: loved
Friday, December 19th, 2003
2:42 pm - havn't updated for a while but..
im confused about nelson sometimes i like him sometimes i dont hes goin to florida for 2 weeks thank god hopefully i need someone new i cant wait to get the feeling again when u really like the person i dont have that w. nelson when i see him i dont get butterflies when i see his name on my caller id i dont get excited i hate kissing him and i hate him touching me theres absolutely no chemistry but i convince myself i like him bc he treats me good nd when im bored hes there to chill w. me its horrible i kno ... kyle is still missing his mom called me 2 days ago crying i felt so bad shes like at this point i dont know if hes dead or alive and im like i kno , i feel the same way i cried so much when i saw the movie ghost the other day bc kyle can be right next to me it freaks me out i cry way too much. i want a puppy so bad! i've never had a dog or nething my family arnt really pet ppl but now i want one soo bad i dont think im getting one =/ <3 alyssa

* today was the last day of school for 2 weeks !!!! im so excited ! christmas is days away it scares me bc i kno im gonna be a crying mess on x mas and since im single im gonna be 1000x worse ! i hope kyle at least calls for x mas i want to kno if he's ok i never thought one year ago that i would be in this mess 2day and that i'd fall in love but honestly idk what i would do differently bc i love him so much and i dont regret one moment we spent together .. awesome im crying again

** today would have been our one year and one month anniversery

current mood: good
current music: good to know - brand new
Saturday, November 22nd, 2003
2:36 pm - does ne1 even read this ?
bike scene picture
Ah, Bike Scene. That unrequited love is a killer.
No matter how many times you know you should
leave them, your in way too deep for your own
good. You'll never get out of this. But good
luck anyway.

Mini Version - What Taking Back Sunday song are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

i think im really starting to like nelson ...

i dont feel like writing alot its a waste of time no1 reads this ne way so i might not write ne more until some1 reads it or something i have alot to say about last night but it doesnt matter to ne 1 ...

current mood: happy
current music: forever - mariah carey
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Tuesday, November 18th, 2003
10:14 pm - Im sniffling !!! =(
hey not much is goin on lately good things are happening. me nd nelson are chillen 2mor nd baking cupcakes nd yesterday i went to my grandmas w. nick nd brian they loved her lol and today i went to change my belly button ring and it started bleeding and i didnt kno what to do so i go to the place i got it pierced nd they said they pierced it too deep nd i can only get certain belly rings nd i have scar tissue that'll be there 4ev nd its like the size of this tip of ur thumb! im like awesome ! 2day i got my highlites re done nd it looks arrite its a lil too blonde but thats ok .. so ya everything pretty cool im ironin my hair now nd waitin for nelson to call .. he says to me on the phone last night " i dont want to freak you out or anything but doesnt is kinda feel like we're going out? " and i was like ya it does. i love how he is w. me bc i kno hes different w. me he doesnt go out w. ppl and he wants to be w. me all his friends like me the guys think im hot nd the girls think im cool just too preppy lol so ya im happy =) i havnt heard from *him* nd i dont really care !!!! lata darling

.001. ] first name:Alyssa
[ .002. ] middle name: Marie
[ .003. ] last name:
[ .004. ] nickname(s): Lyss shortii baby girl ( nelson ) Alyss Lyssy Ally
[ .005. ] gender: girlie
[ .006. ] age: 15
[ .007. ] birthday: sept 14th 1988
[ .008. ] height: 4'11
[ .009. ] hair color: dark blonde w/ blonde highlites
[ .010. ] eye color: light green
[ .011. ] race: white
[ .012. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: neither
[ .013. ] do you have braces: nope
[ .014. ] is your hair long or short: med
[ .015. ] where were you born: west islip ny
[ .016. ] current location: west islip ny
[ .017. ] zodiac sign: virgo
[ .018. ] how many languages do you know:eng nd i take span in school
[ .019. ] nationality: puerto rican italian hungarian
[ .020. ] bad habits: too many lol
[ .021. ] piercings you have: 4 in my right 2 in my left nd my belly button
[ .022. ] piercings you want: maybe one more in an ear.
[ .023. ] tattoos you have: none
[ .024. ] tattoos you want: i dont think any
[ .025. ] today's date: November 18th
[ .026. ] the time: 2:57
[ .027. ] ready for a bunch more questions?: o yaa
. : Family : .
[ .028. ] mother's name: Donna
[ .029. ] father's name: Bob
[ .030. ] step-parent's names: Don’t have any.
[ .031. ] brother(s)'s name(s): Eric
[ .032. ] sister(s)'s name(s): Briana
[ .033. ] favorite aunt: Kathy
[ .034. ] favorite uncle: Dave
[ .035. ] favorite grandparent: nanny elvira
[ .036. ] worst relative: thats mean lol
[ .037. ] best relative: nanny elvira
[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: barely
[ .039. ]Does anyone in your family understand you?: few
. : Pets : .
[ .040. ] do you have any pets: my brother has one
[ .041. ] what are their names: lucky
[ .042. ] what kind of animals are they: a hampster
. : School : .
[ .043. ] are you still in school: yes
[ .044. ] did you drop out: nope
[ .045. ] current gpa: 70's 80's 90's
[ .046. ] favorite grade: this year or 8th grade
[ .047. ] least favorite grade: 7th maybe
[ .048. ] favorite teacher: Mr. McCabe
[ .049. ] least favorite teacher: Ms. Matthews or Mr. Albert
[ .050. ] favorite subject: english maybe
[ .051. ] least favorite subject: biology
[ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: both depends on the day
[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: nope
[ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular ativities: i use to have a job
[ .055. ] are/was you popular?: i have tons of friends
[ .056. ] favorite dance: clubz
[ .057. ] favorite memory: too many
[ .058. ] least favorite dance: idk
[ .059. ] least favorite memory: too many
[ .060. ] most humiliating moment: cant think of ne
. : Favorites : .
[ .061. ] number: 14
[ .062. ] clothing brand: lots
[ .063. ] shoes: my steve maddans
[ .064. ] saying: i have alot ha ha im crazyy
[ .065. ] tv show: friends
[ .066. ] sport: idk
[ .067. ] vegetable: corn maybe
[ .068. ] fruit: i LOVE most fruit
[ .069. ] movie: just married fools rush in the sweetest thing home alone
[ .070. ] magazine: Cosmopolitan
[ .071. ] actor: Ashton Kutcher possibly
[ .072. ] actress: ahh soo many tara reid cameron diez christina applegate jennifer aniston etc etc etc 
[ .073. ] candy: tootsie pops
[ .074. ] gum: fruit stripes =)
[ .075. ] scent: dream angels heavenly
[ .076. ] candy bar: kit kat mannn
[ .077. ] ice cream flavor: french vanilla or ice cream w. peanut butter
[ .078. ] color: ne shade of pink mostly hot pink !
[ .079. ] season: Summer
[ .080. ] holiday: christmas
[ .081. ] band: Taking Back Sunday
[ .082. ] singer: Brian Adams Mariah Carey Madonna etc etc etc
[ .083. ] group: spice girls babyy
[ .084. ] rapper: 2 pac
[ .085. ] type of music: i dont like rap i like almost everythin else
[ .086. ] thing in your room: bed
[ .087. ] place to be: on a HOT beach
[ .088. ] radio station: 102.7 or 106.7 or 103.1
[ .089. ] tv channel: travel channel mtv ... usa ...lifetime ha ha
[ .090. ] junk food: chocolate covered pretzels
[ .091. ] overall food: penne ala vodka or steak !
[ .092. ] store: tonz
[ .093. ] shoe brand: tonz
[ .094. ] fast food: Wendy’s
[ .095. ] restaurant: villa monica or Jrz steak house orRr Boulders Creak
[ .096. ] shape: heart <33
[ .097. ] time of day: day time for summer
[ .098. ] country: usa
[ .099. ] state: NY
[ .100. ] boys name: Dmitri or Bryce
[ .101. ] girls name: Araceli Charlotte Brooke etc ...
[ .102. ] mall: Roosevelt Field
[ .103. ] video game: Sonic
[ .104. ] shampoo: i change them too often to have a fave
[ .105. ] board game: idk idk idk
[ .106. ] computer game: Sims !
[ .107. ] car: idk yet
[ .108. ] music video: hM?
[ .109. ] swear word: Shist !
[ .110. ] word: Re Re Sobioski ( i/j )
[ .111. ] month: July August December
[ .112. ] cartoon character: Ariel
[ .113. ] scary movie: idk
[ .114. ] team: idk
[ .115. ] possession: my fuzzies
. : What's the first thing that comes to mind when you hear : .
[ .116. ] eminem: white
[ .117. ] dog: woof
[ .118. ] hot: pants
[ .119. ] britney spears: hot
[ .120. ] nsync: bye bye bye
[ .121. ] real world: Chicago
[ .122. ] orange: juice
[ .123. ] choice: awards
[ .124. ] fuck: me
[ .125. ] bisexual: candy
[ .126. ] black: men
[ .127. ] icq: xyz
[ .128. ] insane clown posse: the movie IT
[ .129. ] linkin park: ew
[ .130. ] jack: smith
[ .131. ] rainbow: pot of gold
[ .132. ] cherry: pop
[ .133. ] cucumber: green
[ .134. ] shark: tooth
[ .135. ] lifehouse: tower
[ .136. ] bat: boy
[ .137. ] leather: whip
[ .138. ] whip: cream
[ .139. ] america: the beautiful
[ .140. ] water: bottle
[ .141. ] volcano: red
. : This or that : .
[ .142. ] rock or rap: rock
[ .143. ] rock or pop: pop
[ .144. ] rock or r&b: r&b
[ .145. ] rock or metal: rock
[ .146. ] rap or pop: pop
[ .147. ] rap or r&b: r&b
[ .148. ] rap or metal: rap
[ .149. ] pop or r&b: pop
[ .150. ] pop or metal: pop
[ .151. ] r&b or metal: r&b
[ .152. ] linkin park or limp bizkit: limp bizkit
[ .153. ] tool or korn: tool
[ .154. ] selena or jennifer lopez: both
[ .155. ] hot or cold: hot !
[ .156. ] winter or summer: summer
[ .157. ] spring or fall: depends on my mood
[ .158. ] shakira or britney: Britney
[ .159. ] icp or eminem: eminem
[ .160. ] marilyn manson or rob zombie:neither
[ .161. ] kittie or garbage: who ?
[ .162. ] mtv or vh1: MTV
[ .163. ] buffy or angel: Buffy
[ .164. ] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: dawsons creek
[ .165. ] football or basketball: football
[ .166. ] summer olympics or winter olympics: summer
[ .167. ] skiing or snowboarding: snowboarding
[ .168. ] rollarblading or skateboarding: skateboarding
[ .169. ] black or white: white
[ .170. ] orange or red: red
[ .171. ] yellow or green: yellow
[ .172. ] purple or pink: Pink
[ .173. ] slipknot or mudvayne: mudvayne
[ .174. ] hot topic or pac sun: PacSun
[ .175. ] inside or outside: outside
[ .176. ] weed or alcohol: alcohol
[ .177. ] cell phone or pager: cell
[ .178. ] pen or pencil: pen
[ .179. ] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: charlies
[ .180. ] scooby doo or dino: scooby
[ .181. ] dragon ball z or pokemon: neither
[ .182. ] star wars or star trek: star wars
[ .183. ] tattoos or piercings: piercings
[ .184. ] prep or punk: both
[ .185. ] slut or whore: neither
. : Private life : .
[ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: no
[ .187. ] do you have a crush: a few
[ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: not by choice
[ .189. ] have you ever been in love: ya
[ .190. ] how many people of you kissed: too many
[ .191. ] who was your first kiss: joey d
[ .192. ] how many hearts of have you broken: only 2
[ .193. ] how many people broke your heart: a few
[ .194. ] best quote to sum up love:when it works out, love is pretty amazing it's not overrated theres a reason for all those songs.
[ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: adores me cute funny fun sweet etc ... <- thats just 1
[ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: nope
[ .197. ] please post it if you do: ^ sry girliez
[ .198. ] do you have a picture of yourself: ya
[ .199. ] please post it if you do: idk how
[ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: i try personality but looks get me
[ .201. ] ever kiss a friend: suuure
[ .202. ] are you still friends: some are some arnt
[ .203. ] so moving you smoke: nope
[ .204. ] do you smoke weed: sometimes
[ .205. ] ever trip on acid: nope
[ .206. ] how about a little x: i would but nope
[ .207. ] crack, heroin, anything else: nope
[ .208. ] beer good or beer bad: beer pong good
[ .209. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: i like them
[ .210. ] do you like smirnoff ice: suure
[ .211. ] prefer beer or liquor: doesnt matter
[ .212. ] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke: none
[ .213. ] are you a virgin: nope
[ .214. ] if no, when was the last time you got some: oct 18th
. : Would you ever : .
[ .215. ] bungee jump: ya
[ .216. ] sky dive: ya
[ .217. ] swim with dolphins: ya
[ .218. ] scuba dive: ya
[ .219. ] go rock climbing:ya
[ .220. ] eat shit for $1,000,000: ya
[ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: possibly
[ .222. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: Nope
[ .223. ] cross-dress: halloween
[ .224. ] lie to the police: yaaaaaaaaaa
[ .225. ] run from the police: every day
[ .226. ] lie to your parents: every day
[ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: on a dare ya
[ .228. ] be an exotic dancer: suure
[ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: possibly
[ .230. ] streak: if i was wasted
. : Your friends : .
[ .231. ] best friend: ash lauren karissa carrie
[ .232. ] known longest: ashley
[ .233. ] wish you talked to more: ashley
[ .234. ] wish you saw more: ashley
[ .235. ] how many friends do you think you have: jeeez tonz tonz
[ .236. ] who drives you insane after a while: heather
[ .237. ] who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: ash
[ .238. ] ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level': ya cuz i didnt like him back nd he accused me of "playing games"
[ .239. ] craziest: karissa
[ .240. ] loudest: ash
[ .241. ] shyest: lauren nd ash around other ppl
[ .242. ] best hair: carrie
[ .243. ] can always make you laugh: ash
[ .244. ] best eyes: carrie
[ .245. ] best body: ashley
[ .246. ] most athletic: amanda plompz
[ .247. ] sex symbol: Nicole
[ .248. ] hot tempered: lauren
[ .249. ] most impatient: me
[ .250. ] shortest: me
[ .251. ] tallest: carrie
[ .252. ] most talented: Jess
[ .253. ] best singer: Jess
[ .254. ] skinniest: Heather
[ .255. ] nicest: none we're all bitches at a point if i had to pick l- auren
[ .256. ] best personality: ashh
[ .257. ] biggest drug user: chris !
. : Have you ever : .
[ .258. ] flashed someone: ya for a 22 oz smirnoff
[ .259. ] told the person you liked how you felt: maybe in like 6th grade
[ .260. ] been to michigan: nope
[ .261. ] gotten really REALLY wasted: ya
[ .262. ] gone to jail or juvi: nope
[ .263. ] skateboarded: long board
[ 264. ] skinny dipped: yaa
[ .265. ] stolen anything: yaa
[ .266. ] wanted to kick my ass for making this so long: noo i luv u !
[ .267. ] kicked someone's ass: kelz
[ .268. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: probably
[ .269. ] broke a beer bottle: yaa tonz
[ .270. ] gotten into a bar, under-aged: ya
[ .271. ] kissed someone of the same sex: ya
[ .273. ] gone on a road trip: soon !
[ .274. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: ya
[ .275. ] been to a concert: yess who hasnt
[ .276. ] been to another country: ya
[ .277. ] talked back to an adult: yaaa too many
[ .278. ] got pulled over: not yet
[ .279. ] got in a car accident: nope
[ .280. ] broke a law: hell ya who hasnt
[ .281. ] given money to a homeless person: yaa
[ .282. ] tried to kill yourself: nope
[ .283. ] cried to get out of trouble: ya
[ .284. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: yaa
[ .285. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: nope
[ .286. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it anyways:yaaaa
. : Opinions : .
[ .287. ] what do you think...about pop music: itz ok
[ .288. ] about boy bands: not much
[ .289. ] about flag burning: thats mean !
[ .290. ] of the war on terrorists: i dont even really kno whats goin on
[ .291. ] about suicide: sadd
[ .292. ] about people who try to force their opinions on you:get a journal
[ .293. ] about abortion: yaa ppl make mistakes
[ .294. ] about rock/metal music: soft rock
[ .295. ] where do you think you'll be in 10 years:prob married
[ .296. ] who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: ash
. : What did you do : .
[ .297. ] last birthday: was w. paul
[ .298. ] yesterday: went to my g maz w. brian nd steve
[ .299. ] last weekend: party party
[ .300. ] christmas: lost my virginity
[ .301. ] thanksgiving: too much food
[ .302. ] new year's eve: slept at kylez
[ .303. ] halloween:party nd eggs
[ .304. ] easter: was w. bryan
[ .305. ] valentine's day: went to kylez he got me penne ala vodka <3 =(
[ .306. ] thing you ate: chicken?
[ .307. ] thing you drank: apple juice
[ .308. ] thing you wore: pink pants
[ .309. ] place you went: body designs
[ .310. ] thing you got pierced/tattooed: belly button
[ .311. ] person you saw: don don
[ .312. ] person you hugged: karissa
[ .313. ] person you fucked: kyle
[ .314. ] person you talked to: lou
[ .315. ] song you heard: i can be your hero - by the mole man
. : Now : .
[ .316. ] what are you eating: nada
[ .317. ] what are you drinking: nada
[ .318. ] what are you wearing: pajamas pants nd a sweatshirt
[ .319. ] any shoes on: sandles
[ .320. ] hair: ironing it
[ .321. ] listening to: somewhere to lay my head- bob marley
[ .322. ] talking to anyone: away message is up
[ .323. ] are you pissed i made this so long? no i luv u !
. : Yes or no : .
[ .324. ] are you a vegetarian: no
[ .325. ] do you like cows: yes
[ .326. ] are you a bitch: yes
[ .327. ] are you artistic: yes
[ .328. ] do you write poetry: no
[ .329. ] are you a fast runner: no
[ .330. ] can you ski: yes
[ .331. ] are you british: no
[ .332. ] do you want to spear britney: no
[ .333. ] do the voices talk to you: no
[ .334. ] did you ever give barbie a haircut: yes
[ .335. ] would you eat mac & cheese with hot dogs in it: no
[ .336. ] do you think disney creators were on acid when they made 'alice in wonderland': yes
[ .337. ] are you straight: yes
[ .338. ] are you physically handicapped: no
[ .339. ] are you fat: no
[ .340. ] are you skinny: no
[ .341. ] are you short: yes
[ .342. ] are you tall: no
[ .343. ] do you own a hot pink shirt: yes
[ .344. ] how about orange pants: no
[ .345. ] can you see the flying monkeys: no
[ .346. ] are you evil: no
[ .347. ] did you ever know someone who had a mullet: no
[ .348. ] is britney a whore: no
[ .349. ] are you a teenage zombie: no
[ .350. ] am i annoying you: yes
[ .351. ] do you like marilyn manson: no
[ .352. ] are you secretly from another planet: no
[ .353. ] did you ever touch someone else's private parts: yes
[ .354. ] do you shop at hot topic: no
. : Random questions : .
[ .355. ] if you could be any animal, what would you be: sea turtle
[ .356. ] if you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be: feta cheese
[ .357. ] do you remember any of your dreams: yes
[ .358. ] do you dream in color or black and white:i dont remember
[ .359. ] do you admit when you need help with a problem: yes
[ .360. ] can people read you like a book: yes
[ .361. ] what's your biggest fear: death
[ .362. ] do you talk a lot: yes
[ .363. ] are you afraid of clowns: some
[ .364. ] do you like spiders: nope
[ .365. ] how about grape kool-aid: not grape
[ .367. ] are you spoiled: yes
[ .369. ] do you see dumb people: yes
[ .370. ] do you see dead people: no
[ .372. ] now that this is over, what are you going do to?: iron my hair

current mood: giggly
current music: when a man loves a woman !
Friday, November 14th, 2003
7:01 pm - Friday night ...
im really tired so i think im staying home tonight its 7 and karissa and carrie havnt called me so yea i didnt wanna call them i feel left out sometimes with them i cant expect differently tho bc they have been friends for 2 years and i've been their friend 2 months yesterday karissa called me nd is like carrie cant go out wanna get ur nails done w. me? ok?? i felt like ok carrie cant so i'll ask alyssa im not gonna dwell on it i just feel like i dont have a best friend i have alot of close close friends but no best friends or even one ... my dadz bein an ass and sayin i cant go out ne way bc my roomz really messy nd i cant argue w. that bc u cant see my floor and i have a big room. i wish nelson didnt work so much bc if i can be anywhere right now i wanna be at his house making cupcakes in my sweatpants nd sweatshirt and just lay on his bed. i'd be so happy. <33 alyssa
5 days till the 19th =( one year w. kyle
7 days till karissa's b-day nd till andrew comes home =)

* someone PLEASE give me an idea what to get her !

current mood: blank
current music: Waiting Room - Sixpence None the Richer
Thursday, November 13th, 2003
9:02 pm - You cant hurry
You Cant Hurry Love
I need love, love
ooh, ease my mind
And I need to find time
someone to call mine;

My mama said
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
But it's a game of give and take
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
Just trust in a good time
No matter how long it takes

How many heartaches must I stand
Before I find the love to let me live again
Right now the only thing that keeps me hanging on
when I feel my strength, ooh, it's almost gone

I remember mama said
You can't hurry love
No you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
It's a game of give and take
How long must I wait
How muck more must I take
Before lonliness
Will cause my heart, heart to break?

No, I cant bear to lve my life alone
I grow impatient for a love to call my own
But when I feel that I, I can't go on
Well these precious words keep me hanging on

I remember mama said
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
Well, it's a game of give and take
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
Just trust in a good time
No matter how long it takes, now break!

Now love, love don't come easy
But I keep on waiting
Anticipating for that soft voice
To talk to me at night
For some tender arms
hold me tight
I keep waiting
Ooh, till that day
But it ain't easy (Love don't come easy)
No, you know it ain't easy

My mama said
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
It's a game of give and take
Tuesday, November 11th, 2003
11:52 am - my momz fuckin crazy !!!
my mom is fucking crazy idk if she has her period or something but i woke up and went in her room and was like can u take me shopping ? and shes like idk if i wanna and im like what the hell? u never spend any time with me im never home and i ask you if u wanna spend the day with me and you say no? and then her only friend Tami calls her whom has her on a fucking leash ! and im like dont ditch me for her that would me the lowest thing you can do and she starts SCREAMING at me and if u kno my mom she NEVER screams and shes screaming in my face like i did something wrong seriously i think shes going fucking crazy shes a greedy self absorbed piece of shit ! she hasnt had a job for 12 years she finally gets one and she doesnt share money with ANYONE she doesnt pay one bill when i ask her for money she says no or that its her money and she doesnt wanna give it to me? can anyone fill her in on parental responsibilty ! last night i needed her to pick me up from karissa's and shes like i cant im in my pajamas? so i get home and find her sitting on the couch reading a mag and watching soap operas is she for real ? shes like a fucking teenager ! i hate her so much but there isnt any more time i can get away from my house ! i go to school in the morn come home @ 2:10 get my sister off the bus have to wait till 4 for her to come home then i either go out or go into my room for the rest of the night until the next day then on fridays i dont come home from school bc shes off and i spend the rest of the day nd night out and then sometimes i come home nd sometimes i dont then saturday i go out all day and all night and sunday is my lazy day but sometimes i go out but sundays my mom isnt home anyway. uhh i fucking hate her ! i cant wait for my aunt to move out so i can move into her apartment upstairs from my grandma ... no joke my grandma is the only one in my family that spends time w. me my aunt use to until she got married now im non existent .. everything in my life is going horribly right now i need something good to happen. they still havnt found kyle. still dont have a job . everythings just fucked up. <3 me ( somebody )

current mood: cold
Saturday, November 8th, 2003
5:46 pm - wasting time ...
Five details about you...
[x] I love my friends.
[x] Sometimes i'm a pushover.
[x] I always have to get what i want.
[x] I'm scared of being hurt again.
[x] I need a guy in my life to be happy.

Five details about your appearance right now...
[x] My hair's straight.
[x] I'm shivering bc im freezing !
[x] I'm kinda tan from yesterday.
[x] Jeans and an off the shoulder sweatshirt/shirt.
[x] Pink Nailpolish.

Five things you did today
[x] Got breakfast w. Carrie
[x] Went to Karissa's
[x] Drove around for a while.
[x] Went to the beach.
[x] went to toys 'r' us lol

Five memorable things you did in the last year...
[x] Went out w. Kyle.
[x] Met Karissa and Carrie.
[x] Went out w. Andrew
[x] Went on a cruise.
[x] Ended a friendship w. Kelli.

Five favorite movies...
[x] Fools Rush In.
[x] Just Married.
[x] The Sweetest Thing.
[x] How to lose a guy in ten days.
[x] Finding Nemo.

Five things that make you happy...
[x] Shopping
[x] Laughing
[x] Money
[x] My friends/ Family
[x] Having a boyfriend

Five things that impress you...
[x] People who are born rich.
[x] People that deal with racism everyday.
[x] Planned Parenthood.
[x] People who don't need to have relationships.
[x] Plastic surgery

Five things you'll do when you complete this...
[x] Make dinner w. karissa and carrie.
[x] go to the party possibly
[x] laugh till my stomach hurts w. the girls.
[x] Maybe hear from Andrew.
[x] maybe change cloths again.

Five things you feel right now...
[x] Depressed Kyle still is missing.
[x] Loved. Andrew wrote me a poem thing and left it as a voicemail.
[x] Hungry, last time i ate was like 10 this morn
[x] Upset ... of course links back to Kyle.
[x] Cold

current mood: indescribable
current music: The blue channel - Taking Back Sunday
Wednesday, November 5th, 2003
9:51 pm - fucked up week !
this week cant get any worse but i shouldnt say that because maybe it will i just got fired and it sux bc i really loved that job i dont wanna write alot bc im just gonna get upset again but the day went fine it was totally normal there were no signs of getting fired or anything and i did a really good job no mistakes at all or anything but i was flirting w. Brian ALOT and that might have pissed Andy off ( my boss ) but ne way he says to me alyssa can we talk or something and i was like ok and hes like i need to let you go i wasnt really listening i was just like trying not to cry but he was sayin some shit about how business is slow and he needs to let someone go .. idk idk idk too much is going on right now. they havnt found kyle yet .. lifes great !

current mood: cranky
current music: my imz from the horny deperate boys
Tuesday, November 4th, 2003
2:43 pm - Things just keep getting better and better lemme tell you ... =/
yeaa well this week is going awesome so far! i have ISS friday .... and the kyle shit ... when i wrote last i didnt get to speak to his mom yet but i found out alot of information...1st his AUNT calls me i've never talked to her before and i guess since i've never talked to his dad he didnt want to call me or something so anyway she said that her brother ( kyles dad ) didnt really know whats going out and shit and kyles mom called him and told him little information and then hung up on him and everyone thinks i have something to do with this or i know where kyle is or im hidding him and i have no idea where he is i havnt talked to him for 2 weeks so i kinda found out why he ran away u kno how he had to bring an escort with him when i saw him well the escort told his counslers that me and kyle had sex and he got in trouble and i guess he wasnt allowed to come home this weekend and he got mad and started getting into trouble and then i guess got fed up and ran away. but his aunt told me that if he is here or if i talk to him tell him that his aunt and dad will pick him up and bring him wherever he wants to go if he wants to come here or something and his mom just has to know hes ok some shit like that she was really nice and she was saying that kyles dad and she agrees with him that they think hes been in there way too long and their driving him over the edge if he feels like he needs to run away which i agree with now that they put it in that point of view im less angry with him, so she gave me all these numbers in case i talk to kyle ... his dads cell and house her cell and house etc ... but i have a feeling she still thinks i talk to him and i kno whats going on. but greeeat his whole family knows we have sex thats awesome right i've never met his dad before and he already knoz we have sex. ok so then his mom calls me and she seems all upset and shes telling me all this shit like o if u talk to him tell him this and if u talk to him tell him that so she def thinks hes like with me or something and she kept saying i cant believe he hasnt contacted you and im getting kinda scared now bc hes been gone since sunday at 2 i found out and he hasnt contacted me thats really fucked up and i kno he's gonna come here and i kno i'd be the first he'd call he always told me that if he ever ran away he'd come here. so im just waiting for him to be sitting on my roof when i come home one day im so scared .. his mom also told me that he ran away with a kid named Alberto and some other kid and theres a warrant out for their arrest !and the state troopers are looking for them ! ! i kno that kid alberto persuaded him to do it because kyle mentioned him to me when i saw him and he said him and alberto were thinking of leaving or w.e but i was like kyle please dont and i really didnt think he would do it. so them i get off the phone with his mom and my mom was standing at the door so i was being kinda weird on the phone w. kyles mom so now i think she really thinks i have something to do w. it and then she calls me back and she asks for robs numbers and i give them to her and she sounded so upset i feel so bad for her and i feel so bad kyle is putting her through this shit so then i got to the tanning salon and i come back and i read a little them go to bed and my phone rings and i jump bc im expecting a call from him but its not its his brother and i was half asleep so i dont even remember what he was telling me but prob the same stuff as kyles mom they were saying if i talk to him have him call them or me call them just to let em kno hes ok and everything they dont understand i have nothing to do with this !!! i havnt talked to him for 2 weeks !!! idk whats going on i found out after they found out that he ran away i dont kno what to do or think i love him so much and i want us to work out but right now i find it impossible i dont kno where he is ! this is horrible ! i dont think any other girl is crazy enough to deal with this shit ! o and daytop thinks hes with me too ! so yea im the bad guy here ! i cant wait till i hear from him though i need to kno whats going on and what hes thinking and where he is. im crying again, why do i love this kid so much ! hes hurting me so badly right now

" when it works out love is pretty amazing it's not overrated theres a reason for all those songs" <33

i love him so much

current mood: depressed
current music: Mariah Carey Now that i know
Monday, November 3rd, 2003
2:51 pm - Crying ...
kyle ran away from rehab ...n hes a fucking disgrace i hate him it's over i cant put myself through that shit anymore hes fucking pathetic he was suppose to be here sat its not like he had long to go he was almost done ! he thinks he can come back here and his mom will be like aww baby u dont have to go back but hes wrong hes fucking wrong and hes so stupid hes never coming back he'll be back when im in college ok ! hes a fucking disgrace and he needs more help than 9 counslers a day and no privledges hes been up there 6 months through all that shit and he still hasnt learned he doesnt understand that hes just putting himself in there longer. i dont kno what to think anymore what to feel i hate him hes such a worthless piece of shit ... idk what to think im so confused im hysterically crying ... i hate him i dont kno what to do. his mom called me saying hi alyssa it's kyles mom he ran away from school and they dont know where he is im really worried and if u hear from him please call me ... does he realize hes killing his mom and hurting everyone that loves him.. i hate him and when he calls me im gonna flip

current mood: crushed
current music: nothing
Saturday, November 1st, 2003
7:44 pm - Slick Shoes - Angel
Slick Shoes - Angel

Looking into your eyes
I've seen all I want to be
and I don't want it to end.
If I could only put to words
the way I see you.
I only know I have
an angel with me now.
And when I fall asleep
your all that I see.
You're in my thoughts
and all of my prayers.
I wish I could mean
all that you mean to me.
But I could never find the words
to tell you.
And when I fall asleep
your all that I see.
You're in my thoughts
and all of my prayers.
I wish I could mean
all that you mean to me.
And when I fall asleep
your all that I see.
You're in my thoughts
and all of my prayers.
I wish I could mean
all that you mean to me.
My angel without wings.
6:58 pm - Halloween nd what not
usually i wake up at 6:30 but fri i got up around 6:50 and karissa and carrie came over at like 7:10 they went through my closet looking for shoes and we left around 7:25 thats the time homeroom starts i was still in my pajamas and we went back to karissaz and made breakfast and sat around telling true ghost stories and watching tv and then around 8 30 i went in the shower at her house while they ironed their hair and then when i got out we all got dressed me and carrie realized we didnt like what we were wearing at all so i finished gettin ready and we got in the jeep at like 9 and went to the mall not knowin the mall opens at 9:30 lol well the mall was open just not the stores ... so we just walked around and then forever 21 opened and we spent an hour in that store and eventually after karissa practically dragging me out of the store i picked a couple of thingz and we left ... soo we get to school at 11:15 when we were suppose to be there at 10:30 according to Karissaz mom i was suppose to be there a lil after homeroom ... so me and carrie just had to erase messages when we got home at 2:30 my mom works every day except fri but she usually goes to the gym and then shops all day nd comes home @ 3 sooOO we got in 6th per which is lunch for me nd then 7th was latin nd greek we had a test and 8th i had gym so i skipped it and then 9th was bio so i had a really easy day but when we got to my house i looked at the answer machine and it wasnt blinking so i was like shiit ! and i listened to the messages and the only one there about me was like alyssa tried signing in at 11:15 just letting u kno if u have ne questions call us so i was like shit they talked to my mom already or something and then she heard that message but i wasnt sure and then i saw an ulta bag of course my momz a fuckin shopahalic nd the receipt said yesterdays date and 1:30 so she stopped home heard the message and left again so i was like lets go so me karissa and carrie leave again we were gonna get food nd then trick or treat nd as we were leaving we passed my mom and i waved lol nd then she called me freaking out about where i was and who did i think i was comin into school 11:30 and i try to make my own rules and all this bullshit and then shes like come home and im like no! and shes like pick to be grounded today or 2mor nd i was like its Halloween im going out nd shes like fiine ur not goin out 2mor then and im freaking out bc even tho i havnt spoken to Kyle in 2 weeks i still had some hope he'd come home today like he was suppose to and i called him yesterday nd the counsler gave me an attitude and was like no u cant speak to him would you like to speak to a counsler and i was like no thanx so i have a feeling he got in trouble which im gonna flip on him for bc wtf he had 2 weeks to go he didnt have to get in trouble ! fuckin asshole bc he hasnt called me and he has his phone privledges and he didnt come home today ? so idk i was starting to have faith in him changing and i had faith in us and now i dont kno what to think ... but ne way we really didnt do ne thing last night it fucking sucked we went to a party for like a half an hour and her car got egged lol but we spent most of the night driving around which sucked and then we got greek salad and i would have slept there if my mom wasnt an ass im really confused right now nd i need a guy in my life and i dont know what to do ... i need a boyfriend a really really good boyfriend that lasts a while and i chill w. alot and lives close by or has a car i need some1 that respects me and doesnt do alot of drugs but likes to have fun uHh i need too much to be happy.

current mood: disappointed
current music: Cant Help Falling In Love w. you - Elvis
Wednesday, October 29th, 2003
10:12 pm - Please forgive me
i love Bryan Adams and i love this song so i had to put it in here ... of course i think alot of the lyrics remind me of Kyle but i think anyone in love thinks every love song has to do with them ha ha

*Bryan Adams Please Forgive Me lyrics*

Still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
Still holdin' on, you're still the one
First time our eyes met - same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger - wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on...
So if you're feelin' lonely don't - you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good - so if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me - this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Please believe me - every word I say is true
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you

Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch - still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough
Still holdin' on - still number one
I remember the smell of your skin - I remember everything
I remember all your moves - I remember you yeah
I remember the nights - ya know I still do
So if you're feelin' lonely don't - you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good - so if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Oh believe me - every word I say is true
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you

One thing I'm sure of - is the way we make love
And one thing I depend on - is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'

Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Babe believe me - every word I say is true
Please forgive me - if I can't stop lovin' you
Never leave me - I don't know what I'd do
Please forgive me - I can't stop lovin' you
Can't stop lovin' you

isnt it a great song ?i love it ! if i had Kazaa i would have every song by Sublime and Bryan Adams but my dadz a lazy piece of shit and he wonthook up the cable modem bc he has to hook up w rowder or something !

<33 me

current mood: giddy
current music: no music but im singing the song i just wrote about =)
3:25 pm - Haloween Guys nd fucked up girls
nothing really exciting it happenening ... yesterday this guy alex asked me if we can be together i was with him over the summer so it's not like it was some random guy and i said idk bc of kyle and hes like well think about it and i was like ok so now every 5 minz hez like think about it ! so yeaa hes a weirdo lol nd his friend Nick one of the kids i went to six flags w. that i was w. the whole time and i fell asleep on him in the limo hes been paying alot of attention to me too and him and alex were like fighting over me yesterday at lunch it was fun lol but i think i like nick more than alex ahh it doesnt matter bc im stuck w. kyle lol didnt i say i have kyle moods? now im not in an i love kyle mood ... i havnt talked to him since not this sat but the sat b4 thats a fucking long time nd idk if hes coming home this sat hes suppose to that'd be awesome if he does sooo idk idk im just confused bout everything idk what im doin for Halloween of course i'll have plans bc i have like ten thousand friends but of course im prob gonna spend it w. Karissa nd Carrie ... they wanna be Charlie's Angels lmao crazy chicaz idk if i wanna do it i prob will tho it'll be funny ok in the beg. of this year all these girls wanted to fight me for no reason at all ! they said bc i was a slut or something which is funny bc if they knew me they wouldnt say that so w/e they tried kicking my ass but like 14 guys were surrounding me and were like ur not touching her and i dont think they were ever going to they just wanted to scare me or something these girls are fucking insane they do this to every1 i think its bc they're jealous bc they're like druggies nd they're not the prettiest girls so w.eee thats over w. but theres this one girl that is friends w. em but i was friends w. the girl this whole summer and i chilled w. her alot nd she called me all the time complaining nd i was there for her and shit and when she found out her*friends* wanted to kick my ass she stopped talking to me and she was a fuckin bitch and now she just im'd me and shes like whats up girl i havnt talked to you in so long so wtf ??? girls are so fucking gay i hate them !!! carrie just called now she wants to be the spice girls w. two other girlz that i dont kno so idk if i wanna do it ... bc i also heard these 5 girls talking about it today how they were gonna be the spice girls so thats weird and im def not going to school as them ya knoo ahh idk i never dress up for Halloween !! idk if i wanna this year i think it'd be diff to do charlies angels cuz its a cute outfit nd its me carrie nd karissa but these other 2 girls i dont kno so im gonna feel dumb wow i am being do retarted rambling on about this shit ! im gonna go i g2g to work soon ne way <33 me

current mood: irritated
current music: Mest Cadillac
Monday, October 27th, 2003
4:07 pm - in a kyle lovin mood
hey i really dont have ne thing to write about but im on the site reading other pplz blurty's so i'll write in mine ... i havnt talked to kyle since saturday i miss him =( he called me wednesday but i was at work and he left two messages and he sounded so sad in em hes like i really wish i could talk to you but your not picking up i felt bad he made it sound like im ignoring his calls ... we had such an awesome day last sat that if he comes home this sat i hope it's even better i love him so much ! =( i'm always confused tho about him sometimes i dont wanna be w. him nd wanna be single idk right now im in a sure mood. this sat i wanna have really good sex w. him bc last week wasnt the greatest ... i've never had an orgasm nd i really want one so i'm gonna try nd get one w. him this weekend ! my dad is such a mess he's talking to me right now about my sweet 16 next year nd hes talking about instead of having a party for me to invite one friend to like cancun and he'd go and he's stay in a seperate hotel room and let us go off on our own. that would be awesome but i can also have a sweet 16 nd w. that $$ go to Cancun ... he thinks a sweet 16 is gonna be *REALLY* expensive can someone that has had one w. a DJ rented out a hall nd catered tell me around how much it is... thanx

since im in a kyle loving mood for once im gonna do this quizzy thing i found ...

1. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes

2. What is his/her name? Kyle

3. How did you meet? through this guy Brian at first i hated kyle nd then it all turned around

where's four ??

5. Do you remember what you were wearing when you first met? devons lacrosse jacket idk what else

6. Do you remember what he/she was wearing when you first met?
no clue i kno shorts tho

7. Do you remember a song that was popular at the time you first met? that song " even when im w. my boo boy u kno im crazy over you " something w. a D by Kelly R and Nelly

8. what's your song? Cant he;p falling in love with you - Elvis

9. Do you have a special movie?
Just Married Pearl Harbor and Fools Rush In <33

10. What is the age gap between both of you?
just a year

11. Do you like being older/younger?
yea he'll drive soon he should already but the rehab thing kinda screwed that up

12. Do you know his/her birthdate?
May 14th 1987
13. Do you know where he/she was born? no idea i'm pretty sure he was living where he's living now tho so he was living in North Babylon in New York

14. Is he/she a star sign that are you compatible with?
ha ha if u read my precious entry's you'll kno he's a Taurus and for the past year i've only liked Taurus' so i'm def compatible w. them

15. Do they snore? nope

16. Do they hog the bed? nope but i do lol

17. Do you have similar interests? yea some we do some we dont

18. Do you have similar tastes in music? he listens to punk and i do too we both dont really like rap but i love love songs and older music and i dont think he does.

19. Do you have kids? no but we've talked about it ... ha ha his last name is Schmitt so he wants a kid thats named Nibbles On Schmitt so it sounds like Nibbles on Shit lol hes an ass ... he likes the name Bennete tho nd i dont for a boy

20. Do you know what he/she is doing now? either cleaning sitting by himself eating or in a group

21. When did you last have a fight? i dont remember exactly but it had to be in March

22. When did you last kiss? Sat night not this sat the sat b4 it

23. When did you last hug? same ^^^ i wouldnt let him go =*(

24. What color are his/her eyes? deep deep brown i love them

25. What color is his/her hair? light brown

26. What do you think his/her best asset is, physically? his eyes ... his UmM oo u kno ... his hands i love everything about him ... his smile

27. Do you know his/her favorite song? nope it changes everyday it was great romances of the 20th century by Taking Back Sunday but that was awile ago and the last time i saw him he had some cd on nd every other song was his favorite lol

28. Do you know his/her favorite movie? nope ...

29. Do you know his/her favorite book? nope he just started reading books tho i dont think he has a fave he reads skatin magz tho

30. Do you get along with his/her parents? yess only his mom tho i've never met his dad i dont think i want to ... his mom loves me ! and i love her ! she's already like a mother in law to me i can talk to her so easily shes the best

31. Do you know the name of his/her last girlfriend/boyfriend? unfortunetly ... it was Jackie he cheated on me one night he was fucked up but she isnt the one that stuck in my mind it's * Nikki* i wanna forget.
32. Does he/she ever talk about them? he use to mention Nikki until i told him not to and he didnt ...
33. How does he/she feel about your last boyfriend/girlfriend? he hates me talking about em

34. What is the best thing he/she has ever done for you? i really dont kno ... loving me still

35. What is the best thing you have done for him? being there for him through all this shit

36. What is your favorite thing to do together? take a wild guess

37. If he/she is employed what does he/she do? he's currently in rehab lol but he's head of cleaning ! im so proud lmao

38. What is his/her favorite food? Chicken Cutlet Parm

39. What was it about them that made you fall for them? the way he treats me cares for me talks to me everything i love him!

40. How long did you wait until you had sex with him/her? we started goin out Nov 19th nd we had sex Dec 25th ...

41. Was it romantic? it hurt so if it didnt it def would have been

42. Have you ever spent a weekend together? one weekend i saw him fri sat nd sun night but not straight nd we've had sleepovers but not a full weekend

43. Have you ever stayed in a hotel together? not yet

44. How long have you been apart from not seeing each other? 6 months =(

45. What did he/she give you for Valentines day? he bought me take out penne ala vodka from my fave restaurant and chocolate nd we watched movies in his bed ... it was sweet <33

gotta go eat dinner <3 u all

current mood: I miss him =*(
current music: when you say nothing at all - alison krauss
Saturday, October 25th, 2003
12:20 pm - SIX FLAGS !!!!!! =)=)
Hey ya i havnt talked to Kyle since Sat ... it's k tho idk im kinda confused bout him i dont really wanna get into it but i guess i just feel weird about him nd me right now bc i havnt seen or talked to him ... idk idk idk im not gonna talk about kyle i talk wayyy too much bot him

i have a pic it's 2 big ta but in here tho i tried already so if ne 1 wants to see e-mail me ...

im going to six flags today last night i slept @ Karissa's w. Carrie and i just fought w. my parents for like an hour but they let me go so im so happy we're taking a stretched limo there ... theres like 8 of us ! ha ha it's going to be fucking awesome ! yesterday i went to the smithaven mall nd we met these guys on the way there and then met em at the mall one of em is named tom he's so cute he has the cutest eyes so i was teasing him and his friends about their names it was like tom and matt i was like wow real original w. a smirk so being sarcastic and sweet always gets me the guy it was funny bc i was in XII and karissa nd carrie went to abercrombie nd met up w. the guys when i was still shopping so they spent like 20 extra minz w. em nd i come and talk for 5 minz and the guys like u wanna chill 2nite and im like maybe and karissaz like yea my parents are upstate we can go to my house and tomz like well is alyssa gonna be there?? so i felt special .. =) i got $70 steve maddens they're *so* cute im a lil shorty so they're like 5 inches nd black they're soo cute nd i got a jacket nd a skirt nd a shirt and bright pink socks ... so i was broke ! but my dad gave me $100 today so its all good ... last night was arrite we got lost coming back from the mall so we got home at like 9 so we were at karissas and bobby nd his friend came over nd we were chillen and then brian and andrew came over these guys from a diff town and i met brian already but never andrew and he was sweet but not cute so we were watchin tv all 6 of us nd i was like 2 andrew u want hot chocolate and hes like no but do u and im like yea and im like can u go to 7 eleven and hes like if some1 comes w. me and im like i'll go so i got a french vanilla cappacino nd hot choclate bc i didnt kno which one i wanted and a mag lol i dont use guys at all i swear ! nooo i really dont im a nice girl guys just but me things is that so bad ???? so im gonna go clean my room nd take a shower nd pick my outfit out for six flags tonight !!!!!!! ahhh its gonna be soooooo fun !!!! =) =) <3 me

current mood: excited
current music: Hotel California - Eagles
Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003
3:33 pm - LMAOOO
breast implants!

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current mood: cheerful
current music: P I M P - Nelly
2:58 pm - Scaryy night lol !!
last night was kinda fun ... i dont usually go out on school nights but last night we were suppose to go to this hanuted abandoned house that karissa nd carrie told us about ha ha so like 7 they come get me and we pick up pat nd andrew and carrie was scared so she sat between me and andrew in the back seat of karissas jeep. so we get there and im expecting it to be REALLY scary nd i thought we were going inside the house bc they told us to bring flash lights nd shit so i brought a camera and a flashlight and we get there and it wasnt scary at all and then Karissa drives in the back of the house .... its a HUGE ass house and its all historical and kept well bc George Washington stayed there lol so i wasnt really scared so she drives in the back and it started getting scarier and then andrew was like lets go in the lil house there was a house in the back of the huge house so we drive back there and the lil house was really scary looking it looked really old and we drove to the back of that house and the back door was open and i started freaking out and i was like lets goo i wanna leave and andrews like no we're all going in ! and i was like HELL NO ! nd Carrie was like HELL NOO and Pat was like umm idk if we had a group of ppl then maybe or it was during the day ha ha he meant hell no too he just didnt wanna sound like a pussy and then Karissa was like well i'll go and i was like omg no im not letting you go in so they dont go in and we drive around more bc its a huge piece of property and theres like a really old cemetary and they wanted to get outta the car and theres noo way i would have and i was so scared bc im small and if they wanted to get me outta the car it wouldnt be a hard thing to do at all especially w. andrew he'd just pick me up w. one hand and throw me lol so we finally leave there and andrew was like u kno if we all went in there it would be pitch black and since me and alyssa only have the flash lights i would grab hers and turn them off and jump on someone and pat was like if u did that i would prob scream like a bitch and shit myself ha ha i would have prob cried if he did that ! so nee way tandrew and pat were all pissed bc they thought it was gonna be all scary and cool and andrew really wanted to go in so we go to Coyle's for ice cream and then we just drive around singing on top of our lungs and then just went home... i was kinda disapointed bc i thought it'd be funner ya knoo and really scaryy soo that was my tuesday night lol im goin to work in a lil so ttyl or after work <3 me

current music: Addicted - Simple Plan (kyle dedicated this to me )
2:53 pm - Marilyn
You are Marilyn Monroe. You seem happy on the
outside, yet you are haunted by inner demons.

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current mood: thirsty
current music: Perfect Simple Plan

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