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I'm so pissed at myself right now. I stayed after school today instead of going home and working out. Biiig mistake, because at school I ended up buying a fruit cup AND THEN a packet of peanuts. I proceeded to exhume both the fruit cup and like, 3/4 of the packet of peanuts. :( Even though nuts are healthy, they are sooo high in fat that I feel like kicking myself.
But that doesn't stop me from still eating something once I got home. Oh no, sirree, I'm sitting here right this moment with a small bowl of low-fat yogurt and I just finished an apple. What is WITH me?! I think I have a problem with eating too much good food.
At least I didn't stuff myself with chocoblocs. I figured that since I can't stop the craving for those damn chocoblocs, I might as well eat one or two per day. That way, I don't DEPRIVE myself of them -- I just eat them in small proportions. Which hopefully, will work out. Because I really, really, really don't want to gain any of the hard-lost weight back.
Something I am proud of myself for doing today, though, is getting my small salad according to plan. And I found out that I actually feel much better after a small salad as opposed to my usual large salad. I felt sated as opposed to stuffed. I think if I can harness the power of eating small, regular meals, I can feel a lot better. So tomorrow I will begin working on eating small, regular meals -- and since I am only going to use 8 kuai per day, I shall bring a fruit to school from home, so I can eat it at school before I head home. Then at home, I will eat another small snack -- another fruit and some milk/yogurt -- then work out, then small, NOT GHASTLY, dinner. :)
Yes. That's the plan. Now all I have to do is keep at it. Keep myself on the bandwagon. I may fall down once or twice, but that's OK. I'll keep persisting, and I know with determination I SHALL SUCCEED! I shall lose those 2 kg!
9:58 PM
Breakfast:
2 slices toasted flaxseed bread
1-1&1/2 tablespoon extra virgin olive oil (yum yum!)
1 cup skim milk
Small piece mango
Lunch:
Small salad (chicken, tomato, couscous, etc.)
Snacks:
1 fruitcup
3/4 packet of peanuts
1 small bowl low-fat aloe vera yogurt
1 apple
1 chocobloc
Dinner:
Frog's legs
Veggies (tomatoes, romaine lettuce, cucumber & other veggie dipped in sauce -- delish)
1 small, small bowl of seaweed-pork soup
1 small bowl of white rice
Just taking stock... staying on track...
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