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(lend a hand) Its HOT! [11 May 2004|02:56pm] [ mood | hot ] [ music | Franz Ferdinand -- 40 feet ] Well, I'm sitting on my bed and its HOT! The air conditioning is broken in my house, which sucks, but its not as bad as it could be, I suppose. I really want to work on my HC project, but Aaron has to send me this registration number for a DVD ripper that he gave me. He gave me shake, too!! I mean, how much more high tech can you get? I think that its the highest level of video editing software made. AND I HAVE IT!!! Yay! So I'm going to have to wait until aaron emails me the registration number, I think, before I keep working on my project. Oh, never mind...I'll work on it in the mean time...what am I talking about? I can't not work on it. This has been my life for the past month or so. I don't even bother with my other homework. Tomorrow, my group has to go for creative writing...our skit. Who knows how it'll be, but it'll probably be funny. lets hope. Oh, what the hell to I care? lol. I think that's all I have to say. This entry was pretty boring. Sorry.

(lend a hand) work in multiple forms [09 May 2004|01:36am] [ mood | drained ] [ music | Franz Ferdinand -- cheating on you ] I woke up early today to get to work for a meeting. It was boring, but I sat next to chris and we made cynical comments to each other and it was fun. Then I came home and cleaned my desk off. That was a chore. Ugh, I can't stay organized...its terrible. After that, I started working on my human condition project, and I got really far!! Its really exciting. I now have about 3.5 minutes to it. not a whole lot, still, but I'm just working on the compilation of it all. It looks pretty good so far. I had to look up all of these anorexic pictures and it was really disgusting. It makes quite the impact on the video, though, so I'm happy with that part of it. So I worked on that for about 5 hours and then I went to work again and it was relatively fun I suppose. I may not quit now, though. Me, Chris, and David had a long conversation with Ms Burke and Mr Busch about ms Moate. We don't like her much, which is why we want to quit. Everyone is looking for a new job. Hopefully it scared busch, though...so maybe things will improve. who knows. Then I came home and worked on the project a bit more. But I'm wiped since its 1:45, so I'm gonna hit the sack.

(6 hands | lend a hand) New Computer!!! [06 May 2004|05:37pm] [ mood | relaxed ] [ music | Rooney -- I'm a Terrible Person ] I'm sitting in bed right now on my NEW COMPUTER!! YAY!! I'm hooked up to a wireless network in my house, so right now I'm on the internet!! It's a powerbook G4, with a superdrive (cd and dvd burner), 80 GB of storage space, and a pretty damn good processor speed. Its such a dream computer. I have a backlit keyboard, so i can type in the dark, and i have some cool programs that I'm starting to get used to. Yay! So, I'm happy now. Yes, I do have to pay for about 600 or 700 dollars of it, but thats no biggie. First I have to finish paying off the last 300 bucks for my camera before I start on this one, though. So that's my big news. I took my AP test today in English, and that was exciting. I dunno how I did, but I'm guessing I did well. I have a little bit of faith in myself. And if it doesn't work out to where I get credit...so be it. No biggie. The last friends is on tonight! I'm so terribly sad. "This is like the end of an era!" to quote Monica in the one where chandler moved in and rachel moved out. And it is...I've grown up with the friends...and now...they are leaving me! That seems to be a common theme these days. But the difference between that and the television show is that I'm much more heartbroken about the television show. (Ooh, was that low? Sorry, but seeing as this is MY journal...I figure I can type whatever the hell I want.) And in reguards to that, guys...the reason that I'm totally and completely ignoring you is not because I feel like I was wrong...but because you just aren't worth the debate. We all know that I've lost to a penis every single time. And the funny thing about it (well, one of the funny things...I find it all pretty damn entertaining) is that you seem to think that it matters and you're trying to prove something to me. Hm. Now that's something to chuckle about. Anyways, back to me since I'm all that matters in my journal, School is almost over!!! That's so exciting!! I can't believe that it'll be summer soon and I'll...have a new job. Yes, that's right, folks...I'm looking for a new job. And I had someone call me today about a job, but I was in school at the time they called, and when I called back they weren't there. So I'll just wait until they call back. I'm going to try to find the highest paying job possible. I need mass money for this computer! (which is gorgeous, by the way...did I mention that?) Other than that office job I looked into, I might try a film company. That'd be fun. And perfect for me!! Okay, so I'm gonna go off in my own little world now and think about how much I love being me.

(lend a hand) Senior Skip Day! [03 May 2004|04:54pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Christina Aguilera -- Fighter ] Well, today was senior skip day, and totally unnecessary to go to school. Nobody was there. We only had five people in ASL, and 8 people in English. Haha, it was so funny and dumb that I went to school, but it was okay since I took friday off. I didn't do much today, so it was relaxing. My neck still really hurts from sumo wrestling, and I can barely turn my head. Hopefully it'll go away sometime soon. I need some pain killer. After school, I came home, filled out graduation party invites, and I'm almost finished. I only have about 15 or 16 more to do, probably. Now I have to decide what I want to serve at the party for food. Any suggestions on what you want to eat at my party? I'm thinking...subway...roly poly...lasagna...or a whole lot of Spaghetti-O's. Hehe...I'm open to suggestions, though. I'm gonna keep on working on my HC video. Hopefully I'll get another minute or so on to it. I have to give the laptop up tomorrow, so I need to get as much done as I can tonight. I also have to shop for my Rocks for Jocks presentation that I have later this week. I have to get marshmellows, or chocolate chips, or something. I forget. Well thats all for now. but yay senior skip days! we should have them more often!

(8 hands | lend a hand) Prom [02 May 2004|05:47am] [ mood | giggly ] Well, that was...a hell of a lot of fun. I had a GREAT time with Chris. It was the perfect last dance for me. Perfect. So let me break it down: Chris arrived, with his fam (the WHOLE fam, mind you...sister included) we took pictures, and then headed off to Rach's for more pictures. It was...okay. I hate standing around taking pictures. boring. Anyway, after that, we all headed out, and it started to POUR! Crazy. So we got valet parking, had to walk a really long way to the restaraunt in the downpour, and then sat down at our awaiting table. We ordered (although Evan kept getting ignored) and casually chatted. We ate, and it was AMAZING...and then realized we had time to kill. So we sat for awhile. Then we left the restaraunt and saw a horse and carraige outside. Well...it had stopped raining, and what better way to arrive at the prom than in a horse and carraige like cinderella? Joey and rach took the car, but katie, me, evan, and chris took the horse. It was AMAZING. I mean, totally 100% AMAZING. And it was only 50 bucks! I'll have to pay Chris back some. God, it was cool. I mean...really cool. A total fantasy fairy tale. Awesome. So we arrive at the prom and take pictures. And dance. There was a lot of dancing. I'm a bad dancer, but it wasn't embarrassing with chris. It was fun. And that's what counts. So we had a good time. Dancing. And then we left, Joey went to get the car because it was pouring again (I think the rain stopped just long enough for us to have the horse...again...AMAZING). So we started the long journey home. I thought I was going to lose my dinner. Honestly, I was really scared as joey was driving. Half of the time, he was paying more attention to Rachel than to the road, he only had one hand on the wheel, and there were terrible conditions out. I was sure I was gonna die. So we get to Rach's house (without dying, thank you) and I realize that I've forgotten my shoes. Disaster! So we come back here, i get shoes and a belt, and head for the afterprom. We wait in line for about 45 minutes, finally get in and... It was SOO much fun! We both had a blast. We did the normal afterprom stuff, with the air obstacle course that I almost died in (I had a lot of near-death experiences tonight), we ate food, played blackjack, and just had an overall great time. At the very end, Katie and I got in the blow up sumo wrestling things and battled. I lost terribly. TERRIBLY. And then Evan started to roll me away and I thought it was the funniest thing in the world. And of course, then everyone makes fun of my snort because how could they not? But it was really fun. A lot of fun. So it was a really good time. I'm SO glad that I went...and I'm SO glad that Chris went with me. And I'm even more glad that we rode in a carraige to prom. AMAZING!

(2 hands | lend a hand) Ha Ha! [28 Apr 2004|10:21pm] [ mood | productive ] [ music | Rooney--Simply Because ] So I definitely didn't work out today, went shopping, ate cheesecake, and a cheeseburger for dinner...AND LOST ANOTHER POUND! Two more to go before its at 15 pounds! Yay! Go Mandy! I love being my own cheerleader. Along with that, my body image film is coming along nicely. Funny how I'm trying to lose weight and making a video on how terrible it is that girls aren't happy with their own bodies. But the difference is...that I'm not trying to lose weight because I want to be "perfect" but because I want to be healthier and happier. And if I can eat cheesecake and lose a pound, I'm REALLY happy! But the project is coming along quite nicely. I got a lot of compliments on the thirty seconds of video that I have today. I got a lot more footage at the mall...overall, I'm really excited to see how it turns out. YAY! My allergies are about to kill me, and I have terrible heartburn, but despite my physical ailments, I feel pretty good. I'm excited for prom, I think Chris and I will have a really good time. I think my dress will look really good, and I think everything will be fantastic. I have to definitely practice my makeup (makeup=eyeshadow) a lot more, but I'll get it perfect and then I'll be ready. Gaff said something really nice to me today. He said how amazing he thought it was that there was a 4th quarter senior that is actually really passionate about some work. And I am...this video to me is more than an assignment. It would be a major personal accomplishment if I did this. and I am. It feels really good.

(1 hand | lend a hand) it's over [25 Apr 2004|01:19am] [ mood | distressed ] [ music | Hoobastank--The Reason ] Suddenly, I feel more stress now that it's over than I did before. I feel sick. And off. Confused. Dammit, I wish I could understand my own goddamn feelings. God, I frustrate the hell out of myself. And I have nowhere to turn on this one. I have to depend on my thoughts that I can't even understand.

(lend a hand) It's the Weekend! [23 Apr 2004|03:07pm] [ mood | cheerful ] Yay, weekend! Yay, musical! Yay, only four more weeks of school! Yay, for having field trips and whatnot to make the 4 weeks even shorter! I'm pretty happy about the nearing finishline, I suppose. Excited is an understatment. It's almost over! The 12 years I have put into working toward a college education...well, now I'm about to get one. Yay! The show went well last night, except I was late both times for the openings of Act I and Act II. I feel terrible still about that. Dumb costume. My suspenders kept coming unhooked and my legs fell down. I was very pleased that the audience loved me, though. Someone even clapped when I came back to life. THAT was amazing. I about burst out laughing right there. It was a lot of fun. I totally ran into mollie, though. I hit her in the side SO hard. It was hilarious. Of course I'm still self conscious when I'm up on stage because I have such a small role, but a lot of people told me how cute I was, so I was very happy. Chris said that he was going to go, but I didn't see him, so I dunno if he made it or not. Speaking of Chris, I'm so excited for prom! I can't WAIT! I really really really really hope that I'll look pretty and nice and all. I'm somewhat worried about the money, but I'm willing to spend whatever. I just know that I'm not going to be able to work a ton in the next month or so because of graduation, and parties, and all of those other things that tend to follow senior year. Well, I'm off! I must look up pictures on how I want to/am able to style my hair for prom--the economic way!

(lend a hand) energetic, yet tired [21 Apr 2004|01:03pm] [ mood | groggy ] I love the feeling I have after working out. I feel like I've actually accomplished something. Of course, I hate the feeling WHILE working out, but I think it's worth it. But I'm really tired. So I'm going to take a nap before the show!! Into the Woods Sycamore High School Wed. 21-Sat 24, 7:30 pm Big Auditorium Students=$6, Adults=$8 COME AND SEE!

(lend a hand) All's well that ends well [20 Apr 2004|11:46pm] [ mood | exhausted ] I fixed the costume. Much better. Everyone said that I was really good at Milky White, so it made me feel a lot better. The dress went well tonight, I think...no severe errors. I'm happy. I am getting nervous about prom. I have to find shoes! I think I just might go with a pair of fluffy white slippers. hehe, I definitely think I will. Early release tomorrow!

(lend a hand) Musical [19 Apr 2004|11:27pm] [ mood | irate ] Well. It's not so much that my costume sucks ASS as it is the fact that I don't have a lot of time in which to fix it. Yeah, it seems stupid that I'm so upset over my costume, but COME ON! Knotts waited until the last possible moment in which to make the dumb thing, and it sucks. Just plain, flat out is a piece of shit. There are these huge humps on the back, which would be fine if...well...if I weren't supposed to be an EMACIATED cow! That, and if they just made some sense. And the mask that I'm supposed to wear? um...don't think so. After working out tomorrow, I'm going to see if I can buy some face paint or SOMETHING in order to make my face look like a cow. I'll just put the mask on the top of my head. Why the hell am I the cow again? I'm just so pissed off right now because with all of that shit on me, I won't even be able to be a character that people will remember. I relied on getting laughs through facial expression, and if a mask is covering that...then what's the point of me even being on stage? I will be so glad when this whole thing is over and I don't have to deal with knotts ever again. She accuses us for not caring about the show...well what about her!? Where are the costumes we were supposed to have such as...the three little pigs, robin hood, and other woods creatures? Oh...that's right...we're wearing our mattress costumes. That counts, doesn't it? How can she expect us to give it our all when she doesn't hold up her end of the deal? Lets just be done with it already.

(lend a hand) Sick [17 Apr 2004|07:01pm] [ mood | accomplished ] Well, I've been sick all day...kind of in a fog. I got up for about an hour and a half, then went back to sleep. My dad woke me up for dinner, I ate, and I still feel sleepy. We're gonna watch Matchstick men when he comes home from grocery shopping with my sister, though, so I'm trying to stay awake. Here's the skinny: I've dropped 10 pounds. I'm well on my way to 15! And I have 2 weeks to do it in, so if I keep this up, I could lose 20 by prom! Which would be better than great. You still can't really tell by looking at me, but I can feel it. Last night, I saw Andrea at rave, and she thought that I looked like I lost weight. Yay for looking better! Plus, my date is really skinny, so I hope I don't look too big with him. That's one of the reasons I like big, sturdy guys...because of my own insecurities. Hopefully, by the end of the summer, I won't have that fear as I enter college! Oh geez...college. A whole new pool of guys to meet, like, obsess over, love, and hate. I'm excited! Maybe I'll become pretty enough to snag a pretty boy! Anyway, I think I'm ready for it. I really think I am. I just have to barrel though these last few weeks, work my ass off this summer, have fun at the same time, and then I'll be prepared for what I thought would never happen: leaving home. And who knows if I really will be prepared for it, but how accurate does my stupid online journal have to be, anyway?

(lend a hand) Prom [16 Apr 2004|11:22pm] [ mood | sick ] I finally found a date! I asked Chris, from work, and he said yes. So, now I have someone to go with! I'm happy. so now I have to work out money and shit. I didn't get a check today since I didn't work in order to get a check, which sucks. So I have no money. I'll get paid the friday before prom, though, so that'll make up for the money I spend on Prom and afterprom. Hopefully I won't have to pay for dinner. And I'll have to look for a limo tomorrow. I really want one. That'd be sweet. I feel terrible tonight. I was going to stay and watch Kill Bill II, but my allergies are making me feel terrible. My nose is all stuffy, my eyes are itchy, my throat hurts...I'm a wreck. So I took a pill that's supposed to make me sleepy, and hopefully it'll kick in pretty soon. Before it kicks in though, I have to get ready for bed. I'm free tomorrow...anyone wanna do something?

(lend a hand) Chewing the Fat [13 Apr 2004|02:49pm] [ mood | cold ] Still no luck. I do have another bachelor in mind, though...but I dunno how that would go. I just wanted someone special to ask me for once. I've only been asked to one dance out of the seven that I've gone to. And that one time was when justin asked me to homecoming freshman year when I was already going with andrew. I know I'm not this repulsive. If I am...jesuschrist, someone should have told me awhile ago. Anyway, I'm trying to keep my chin up and my eyes peeled. Who knows what could happen, right? I still have two and a half weeks. This could work. Speaking of work, I have a meeting tonight. Blech. Now I have to face everyone. Geez...this could be interesting. I'm still working out every day. I dunno how much good its doing, but at least I feel a little better about myself. I've lost 5 or 6 pounds, although you could never tell. But since I've only been doing it about a week...another five pounds this week, and another 5 next week, I'll have lost my 15 by prom. yay! Go mandy! I just keep thinking about how much better I'll look while I'm working out. It helps me keep my focus. Plus, I'm still drinking lots of water. Rehearsals are...boring as shit. Last night I was only needed in the first 10 minutes for the opening scene. After that...I just sat around on my ass and did nothing. I wish I could have at least tried on my costume or something, but nooo. I sat around like a lump and did jack shit. So...since I have nothing else to say...I'll...well, I guess I'll do that thing called homework.

(5 hands | lend a hand) Here's the Skinny [07 Apr 2004|05:21pm] [ mood | determined ] I got out of school at 12 today since I took the english test 5th bell and not 6th. I went to lunch, had a WAY too long conversation with Mr. Bettman (he talked all about liberals and how they've gone too far in the world with the gay marriage thing, among many other unrelated yet totally boring subjects that I really didn't care about). I then went to work, got my schedule, aquired a poster of Secret Window, then went back to school. I worked out for an hour at the gregory center. I have to admit...I thought I would die, but I didn't. Then afterwards I felt really good. I still feel pretty good. I came home, layed out in the sun for about an hour and a half, came back in, took a shower. I'm hungry, yes, but I'm trying to ward off hunger as much as possible and still eating as little as possible. If I keep that up, plus my workouts, AND drinking about 2-3 liters of water every day...I should be fine. I know the pounds won't melt off all at once, but if I can look a little better by prom, maybe someone will want to go with me. Still, I doubt I'll be asked. I'll end up having to ask someone...probably from work, too since apparently I can't attract anyone at school. I'm sure if I lose just 10 or 15 pounds, I'll be a little more desirable...hence a guy wanting to go to prom with me. ugh. I'm also trying to be prettier in general. Yesterday I got so many compliments on how cute I looked, how awesome my hat was, my earrings, my outfit...yet I'm still not there. So I tried tanning more today, I got compliments on my outfit today, I'm wearing my retainers to straighten my teeth, I worked out for an hour, I showered, I lotioned, and now I think I'll put clear laquer on my nails to make them prettier too. Anybody have any other suggestions on what I might do to make myself prettier? Ugh...I'll never get a date.

(lend a hand) Spring Break [04 Apr 2004|01:14pm] [ mood | rejuvenated ] [ music | How could anyone ] I'm not going to go into *too* much detail, since I just really don't want to, but it was AMAZING. I've never been to the Gulf Side of Florida, and oh my god, the water was CLEAR, the sand was PURE, the weather was PERFECT (a little windy, my only complaint). Everything was just awesome. I shopped a lot--that was fun. I don't have a lot of money left, but that's okay. I can always make more. We met some guys. Of course I was interested...Katie wasn't (for obvious reasons), but I dunno if I'll hear from them again. Their names were Joe and Chad...I liked Chad, but both were really cute. They're from Chicago...so midwesterners meet midwesterners isn't entirely bad...hehe. Other than shopping and scouting out guys...I danced. A lot. I love dancing. I don't think a night went by that I didn't dance at least in front of my mirror by myself. Dorky, maybe....but I don't care. This was my vacation to do what I wanted, and it felt good. I also just did a lot of thinking. I've come to terms with a lot of things and a lot of people. I've figured out how I want these last two months to go. I've also given thought to my human condition project. I'm very excited. I am sunburnt, but not badly. A little tan, not a lot. I tried very hard, but I was SO white before that it's hard to get a big tan when you're that light. I have to get a lot more tan in the next few weeks, though. I refuse to wear a white prom dress without an insanely gorgeous tan. Oh...and i need a date, too. Any takers? I'm scared to death that no one will ask me. I have to find a date! How could anyone ever tell you, you were anything less than beautiful? How could anyone ever tell you, you were less than whole? How could anyone fail to notice, that your loving is a miracle...How deeply you're connected to my soul

(lend a hand) SPRING BREAK! [26 Mar 2004|02:41am] [ mood | giddy ] Yes, it is almost 3 in the morning. I'm still working on my English paper...give me a break. Anyway, so today I'm going to be leaving for FLORIDA!!! Amazing. I can't believe this is the spring break. the spring break we've been planning for years. and I'm SO excited. I've been switching back and forth from packing and writing the paper...you know, just for a bit of variety, and also so I don't fall asleep. Ha! the last time I did this, I fell asleep around 1, got up at 3, told myself that I was gonna write...but I just went back to sleep. What a young putz I was. Now I know to stay awake all night, and I won't be nearly as tired. I might get an hour in if I feel like it. AHH! SPRING BREAK 04!!!! SanDestin baby, here I come! I tried to pack light...I really did. I just hope katie wasn't saying that the trunk was terribly small. I hope I can fit it. Okay so I've run out of things to say here. Back to my paper. Have a LOVELY spring break everyone!!

(lend a hand) So it goes... [21 Mar 2004|03:37pm] [ mood | lazy ] My uncle is living with us now. I dunno for how long though. It's a bit weird, but I'll get used to it, I suppose. I just hope things will get better for him soon, and I hope that living with us will help him get better. Sofia and Christine came here today to work on the debate since we're up first tomorrow. I'm a bit nervous, but we have kick-ass support, so it's all good. Plus, Gaff is in love with Christine, so an automatic A for us! The Spring-cleaning bug has stung me, so now I am just itching to get my room all clean and clutter-free. I might do that now, since I don't want to write my papers.

(lend a hand) Workout [18 Mar 2004|03:45pm] [ mood | moody ] Well, I've started my hunt for a gym to go to. Today I went to Contours. It was okay. Not really what I was exactly looking for. It's a timed cycle and has no cardio equipment besides jogging pads and steps. Not exactly what I'm looking for. Plus it's about 40 bucks a month. I'll have to look into Bally's next. Dieting just doesn't work for me. I just hate it. HATE dieting. So if I work out, get my metabolism up, then I should be able to shed some pounds, I would say. Hopefully. My goal is ultimately 20 pounds. So...still haven't written my papers. Either one. Um...I'm screwed? And I have a sonnet to write tonight. No thank you, I'm fine....ughh, I'm terrible at sonnets. Anyone have one that I can *borrow*? hehe. I saw 50 First Dates yesterday. It was funny. I really liked it. I wasn't expecting to really like it, but I did. It was SO random...fabulous. Evan went with me and we played video games. We ruled. We had a nice time. I'm just procrastinating more and more with each sentence. I guess I'll go now. I have nothing more to say. Not really. Okay, I should go. Papers, papers, papers. Except that I don't really care. At all. I'll shut up now. Go nuts.

(1 hand | lend a hand) Disappointed [15 Mar 2004|04:43pm] [ mood | gloomy ] [ music | Reliant K "Pressing On" ] Well, the trip I've been planning with Katie since the 8th grade just went down the shitter. And I'm pissed off about it, but oh well. Sometimes I just have to take things as they come and I'm bad at doing that. Might as well practice now. It'll still be fun, yes I KNOW, but I don't need 50 thousand people telling me that. Katie and I have a good time no matter what, even if we took a road trip to Lexington...but this isn't about that. It was about kicking back with a bunch of friends and just chilling. Now its the two of us chilling. Not too much different than any other day, but our time together is getting shorter. I'll take this for all its worth. I've been working on my video project A TON lately. Its getting to be really fun. I'm having a great time. I just wish I had more footage. I'll get more later. Hopefully. Yeah... So much for losing weight...I ate an emotional bag of M&M's today after being so angry/depressed/frustrated. Grrr... I should probably be working on one of my papers or at least some of my homework...but I don't want to.

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