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yeah, so it's been a long while since i've had an actual update that was worth anything or even reading. so, i figure it's the right time for it; nice, cold sunday evening. i'm sitting at my computer with a nice cup of tea and some funky r&b music goin in my ears. haha. i'll try to keep myself under control. :-P
anyway, let's back up to "hell week." WOW!! JUST A BIG FAT WOW! i mean, how could so much happen during one week?? honestly, now that i look back on all of it, more seems to have happened that i realized had at the time. let's see, what can i throw into this short nutshell version of my week in the devil's house?? hmm. well, i managed to fight with the "gangsters" for their mafia hats, had personal dancing lessons (dipping included!), gave personal massages to my guy actors (only 4 or 5, mind you), danced with the boys to "I Hate Men" haha what a concept!, had my ass grabbed more than ever before (so, like twice, whoop), and hung out with the guys in their dressing room. now, let's step back and ...... dear god!!! i've become the techie pimp! ::sigh:: actually, no. i just flirted a heck of a lot. however, it's started to irk me cause.... well, here's why...
well, here's the thing. i've recently become eh.. "attached" to somebody. my girlfriends know this by now.... well, some of them do anyway. if not, here you go. we've been buds for a good long while but there's been some, not friction, but attraction between the two of us..... i think. geez, i'm starting to hate those two words when they're put together. they make me so mad! like "throwing-a-chair-at-a-wall" mad, you dig? anyway, he and i flirt a lot. it's just been the way we communicate. that's the way it's always been. nothing physical, mind you, until about a week ago. since then we've been abt to talk more freely and been more touchy freely like. i really care for this guy and if a relationship doesn't pan out i think we'd both bounce back. you see, the other thing is we compliment each other. he's everything i'm not and vice versa for him me. ::sigh:: however, i kinda went through this whole dilemma this past summer, but it was just the idea of him that i liked. now, i'm pretty sure it's becoming HIM that i like. i had a helpful chat with a friend of mine about this earlier today. she told me to just take the first step and ask him out. see, that's where things kinda get difficult. he's not like other guys. he's unpredictably predictable. (god, i love that!!) ::sigh:: i suppose i should just give it a shot. i mean, what can it hurt, right? he did just randomly start holding my hand throughout a movie. geez, i sound like a 14 year old. ::rolls eyes:: anyway, i'll just shut my eyes, take the jump and see what happens. wish me luck!
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