|| pissed off
||"Cross My Heart" The Rocket Summer
today was pretty good. Me and tay went to the mall and we saw tons of people. I got a dickies hat (pink) and a vans belt (checkerd pink and white) i saw my "kiss me im a pirate shirt" but they didnt have it in my size :(. Then we got gloria jeans and walked around for a while. WE got bored so we went to buy the way to get loli pops and we saw Lily and Michelle so we sat down and talked to them until we had to LEAVE. Then icame home, and now im in a bad mood. i finally told jake whats been on my mind. Here goes it... i'll paste the convo, cuz nobody reads this but tay and ross, and their my bestest pals, so tis all good... and jake doesnt even get the fact that YEAH I LIKE/LIKED him. what a dumbass
MYtwinsblack383: can i tell you something? and you have to promise not to get angry?
MYtwinsblack383: actualy ihave two things
MYtwinsblack383: number one.. is remember last year when you REALLY liked me, and i always said i didnt? Well, I did. But i didnt want you to know i liked you, because i knew that if we went out and then broke up, things would suck afterwards, and we wouldnt be close anymore. And NUMBER TWO is more of a question. Do you even really CARE about me at all anymore (as a friend)? Because lately it just seems to me as tho im just another person to you. Ever since you and emily started going out, You havent made the effort to really talk to me anymore, and all you ever seem to care about or think about or talk about is her. And yeah, i know shes your girlfriend and all, but im supposed to be one of your bestfriends, but i dont feel like i am anymore. i just feel like another person you happen to talk to from time to time. And i dont need that
jake: oh my god im sorry... i didnt realize that
jake: i dont try to make u feel like that
jake: i just talk about emily alot cuz im truly happy for the first time in a long time and i just really really like her. and i do try to talk to u but im never w/ u
MYtwinsblack383: i know, but the reason your never around me or with me is cuz now your with all your "new" friends, and im like.. left in the dust i guess.
MYtwinsblack383: Yeah, i understand that your happy and everything, and maybe im just jealous that you have someone. Or maybe im just jealous that someones not me. Whatever it is, it makes me mad i guess
jake: amanda, the only class i can talk to in is gym, and i try to talk to u as much as i can... but sometiems ur w/ ur friends that i dont know so i dont realy make an effort until ur w/ ppl i know or by urself
MYtwinsblack383: no jake, lately during gym im the one coming up to YOU because your with brendan or some shit
jake: but i always wait for u to come out from the locker rooms cuz im out there first and i do wait for u
MYtwinsblack383: not lately you havent! the only person who comes up to me is PAUL. Ur ALWAYS with other people, then i walk up to you,a nd if your with brendan.. you act like u dont want me there
MYtwinsblack383: YES REALLY
jake: i didnt know that
MYtwinsblack383: well, now you do
jake: im really REALLY SORRY
jake: please forgive me... i dont try to do that, and i really do wanna be with you
MYtwinsblack383: i forgive you, but you may not TRY to do that, but you do.
MYtwinsblack383: Maybe this whole thing is jealousy and im taking it way to far, but.. idk
jake: well ill try to be the one coming to u
MYtwinsblack383: dont just do it because you feel sorry for me, only talk to me if you WANT to
jake: i always wanna talk to u.... cuz i seriously thought i do come to u
jake: but i guess not
jake: wait.... do u like me or something?
MYtwinsblack383: it doesnt matter
jake: YES it does
MYtwinsblack383: You have a girlfriend, Your happy. thats all that matters
MYtwinsblack383: no, it doesnt
jake: uhhh, yea it does cuz even tho i have a gf, i still wanna know if someone likes me
jake: ESPECIALLY if its u
MYtwinsblack383: no, it really doesnt
MYtwinsblack383: why especially if its me?
MYtwinsblack383: its ME
jake: cuz ur my best friend and i wanna know whats up
MYtwinsblack383: fine, you want to know whats up? fine i'll TELL YOU whats up
MYtwinsblack383: I LIKE YOU JAKE! THERE THATS WHATS UP! and i've been PISSED ever since you and emily started dateing. NOT TO MENTION the fact that you didnt even mention her to me, i had to read it on your profile. but whatever
MYtwinsblack383: it doesnt matter, like i said
jake: yea it does
jake: how long have u liked me?
MYtwinsblack383: why? why does it matter? tell me that
MYtwinsblack383: i dont know
MYtwinsblack383: a while
jake: god WHY THE FUCK DIDNT U SAY THIS BEFORE?
MYtwinsblack383: JAKE! I FUCKING DID TELL YOU THAT! WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN?
jake: YOU TOLD ME YOU LIKED ME BUT U WERENT REALLY SURE
MYtwinsblack383: I STILL TOLD YOU!
jake: BUT I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO THINK ABOUT IT BECUASE LAST YEAR THE SAME THING HAPPEND BUT YOU SAID IT REALLY WAS FALSE FEELING
MYtwinsblack383: I KNOW JAKE! THATS WHY I DIDNT MAKE A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT!
jake: ok i dont wanna fight with you
jake: do u like me alot?
MYtwinsblack383: im getting off
MYtwinsblack383: now that doesnt matter. it REALLY doesnt matter
jake: no just please tell me
MYtwinsblack383: how much i liek you makes no difference on your life whatso ever
jake: just tell me
MYtwinsblack383: I LIKE YOU ALOT JAKE! there, okay?
MYtwinsblack383: im getting off now
****************************end of convo
YEAH, i was being a bitch, but you know what? im sick of him throwing me off to the side just because he got a damn girlfriend! it pisses me off. Yes yall might think im a psycho, but whatever, it doesnt matter. like i told him A MILLION times