Monday, March 24th, 2003

Time	Event
6:52p	Embarassment...and weekend stuff Oh god, I'm going to die of humiliation. SERIOUSLY. Oh man....ok, so there I am, sitting in the bathtub, singing along to Mister Monster all loud and stuff. After my bath, I walk into the hallway, and guess who's home. My mom and her ex-bf, Mike. I COULD DIE. I mean...I dunno if they heard me or not...I didn't hear them come in, so I don't know how long they were sitting there lol. That's it, I'm never singing in the tub again *whiiiinnees* By the way...my mom is wearing one of my belly shirts from the 5th grade. I'm frightened. So anyway. Saturday was...hmm. Nathan invited me to a house party thing, so Max agreed we could go for a while. Max came over..we got free Subway. I looked like a secretary. So we left for the party at like 7....we got fucking LOST because I got lame directions. Ended up getting there at...8:30? haha. That sucked. I didn't know anyone there. Well, I recognized Brandon, but I was too shy...and I'm not about to talk to Aaron haha. Max just sat there the whole time...I felt so bad for dragging him there. He didn't have fun at all. It was fun seeing Harbinger...even though I got knocked down. In a skirt. With white underwear. Yep. So afterwards, Max and I went to see Willard. I was so happy to see my daddy up there. I saw him in the parking lot and I was all bouncing like "Max, it's my dadddyyyy" haha. He got us in free..wee. Yum...[More]: http://caustic.fotki.com/dungeon/harbinger/ Current Mood: embarrassed Current Music: All Hallow's Eve - The Spectremen (Comment on this)
7:13p	Today has sucked... Goddamnit. I want someone to love...that loves me back. Is that too much to ask? I've never really felt loved.. or at least I don't remember how it feels. And it's beginning to suck. A lot. My heart feels like it's being squeezed. I don't remember the last time I felt this down. I dunno, little things would cheer me up...you know. Like getting a nice little note or email. Or getting asked to go to some cheap fast-food place just to sit around and talk. I'm not high-maintenance. But I doubt that will happen. I don't like being cynical, I'm just being practical...when's the last time someone did that for me? Lately I've been wishing I had one desire Something that would make me never want another Something that would make it so that nothing matters All would be clear then Damn you Conor. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: A Perfect Sonnet - Bright Eyes (2 Comments | Comment on this)

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