Monday, August 18th, 2003

Subject:	First day of Senior year
Time:	5:57 pm.
Mood:	tired.
Music:	Nosferatu - Blitzkid.

Ugh, school. Well, it wasn't that bad. Just really boring and long. Homeroom was like 2 hours.
1: Algebra: Brandon's in my class, but we sit across the room from each other, so that sucks. Shouldn't be hard. The teacher's all cute and dorky haha. She wears glasses and mary janes..aww.
2: Anatomy: I can't fucking wait for this class to get started!! It's going to be great. I hate my table though...it's an Aeropostale airhead, mr. whiter than me who thinks he's black, and miss ghetto fabulous. Oh geez. At least I know I won't be making any friends to distract me haha.
3: Physics: Mr. Harris is SUCH a fucking pothead. So obvious. I'm going to hate this class because I hate potheads.
4: Pol. Science: There's 40 people in this class!! You can barely breath. I'm extremely uninterested in this subject. The class is packed with people from St. Polycarp though haha.
5: Humanities: I know a few people in there and I like the teacher (had her in 10th). And we're going on pretty cool field trips later on to Chicago + Cincinnati. Too bad there's no ART in it, though :\
6: English: My teacher has an a-line cut like mine! How cool is that. And we're reading Lord of the Flies later on...that rocks, I like that book.

I know a few people at lunch...but it won't be as fun as last year's lunch :( I'm kind of happy I don't have classes with a lot of friends, because that way I'll be able to concentrate more

Haha...there's a bunch of spooktards at 2nd lunch. This black guy came up to Heather and me (of all people!) and goes "Uhhhhhhh duuuh why are y'all called grungers?" And we were like "Um, we're not." Come on now, we take showers. He goes around and asks the spooktards, and they say they're gothic. *rolls eyes* Gaah. So he comes back to us and goes "Uhhh duuuuuh what's a gothlick?" Oh that was funny. And Heather gave him a lecture about how we don't like being labeled, and I was like "We don't associate with the gothlicks" haha

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Saturday, August 16th, 2003

Subject:	Dark meat!
Time:	2:21 am.
Mood:	nerdy.
Music:	All My Monsters - Mister Monster.

Oh yeah, guess who isn't single *dance* It's kind of obvious who he is...just look at who I have gushed over in my journal for the past several months hah.

I'm tired, so this won't be too in-depth. Last night was pretty fun. Jerry picked me up and we headed over to IN and I watched while Absence of Faith practiced. I can't wait to see them play tomorrow. After that, Jerry and I picked up Taco Bell and watched May at my house. God..that movie...ewwww. haha. It was good, but eww..too many eyeball parts. It made my stomach hurt hah.

Today Ashlee and Evan came over and we ate pizza and watched Motel Hell. We saw the 12:00 showing of Freddy vs. Jason and it was..amazing ^_^ Even though we had to sit in the front row. And the theater was full of ghetto-ass black people with annoying cell phones. There was one racist joke in the movie, and the three of us just busted out laughing while all the black people sort of jeered. Good times. I was rooting for Freddy, but I started feeling bad because Jason's so adorable :\ Those little puppy dog eyes..aww.

( I love my hair. *faux-hawk* )

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Tuesday, August 12th, 2003

Subject:	@ntifest
Time:	3:51 pm.
Mood:	ecstatic.
Music:	Hellraiser - Blitzkid.

Words can't sum up how happy @ntifest made me. Getting to meet everyone (some for a second time). Watching Maris terrorize people around the hotel. All my fave bands and getting to see Jsin onstage again. Josh buying us chocolate milk. Watching the sun rise with the remainders of the afterparty :)

Despite the maggot-infested hotel and almost dying a 2nd time from the heat, I'm so happy I got to be a part of all this <3

( More details )

( The @fterparty pics )

[Pics]: http://caustic.fotki.com/anti

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Monday, July 28th, 2003

Subject:	New hair, new layout
Time:	2:18 pm.
Mood:	accomplished.
Music:	Blueside - Rooney.

<< 1, 2.

I made a new livejournal layout. It's the most awesome thing I've ever done haha. Not to sound conceited, I'm just proud of myself. Worked on it all morning. I'll probably make some new icons too, but I think I need a sleep break first lol.

legnaleber.lj.com

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Saturday, July 26th, 2003

Subject:	My bloody eye
Time:	3:35 am.
Mood:	tired.
Music:	Murder 4 Hire - Mister Monster.

( Really gory eyeball pictures...beware ! )

Yeah, pretty damn gross. I look like a zombie! lol Contacts are 100% pure evil. Read the process of getting the stuck contact lenses out in my LJ entry

Tonight was pretty cool. Ran some errands with Jerry around Bardstown Rd. He got me a peanut butter and Oreo Blizzard...yum. We came back to my house and watched Sorority Boys and half of Fortress, but I fell asleep heh. I'm too exhausted to type, agh.

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Thursday, July 24th, 2003

Subject:	What a day.
Time:	7:34 am.
Mood:	crushed.
Music:	Letting the Cables Sleep - Bush.

I...don't even know how to begin this entry. I've just had a BAD fucking day. Let me summarize, if possible.

1.) I had the most mentally disturbing dream I've ever had, and woke up in shock, crying. I called out for Robbie and he hugged me until I stopped crying. I looove my brother <3
2.) Got contacts..that's cool, but they won't come out haha. I've been trying for a long time and they're driving me nuts. I finally broke down and cried for a few minutes (see mainly 3, sorta 2), and now they're hella dry. I don't see myself getting used to these.
3.) Oliver broke things off through an email...with a line I've heard about 5 times before. Not wanting anything serious. He still wants to hang out and whatnot, but I don't think I could knowing he doesn't feel the way I do. I hate getting attached to people who don't feel the same. I feel pretty lead on..thought something was there...ehh, whatever, moving on...
4.) One of my best friends had sex with a guy I've liked for nearly 2 years. Just found out today, even though it happened a few months ago, and neither of them said a word about it. I know I have no control over who either of them has sex with, but...damn. They decided not to tell me because they didn't want to hurt my feelings, but honestly..it hurts more knowing they kept it from me and I had to find out accidently from someone else. And the fact it even happened in the first place. I already talked to him about it...but I don't even know what to say to her. I just feel like I've been stabbed in the back and the front. I'll make a seperate certain-friends-only entry about it later to explain how I feel I guess.

I mean, I'll get over it, I always do...it's happened before..I let people just walk all over me a lot and I just bottle it up, grin, and bear it...but oh well. I have a lot of thinking to do.

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Monday, July 14th, 2003

Subject:	Ridiculous.
Time:	1:54 am.
Mood:	grumpy.
Music:	Dark Requiems, and Unsilent Massacre - Hecate Enthroned.

So...um...I'm at my dad's. I think my mom just kicked me out of her house. Here's the story.

Earlier, we had another fight about my stupid hair. She finally gave in and this is what was said:
Mom: What would you do if I said yes?
Me: Well..I'd do it.
Mom: I guess we can make an appointment this week.
Me: Cool, as long as Valerie doesn't do it..I can't stand when she dyes my hair.
Mom: DID I SAY VALERIE?!? You didn't listen. YOU always put words into my mouth!! I didn't say her!!

Jesus Christ! And she says I snap at her! I have a reason...1.) She's annoying, 2.) PMS. So anyway, she took me to my dad's. On the way there:
Mom: When you see Robbie, tell him to call me because I want him to do something for me.
Me: Well, how come you only call him when you want something done?
Mom: Why would you say that?
Me: Well, he's said something along the lines of it, and from what I've seen, it's true.
Mom: You smartass kids.

Then she went on saying we're ungrateful, blah blah. Honestly, my brother has nothing to be grateful for from her except for his birth. He was smart and got out of there when he was 16. She's never done anything for him but cause grief, and it pisses me off. And now she's starting to do the same thing for me. She gives me stuff, but I don't care about that..I'd rather her be nice and supportive and understanding.

So anyway, the part about getting kicked out...she basically threw a fit and said she wouldn't bother calling either of us anymore and didn't care when or if I came home. Whatever. All that because I told her the truth about how she treats my brother.

It was weird, because before the fight, while I was packing, Pumyra reached up to me to pick her up. I was holding her and I just started crying because I felt like for some reason I'd never get to do that again. It was really odd. She even looked at me like she didn't want me to leave.

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Thursday, July 3rd, 2003

Subject:	I got a birthday poem!!!
Time:	12:02 am.
Mood:	loved.
Music:	Cupid's Victim - Tiger Army.

"A Rachel" by Brandon

17 years ago, on the 27th of June
I met a Rachel I'm happy to have knew
A Rachel who will always be a LOTR freak
A Rachel with more hairstyles than days of the week

A Rachel who watches Lurch and Hugo with drool
A Rachel who will never get perfect attendance in school
A Rachel with grammar that surpasses us all
A Rachel who has a weird obsession with Darth Maul

A Rachel I called "Blondie" to much of her delight
A Rachel who was nice enough to be my date on Ring Dance night
A Rachel I met with a tissue the day of the Towers' fall
A world without Rachel wouldn't be much of a world at all

As this birthday poem for A Rachel comes to an end
I hope I'll always have A Rachel for a friend
______
Isn't that the sweetest thing EVER?!?

The image he made

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Monday, June 30th, 2003

Subject:	Lame birthday, 28 Days, Harbinger
Time:	1:08 am.
Mood:	tired.
Music:	Have A Good Sleep - Hot Hot Heat.

Last night was fun...went to the mall with my friend 'E' and then he bought me a Flurry at McD's. Saw Chris & Steve there...then we saw 28 Days Later. It was pretty good, but it didn't scare me as much as I thought it would. I like the infected people though ^_^ They're funny. Came home and watched Wilde on tv..and...yeah. No further details :P

Well, today I was supposed to have a family birthday party. Three people showed up (My cousin Brandy, her little son, and my aunt Debbie). And at least 20 people were invited. At least. My aunt Sandy dropped off a check without even saying hi to me and my grandma sent one with Debbie. All together, I got $80. My grandma didn't come because my mom didn't invite Papaw. That's pathetic. I just played with Kain for a long time..we played catch with catnip mice hah. He then beat me up with a huge catnip mouse..and we played 'smash the spider' with our hands, and he broke my nail hah. Robbie came over and brought my present from him and Dad. They got me a Hugo autograph (of Smith) and an Orlando autograph (of Legolas). *squeals* And $40..woohoo. ( Harry Potter cake! )

The Harbinger show was pretty cool tonight. I hung out with Cyndi and Drew. Cyndi cracks me up..we swapped stories about old scary Four Doors experiences :D Pete giving the spooktards a hard time was the highlight of my night. Odd thing happened...went to a buy a shirt, and Kevin recognized me. That's really embarassing. He was like "Rachel Skaaaaaggs" Hope he doesn't think I'm stalking him..geez. Anyway, he ended up giving Cyndi and me free shirts...he rocks. Drew danced during Curl Up and Die...Cyndi and I couldn't stop squealing. SO cute.

This is great...thanks Oliver.

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Friday, June 27th, 2003

Subject:	Bleh :(
Time:	10:11 pm.
Mood:	sad.
Music:	Ben - Crispin Glover.

Oh man, I feel like shit. Bad birthday :\ I started getting a migraine around 3 pm, so I laid down, and I slept till about 10 :( I missed the wedding. And I got an email saying the guy I was supposed to see a movie with tonight had to stand me up. And now everyone is at that Thursday show...so I guess I'll go back to bed.

:(

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