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[18 Oct 2004|12:44pm] |
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grabe im so happy!!! hehehe...kasi i did something.. Duh hindi masama obviously diba?...I mke poems...(delusional na poet) hehehe...hindi...i creat poems kapag there' s to many bottled up emotin inside me..Eh my friend told me that what I do are really sad poems...labo...eh pano naman ako gagawa ng masayang poem kung sad ako diba? DOI!!!!
eh ayun nga...kahit nga daw yung last na ginawa ko major sad...di kaya....so nainspire ako kahapon....or nung sat...ewan nakalimutan ko na yung araw...basata na inspire ako...its for that person in my life right now....pero di niya alam na siya ang person ng buhay ko..heheheh
so here goes
Until You
Gray clous hoverd over my head
Lying in the streets half dead
thinking that my life was through
Until I found you
My heart shattered and broken
left unmended out in the open
mindles with the things I want to do
Until I found you
My soul bleak and desolate
niether filled with anger nor with hate
knowing my hope and dreams would never come true
Until I found you
My world once upended
filled with sorrow,tears and dread
wherein shadows lurk, bringing forth gloom
Until I found you
Now awashed in sunlight
slaying demons, once I could not fight
basking in love and hope that no once can undo
Because I found you
Naks im being poetic na......hay,,,grabe
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[17 Oct 2004|03:30pm] |
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hay grabe Sunday na!!! yhey...asif naman kasi papasok ako bukas diba? Oh well...ang labo lang ng araw na ito. Kasi I emailed a friend of mine something, well it war concerning that person...(hehehe) para lang malinaw na ang lahat diba? So ayun nga nakuha na daw niya and nag email siya ng reply. Pero ang labo eh...hindi ko magetz. Parang may hidden message siya dun sa sinabi niya saakin...pero di ko makuha
Sabi pa nga niya meron daw sinabi yung person na iyon (shox ayaw talga sabihin yung pangalan...hehehehe) tungkol sa mga pangyayari...naks lalim....eh ala naman dun sa reply niya..kaya nagwonder tuloy ako kung anong sinabi niya
And get this ah..lagi palang naka invisible ang gago pag nag ym siya...well asif I care noh...eh binura ko na siya sa list ko....hehehe...pero yun nga...para tuloy tinataguan niya ako or something. Tapos kanina minesage niya yung friend ko...ang labo noh?....usap sila and everything...hay grabe na ito...nahihilo na ako sa kanila...Buti na lang wala na siya at hindi na siya parte ng buhay ko
I'm happy for the two of them, kasi they have each other na...well not in that way ( you know bf gf). Pero nalalabuan lang talaga ako eh. I feel Im really left in the dark. OH well kung dun sila masaya eh wala na akong magagawa dun diba? They have their lives amd I have mine. Panget nga lang eh parang iniiwasan ako...sus sabihin niya na kasi kung bakit..madali naman akong kausap eh..Ewan ..bahala na nga siya
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| Saturday |
[16 Oct 2004|03:37pm] |
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hay grabe saturday pa lang pero feeling ko Sunday na. Labo noh? hehehe kasi umalis kami ng friends ko kahapon ang saya saya nga eh. We left the house mga 10 kasi gusto namin pagpunta namin sa mall kami palang ung tao...heheheh...sale kasi. Kaya ayun para kaming mga nasiraan ng bait. Shopping dito shopping doon...hehehe wala ata kaming pinalampsa na store...Asar nga lang kasi ang panget nung mga stock sa Bayo at Kamiseta kaya di ako gaano nakabili...Pero sa F&H grabe nabaliw ako.
Hehehe tapos ayun kumain kami ng lunch...grabe sa super pagod namin dami naming nakain!!! hehehe Sapar nung food eh, Japanese, one of my favorites.
Eh yung mga kasama ko nagaya na manuod ng Feng Shui...hay labag man sa kalooban ko dahil I really hate scary movies...sige fine alang naman ako lang ang maiwan sa labas. Sa ayun I suffered that un Godly movie. Well it wasnt really that scary, incomparison to The Ring ( kung saan di ako naka2log ng maganda for a month!!!) Galing lang nung make up nila kasi mukha talga silang mga mumu ang everything. Cute ko nga eh, I was wathchin pero yung jacket ko nakatakip sa mata ko...hehehe...tipong mga ulo nalang nila yung nakikita ko ....hehehe...Major lamig kasi dun sa sine...bobo kasi nag skirt. Eh malay ko bang ganun kalamig...grabe asin!!! naninigas na yung legs ko
Tapos after nun we went to my friends house...na miss ko kasi siya eh...AWWWWW...pathetic..hehehehe...astig nga eh...ininvade namin bahay niya!!! para kaming room raiders...naks naman....hehehe
Pero eto nga, sabado palang pala....hay.....nabobore na kasi ako dito eh....Give suggestions nga kung anong pwedeng gawin!!!
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| Farewell to thee |
[15 Oct 2004|08:44pm] |
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hay...hehehe
well I had a thing with this person for 4 years, kaso nga lang things didn' t work. So duh...what do you expect. Ewan ko nga malabo na ang lagay namin ngayon. I mean friends parin naman kami and everything pero I still have this hidden anger towards that person. Kasi super sakit ng ginawa niya saakin. Tipong nagpaka tanga ako for 4 years, thinking and believing na mahal niya ko. Pero well...gago pala ang lola ninyo. Kasi I didn' t realize that all throught that so called realtionship, wala naman talga siyang feelings para saakin. So shoks sayang yung love ko diba? hehehe...pero now I can seriously say na I dont feel anything for that person. Asin major wala na..Kaya here' s something that I made to tell the whole world (well young makakabasa nito) na its over....really over. So here goes
The End
Goodbye my love, it is over
our time has come to an end
My tears have ran dry
and my heart could no longer mend
Goodbye my love it is finished
our hearts were never forged as one
All you said was that you loved me
but that love had never begun
Goodbye my love, it is the end
our paths were never ment to meet
We were as distant as the sun and moon
and could not find love, although I seek
Goodbye my love, it is done
there is no future for you and me
For whatever feelings you said you had
I did not feel nor did I see
Goodbye my love, we are through
you and I could never be
For you are there far away
leaving your true destiny
Goodbye my love, farewell
it is time for us to part
I will cherish everything we had
and look forward to a brand new start
So kahit hindi niya ito mababasa, I'm happy kasi I have finally acknowledge with my self that it is over and that there was never an "us" to begin with. One things for sure, minahal ko siya ng lubusan pero ang lahat ng iyon ay nausi sa lahat. Kaya you person, wherever you are...Thanks for teaching me a valuable lesson in my life
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| FINALS IS OVER!!! |
[14 Oct 2004|01:13pm] |
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Hay...Thank god my finals are over. Well actually I only had to take 2 tests, Math and English. Hehehe..I dont have finals for Filipino then I got exempted for mt NatSci. So I dont have to study. And because of that I have an early start on my sem break!! Yipeee!!!
But I'm getting bored now that I dont have anything to do and I have 2 weeks more to undergo this kind of days. Its so weird, when the sembreak was weeks away, I couldn't wait for it to come. But now that I'm finally experiencing it, im getting stoned at home. The only consolation is I'm going out tom!!!
Yey!!! my friends and I have planned this escapade even before our finals. I really wanted to go out. I'm feeling a bit restless at home. I dont know maybe its the weather or something coz its getting colder by the second. UHHH....I dont have a honey bun..maybe that's the cause. hehehehe. But I'm not looking for one to begin with. They' re just distractions and problems in my life...heheheh
Hay...I wana go out!!! ahhhhhhh
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| WOW!!! |
[08 Oct 2004|02:38pm] |
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Last Saturday me and my friends went to Rockwell because Fernando Alonso was there. He is the sexiest and cutest F1 driver!!! I was really excited when we arrived because its not everyday we are given the chance to meet someone like him. Grabe!!! he was cuter and hotter in person. The way he smiled at us...wow it could melt butter. Hay....I took a lot of pictures because he even brought with him his gears and his car!! Could you believe it, I touched his car. Man...it was a dream come true...
Now its friday. I'm a little bit apprehensive coz were having our finals next week. Well a while ago my crush borrowed my sandals. Wow!!! I cant believe it!!! could this be true?...Men so I wore that person' s slippers..and I wore it for 2 hours...Man the essence of those shoes...I could preserve them. Then I got my grade from my test and I was one of the highest!!! I really cant believe the way my luck has turned out. Then my teacher in Eng commented me because I did really great in my oral presentations. She was shocked with the way I delivered my presentation because she thought I was a quiet person.
Hay..this is the happiest day of my life
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| Finals-PE |
[26 Sep 2004|08:38pm] |
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Yuck just finished our finals in PE and man am I battered. My PE is Arnis. Its the Filipino fighting arts wherein we us sticks called Kamagong or something like that. So our so called "master" said that our finals would be like that of a tournoment wherein all the classes he' s teaching would fight each other, like an interclassgame. So I woke up at arround 630 because we were required to go there by 8. But the thing is, like most events in this country, it started late.
Oh well, we couldn' t do anything about it. So there we had the fight and everything. It was just I didn' t know that most of the students would literally "fight" so in a sense I gathered enough bruises that could only mean I was either battered or I joined a frat.
But it was fun. I lasted until the third round but after that I couldn' t move my fingers any more because I was so tired. The sad thing was I wouldn' t be able to see my PE block after the event because our class is finished.
Oh well...still they made my PE days in college worth while. I'm really going to miss them
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| Amazing weekend |
[09 Sep 2004|02:49pm] |
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hey...i know its thursday, considered to be somewhat near the weekend but I would like to share what happenedn to me last saturday and sunday. Its because its only now that I had the time and chance to write something here.
Anyway last Saturday, we had the Dean' s talk in my school. Duh what would you expect. Of course it was boring. I mean yeah sure the presentations were cool and everything but what would you expect when all of us were roused early in the morning just to listen to a bunch of old people talk. Still it was enlightening. You get to see the transition within every year, of how many freshmen dont make it to become sophies
After that my friends and I decided to watch the movie The Notebook. But here' s the fun part. I fetched my buddy from Sulu hotel!!! Yeay...she' s from Stanford University and she' s going to stay here for 19 days. It was fun really, I mean how many times do you get to meet new people from different countries?
So we went to Galleria and ate Japanese food for lunch. Then we went to the movie stands and bought tickets for the film. The movie was great, I mean though it was on the mushy side we were really touched by what happened in the end. A lot of the watchers cried, even my friends...but for me it had no effect..=)
After which we went shopping. I cant believe we went to all those shops. My feet were aching after it. So we went home and my buddy slept here. It was so funny coz she was so amazed with the rambutan fruit. Well I guess it would look pretty strange to a person who dooesn' t come in contact with it in a day to day basis. But she was so cute. She even photographed it so she could show her friends back home that she ate something like that
The next day we went to greenhills. Boy was she shocked. She couldn' t believe that she could buy stuff for a fraction of what they really cost in the malls and that there are a lot of stalls to choose from. It was so funny cause all the people were starring at her cause she was blond hair and had blue eyes. But in a way you could really see the discrimination of our fellow Filipinos on their fellowmen. I mean they give more attention to the foreigners that their own race
But it was fun. We got to bond at we got to know each other more. But I have to face the fact that in the coming days reality is going to show its face bringing with her the responsibilities a college student has to face. Still that weekend helped me in a way that I feel that I could do anything because it cleared my head nad made me relax. I just hope that i could do it again
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| SICK!!! |
[29 Aug 2004|12:10pm] |
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Augh......I feel so awful. I think I'm coming down with something. Well actually I am down with something. Because of the changes in the weather recently, due to the storms, I caught the sniffles and the coughs. But the worse part is that because of what happened yeterday my condition became grave. I couldn' t sleep last night because I couldn' t breath properly. Now i think I'm going to have a fever....Ugh I cant function well.... I cant eat bacause I cant taste anything and my heads hurts a lot.....Oh gosh...I think I'll die any moment. Can somebody kill me plaese?
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| Tired and pissed beyond redemption |
[28 Aug 2004|03:09pm] |
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*sighs* the day strated out to be a dissapointment. We have INTACT today, meaning we have to go to school in order for us to go to our area. They said that we would meet at 7 am. So I alarmed my phone at 5 am last night so I could be prepared. The thing is, my facilitator changed the schedule from 7 am to 6 am. So my mom had to wake me up because someone texted my dad' s number saying that the schedule was moved.
So ok, fine by me. They always do that here in the Philippines anyway. What irritates me the most is that i arrived at school at 5:45 am while the facilitators and teh head arived before 7. Can you believe it? They are so un professional. So ok. we left school at arround 7:30 and travelled to Las Pinas. But here' s the catch. We were riding a jeepney. A jeepney all the way to Las Pinas. Thus all the smoke and pollution coming from the exhausts of the vehicles we pass by are inhaled into our lungs and absorped by our skin
Yeah it was fun because throughout that 1 and a half hour trip my blockmates were singing like crazy. They were fun to be with so in a short time your irritation and bitchiness vanished. But there' s a glitch. We got lost
We stopped at SM South so we cold stretch our legs. It was pretty necessary considering 18 of us were packe din one jeepney, not counting the people infront. But then when we were about to leave, the driver of the jeep was missing. So we were the only ones left in the parking lot. And guess what! he didn' t know where the place was located. So we drove arround in circles until finally we were able to reach the place
It wasnt something I thought the Habitat for Humanity would look like. I mean I thought it was a big place, a wide and open space. but when we got there, we were cramped into this location. Sure it was nice that we were able to have the chance to build a home for people who cannot afford it, but my god I didn' t know it was that hard
It was today that the sun decided to show itself after roughly 3 days of hibernation. So naturally it was hot. And just our luck, we had to work under the sun inorder to pass and carry the materials. And the materials were hollow blocks and sacks of concrete. Oh my aching back. Then my system couldn' t hand;e it any longer. My hands began to shake so hard and my face was flushed scarlet. I caouldn' t breath properly. So the logical assumption is I'm having asthma attacks.
But fortunately we were about to go when all of these things happened to me. So that was my day. Gosh...I hope I could survive another like it
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| No classes |
[25 Aug 2004|12:58pm] |
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Its a rainy day....raining really hard and because of it classes were cancelled. It was so freaking bad trip coz I was already at school and i was having classes already. The street in front of my school was already flooded so it was traffic. The cars were pilling up and all the students were having a hard time entering the campus. And they suspended classes when there wasn' t any rain. Like duh?......helllo...it works t really works...Like all the places were going to pass thru are already flooded. It was also traffic coz gradeschool and the highschool classses were also suspended. Like hell!!!! we were stuck in traffic longer than it took me to go to school. But least now I am at home and I dont have to go to my or meeting and I wont watch the play for my Filipino class. It suscks that the sun is already showing itself and probably were going to have classes tom. Darn....
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| So tired |
[21 Aug 2004|08:24am] |
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Hay....I so tired. Can you believe it. Last thursday we didnt have classes, so my bestfriend and I decided to go arround the metro because she was going to deliver her invitations for her debut. It was fun but tiring. We left the house at 10 am and rode taxis goint to Makati, mandaluyong, Taft and QC. I cant believe I did those things because the farthest I've ever been to is QC. It was really an experience. I mean who in their right mind would do something like that. We spent roughly 300 pesos in taxi alone and were going to see a movie after.
Then yesterday I had the worse schedule in my life. I went to school arround 630 am coz I have class at 730. Then I went home at 900 pm!!! can you believe it?. My real schedule really ends at 1130 but I have an org thing so I get to go home at 5 but we had to watch this stupid play for Filipino and it starts at 7 and ends at 9. So my body is os drained. Its just a big relief that its a holiday today. I had a thing scheduled at 7-12 this morning, a school thing...but its was cancelled. Thank God, coz I think I'm going to drop dead doing community work.
Alos because of my schedule yesterday, I didnt get the chance to eat lunch and dinner. So now I'm hollow eyed and starving to death. God I wish someone would give me the strength to go on.
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| College days |
[19 Aug 2004|07:09am] |
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wow its been a long time since I last wrote here. grabe I still remember those days. But now, I'm a college student na and its not what I expected. They said college is easier compared in highschool, weel I'll just say that what they said was wrong. I'm studying in ADMU and studyin there is not a walk in the park. Their grading system is so high that the students barely maintain it, well only those who are so intelligent can. Also unlike highschool and other colleges here in the metro, we have to go to our next class by walking through a series of buildings that are not interconnected.
But still its fun. I found new friends to interact with and share my stories with. I learned to interact with people from different schools from different parts of the counrty. I also get to see cute guys and famous stars in the campus.
All in all its not bad being a college student. the weird part of it all is were taking basic subjects. Compared to other colleges, they' re taking up Philosophy, Theology, Accounting and the like. While were studying Altgebra, English, Filipino and Natural Science. They have more units that we do. Atleast we have a lighter load compared to them. But it seems that were not learning anything...compared to them.
We've just finished our so called hell week. It was really hell. Long test pilling on top of one another then we had a midterm on the end of the day. With that papers and assignments came in truck loads. It's a good thing I managed to survive and atleast today I wont have anything to do because we dont have school
Its Quezon City so I get to frolick arround with my friends. My best friend and I are planning to o and hae\ve what people call here a road trip. Were going to Taft, then G4 then to galleria. WE''l go shopping, watch a movie and scout for cute guys.
Oh waht fun it would be...but still we have to go to school tommorow and my class starts at 730. It sucks rellt sucks coz I have to wake up arround 5 so that I wont be stuck in traffic in katipunan. I'm competing with the gradeschool and highschool students coming in the school at that time si ireally have to be early.
O well we win some and we loose some
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| Troy |
[14 May 2004|04:16pm] |
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I went to watch Troy with my friends yesterday. I was so excited I couldn' t wait for time to pass by because it seemed it moved so slow. Anyway, it was so cool, there was a lot of killings, all those blood just pouring out of the people. Also the setting was great, it was near the Agean. It was so beautiful, clear blue water and white beaches. Plus the actors were hot. I mean its not everytime you see Brad Pitt and Orlando Bloom naked! It was really great
But there were some hitches, the plot of the movie was not all based on the Illiad. There were parts of the story that were wrong compared to that of the wriiten manuscript. I mean Achilles didn' t have a love life before he died, Hector and Paris were not what you would say close, Melenaus was not old and he was not killled by Hector. Also one of the things that was a let down, there weren' t any Gods or Godesses involved, well maybe Thetis only but she had a very small part. It would have been cooler and more gorry if they were included. But still, it was a movie worth watching and something to remember. Oh I can' t wait to watch Harry Potter
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| elections |
[06 May 2004|10:38am] |
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The elections here in the Philippines is next week already, and I'm having a hard time in deciding whou I would pick as incoming leaders for our future. It' s just that they' re fighting among themselves, acting like children who have been deprived of the candy they craved. Would you vote a person who has no background in politics, who didn' t finish his education as president? Would you vote a basketball player, an actor as one of your senators? Would you vote a person who turned against her pinciples and joined the opposition as your vice president?
It' s so hard to choose. It' s as though whatever you choose, it would just pull the country and its econmuy further bellow the poverty line. Before we were the 2nd best country in Asia, now we' re the second worst. They are just thinking about themselves, their gains and how they could generate publicity and money. They are not thinking about us, the citizens, the people whom they would serve. Maybe they believe that it is the comon people who would serve them and not the other way arround
Also the masa, or those people who are in poverty, hold the decision because they are the majority. Yet what do they know? They just beleive anything that would be given unto them, showed unto them. They are easily blinded by money because of their status in life so they really don' t care what happens to the country as long as they could be relieved from their problems even for a short while. They do not care that their decision could affect the country for the long run
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| Driving School |
[04 May 2004|09:09am] |
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Oh my god....I just statrted my drive school and it' s so scary because on my first day we started on the highway and I dont know how to drive..I mean literally. But still it was an experience. Seeing all those cars flying past me...going over 60 ( because I was only going 20 ) it was really frieghtening..We also wen through a series of pot holes and humps. At first it was hard to manuver the clutch with the gears....I was driving a manual car....But still its something that I wont forget in the days to come...
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| Subic |
[23 Apr 2004|12:30pm] |
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I have just arrived from our trip to Subic, and man was it fun. We went to different stores wherein my mom shopped like a maniac. We also went to the bat kingdom wherein we saw bats hanging from trees. You wont believe it, coz there were monkeys crossing the streets, and there were signs on the road saying, " Caution, monkeys crossing".
I told you about the ocean adventure thing. We went there and I got to experience it first hand. Gosh, I really touched a whale. It was so cool, they felt like wet rubber. I also fed them, like what the kid from free willy did. And I also got the chance to ride them. I wish I could do that again.
During our stay in Subic, I got to go shopping. Wow there were these neat things that were so cheap. I really had a great time there and I wish we could go back there
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| Another adventure |
[20 Apr 2004|12:29pm] |
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Wow I'm so excited because tomorrow my family and I are going on a trip. Were going to Subic!!! Whaaaa...I want to go already. I cant sit still coz I'm so excited. Were already packing and I cant wait to go. One of the things that we would do is the Ocean adventure, wherein we become one with the dolphins and whales. I mean you are iven the chance to swim with them, touch them and become friends with them.
Also we are going to the beach again...yehey...but the bad thing is I'm going to be burned again. Oh well that' s why they call it a summer look right? Atleast, when I go to school in June, people will know that I enjoyed my summer, just before the problems start pilling up one after the other. Gosh....I really cant wait
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| Batangas Adventure |
[16 Apr 2004|02:30pm] |
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I just arrived from our trip from batangas. Wow...its was so fun. We were like surivivors, you know the series, because we were all alone in an island without electricity, without housings and we were surrounded by untamed nature. But still my aunts couldn' t help themselves so they packed a generator along with us and tons and tons of food. It seemed like we were going to spend a month in that island with all the thigs they brought.
It was so cool, we were sunbathing on a beach stretch, which we oned, and cliimbed and trecked a mountain ( wherein we went down on another side of another mountain) wherein we gained a number of scratches and ant bites. We also captured a lot of jelly fishes wherein my cousins all roated over our bonfire last night. We also saw small fishes. They were so cute because they gather arround our feet whenever we wade over the water.
I got myself a tan, but unlike my cousins who were fried to a crips, I didn' t get sunburned. Amazing really because I was the one who spent my time absobing the sun' s rays.
Oh I wish I coul go back there
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| Summer |
[13 Apr 2004|09:34am] |
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Gosh, summer is here already. You coul actually feel it because if you stay in one place for more that five minutes, your going to sweat....a lot. But even though, I still love summer because it' s the only time I could do the things that I couldn' t do during school days like staying up until the wee hours of the morning, sleeping over someone elses house, going to beaches, having pool parties and enjoy lazing arround
That' s why I'm so excited coz tomorrow my family with my realtives are going to Batangas and were going to stay there over night. My uncle has this beach were it has white sand, so were pretty perked up by it. But there was a catch...there wouldn' t be electricity....so were really roughin it up and were going to be really one with nature.
But still it would be fun and somewhat like an adventure..Oh I cant wait to go
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