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This is me Live with it and than get over it. Well my name is Bethany im 15 female and im from a small town in ohio. I have another journal at ujournal under the sn of wish4me3. SO you can check that one out if youd like but this one will have almost everything in it. This one will be what im really thinking the other is jst me hiding cuz i cant stand to listen to my "friends" critize me all the time but heres the site if you wanna check it out. http://www.ujournal.org/users/wish4me3/ thats the other journal but it sucks and its the fore seen side of me everyone sees but doesnt know. This journal is the REAL me.
Here was my day. . .
I woke up. life sucks. I hate it b/c the people in my town suck. MY dad i dont know where he is. Im not good enough for him. I see him about 5 minutes each week not even that really. I grew up listening to him and my mom fighting throught the vent that led to the living room. I could hear him screamign and sayign bad words. I could hear everything. I still can. I live in a different room now. Still sucks. No one cares about me. No one ever has. i have to put a smile on my face and pretend not to care. I wish i was dead. I hate my life...Help me find a way out. Ive liked the same guy since i was in 6th grade. 5 years ago. Still he wont go out with me. Im not good enough for him..still. Id do anything for a chance. You always want what u cant have thats what people tell me. How would u know thats true if ive never got what ive ever wanted?
If anyone is readign this please e-mail me @ sweetplaya247@msn.com or i.m me on yahoo: flirty_playa247 or on aim : innocentqt063 adn tell em how to put in my journal the code so people can comment. PLEASE
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