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1) How far do you want hydroplayne to go? Do you think it will last when four of you graduate? (i guess thats two questions) I would LOVE for Hydroplayne to make it big and tour the world and start a revolution in modern music. Nothing would make me happier. Honestly, i would gladly spend the rest of my life with my fantastic bandmates making music. Unfortunately, i think when we graduate, the Playne will be no more. This makes me very depressed, but i hope to get as much done this year as possible. And after college...who knows...... 2) (Since that was two questions, this one is related) How badly do you want to be famous? Paint me a picture. Im not sure its the fame that i want (although that would certainly be a perk), i think its the oppurtunities the fame would create to have what i want to say listened to. I have an incredible desire to share with the world what i think and how i express myself (mostly musically at the moment) to achieve that, i would give a lot, but not neccessarily everything. I would give anything of mine, but i would give anyhting that would hurt anyone else. hmmmm im being kinda illiterate.... 3) If you could look like someone else (male, female, past, present, whatever), who would it be? Cary Grant.... i think hes possibly the most handsome person to every live. Either that or The Elephant Man, possibly the ugliest man ever alive. It would probably teach me something about humility. 4) How do you want your funeral to be again? (You told me once you wanted tibetan prayers, or something.. but i forgot.. so incase you die I need to know) I guess that would have to be a combination TraditionalTibetan/Viking funeral. I would like my corpse, all my belongings, and my servants to be placed on a boat, and then the boat would be burned. My ashes would then be recovered and a bunch of Tibetan Monks would chant and spread them or something. Hopefully someone would find my reincarnation too. 5) If you could choose to have grown up somewhere else, where would it be? hmmm interesting quesiton.... being here out west, i guess i would have to say i would have liked to be brought up either in Wyoming or New Mexico, to be brought up in the simpler, Western way of life. on a horseranch would have been particularly nice. 6) (you get six questions cause i want to ask you) DO you think you'll have kids? How do you plan to raise them? I hope to have kids, and i plan to raise them in a way that would teach them to trust in themselves and the possibility for change in the world. i definitely dont want them to grow up as cynical as i fear i have become. I would teach them that everyone should be valued, no matter what their religion, race, sex, sexual preference, etc. Thanks for the great questions, Toe! and i guess i'll have to call you, since you cant seem to get through to me. |
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| 12:53pm 10/07/2005 | ||||
I'm better than i was, becasue we switched my medication from Advil to Tylonol... so that's helped a little. Because my 103.2 fever wouldnt go down even with me taking bunches of Advil last night, we called Kaiser and they said to come in at like 11:15 PM... grrr... just to tell me that i have a virus and to rest and take drugs. So anyway, this is no fun because i cant even do anyhting musical, because i'm too weezy to sing and to headach-y to move too much. this fucking sucks. But in other news, i am actually going to the Austin City Limits Festival... my mom bought the tickets two nights ago... WOOOO well i guess thats all that really needs to be said today. Peace, daaaaawwwwgggggg...s. ~S~ |
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sick| 02:30pm 08/07/2005 | ||||
GOODNIGHT SLEEPTIGHT Buildings tumble, people quake, I am fine, I am fine. Then you ask me if I’m going away, I am fine, I am fine. If I’m a risk you’re willing to take, then we’ve got time, yeah we’ve got time. This is not something I’m able to fake. I should tell you that I don’t believe in clichés, Just like you said you don’t believe in love. Maybe I should just say my goodnights. I shouldn’t be saying this at all. I love it when we say goodnight. I love it when we say goodnight. That look between us at the door, All those fleeting moments… I’m feeling perfect now. Breathing in the sunset, breathing out the noon. I shouldn’t be saying this at all. I love it when we say goodnight. I love it when we say goodnight. If only I could sleep tonight… I love it when we say goodnight. If I’m a risk you’re willing to take, I am going nowhere. If I’m a risk you’re willing to take, I am going to be here. I love it when we say goodnight. So thats it... what do you think? In other news, i'm going to be seeing a lot of music in the next few months. In a week or so, I'm seeing James Taylor, Elvis Costello, and Lyle Lovett (all in the space of a few days). In September, I'll be seeing Coldplay, and perhaps going to the Austin City Limits Festival in Austin Texas, where Wilco, Coldplay, Doves, Arcade Fire, Kasabian, the Allman Brothers Band, Black Crowes, and about 143 other bands are going to be playing. you can ceck it out at http://aclfestival.com/festival/. After that, in Nov, i'm going to be seeing NIN and Queens of the Stone Age. IM SOO HAPPY :D ~S~ |
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creative| 06:19pm 01/07/2005 | ||||
And so, i am starting an Alt-Country side project called Grasshopper. If you are intrested in joining (i need another guitarist, a bassist, a drummer, and [hopefully] a multi-instrumentalist) or know someone else that is, please contact me. I will leave you with some of the newest material for Grasshopper: ~S~ "RAINDROPS" Looking out my roof last night, I saw Those thunderheads were rolling in, so I Told myself it was alright, that the Song was only in the wind I swear I saw her eyes in mine, they were Reflected in the moon. All night it was Staring me down like I was A fool But still the raindrops fell down, bringing us the word. Show me what a lie is, I’ll show you what it’s worth. I let my heart melt last night. I Let all my demons out, so they could Come back to me tonight. I was So lost. But I swear I saw her eyes in mine, they were Reflected in the sun. All day it was Staring down and scorching me like I was a Criminal And still the raindrops fell down, upon this naked earth. She showed me what a lie is, I couldn’t say a word. Couldn’t say a word. And so the rain is falling, there’s nothing I can do I showed her what I lie is, she already knew. "COMING HOME" Knocking on my door, I know you’re inside, my old friend Searching for my key in my front pocket, The door opens But who do those pair of shoes belong to, my old friend? And now you’re trying oh so hard To keep me distracted Is that sweat on your face, or am I just paranoid? |
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crushed| 11:22pm 18/06/2005 | ||||
The difference is, I made my soundtrack into two parts: the First Film, and then a Sequal. PART 1: Lovesong opening credits: Straightface- Son Volt waking up: Words- Doves average day: Salvador Sanchez- Sun Kil Moon first date: Cinnamon Girl- Neil Young falling in love: In the Waiting Line- Zero 7 sex scene: There There- Radiohead fight scene: March of the Pigs- Nine Inch Nails breakup scene: 3 Libras- A Perfect Circle get back together: The Dolphin’s Cry- Live secret sex scene: Thinking of You- A Perfect Circle life's ok scene: New Slang- The Shins PART 2: Lovesick mental breakdown scene: Help Help- Pearl Jam driving scene: Hey Jealousy- Gin Blossoms lesson learning scene: Mighty Joe Moon- Grant Lee Buffalo deep thought scene: Duk Koo Kim- Sun Kil Moon flashback scene: N.Y.- Doves party scene: Feel Good Inc.- Gorillaz happy dance scene: Radio/Video- System of a Down regret scene: Hurt- NIN long night alone scene: Disposition- Tool death scene: For Martha- The Smashing Pumpkins closing credits: Don’t Take Your Love Away- VAST I’m actually going to make a CD of this… I’m inspired to make a movie now… ~S~ |
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| 12:03am 11/06/2005 | ||||
Got my learners, tho i havent driven much. Turned 17 in weightlifting class (8:26am, june 2nd) My party went well. Hydroplayne played to a very warm reception. It was loads of fun. Thanks to everyone who came and gave me something. I dont care to anyone who didnt give me anything, and your loss to anyone who didnt come. Hydroplayne continues to record. SCHOOL IS ALMOST OOOVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrr....r And i wrote a new song for Hydroplayne use. here it is: ~MY SILENCE~ Left all alone and shuddering, /It’s through this world I’m stumbling, for All the things I think I use to know Looking through this window, /I feel the light of the stars Coming down and all around my eyes And I ask you for the last time If what I’m doing is right. I guess we all mistook My silence for love. Even though outside it seems like /The clouds are clearing, Inside it is gray and raining. I can see the sun, I can see the sun But for all my Vision, I am blind. But for all my Vision, I am blind And I ask you for the last time If what I’m doing is right. I guess we all mistook My silence for love. My silence for love My silence for love. I ask you for the first time If what I’m doing is right My silence for love. I ask you just one more time If what I’m doing is right My silence for love. I ask you for the last time If what I’m doing is right My silence for love. I ask you for the last time If what I’m doing is right And I ask you for the last time If what I’m doing is right. I guess we all mistook My silence for love. ~~~~What do you think? Thats all for now. Om mani padme hum ~S~ |
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| 02:11pm 27/05/2005 | ||||
So we went looking st cars. This nice man named Ajit showed us a few and we actually ended up buying one! WOOOO! new car! Will eventually become MY car!!! Its a 2002 Nissan Pathfinder. Its gold/champagne colored and has lots of room. a 6 CD changer, seat warmers and a TV/DVDplayer! yay! |
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Anyway, here's lyrics to one of Hydroplayne's new songs. Emma and I wrote the lyrics around music by Piper. Gracie might sing some of it. ...... YAY! "Glass" Seeing isnt believing, Everyone says so, they know so. And yet they're so wrong Wrong, Wrong And you're seeing right through me, I can feel your eyes on the back of my head And the way that your're staring, makes me so lonely, I'd be better off dead. Why did it work this way? I wish i knew. Fallen, lost, Paranoia's taking over And you're seeing right through me, I can feel your eyes on the back of my head And the way that your're staring, makes me so lonely, I'd be better off dead. One truth, one desire One wish to shatter One mind to singlehandedly pull us through One mind, one mind, one mind to pull us through And you're seeing right through me, I can feel your eyes on the back of my head And the way that your're staring, makes me so lonely, I'd be better off dead. Well thats it. i'm feeling a little down right now but thats okay. my friends are being freaks around me. ~S~ |
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drained| 12:34pm 06/05/2005 | ||||
NOT ALONE (words by Sam Cooper, music by Amir) Slipping back into that hole again, That hole so hungry and deep in the ground. And maybe if I wasn’t so quick to defend, I could see that there is some light to come. I must try to remember I am not alone It’s spinning like a prayer: “I am not alone” I can’t stay standing in the sun, Burned and paralyzed by the pressure. But I just can’t pretend to outrun These predators, predators, predators, predators I can’t let myself forget I am not alone It’s getting hard to believe I am not alone I need some kind of sign that I am not alone That even in this fight I am not alone Open up this wound and Laugh at me, I love it when You make me bleed. It’s the Only thing I feel I must try to remember, I must try to remember I must try to remember, I must try to remember I must try to remember I am not alone That even in this fight I am not alone Open up this wound and laugh at me I love it when you make me bleed |
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contemplative| 01:39am 06/05/2005 | ||||
I am trying very hard to write the last song that will be on our album (#15), but i can't seem to get the ideas in my head to work on my guitar. Oh well. It will come when it comes. But the most recent songs are pretty good ("Glass" and "Not ALone"), and i'm working on one right now called "Me and My Martyr" We'll so it goes ~SAM~ |
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| 10:14pm 04/05/2005 | ||||
I got NIN's "With Teeth." it is great. I realize that some people in my circle who say that they like NIN arent really fans. They just like it because they think "Closer" is a good song to freak dance to. The lowest kind of music appreciators. I got new headphones. They're so cute! I am very conflicted. There seems like theres a war going on in my head every minute of the day. Maybe that would account for all the recent headaches.... Hydroplayne records soon! And then maybe tours! Wooooo Who are my friends? |
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i have barely talked to people for the last week, and yet i get the feeling that there is some en-mass hatred against me. I dont know why... i just get that feeling. There seem to be jokes made at my expense, plans made without me, general contempt directed at me. Maybe i'm just imagining things. If i am, would someone please tell me so i dont get more upset? I dont think ive done anything to deserve this (maybe imagined) hatred. Shit, i just feel like screaming sometimes. Life just eats away too much energy. ~SAM~ |
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WEll i told my mom.... through an argument. And now I'm going to get the help that I've needed for so long. I never thought this song would ever really apply to me: Lost again Broken and weary Unable to find my way Tail in hand Dizzy and clearly unable to Just let this go I am surrendering to the gravity and the unknown Catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun I choose to live I fell again Like a baby unable to stand on my own Tail in hand Dizzy and clearly unable to just let this go High and surrendering to the gravity and the unknown Catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun I choose to live, I choose to live, I choose to live Catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun Help me survive the bottom Calm these hands before they Snare another pill and Drive another nail down another Needy hole please release me I am surrendering to the gravity and the unknown Catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun I choose to live, I choose to live ~A Perfect Circle: "Gravity" Well it doesnt fit exactly.... but good enough. |
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| 03:48pm 19/04/2005 | ||||
Hehheh. anyway. About a day ago, i believe i hurt someone. And i confess that i played dumb and pretended not to see what was going on. I did not respond to any of the hints, or anyhintg. I would just like to say that i think i do know what was going on, and i am sorry. but i cannot help the way that i feel. I hope you can understand. Things are looking up. ~SAM~ |
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THE DEVIL AND ME If I take a step towards you, I wanna know you're gonna step too Cuz I can't go alone Like I did last time And I have no choice but to add another scar And i have no way out but to wish upon a star Well the devil and me, We've become so close Well the devil and me, We've become one If this dust rolls in thicker I think I'm gonna choke But I can't just leave Without havin' the last joke And I have no choice but to watch you walk away And I have no way out and nothing left to say Well the devil and me, We've become so close Well the devil and me, We've become one I know, I know, I know you couldn't save me I know, I know, I know you couldn't save me Well the devil and me, We've become so close Well the devil and me, We've become one The devil and me ~SAM~ |
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| 09:32pm 12/04/2005 | ||||
I am tired of being just a friend to everybody. My whole body is tense and shuddering with longing. I've slipped deeper into that dark place that so many people go farther than I've ever gone before. I can't see any light above me, and I'm not sure I ever will. I'm becoming more friendly with the devil than i ever wanted to be. I can't stop myself this time. I just love it so much. To anyone who reads this: just remember that no matter what i do, I will always love you all and never meant to hurt anyone by any of my actions. ~S~ |
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So I'm back. So the trip was cool. So Hydroplayne played. So I'm beginning to think that the origin or all life is nothing but an unending cycle of destruction and creation, that will eventually lead to history repeating itself. Exactly. |
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| 09:04pm 23/03/2005 | ||||
Anyway, i will be on a plane to Europe in less than 33 hours.... let the countdown begin! As promised, I am now posting lyrics to my new solo song "From Under the Waning Moon." I will be doing it all at once this time, because i don't have much time to do installments :D. For all those who are interested, the sound of this song could be considered "alt-country," as most of my solo songs turn out sounding like, and somewhat of a cross between Sun Kil Moon and REM. "FROM UNDER THE WANING MOON" From under the waning moon she comes The sound of thunder across the sky calls to some While she's learning to walk, I'm learning to fly And I'm earning for some peace of mind "You guessed right again my friend, And now I'm asking you, no, I'm begging you not to tell a soul It's so secret, it's our secret, you want it, I need it." Secrets, secrets Torn asunder the pieces of her life And I wonder just what can be done to revive This beauty, this treasure of the stars So moody and gone away too far "You guessed right again my friend, And now I'm asking you, no, I'm begging you not to tell a soul It's so secret, it's our secret, you want it, I need it." Secrets, secrets, secrets Secrets, tell another one. Secrets, you're the one I love. Secrets, tell another one. Secrets. "You guessed right again my friend, And now I'm asking you, no, I'm begging you not to tell a soul It's so secret, it's our secret, you want it, I need it." Secrets, secrets, secrets, secrets. So that's it. I would love to hear any interpretation of lyrics, because i like to hear what people think my songs are about. I'll give you a hint: It's not about you (unless the person that most of it is about happens to stumble across my blurty, but i doubt that will happen). So i hope you like the words, and maybe sometime you can hear the music. ~S~ |
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Shit... this has been the most shallow entry ever. To compensate, I will leave you with my latest thoughts: What exactly is significant in the eyes of the cosmos? Certainly not the life of an individual. Perhaps not even the collective lives of all the living beings in the universe. I would venture to say that the smallest thing to make any difference on a cosmic sense would have to be activity of a multi-galactic sense, assuming there are infact galaxies. On this note, we have been lied to most of our lives. We have always been told: "it's up to you! One person can make a difference!" But how much difference can one person possibly make in respect to the Luminous Void, the Heavens, the Great Everyhting? None. ~S~ |
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