When it comes to being lucky she's cursed's Blurty

Subject:	B-a-s-s Bass
Time:	1:58 pm.

So Linn and Jen have a new guy for me and a new plan. I don't know. I really don't see it working but I have nothing to lose and it would put alot of closure on some situations. This one also plays basketball. Freshman which I don't mind. It's only a year and I'm young for my class as it is so who knows what the age difference really is anyway. Whatever. They're up to something with L on this one. Don't know what but Jen left me a message saying we're going to the tournament tomorrow with Drew's girlfriend which is funny since I said I couldn't cover this game and yet I'm going. I'm covering it Saturday so two trips for me. But anyway, if I'm going with them, I suppose there's a reason for it since noone ever actually confirmed I was planning on going anyway.

But whatever. Even if this works initially and it shortlived, it forces me to move on and walk away. I can't go back after Mike without turning into the new basketball slut. I wouldn't do that in the first place. But it would just be such a messy situation to get break things off with one guy to go after a teammate. You don't do that. There's how you kill team chemisty so that's how you mess with another team.

Anyway we'll see if L's got his info right this time anyway. There could be nothing happening at all.

Let's see what else. Failed a stats quiz today. Forgot all about it.

But its the weekend so who cares? Got a bunch of cancelled classes tomorrow. And they say phys ed majors are just dumb jocks. Well, when every other department here manages to get classes cancelled tomorrow with some sweet talk, then we'll open debates on who the smart ones are. HPE All-Stars got ya beat right now.

So now its time for Passions and a nap so I'll be nice and rested to go out tonight....

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Subject:	This that suck
Time:	10:05 pm.
Mood:	irritated.
Music:	Eminem.

$20 says this doesn't save first 1243 attempts.

There's one thing that sucks. Some more?

I have a freakin Kines test and a lit test and I'm burned out yet still clueless.

Someone borrowed my ID and hasn't given it back yet and has disappeared for the night and I need it. And yes I'm aware I just said I'm clueless.

I also just need to get out.

I can't get into my student account so I can't see how many points I have left so I can't go get anything to get me through this night. I need caffeine. Or at least I will in the morning and alas, I have none.

I know I have points. But I need to ration for the next 24 days because I will need more caffeine than imaginable for finals. Unless I just go to Perk's and study there for hours with a bottomless mug coffee all night.

I'm second guessing my decision at work last night. I know that's the last thing you're ever supposed to do but I didn't see the kid all day and that has me a little edgy. I swear he was online all day too including during practice. Whatever. I'm just freaking myself out. It was a call thay never should have been mine to make in the first place. And he helped on it so its his own damn fault too if anything else happened. He knows the deal. There was no reason not to make the call I did so whatever right?

Grr. Fuck this school. Its currently pissing me off. What else is new?

I think I will need to unwind tomorrow night. Too much stress this week. I know just the cure.

And running may not be it. I'm too sore today. Was supposed to be a leg day but I ended up taking the day off. No sense in pushing myself too hard right now. I need to get through the next 3 weeks in one piece and I woke up feeling like a million like pieces.

Ya know what? I don't care how many fucking points are left. I'm spending some. I'm so pissed off right now. More frustrated than anything. I know I need to stay here anyway but I'm pissed that the girls all get to go out and the person with my id doesn't even need it so why not just bring it back? Grrrrrrr.

I'm in a mood. Obviously. So I must go now and spare you all my extreme emotions.

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Subject:	Damn it feels good to be a gangsta
Time:	12:10 am.
Mood:	exhausted.
Music:	Suga Suga.

So I made some actual decisions in the training room today. I don't think I'm qualified to be a decision maker but what the hell?

The worst part about working late Monday is I'm tired when I get back but need to unwind before bed. So I end up staying up too late and throwing off my week.

I'm eating this apple thinking there's something wrong with it and it turns out its just me bleeding. Split my lip back open. No worries.

Got my refund check and its $100 more than I was expecting. Yay! Good thing since my Finish Line catalog came today too. They really shouldn't send me one of those. Really. Not a good idea.

My back hurts today. My legs are killing me but I was expecting that. Wasn't expecting my back to hurt. Now maybe tomorrow it should. We'll see.

Met with Coach. She knows she beat up on me. Didn't get her reasoning though. Told her I wouldn't have changed anything and unless someone guaranteed me that by playing instead of sitting out the one game, all the rest of the shit would have happened and ruined my season, I'd still pick to play. She didn't follow. So I said I'm just a slow learning and all she could say was if there was a bench, I would have been sitting on it that day and not risked the rest of my season.

But 6 weeks to the day later, I lifted a bar on curls so I've declared myself all better. Since I apparently can do that now.

Time to unwind and sleep since I'm just rambling. Good nite my loves.

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Subject:	Now that we're here so far away
Time:	11:22 pm.
Mood:	amused.

Neil and my sister have made my night. Between my sister's always entertaining account of her life and Neil's drunken messages, I've finally been laughing today. Its not that I haven't been laughing recently because I have. Michelle had me rolling on the floor last night and Jen had some damn good stories too but it feels like I have highs like last night and then sink real low after that. I'm feeling pretty low tonight. And I think that sandwich from yesterday was a bad idea.

I miss Neil and Kate. Granted Neil lives so close so its my own fault for never seeing him. We made plans. We'll see what he remembers tomorrow. And Kate's always so damn busy she never comes to visit. Even when I go home, I don't see her. But I will see her in a month when we start working together again. Honestly, I never thought we'd be able to work together. We get along so much better since I've gotten to school though.

And she told me I'm off Christmas Eve. How fucking sweet is that? No last minute shoppers for me to try and get rid of this year. Of course it probably means I'm working New Year's Eve. Or worse....the morning of New Year's Day. Last year I was still hungover when I got there and she's got me climbing some damn ladder to change signs. Won't do that again. That fucking sucked.

Now that I'm in a better mood, time to do something with the rest of my night.

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Time:

8:39 pm.

I'm so glad Blurty hates me enough to not save entries for me. This is why I have an LJ. It hates me alot to, just less often.

Today was a busy day but a good kind of busy. Everything was planned out well and went from one thing to the next. Class til 12, work for an hour, lunch with a few of the chicas, meeting, worked in training room for a few hours, went to dinner, chilled with Linn and came back here. Still have to get to the gym and begin my marathon training. Except there's no marathon. Just fitness testing 3 weeks from tomorrow. I'm not getting replaced so this is step 1. I'm kicking ass.

I wish I was physically capable of kicking ass right now. According to E, the treadmill is set on 7. Great. My average treadmill speed is 6.6. I use 6.8 for interval training as a fast time. Right now, I'm at about 6.3. And if I manage a mile at that pace, I consider my day a success. I wish the pool was open tonight because I'm pretty sure the treadmill will only make my day a failure. Being the loser I am, I plan on trying the 7 tonight anyway. I'm brilliant like that. Jenn's working tonight so if it goes horribly wrong, she can save me.

Went to department meeting today. Sat stratgecally right behind my favorite newbie. But I can't do anything about it other than walk away. Its better that way. It really is. All along I've said I wouldn't date people in my major because it could get weird while I'm in season. And since he's never worked here, he could easily be here in the fall. Plus he's inseason right now so if its weird to me, it could be weird to other people and who knows if he's one of those people. Either way, until I know I don't have to work with someone ever, I should stick to the first instinct. I hate enough people as it is.

I just wish I was better at letting go. What I need is something else to latch on to. Not named Mike. I'm done with guys named Mike. I think I've learned. Third times a charm.

I think too much. Way too much. Maybe that's why my head hurts.

Or that could be the chemical withdrawl. I was sooooo tired Monday and as luck always has it, the guys were actually practicing so I had to work 5 hours alone. So I need the Starbuck's Doubleshot for dinner since I'd had class/work from 9-2, phone calls to make, 2 meetings, and work. Had time for 20 minutes of napping. So I get all my work done there and get back here wide awake with nothing to do. 2 hours later, still going strong. So around 2 I break out the Tylenol PM so I can get some sleep. Had to be up before 8 so this shit's still in my system. Had hot chocolate to get going in the morning. So last night I did get some sleep but today I've forced myself to go without caffeine of any form. Just lots of water. So I'm beat.

And I still need to get to the damn gym.

I feel like I'm drunk right now or something. Sleep deprivation is not my friend. I'm going to the gym to clear my mind. Way too much I've been thinking about recently.

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Subject:	Quick vent
Time:	4:46 pm.

It's too damn cold out already.

I'm tired. My head hurts. My stomach doesn't feel so great. My sinuses are about to explode. I got a 20 minute nap and still need more. Thanks to the people who just kept calling my room. And one of them was to say I have to be in the training room at 6:30, not 7. Which would be fine if I didn't have a team meeting at 6. Yay for that. I don't want to hand all my stuff back in. I love those warmups. I could live in them.

I have so much work to do so its just as well I'm working tonight. I get more done over there since there's only so much to do. And I will be failing my stats final. I'm struggling with the takehome.

I get to see Mike. Not sure if that's good or not.

But I have to grab dinner now, get to this meeting and see what she has in store for us, and then off to the training room for a few hours. Later.

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