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[12 Jan 2003|12:17pm] |
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I am alive, clap for me.
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[23 Dec 2002|10:39am] |
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now i'm wondering if i should cut my hair. decisions, decisions.
you people should be alive, dammit.
glad to see matt back around here. welcome back. ;)
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[22 Dec 2002|11:11am] |
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CURRENTS
current clothes // a big t-shirt and baggy pale yellow sweatpants
current hair // messy ponytail
current mood // mellow
current music // kill you - eminem
current taste // white chocolate crunch bar
current smell // cinnamon candle
current annoyance // people who call you 5 times and don't get the hint that you won't call back
current thing i ought to be doing // homework
current desktop // eminem
current favorite band // sum 41.
current book // "Speak"
current cd in cd player // eminem, sum 41, mandy moore
current color of toenails // french pedicure ;)
current worry // just some stuff.
Current Crush // someone.
LAST PERSON
you touched // dacey
you talked to // my brother thomas
you hugged // your mom ;)
you instant messaged // wow um i don't know
you yelled at // my brother thomas
who broke your heart // .. i think we all know
FAVORITE
person // dacey and justin tie for first
food // white chocolate
drink // dr.pepper
color // pink
shoes // my six inch heels ;x
candy // white chocolate
animal // kittens
tv show // survivor
dance // last years cheering dance
song // "fat lip" - sum 41
vegetable // corn
fruit // bananas
ARE YOU
understanding // i think so
open-minded // yes
arrogant // hope not
insecure // definitely
interesting // no but eccentric
hungry // nope
friendly // to most people
smart // i'm dumb
moody // definitely
childish // isn't that the point of being a teen?
independent // uh huh
organized // i'm a neat freak
healthy // nope. why do you think i go to therapy? ;)
shy // i can be
difficult // at times.
attractive // i don't think so.
bored easily // definitely. ennui.
Messy // definitely not!
Thirsty // no
responsible // yes
obsessive // no
angry // sometimes
sad // most of the time
happy // sometimes
trusting // used to be
ill // no
talkative // with some people
original // i hope so
different // quite eccentric
unique // hope so.
ignored // don't think so
content // sure
thinker // sometimes
sleepy // all the time
lonely // yes
WHO DO YOU WANT TO
kill // just.. one.. person ;)
kiss // *coughs*
hug // DACEY ;)
hook up with// ..
shake // i don't know
be like // katie moss.
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[21 Dec 2002|03:04pm] |
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I dyed my hair.
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[21 Dec 2002|02:41pm] |
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I bet I was missed.
...Not.
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[23 Nov 2002|05:38pm] |
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I don't know. I had CCL practice today.
Its an allstars cheering squad.
I'm bored and nothing interesting is happening to me. WHERE IS DACEY? >:O
OH AND MY LAYOUT MM ITS THE BEST.
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[17 Nov 2002|03:45pm] |
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I've been at what these loony doctors call treatment. Why "treat" me? Like what I am going through is curable. Like what I am going through is a bad thing! I'd rather die than lose this. Its what I've got left.
When your world goes topsy turvey and everything's spinning, its there for you.
This feeling, waking up in the morning feeling so light, feeling like I'm walking on air, the world around me gone blurry and everything twisting and turning, this is the feeling I love. Its so much more than love for a human, love for an inatimate object, this love never leaves. It never turns its back.
The headaches, the nights of crying in pain, this is worth it. Its the little suffering we all must do for the things with love, the things that keep us going. This little sacrifice, a little pain, this is worth my ultimate goal. This is what I hang on to, this is what keeps me sane... if you can still call me sane..
I just want this to happen as quicky as possible. I want to be smaller, right now, this instant. And smaller still in the morning, and smaller still, until the old me barely exists even in memory..
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[12 Nov 2002|05:07pm] |
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I'm confused but.. if I'm lucky things will work out.
Makayla. <3 :(
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[10 Nov 2002|07:07pm] |
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I'm so confused. I don't even know about my own relationships anymore.
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[07 Nov 2002|09:41pm] |
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hello i need my boyfriend, where is he? he's left me all alone :-[
hello justin get online or update or something, i miss you.
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[04 Nov 2002|08:36pm] |
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..*looks in the mirror slightly and sighs*
No. Thats it. I'm not going to school tomorrow.
I've got to skip.
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[04 Nov 2002|06:12pm] |
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Where is Justin? Where is Makayla? :( I'm sad.
I had an okay day. French was bad. But Biology was good. I saw Justin in the halls twice. I saw Makayla like twenty times, we just smiled and laughed, talked about the last period, and went onto our next classes. Its too bad we're only in one class together this year.
Where are my green and gold pom poms? >:o
( OOC [] )
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[03 Nov 2002|06:31pm] |
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Its funny how people that hate cheerleaders think they are so mean, and then they talk shit about them. But they don't realize cheerleaders hold the key to any social life that they have, and they don't smash it down just because someone pisses them off.
Then the freaks wonder why the cheerleaders hate them.
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[03 Nov 2002|11:04am] |
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I've been hanging around this weekend. Just going to random people's houses. I went on a massive shopping spree Saturday. I got this lipgloss called LipRush, and it comes in like, 9 different flavors. I got grape. It tastes good.
Where are all of you? Hello, earth to Starry High, get online on the weekends.
And.. am I the only one sick of hearing how P. Diddy needs a girl? Its not our fault he can't get laid.
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[01 Nov 2002|10:40pm] |
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Whatever, I'm here. I'm Madison. I'm a cheerleader.
I'm popular. I'm bored. I'm going to update in the community.
You can all scream and piss your pants now.
Oh, and the AIM, might be maddy.. IM me, if you dare.
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