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Sunday, February 2nd, 2003
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5:56 pm - 12 hours and counting...
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Haven't updated in a few days, but I figured I should be I go...I'm leaving very earlier tomorrow to drive to NJ :). It's going to be like 12 hours or more, but I can't wait till I get there
What else is going on....I went 2 for 2 with girls I know getting out of crappy relationships. My sister broke up with her boyfriend...again. And my friend Lauren broke up with hers...again. I don't understand these girls in crappy relationships that they keep going back to...oh well...
Played Ultimate today with my league. Damn-it we lost to a team we should have beat. Now 8 and 3 for the season..soo ehh...My parents came for awhile but left at half time. And thank god they did because the next point after half my team played "ass-out," yeah, everyone ran around with their asses hanging out of their shorts. We didn't score that point...
That's about it I suppose....I"m drinving to NJ tomorrow. I can't wait :)
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| Friday, January 31st, 2003
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2:51 am
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Haven't updated in awhile...but I don't really do anything so I don't have much news...went to ultimate practice (I hate my capt) He's lazy and good for nothing...but oh well...Thursday I accomplished nothing, I lead a difficult life...
Let's see...what else?...Oh yeah...I'm driving to New Jersey on Monday. I suppose that is news. I have a date on Monday. :) I think the consensus though is that I am to be vague and mysterious about all of this ;) more on that later
I went and saw Final Destination 2 tonight. The movie sucked but it was a good time. My sister apparently has a friend who is the manager at the theaters and every once in awhile they just have after hours parties, so there were like 20 people there and you could bring in what ever you wanted to drink. Good stuff. I'm just slightly drunk...
But I'm off to talk to March on the phone now :)
Can't wait till Monday
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| Tuesday, January 28th, 2003
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12:21 am - My day has been made
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YAY! March is back! :) I'm happy now.
It's been a pretty good weekend overall. My frisbee team won the winter league regular season, so now we are at the top of the pile for the tournament which is cool. We also beat my friend's team Sunday too, which is always nice. (sorry Eric) Check our league out at Naked Pretzel.
Let's see...what else...I went down to the rock gym with Lauren which was fun. I ripped my hands up and I'm so out of shape, so I guess I will have to be going down there more. I took Lauren up to her boyfriend's at school and went to frisbee practice at school. Her and her bf are a long story but he's an idiot and she could do a lot better, but she doesn't listen to me, so what do I know? Practice was ok and I go to pick her up to take her home and she's spent the whole time fighting with him because he's a moron...oh well...DUMP HIM!
So yeah, I'm happy. I'm talking to March now so I'm out. Night
"On the road again" I smell a road trip
current mood: happy
current music: Willie Nelson - On the Road Again
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| Saturday, January 25th, 2003
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12:49 am - even when it's handed to me i don't want it....
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blah....
so may dad set up this job thing with a guy he knows from his work. this guy just had to fire like 6 people from his fiber glass place and was in need of some help. so i have to go over and talk to him about what i'd be doing and before i can say no he's like come in tomorrow (fri) at 6:30 and we will put you to work. hold on a min man....i don't really wanna do this...anyway so i go in ass early this morning and everyone in there is half retarded or going to visit their brother in prison this weekend or speak little to no english, and not even just spanish there were to bosnian guys that like no one could communicate with....plus my dad's friend i think was cracked out the other day and didn't show up until like 8:00 this morning so i'm standing around for an hour and half with nothing to do and nobody else knew what i was supposed to do....
so this place does fiber glassing and interiors for boats and jeep hard tops. i won't bore you with it but this isn't really what i wanted to do...so i opted out at lunch time and go home oh well job hunt continues...yes, i am lazy. yes, it was easy money for the most part. no, i don't care i wouldn't have been happy work was too easy and those guys were screwed up...
day got better after that....friend came over we sat around and talked awhile i was kinda pissed though she went down to the climbing gym with out me, but she thought i was working so ehhh....then went and saw "signs". yes it came ouy 6 months ago. no we did not see it but we had made plans to but various things came up and we never did. after that went to one of her friends houses and smoked and drank alittle her friends were screwed up they had been at it awhile one guy had like $200-300 worth of pot and bunch of x. i behaved for the most part but i was entraining to watch these guys get screwed up. i haven't done that since high school...
now i'm home...and sleepy...but i'll probably be up for another 3 hours...ehhh....also going swimming tomorrow morning with andria...i dunno....girls hurt my head....
i want to go climbing....oh yeah...it's also like 10 freaking degrees down here
"nothing can stop me now, cause i don't care anymore. nothing can stop me now because i just don't care"
current mood: feeling pretty good...
current music: Nine Inch Nails - Piggy
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| Thursday, January 23rd, 2003
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2:01 am - Shitty shitty day....
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Damn-it...it just one of those days. Screw this hippie crap I'm going home.
Let's see....the bitch ex tried to talk to me today online, so I ignored her. So that got me thinking about her, which means I had to listen to Stabbing all day just because it's good screw you music to girls. "I think I woke up screaming, I had a dream that you still loved me..." You do no understand this, I think you never did...You stare at me so silent, you stare at me so cold, I think you stare right through me, that stare has made me old..." ahhh Ungod, such a beautiful song...
Also the runner position for a law firm I went to see about was already filled. Yeah it's my fault I didn't go down earlier, but damn-it. Why can't things just fall in my lap? it would be so much easier that way...
Then ultimate sucked tonight. To many goofy people that don't know how to play, which wouldn't be so bad if they at least had a shred of athletic ability which they don't. And the coach is lazy as hell and doesn't get anything done or really even try to teach the new people. He just wants to screw around and play games. This wouldn't be bad if we weren't going to tournaments and getting our asses beat....
The problem with me being depressed and pissed off is that I really have no reason to be. I have it pretty good overall, a lot better then some people out there. and then I get to thinking more and why am I 'depressed'? which makes it even worse and it's a big vicious cycle....
"I'm not happy! I'm not happy! Nobody's happy....life sucks. Get a helmet." Denis Leary
current mood: pissy
current music: Stabbing Westward - Ungod
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| Wednesday, January 22nd, 2003
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5:30 pm - Random crap....
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I need a job. Anybody got one? I'm bored as crap. No school. nothing to do...I need to take a trip somewhere I think. New Jersey I think.....yeah.... :)
So I haven't accomplished anything as of late. Little bit of frisbee here and there, I was going to go climbing Monday but backed out. Damn-it, I should have gone... ultimate tonight, nothing tomorrow...I ran into a girl I used to work with at the pool. She and her sister, who was my boss for awhile, are in town so I need to call them and hang out I suppose. At least it will give me something to do....
current mood: apathetic
current music: Nirvana - I hate myself and want to die
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| Saturday, January 18th, 2003
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12:15 am - Snow Day
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W00T! We got snow yesterday (Thursday). It snowed like all day, which is cool because it never snows here in Tennessee. All the schools closed early and most were closed today. Went down to the school I went to last semester and played in the snow with some people, watched a movie later and got a little drunk, which made driving home at 2 a.m. all the more fun. I talked the girl I was seeing last semester out of wanting to drop out of school too. Yea yeah....pot calling the kettle black, but for me it was like a year long process of wanting to drop out and being really unhappy in general. She just had a bad week or something and now she wants to be an auto-mechanic...so whatever...
Today (Friday) kicked ass though. I went skiing with some guys from ultimate, which was cool. This place is about an hour away down in Alabama. SKIING in ALABAMA. Yes, it was as ghetto as it sounds. One-armed lift attendants, wild turkeys running across the road, crappy equipment and red necks in hunting over alls. It was like skiing in some screwed up gym class. We smoked a little on the way down and drank on the way back up....all in all a good day. All three were all really good snowboarders and I think 2 had lived in Colorado for awhile and the other guy was pretty good too. So I slapped on my skis and had at with them on the jumps as best I could for my second time ever skiing. The highlight though was me getting to play ski patrol. Some old guy busted and went down face first and guess what? No EMTs or ski patrol so I take off my skis and run up the hill to the old guy that is unconscious and bleeding from his head/face in the snow. Yeah, that was fun....guess lifeguarding/CPR/first aid training is good for something. He eventually came to and walked down the hill, but so yeah....exciting to me at least. I'll probably hear about it at ultimate Sunday.
Ok, going to bed....probably....
current mood: sore
current music: Johnny Cash - Rusty Cage (Soundgarden cover)
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| Thursday, January 16th, 2003
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12:55 pm - Crap....
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You know what sucks? Coming home after being outside for like 2 hours playing ultimate in like 30-40 degree weather , only to find that the heat is ut at your house and it’s a nice 63 degrees INSIDE! arrgghh. So now it’s thursday morning and guess what? It’s snowing….this will be fun…
current mood: cold
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| Wednesday, January 15th, 2003
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2:18 am - Does anybody really read this? or care?
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So yeah...first post. I don't know, wish I had something inspirational to say or something.
I found this site through another user (thanks March), it's something I had considered doing last spring when I was having a pretty shitty time at school (more on that later I'm sure). So I never got around to making my own webpage or anything because I figured no one would ever find it and why put time and effort into something that will only maybe be seen by friends and family and have to act fake and happy and not be real. You know? well I do...I know their are people out there with worse problems then me and I should complain to much, but this will probably be more entertaining and fulfilling then writing crap down in a book every night like a 10 year old girl, only to be found by your parents/significant other after you die unexpectedly and don't have time to burn your diary and delete all the porn off your computer (wait, did I say that out loud?).
So I guess that's why I'm doing this. To help deal with my first-quarter life crisis and maybe as a reminder to myself later about things. Read on if you like, hope someone does and is possibly entertained by the thoughts herein.
Either way...let me know
I'd like to fly, but my wings have been so denied
current mood: sleepy
current music: Alice in Chains - Down in a Hole
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